Ask a schizophrenic anything

ask a schizophrenic anything

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How many voices? Do they influence your daily decision making ?

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Are you schizophrenic? And can I ask you anything?

Allow me to be nit picky, you're not a schizophrenic, you're a person with schizophrenia.
You shouldn't let your disease define you.

Medicated I barely hear any voices. Maybe one when going to sleep but only if I ask it stuff and actively try to initiate a conversation. I attribute it to something divine or I dunno, my higher self maybe I really can't say and it somewhat influences my daily decisions.

Un medicated, various voices. Mainly attribute it to spirits when psychotic, that tell me where to walk or what quest on to partake next in. Psychosis is always a great big adventure, and feels like my own psychotic video game I'm the main character in, or super hero action move with me starring in it, and the voices become my guides in it.

yes and yes please, I'm bored.

Of course you are right with that. Also medicated I'm pretty much a normal functioning person, a bit weird, but I have a job and social life with friends and shit..

Most people are weird in their own way, as long as they don't act like dicks I usually roll with it.
What questions were you expecting?

I don't know, I wasn't expecting much.. if anything the thread 404ing. I'm just here to answer every single question asked and roll with it, my friends are either sick on a date or on holidays and I have really nothing better to do on a saturday evening.

What are you into?
Do you have any hobbies or interests you like to discuss?
What sort of music do you like?

Most of all I like Jazz, but I'm into all kinds of other music too. Electronic music is one guilty hobby of mine, although I still suck at making it. I usually play the sax but I also have an electornic wind insturmen, an EWI, that I hook up ableton, make a beat, and jam with it..

Other than that, I still play vidya, but only the really good stuff. Last game I played through was the new Zelda. Now really looking forward to Ni No kuni 2. And yes I also watch anime, but usually only together with a friend who's really into anime and manga.

Have you always had schizophrenia or something caused it?

would you mind telling us the worst and scariest schizophrenic episode that you experienced?

Well technically I was born with it, but I always thought myself of not having it, and it didn't show until later in life when I was in university,.during the stressful finals, when mom was also psychotic sick in the hospital and talking about how my dad supposedly raped her and shit, I slept way too little, smoked way too much weed, was depressed and to cope with that did mindfulness meditation, so yeah, sleep deprivation, emotional stress, stress, smoking weed, mindfulness, all this together triggered psychosis in me. SInce then I take meds, tried to get off them, got psychotic a second time, now I'm on then again, and more or less what is agreed on as sane.

Why do you think you are important enough to make a thread saying ""ask a schizophrenic anything" everyone got issues, you aren't special

Not OP

Schizophrenia is a way more interesting subject, surely better than another cuck or trap thread

Where do you live and do you want to hang out sometime?

I always had rather pleasant, life threatening sure, but in an abstract and intense exhausting way, still pretty awesome psychotic experiences.

But most abstract and intense one was my last psychosis. I'd say the most scary part of it was when I thought that I created a bug in the multiverse reality and that I had to fix it with fuzzy logic somehow or whole of existence would end. I ran panicked through the city from one point to another, trying to find the error and fix my mistake I caused.. all while hallucinating my future and past selves and sleves and higher selves and selves from alternative realities talking to me telepathically and me hallucinating all kinds of visuals too and having delusions of reference and other kinds of high synchronicity going on all over the place. And other very abstract forms of thinking and experiencing things that are hard to put into words really..

There were other such little episodes during my last psychosis, more abstract and more intense that are hard to put into words.. things that may were more scary than this thought of impending nonexistence, like when I battled with a sentinent super A.I. virus from the future, or when I tried to translate the divine language which terribly misfired.. or just when not remembering where I was or how to get home when being stranded in an other city.. shit was wild overall.

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When you masturbate, do you think someone else is doing it?
Have you ever tried to control your illness to make up a imaginary girlfriend, then take her around brown town?

Not really, threads like this one show up all the time, usually is sociopath, schizophrenic, psychopath etc

I just think I may have some interesting stories to tell or whatnot.. can talk about how I set my flat on fire once, or how I got the keys to a mansion once and spent the night in there to get arrested by police the next morning, or other fun encounters with the law.. or I dunno, just chat about psychosis a bit.. or you can have another trap thread, but we have so many of them already. you can also let this 404, I'm just bored and see where this gets us, while drinking wine and smoking a CBD joint, no need to get buthurt doublenigger.

I live in switzerland, so probably a long way from where you're at.

Yep. Dammit!

All of those things you said could be done by a normal person, nothing special at all.

When you masturbate, do you think someone else is doing it?
>nah I have schizo not DID

That would be quite the feat, and I think I have a very vivid and lucid imagination, and often use it to masturbate rather than watching porn.

what meds u on LARPing cunt

Huh, I've had great benefits from doing mindfulness meditation, that combined with cognitive behavioral therapy got me out of agoraphobia, anxiety and greatly reduced my stress response to various situations.
How did you do it and how did it affect you?

Have you ever tried psychedelics (LSD / Mushrooms)? If so, what was the experience like?

I never claimed to be special.. about 1 in 100 people get psychotic at least once in their life. so it's somewhat common even. still why not talk about it, we can talk about whatever on here.

