On mania I'm so productive that I learned a language in a month. Became self taught conservatory musician in just 4 years when it usually takes people to be hardcore into music since early childhood, doctors who have evaluated me say I have astounding intelligence and awareness. 2190 on SAT, 33 act, accepted to conservatory music, 98 asvab, accepted to university for physics. Go to said university because parents want money not music.
I feel like i can do anything
Then have a crash and become depressed. This destroys everything, all my opportunities repeatedly, after a good 6-8 months of mania get depressed and be unable to function. Literally can't even keep myself clean because feel like shit all the time and just want to die. I keep trying to be rational in my head to work out my feelings with thoughts, stop myself from killing myself, from feeling like shit everyday. Keeps me from doing stupid shit but doesn't make me feel better. Meds have side effects that fuck shit up even more
This is my life
According to most conservatives I should just be left to die, since I can't "suck it up". According to republicans I don't deserve medical care for something I was born with and can't control. According to the majority in that fucking DNC thread here I'm worth less
I have achieved and have far more potential than almost any of you yet im worthless because I was born with the inability to regulate the chemicals in my brain.
More like lolbertarians. I don't think your genes should be passed on but I don't think you ought to be killed either. But you are still a deficient being. Bipolar means nothing it's a meme. You just have an unstable personality, and some rigid individualists can't understand that personality can't be changed sometimes.
Genetics>Environment.
Jonathan Price
What a terrible post OP, I've never heard of an Conservative wanting for you or anyone else with Bi-polar 1 or 2 dead. And you do deserve medical help, just not "free" medical help
Stop playing the victim card, at least you aren't living in Africa or India shitting in the street. You are not a perpetual victim. I agree Bi-Polar is pretty tough to live with and it can be brutal ( I was diagnosed with type 2 as well in 2012) but it's not the end of your life. The medication DOES help, but it will make you gain weight, and make you sleep way too much, but no more serious depression.
Juan Gray
Finding God will help you greatly. Start reading about and following Jesus and be born again as a follower of Jesus Christ.
Jackson Jenkins
Conservatives are the people who pass bullshit laws that prohibit progress in healthcare.
You Actually think that my issues are my personality.. lol
Its literally my brain not knowing what the fuck to do with its chemicals.
I don't want to have children because they will get this through my genes.
Nothing about my post plays the victim, simply a reflection of what I've seen, heard and experienced.
However every conservative i HAVE EVER MET, including the people that post here think that mental illnesses are a "joke"
If I was lucky to not be like this I would achieve so much for myself and other people.
God isn't real buddy.
Thomas Morales
you are right op, you are a truly unique and special snow flake.
Hudson Moore
>detracting with that
You actually think, that I think im worth more than anyone because of my potential.
No, however I am unique and can be labeled a special knowflake.
Just like all those people who have advanced art and knowledge.
James Cook
My point is that there is many people with stuff they have to deal with, so you "flaunting" it just shows how manic and insecure you are. What do you want me to do for you? Clap?
I'm 33 years old, I don't have time to pet your ego, please get the fuck over yourself or blow your brains out promptly.
Aiden Myers
>A FUCKING LEAF doing the BTFOing What are you and American on vacation or something?
Hunter Cox
>lol being this dense
You didn't understand the point of my post.
I am mentally ill and because of policies in this country have made my ability to geet proper care nearly impossible.
If you had to deal with anything close to what I do , you probably would have killed yourself already.
Andrew Torres
>If you had to deal with anything close to what I do , you probably would have killed yourself already.
This shows how retarded you are, 1st world problems. Your mommy die? Your dad suck your dick or something?
Get over it.
Nathan Wilson
Most people here feel exactly like you do, but without the free 6 to 8 months of Mania, ramping up their productivity for fucking free. If I want anything similar to that, I've got to act retarded and get prescribed Dexamphetamine.
Get over yourself, faggot.
Jackson Gutierrez
Nope he's just not a Torontocuck
You have to remember how big this Union is. Second largest "country" and because of low population were very spread out. Most people in for example the west only have language in common with the east and hell Quebec is its own thing that speaks French
I think every province needs its own flag on Sup Forums. That way you'd see most of the fags are just in one province
Matthew Perry
My dad did die when I was a child. I Calling me retarded because you're detracting because you can't come up with anything to say.
You are actually retarded compared to me.
!st world problems?
Do you constantly think about killoing yourself regardless of what is going on?
DO you constnaly feel like shit, all the time regardless of everything?
Regardless of my ability to rationalize nothing chnages the way i feel.
