Depression sucks

Depression sucks

>be me
>young age can't say
>be at dads playing whatever tf
>start feeling weird, heavy/empty feeling
>goes on for 3 or 4 more weeks
>getting worse
>feeling very bad
>suicidal before, worse now
>seriously consider suicide, do research
>take several depression tests and whatnot, talk to suicide hotline
For those of you who have not suffered from depression, you feel like saying you have it is asking for attention which is anything but what people with depression want
Anyways back to greentext
>still getting worse
>one say find my dad's Gillette shave blade (or whatever)
>feeling bad that day
>move it around on my arm eventually move it sideways and it cuts easily
>do this multiple times a day over a couple weeks
>arm covered in cuts, long sleeves
>1 person has noticed, he makes a joke but doesn't think anything
of it so I thought that was good
>couple days later feeling open to talk
>on bus, with friend
>show him arm, don't know why, just figured this would be the easiest way to tell him
>he doesn't believe what I say at first
>tell him everything
>he is supportive makes jokes about telling parents, think nothing of it
>next day, he told person that noticed that I mentioned earlier
>the kid is an asshole and thinks it is a joke and that I do it for attention
>feel upset when he makes his jokes but I can't show my emotions

Just filling you in on some reasons I was depressed, felt like a failure, bad son, waste of time/money etc.
>later in the day, he asks if I cut again
>meant I lie but I thought he asked a different question
>told him I misheard him but he didn't believe (I think he has some trust issues)
>leave school, eat out with family, get home
>mom is crying, I'm clueless as to what it could be
>aunt comes over, I realize what it might be, she tells me to sit on the couch
>my friend had texted my mom everything
>I felt grateful but at the same time a bit annoyed because I felt bad for how my parents must have felt
Cont. in next post

>young age can't say
I also remember being 15

Hey this is OP finishing the post

>one kid is still annoying
>couple more people learn about it, didn't like this
>get therapist, start getting tips on how to feel better
>find another shave thing (many of them) use them (mom had taken other one) use it to cut some when I really feel like doing it again
>feels good for a second, go back to feeling bad
>lie to therapist about the cutting
>she always asks if it cut again

I'm going tomorrow Sup Forums I need your serious opinions. What do? Do I tell my therapist or just lie again? I kind of feel like telling her. Thanks Sup Forums try to be serious btw I'm not lgbtq or a furry or werewolf or whatever

>Depression

Life is hard and then you die. Get over it, you fucking wussy cunt.

Cowboy the fuck up and do the best you can with what you got. You'll die soon enough, we all do.

I'm sorry that people like you are so simple and fixed minded that you can't realize something like this actually had health issues please try to understand not going to argue anymore

Sorry lemme fix that last post, not only does it have health problems, it feels like shit 24/7 and getting through life would be nearly impossible if I didn't have school since I have to go

Bump

Thought it worked on phone

Cry harder, pussy. Maybe someone will give a shit.

The human condition is depressing, but only whimpy cunts like you have had "therapists" for the last couple decades. Everyone else either delt with it or gave up. "Therapists" are just rent-a-friend tards who listen to you snivel about your poor, sad, pathetic existence while collecting bank.

The answer to life? Charles Bukowski said it best: "Find what you love and let it kill you."

You're a pathetic piece of shit.

keep going man not everyday is going to feel this bad

Meh, i've been diagnosed and medication helped almost instantly. I didn't need it anymore once i got my life in order. Most of the time it seems to be the result of being an absolute pussy on life.

OP: same boat here. not with the cutting though.
Find a non-damaging hobby. Or write a book.

If you cut yourself then your seeking attention

Fellow depressive lashing out externally... detected.

You're right about theRapists being bullshit though.

wrong therapist helps me

I fall into negative thinking that someone with perspective can poke holes into all day

Bukowski is an overrated nihilistic faggot.

About psychologists, they don't just listen. They're trained to understand the inner workings of the human mind. We all have hangups we don't even know about, but they're able to tell easily.
If you're a man i'd recommend getting a male one since the profession tilts to the female standard due to it's nature.

>Fellow depressive lashing out externally... detected.

I'm not lashing out at all, I'm stating facts. Life is hard, crying about it is the response of a spoiled child.

>crying
is human

Freshman psych student spotted.

I had to take a psych 101 class for my degree, the psych majors were the most fucked up nutbags I ever have encountered.

They choose to field so they can figure out why their so messed up for free.

>>crying
>is human

Crying about it all the time is subhuman faggotry.

>anecdotal ad-hominem
Not an argument or admissible evidence.

thats called healing user

Think about it like letting the sad out. The longer it builds the worst the damn is going to break.

>Not an argument or admissible evidence.

Neither is that, dipshit.

It's a direct criticism of your non argument.

>It's a direct criticism of your non argument

This is a direct criticism of YOUR non-argument: you know fucking shit, freshman.