2am depression thread, whats Sup Forums doing/feeling currently?

2am depression thread, whats Sup Forums doing/feeling currently?

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shy girls - time after time

Only 11pm here
I'm pretty stoned. pretty chill
feeling good.
spring is coming

Jonesing for weed/feeling utter disappointment regarding the worlds status on the daily...trying to improve life situation

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feelin suicidal i see

hell yeh.

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outside at 2am, its 30F currently, spring is broken.

Missing my best friend. My brother for eternity.

being high and gonna start looking for a job after i have went on holiday

mmm

I'm confused and possibly being convinced or convincing myself I have real problems.

I can function at work, I have trouble multi tasking, finishing something before starting something new, get frustrated when I'm not seeing major progress on one of my projects etc. I thought it would get better but after years in this I still don't have it sorted out.

>well this is a lot like ADD isn't it
>go to doctor, describe symptoms.
>Dr asks if I'm depressed
>I told him I'm sure I'm not depressed

How's home life
>fine

How do your parents feel about your career choice and where you're at it in.
>happy, supportive, proud.

Do you have thoughts of harming yourself or others.

>Never

Do you ever wish you were dead.
>nope

Do you often worry or obsess about scenarios that are extremely unlikely to ever happen
>No

Any suicidal thoughts or actions
>None


Doctor want's me on antidepressants, to go for a cat scan, and start seeing a therapist.

>WTF

died i assume.

a spider crawled on my arm while I was laying in bed and I'm still kinda paranoid about it

In hotel room for the night. No plans. Unable to get weed. Alcohol a high possibility

happens to me, cant go back to bed or feel comfy in chair at computer for hours after, so i get vacuum and clean general area and spray windex everywhere so i have a slight barrier.

you're normal
you just sound young and are just now realizing that work is pretty much going to suck for one reason or other regardless of your intentions.

your doctor is normal too.
you probably have a good insurance plan so he wants to milk that teet for all its worth.

you can resume your life now

does windex act as a repellent for them or something?

why not home?

certainly kills then, so they pass through it and are chemically burned alive.

Away for work

I felt like my symptoms would get me adderall that would fix my problems, instead I get into this mess. Do I go for the cat scan? Do I take the antidepressants? How much therapy do I go to?

you're normal
you don't need anything.

do whatever you want
if you want a day off work take the cat scan.
want to feel numb take the anti depressants
want to talk to someone talk to the psych

just tell them you cant focus on work and often feel you get sidetracked and cant hold conversations or stay on track in your own mind. That gets you addy

I want to be awesome at my job and have an unfair advantage at kart racing.

That's the thing. I haven't seen him in years. I heard he was dead. I pass by his house all the time and I don't see car or any of his family there anymore. We had a falling out 4.

What was his name, user?

fuck the world, and whats wrong in your life?

Neb

the use TOR and get your adderrall in the mail

just tell doc what i said, they will get the picture and almost immediately prescribe it to you. Also say school for you was always difficult and your grades were terrible due to your problems focusing.

would rather play it safe for drug test at work and school.

>be 28
>moved out of my hometown to a big, stressful, competitive city last year just to challenge myself
>a little bit stung by my ex gf having broken up with me in a shitty, insulting way, but not crying over it
>haven't found a stable job yet that isn't 20 fucking miles or more out in the suburbs where all the industry is

All of the above have left me feeling a little depressed all the time since I moved here, but I try to push the negative thoughts away and tell them "fuck off, at least I'm trying to better my situation."

I'm also coming to accept that maybe I'm just not suited to live in the big city, which is relieving. As long as I don't end up in some hicktown, I can be happy.

In bed next to my isopod doll questioning why I'm so unhappy despite not having as many problems in my life now as I did when I was younger.

My dads in the hospital for a liver abscess, i finished culinary school but the industry sucks, student debts are closing in and im trying like hell to sell an ice cream truck i have to pay off dads problems, student debt and to keep me afloat until i can find something more permanent

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Responded wrong, response in my 1st post

Now I want a smoke you prick.

fuck >mfw im heading off to culinary school

get a pack, fuck everything else.

>pay off dads problems
He already lived his life, user.
Time to let those boomers go away.

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feeling pretty weird, drunk, dick in hand for no reason other than im fuckin bored. fuck it

Re-put it this way, I kind of jumped into the boat before I read the brochure… I recently graduated from the Cordon Bleu and well, to be quite frank I'm not a big fan of the industry… It's a lot of work, long hours, early days, you miss out on holidays and weekends…its like being a proffesional mom i.e. Alot of cooking, a bunch of cleaning and keeping your eyes peeled for management/toxic coworkers (theyre the children you gotta look after)

Had i known what i was in for, i wouldve ran for the hills. I love eating and trying new foods but this is the equivelant of buying an airline just for the free peanuts

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feel pretty bad about 2 or so weeks ago my girlfriend and I broke up and it’s just starting to hit me, doesn’t help that she broke up with me 2 weeks away from my dad being dead. The worst feeling in the world is know that the person you love is horrible for you.

