How can some people sin and not care a single bit?
I have sinned in so many ways and I find myself now very devastated...
I am a 27 yr old frustrated musician, supposedly a lil' smarter than the average: 145 IQ, the legit cypher, no less and no more.
There are many things I consider to be wrong with the society, for example: the mistreatment of women...
I hate mysoginous behaviour, comments, jokes, etc. yet I see it with my own eyes and quite lucidly that that is the very way things actually WORK in society. The sad thing is even tho I hate it, my mother holds such ideologies in ways that make me feel so small and tiny about myself... Idk if I was or have been wrong all along or if she actually was an ignorant and by consecuence she was careless or a lil neglected (idk which word to use) about my education.
She did some things and made some comments while I was growing up that I now remember plus my failures with women and it's causes (that I haven't yet mentioned), the perceptions of the genre, MY perceptions of the past, the present and the future of society from my pov as an "artist", everything was adding up as I was learning about this human life... to the point I broke myself and completely lost my own identity.
Everything I thought that was, wasn't.
Everything I thought that wasn't, was.
How can some people sin and not care a single bit?
"Sinning" is fun. As well, sin as a concept was made up to control people.
And because of my frustrations I then hated women.
I hated all women, starting with my own mother.
I pictured the darkest scenarios for every woman I'd see.
The thing is; to the moment I don't have a mother to go to when I have problems with girls or for advice. With time I stopped having ,unconsciously, female friends and trust me I had plenty until college. I don't have a single female friend now and I lost contact with all of them that were.
I don't believe in myself anymore, I've become very weak in all aspects and everytime I try to raise up memories take advantage and their power bring me down.
You seem interesting. Bandcamp?
And when I say that I've sinned..
I've sinned.
I've betrayed my family and my mother in this very site.
I cut her face from family pictures and made interracial and degrading fakes of her of all kind. I made stories with the pictures and made a prostitute for niggers out of her.
You're an idiot
She is very attractive and I've heard from her mouth that she likes black guys.
Probably because she is attractive I hated comments about mothers or mom jokes...
Who knows, right?
I am the jealous loser guy with the tiny dick that is actually wrong after all.
Or so has come to mind...
145 IQ is not consider Idiot, appearently.
Any other options?
And I don't have a problem with black guys, despite my n word comment...
But because of the things she did as I was growing up while she thought I would forget or wouldn't get or whatever I used black guys for her...
Sorry, I can't post a picture of her face or her. But trust me the r/ guys are most likely to have it.
Would answer questions if asked...
Haven't been in /b for a very long time, /brothers...
It sounds like you might hate women because of your emotional dependence on them. If that's the case join the club but try not to stay in it too long. I'm trying to rely solely on myself now through meditation. I still look at nudes and some porn but I'm trying to cut that out as well.
Hur dur muh IQ is high but I can't figure myself out. Sounds like your IQ isn't high enough then now is it. Idiot.
Get a real IQ test. Once you get in that meaty 80-110 part of the curve you’ll know the results are legit for a christard like yourself
You still have the mind of a child.
Grow up and then reevaluate your opinions.
The fuck are you on about? Just kill yourself you specimen.
Emotional dependant. Well that would make sense since it was mostly because of one of them plus my mother.
A girl I really fell for had plenty to do with me losing my identity. I always gave af about all the other ones who would think like that... but this one totally made the difference
Fear, OP, is the only thing that doesn't sin.
Man, you're such a fucking pussy. Just kill yourself.
Sins are a stupid construct, almost as stupid as you. We are all just animals here.
Dumbass.
> 145 IQ
> "my failures with women and (((it's))) causes"
LOOOOOOL
Oh, ok! Since I am not a religious person myself it never came to mind that by using the word: sin, I'd be sin as a christian or something like that. Nothing like that, I believe in God but I think religions are rotten and corrupted.
So is it good? I get the idea but you aren't saying much
>implying smart people doesn't have problems with having relationships
duh