Today im going to a Halloween party >im going with two of my friends,jack, jill and jill's roommates >one of her roommates jane took my virginity back in july >"Was this your first time user?" "Naw it's like my 3rd or 4th" >Went on 3 more dates after that then she broke it off >"I just don't have that spark with you anymore. I think we should be friends." >I knew it wouldn't work out but i was at least happy not to be alone and with somebody i could show affection towards >Haven't talked to her since >Haven't had any meaningful female connection since >1 month ago >Jill-"user there's a Halloween party in townsville. We're all going. After the party we're gonna go to my dorm to chill do you wanna come?" >"of course" >"well be careful because Shela(one of Jill's roomates) has a problem with you" >i don't remember ever having an issue with her >I wonder if i fucked up in such a way that Jane told Shela and now she hates me >since then i have been working out harder and cutting out much of my bad eating habits >I have never been fat but sometimes i get lazy and lost a bit out of shape >Today >i look in the mirror and i feel confident that i look good lost most of the fat i gained >my main costume for the party is a cowboy from some obscure western >After the party i'll change out into my secondary costume bojack horseman has a joke I'm excited for this but i fear disappointment though it's probably too late i hope i can get back together with Jane if only for one night or at the very least meet someone else since we stopped seeing her my life has been extremely boring I'm i being foolish to hope for such a thing?
You're being a little foolish but you're inexperienced so its understandable.
Go to the party, socialize with as many people as you can, and try not to pay too much attention to the girl that you want because you may inadvertently push her away!