Took some amphetamines, been talking to myself so long that my throat is sore

In bed.
Thinking about my ex, how much i miss her, how much i love her, wishing she'd contact me.

We talked last week after a long time of no contact. I still love listening to her talk , i still love her voice.. we had a good time. I just wish she'd call me

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I can understand the point but at the same time my father has looked out after me and supported me throughout my life, he's just been a victim of circumstance and nothing has worked out for him, the liver problem is a result

I also surmise that him and me working on the ice cream truck might've caused his health problems

I guess basically I would pay for his hospital stay and throw some cash his way, to make up for what was spent in my name

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Just got rejected a few hours ago, so I'm not doing too great.
I've been working hard on improving myself over the last year and trying to be better, and it just seems like it's all a waste of time. No one wants me, and I still want to die.

And it's crazy. I've talked to thousands upon thousands of girls, none compare at all. All they have is either a good body and that's about it, i get bored of them almost instantly.

Just got home with hanging out with my fuckbuddy, used to be ex

I feel awful man. I quit my job because it was stealing the life out of me to work on this ecommerce business thing and it's just way over my head. I feel like I am drowning. I never complain outloud or on here, but I'm somewhat drunk tonight and I want more from my ex but I don't think she does and it hurts. Not suicidal or anything just overall sad idk

Pic for your troubles

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my guy. even johnny bravo motherfuckers get turned down. trust me bro, you will be okay. Let that shit come to you, go out and have a good time with friends and create a magnetic vibe and that will be more enticing to a chick

why dont u and ur girl get along?

Its a matter of carence and consistency, all the no's you receive get you closer to that yes.
Dont just improve for others but kostly for you...when you find that soecial person that shares the vibe, you'll know and immediately click together why all the previous rejections, it will all come together the further away you look at it

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I get it user there’s always that one ex. For me she was just bad to me and she made me miserable but I’m miserable without her. Women suck

Never a waste of time investing into yourself fam. I've been there Sup Forumsrother. It gets better, I promise. Bitches will be bitches

Liver diseases are generally self-inflicted through alcohol or dietary intake. He's not exactly a victim, but go ahead and throw your cash at his health issues. They won't treat the root causes, only the symptoms. It's only going to put you deeper into the hole in the long run and you will most likely end up the same way. Will someone look after you after you paid for your father's sins?

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You could save up money and pay for someone to care about you for the night. Might give you enough confidence to carry on,

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b-but the pay makes it all worth it????

Considering the amount of "yes" answers I'm giving, i should be on antidepressants

2 dui charges coming up, girl friend is pregnant and I hate my job. Crazy thing is for the first time I'm not depressed and I'm not wishing I was dead. Just wish I had made better choices but I know I'll get through this.

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Yeah. I know I'll be fine. I've been dealing with this shit for years, and I can take more.I just pictured myself at a different place in life by now. I don't have real intentions to actually go through with it, but the thought still lingers and I wish it didn't. As for finding the one I click with, I thought I found it this time. Unfortunately, that isn't the case, and it's got me in a shitty mood. What I really want to do is drink so I don't have to think about it, but I gave up drinking as part of my plan to better myself.

Hell no. I might be a sad shit tonight, but I'm not sad enough to pay for sex.

Reading this thread.
Feeling tired.

Yeah, there'd be times where we wouldnt eat when we'd sell ice cream, plus he's older now. If id sell my truck for say, $90k, id toss him $20k and thats it. I dont want him to suffer if i have the means to ease his pain but yeah, i gotta do me at the end of the day so thats where the rest of the cash comes in.

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>Hell no. I might be a sad shit tonight, but I'm not sad enough to pay for sex.
If you have to take them on a date, arent you paying them in a way? The only difference is with a pro there's guaranteed sex

I'm not looking for someone that's just a quick fuck. A one night stand is easy enough to get if I really wanted. I'm after something lasting. I'm tired of being alone.

A half pint of vodka and two of (pic related) later, plus a half pack of cigs. Pretty depressed and have been doing the same thing weeks on end.

Pretty much wake up and look forward to getting drunk

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thinking about poking this

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Depressed and feeling a little suicidal but what else is new right?

In my case i lost my temper and said a few bad things to her like that id spread her nudes,then she lost all trust in me.

I think i can get her back though. It's been a long time and like i said we talked last week and we had a good time.

I just thought she would have contacted me again by now.

