Im 36 years old. No brothers no sisters no wife no girlfriend no kids. Dad is dead. Mom is still alive and we are close.
Career wise i am an analyst. Overqualified (two masters degrees) but underpaid and underappreciated. I keep getting passed up for promotions. I have had 1 promotion in 5 years while most of my peers have a promotion every 3. I also hate my job and hate the company i work for but i dont have the balls to quit. The salary is comfortable ($90k) but im not learning anything. All i do is useless powerpoints and memos and sit looking at a computer. Im not learning anything really. Im not growing.
Im also a beta neet pussy. I have always been this way. No balls constantly avoiding confrontation. Scared to say anything in meetings. Never say shit. This was the same in classrooms in college and in highschool. Never participated just sat in the back and scraped by. No leadership characteristics.
I ask b for advice. Should i quit my job? Should i stick it out? Can i improve myself or am i just going ti forever be a loser and underachiever? Is meaningful positive change possible for me?
I am seriously thinking of an hero as an option. Bout at the end of my rope.
Have sex with mom to give yourself brothers and sisters. Problem solved.
Jordan Bailey
>failed at everything >2 masters degrees
Pick one you imbecile
Anthony Lee
Both masters are useless
>lesbian dance theory >the history of coca cola
Tyler Hernandez
It's up to you to be more assertive a gain self confidence. There's always a way out, stay with us dude. Best of luck.
Juan Cox
Do drugs. Shit like acid and mdma taught me how to talk to chicks without being a complete fucking sperglord. buy em from deep web and theyre pretty much guaranteed to be high quality
Caleb Baker
Lmao
Blake Wright
If you're 36 then you might as well just ride it out, start getting into drugs and degeneracy and then just keep at it, GL OP
John Reed
Try drugs, go hang out with people you'd never give the time of day. Learn that there's so much more to this world and the only person keeping you trapped is you. Faggot.
>Should i stick it out? How will your situation improve by taking your dick out?
William Campbell
use your 90k income on cocaine and prostitutes
Owen Thompson
Doesn't sound bad to me. What did you study? If you're so bored and have enough money you could look where to invest it. Only quit if you can savely find a better job.
Nolan Reyes
This is the correct answer. Were I not married my life would be mostly drugs and internet
Anthony Cook
My first masters is in Political Science, which is completely useless, particularly the way that i interpreted it, i.e. skirting out on all requirements, not doing shit in class, not participating, not learning, and plagiarizing all my papers. I couldnt tell you a solid answer as to the differences between communism and socialism if i tried.
The other is an mba, which has helped in terms of getting a job, but not having a business background, ive basically been the consistently dumbest person in the room.
In fact with very few exceptions im the dumbest person in every room.
I actually forgot about this aspect. I have done basically everything under the sun, with psychedelics and weed being my favorites. Im actually pretty sure that between my drug history and my depression i have caused some permanent brain damage, particularly when it comes to memory and recall. I cant remember shit in any topic. This is crushing me professionally, as my peers are reciting stats off the top and im looking at my bosses w blank stares.
Alternatively instead of bingeing lots of drugs you could try something like micro dosing acid or taking modafinil or adderal on workdays. Whenever i take adderal before work i have a way different aura about me and can have genuine conversations with people normally
Connor Edwards
Still op sorry for venting.
Im beginning to think more and more that life is school. If you were good at school, youre going to do good at work. The ones that sat in the front row and participated and did their homework will do good in work too, except that instead of classrooms and homework, they now have meetings and deliverables.
The flipside is also true. The guys (like me) that didnt give a fuck about school, still dont give a fuck. The guys that didnt say shit in class still dont participate. The guys that preferred to play videogames and drink, now prefer to watch sports and drink. And just perform just enough to get paid and not fired, eventually retire, and die.
And then there are the college dropouts, who are basically like the guys who just quit their jobs with nothing lined up. The ones who cant take it anymore or just dont want to fucking do it.
I dont know if this makes sense im just rambling now.
Nolan Thomas
modafinil also helped bring a large portion of my short term memory back that i fucking destroyed doing too many nangs back in the day
Bentley Rodriguez
>In fact with very few exceptions im the dumbest person in every room. Then you're not doing so bad with 90k. If you want to quit find a new job first. Maybe not necessarily one that pays more but has more opportunities or gives you a new perspective.
Gabriel Murphy
Do this OP and keep us updated on your new sex life
James Jackson
OP dont make the mistake of thinking you will be any happier anywhere else. Every single person on this earth, assuming that they aren't already miserable, no matter how fulfilled they are or claim to be will eventually get complacent and the fulfillment they once had withers away. Life sucks and theres no way of making it not suck for any extended period of time.
Jonathan Morgan
Start watching Jordan Peterson lectures immediately. That’s a step up.
Lifes too short user. You make 90k, have two masters degrees, if you dont like yr job you should find another. You dont have a family except mom, so you also dont have much tying you down. And no expense of children. Save all you can and look for another job. You sound like yr just down on yrself for not to much of a valid reason
Andrew Sullivan
Know Jesus. Get saved. Live for others, not for self, and life will improve. Also, hit gym.
Carson Thomas
Op again.
Thanks to everyone for the responses.
The last aspect is the serious self loathing and guilt i feel. I have used over 60 prostitutes. And i have molested two people related to me. I think a lot of my depressions stems from this guilt.
I think maybe all my depression really doesnt come from my life itself but from unresolved guilt. Maybe an hero is the best option.
Jason Moore
This. 35 isn't old, pick your chin up
Austin Martinez
Nail your mom.
Clearly the answer
Liam Reyes
if your going to an hero reckon i could make a selfish request since you're a dead man anyways? ive always been curious as to just how much lsd it would take intraveinously to kill an adult human. ive read that a man documented himself doing 50,000ug and lived to publish his findings with pretty much no persisting effects. ill never tell a man whether to keep his life or take it but if you did that at least your death could mean something and you could give back to the world
Camden Robinson
At least you have a very good job, user.. That's something. I'm 23 and fucked up my knees while working basic construction. Was about to join my countrys military and now I'm not sure I will make it. Working as a janitor 2 times a week and just vegetating at my moms house. Depressed AF. No friends, 0. No education after highschool. Mediocre grades, not able to get into good collages/good studies whatever you call it. Supporting gf of 4 yrs who studies abroad. Shes the same sociopathic, loner nerd like me, so she thankfully accepts me. Dont really know what to do. Considering improving grades from highschool to get a good education. Is being an analyst an alright job, OP? Can you please give me a basic understanding of what you do?
Brody Baker
Op, you got to fess up to your guilty to someone and come clean. Otherwise, guilt will consume you. Fess up ask for forgiveness (if they don't move on) but improve your life, don't make the same mistakes, and help others that are in similar or worse situations than you. Once you realize, you can come clean and move on from the guilt, your burden will be gone and you'll feel free.
Eli Morgan
You're in a better position than literally 99% of this entire planet (you're in the top 1% globally if you're making 36k)
You could move anywhere in the world and see anything and you're probably the first generation with this at such a low cost and ease of communication with back home. I suppose some people are not meant to be happy because I've got half of that and I'm so happy you'd puke.
Jeremiah Turner
Prostitues are prostitutes. You can't really "use" them. They freakin want to do it all. Not your fault they wanna make money that way. As for the molesting... Well, what I would do is fixing this. You did some damage, now you apologize, hope they forgive you. Write a letter if you're too much of a pussy to do it. If you are a Christian, go to confession. Talk to a priest maybe. You fuck something up, you fix it, or at least try.