Do you ever think about trying some potent hallucinogen? I'm pretty sure you shouldn't do it because it may fuck you up, but would you want to try?

35mg abilify daily

Did you not notice I am standing right behind you?

Ah yeah mindfulness is great, just not for people with schizophrenia as it can trigger psychosis in them. Schizo is a genetic condition, my mother suffered from it, my grandma, my grandgrandpa, and so on.. it lies in the family. For people who have the schizo genes, mindfulness, weed, stress, sleep deprivation, all things that can trigger psychosis.

Huh I never knew that, interesting.

could you better explain the symptoms before it escalated into full spectrum schizophrenia? I fear I might be schizophrenic myself, since it develops around 20/22 (I'm 18) I might not be safe yet

never tried it, but what I've read from trip reports, it mimics the kind of psychotic experience that I had. Just that with me I hadn't taken the drugs, no way to come down from it, it lasted for months instead a few hours, and I thought it was all real and not just cause of the drugs I took, and other differences, but to some degree I think you could simulating it with going on a huge shrooms acid binge..

I would want to try, if I weren't pretty sure that It would trigger a psychotic episode again..

I was never easily scared or paranoid not even during psychosis. To the contrary, I got pronoia, the notion that everything and everyone conspired on my behalf to help me to awaken as God from reality.

I'll be honest with you, it probably will. But it would be the most fucking intense thing you'll ever try

before the breakout I was just depressed.. but lots of people are depressed without ever getting psychotic, they are just depressed. I would never have suspected getting schizo, until it rather suddenly broke out. Took me completely by surprise.

I have a friend who has schizophrenia. He's good in that he takes his meds, mostly acts normal in public. I really want to support him, we catch up fairly often. But fuck it's hard.
When we catch up I have no idea who I'm getting today. Normal everyday dude, or space cadet? Often he just zones out, and sitting with him while he stares stupidly into space not hearing or getting a single word I say is unnerving.
Is that normal for people on schizophrenia medication? Plus I'm blown away about how much weight he has packed on. He's gone fucking huge in such a short space if time despite doing exercise. Is that a side effect of medication too?

Welp.
Sometimes I hear voices, the other night I was thinking by myself in bed, asked a question and heard a voice SHOUTING the answer in my ear

What deity do you think you are?

When psychotic, highly psychotic after months, I always end up thinking I'm God. Just the absolute highest being there is, the absolute creator God, top of the hierarchy, creator of everything, the multiverse, everything that was and ever will be, could have been, could be. Yeah, I'm humble like that.

Why do you think that?

Yeah I gained tons of weight too. This is especially true at the beginning of taking them, in the first years,. Now I got used to it and it all got better. I started to lose the weight again I gained but its a slow process.. I isolated myself too in the beginning and barely spoke a word to another human. I don't know, give your friend time.. he will get better.

I have a very low IQ, giant (1,90m / 6'2''), probably depressed, schizophrenic cousin. He lives with me and my grandmother.

I don't know how to handle him. He lives in a dump in his room, he doesn't help with the dishes, doesn't get a job, doesn't clean the bathroom after using it, goes around the house barefoot with his feet infested with fungi, leave cigarrete butts in the bathroom sink, constantly asks for cigarrete money and when you try to negociate saying that if he wash the dishes I'll buy a pack, he thinks I'm being mean.

He thinks he doesn't bother anyone and can't understand the reason we bother by asking him to behave, cleaning his foot, showering, or cleaning the room. He thinks he's jinxed, that has a sexual spell on him that got him stuck and makes people act against him. He barely speaks, but when he does, he rants about the bible and how he needs to clean his spirit in order to grow up and release the spell. He was abused by her mother when he was young and has a very twisted sexual life.

He's given her younger underage sister cocaine and claims he once tried to grope her when she was just a child. He also thinks that when he was a kid, an adult forced him to have sex with a dog.

My grandmother doesn't ask from him anything, she's an enable. She gives him money and he buys alcohol, drugs and cigarrets. She doesn't ask for him to clean, or clean himself. She allows all his patological behavior.

I don't know what to do user, this shit is making me crazy, and I'm not able to leave yet since I'M DEEP in debt.

I've gained 100 lbs. Are you saying it will just get better?

Ty for the (you)
Wish you all the best.

Everything points to it, the evidence piles up, there's no denying it anymore, the inner intuition telling me it, the voices telling me it, the synchronicities, I causing world events with my thoughts, the tv people on the news discussing how my day was, the stories in the books all about my personal life, the songs on the radio all telling me of this truth, every single thing points me to it in this reality, and I have to accept this fact no matter how humble i use to be, that I am indeed the one God. And then the real adventure and decent into madness only starts..

For me, after a while I learned to care again, to really look on how and what I eat, and only eat twice a day, only drink water (and well, beer once in a while and wine). And well, exercise now and then also helps.

Parli italiano?

no, only german, swissgerman, english and a little bit of very shitty french.

shit that sucks. seems to me your cousin has all kinds of problems, it's not just schizophrenia but he's a mess in all kinds of ways. I hope you can leave this toxic environment some day, there's probably not much you can do to change the situation at this place or change your cousin.

Thanks for the thread OP, have a good night