I've said it before and I'll say it again.

Do not become a cook unless you LOVE the food industry with a passion.

Because most of it is busting your ass cleaning, perfecting miniscule tasks, and some actual cooking.

>Lost all my savings.
>Thinking about changing jobs.
>Dream Job offer appears from nowhere.
>If I switch jobs, I'll have to survive over a month without getting income.

I've been talking to me ex for hours on end for the past 2 days and now i finally just said "I miss you" and its been 30 mins and she hasn't even opened my snap and i can't describe to y'all how much i want to hang myself from the tree outside.

But that's not all, i've cucked myself pretty much.

While she was still snapping me, she sent me a nude with the captions "wyd" like it was meant for someone else. Just receiving that pic threw me into the deepest depression I've ever been in, but even after that, it made me miss her even more. I feel like utter shit Sup Forumsuds

(pic related, my ex)

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Well when I had to do my internship for three months before actually completing the program, the restaurant I was working at started me off at 14 an hour. But in my own opinion, I'm pretty sure I could find less strenuous work for about the same pay… Plus the more experience you have is when you get more pay, you got to start at the bottom.

Pretty much what I learned from culinary school is a teach you the skills and techniques right off the bat that it would take you normally over the years to learn in conparison to working and staring in the kitchen without school.

The only plus I guess is getting certified

Really look into the industry and find out more details about it, if you're passionate about cooking and you find yourself in the kitchen on a daily then your passion will see you through… But anything less, give it a thorough thought

Read "soul of a chef" to get better insight on what you'll experience and encounter.

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btw my ex is the girl on the left, i dont date pigs

I've been drinking non stop for nearly a week and I think I have brain damage

My bad my dude. I've heard getting a pet can help with the loneliness. Cant speak from experience though

What makes you certain the snap wasn't meant for you user?

I was depressed until i started doing acid by myself at home. Turn on some fire jams like Yellow Days or Stevie Ray Vaughan. Buy a fifth of your favorite liquor and think away my friend. Also a pack of smokes doesnt hurt as well. Insanity how much it’s improved my well-being. Just 3 weeks ago i was smoking meth and popping norco, xanax, and snorting coke/meth lines while drinking every day cus i wanted to die and wasn’t happy. Here i am having a grand time applying for halliburton and quit all that since. Bestfriend came out with her love for me. Do acid my dude. Positive mind, positive life.

This may not bring much solace but there has been scientific breakthroughs where oxygen therapy has helped reverse brain damage.

Defintiely stop drinking, dont exacerbate the problem.

I actually have two dogs, and it helps to a degree. And sure they're great and all, but they're still not a person, you know?

all everyone cares about is porn. they dont understand the deep subjects like me.

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Just lonely

Shut up cunt

It takes a lot longer than that.

You're more likely to get cirrhosis than brain damage.

I totally condone acid but i seriously think its a case by case basis. Everyone handles everything differently. Mentally prep yourself for sure, but if you do decide to use that key to unlock your mind… Be prepared for life altering events

She didn't say "sorry wrong person" but something pretty damn close to it

I know exactly what you mean bro. I sincerely hope you find someone

the fuck user? a girl snaps u a nude followed by what u doing and u dont ask her if she want to fuck? maybe u should go back to middle school and try ur best to not get cooties

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Ah shit man I'm sorry to hear that. Go no contact, save yourself the torment

If he had a stroke in his sleep then he could have brain damage. Sometimes you can have a stroke without even realising it, especially if you're passed out drunk

I sent this to her on kik back at the end of January. I must have missed her just by a few days as kik didn't give me that notice when someone hasn't logged in a while.

She never logged in and saw it and kik deletes sent msgs after a month if they're not received, so she'll never see it. I told her i still loved her at the end.

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I would, but feels are strong with this girl, user

I've been drunk almost every night for 4-5 years. Pretty sure I've never had a stroke user.

Feeling depressed bro so I feel ya. I want help but I'm afraid they're going to commit me to the ward again. First time was bad enough.

I didn’t go into mass detail. Guess i should have mentioned research before-hand and remember how past drugs have affected your mental stinulation before using, health, etc. i’ve been a drug user for 11 years. Completely forgot to mention that.

But it very obviously was meant for a different guy and i felt like such shit when i put 2 and 2 together

Some people are more susceptible than others.

Really, the thread should've just ended here...

I get you man, but the feels aren't mutual. Atleast this way you get final say

I've still never given up.
I live in a fantasy world.
I write about her in notes to myself. I write i love you in the notes as if I'm sending them to her because i have no way to get my emotions out, so i write.
She'll come back one day. I know she will. That's what i believe..that's what i have to believe to keep going

>Hmm...He was behind of it.

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