FUck you fuck people like you.
You are the type of cancer that ruins society.
Carter Bailey
You sound like a cool guy with a big dick
Adrian Wright
>ITT people who doesn't know the brain work with chemicals and can get sick like any other organ. You don't have a "soul" "personality" or something else independent of your fisical body.
Jaxon Baker
>lololo im genetically superior lolol suck my dick >But im also a little bitch who cant control his feelings for no reason at all Yeah no you aren't worth shit
James Wilson
>tfw when i do have a big dick
pic related me half soft
Dylan Bell
>checks calendar yep it's summer
Parker Ward
>I was born with the inability to regulate the chemicals in my brain You should not breed. I wouldn't leave you to die though.
Ayden Price
If it's simply an imbalance of chemicals, why don't the drugs work? Have the chemical levels in your brain been tested? This isn't about partisan politics genius. Doesn't matter if republicans or democrats are in charge. Drugs are what you will be told will work. Only the drugs, just keep taking them. Are the drugs too expensive for you? What are the democrats promising you? "Free" drugs? Free drugs for a "chemical imbalance" that is assumed and not verified? "Free" therapy? If you're so smart you could learn all the tricks therapists use in a few weeks. What are you looking for?
Adrian Gonzalez
Rationally I can understand feelings and why and this and that.
I am aware of everything thats going on, especially the patheticness and irrationally of my feelings
Nothing changes them
Aiden Perez
I dont want to have children and give them this. I agree with you
Eli Ross
Think of it like this. When you are manic you are extremely productive.
When you crash you're now feeling like a normal person. Sucks being average and normal right? Compared to before I can see how it feels terrible, but really you're just returned to an average mental state.
Isaac Edwards
this show dick
Josiah Russell
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Liam Walker
sounds like you are a gay retard, good thread op
David Brown
This
Most people here are more afraid than depressed though. They see the shitstorm that's coming with this "leader" we didn't get to choose running us off a cliff
When someone panics takes out $100,000 in cash buys a fuck ton of gold and keeps it in a radiation proof safe you know they don't think things are going well
Camden Jones
since im retarded than you should be able to learn italian in a month.
If im so retarded you should be able to understand music to the level that less than 1% of musicians can.
If im so retarded you would score higher than me on all those tests.
I
Ryder Bailey
Healthcare is someone else's work, so yeah, you are never entitled to the product of someone else's work. You've got to exchange value for it.
>he didn't even get 35 on the ACT >he didn't even get above 2200 on the SAT >I'm a genius guys I go to a state university for physics
My buddy got a 35 on the SAT and now he runs a kids taekwando dojo
Luke Robinson
bye bye self-loathing blaming everybody for his own problems luny
Isaac Foster
Personally it would be interesting to research ways to cure things like this
Better than giving money to muzRat welfare leeches who would rape your daughter and bomb you
How the fuck is it that America gives free food to niggers who are legitimately mentally retarded and a safety risk but they can't help someone who would be otherwise a full contributor to society without a rare genetic mutation
I don't care either way but if you won't help someone like OP you need to let your lazy niggers starve to death tool
Dominic Perry
I don't blame my problems on anyone else.
I blame idiots for making nearly impossible for me to get the help I need to contribute to society.
Joshua Russell
I think I suffer from this to an extent that most others can't relate.
It feels like most people go through a period of loneliness and introspection in their lives and they usually come out of it stronger, with a different perspective of the world and themselves.
I've had so many "epiphanies" throughout the years I can't feel excitement about anything anymore.
I waste my success. I was a good actor but my social phobia, my paranoia and my hardcore hashish smoking ruin any chance of being normal, allowing myself to be free. Happy, sad, whatever. Feel something. Face the world.
I have these periods or 4, 5 months every couple of years where everything seems to go straight but it's right when I'm experiencing glory that it strikes me really hard.
I eat like shit and get fat, I don't shower, I don't shave, I don't brush my teeth, I don't care about my appearance. I live in my head, isolated from the rest of the world. Always plotting my next move.
But as long as my next move involves rationalizing drug use and booze, I don't feel I'll ever come out of this hole.
Juan Ramirez
It must be painful, being this fucking retarded. How do you even wake up in the morning without succumbing and drowning in the shower?
>Deficient genes >learning things at an alarming rate >extremely work efficient >Deficient
...
Joshua Nguyen
>I don't blame my problems on anyone else >but here are my problems and why they are someone else's fault
:)
Noah Fisher
>I don't blame my problems on anyone else.
>I blame idiots for making nearly impossible for me to get the help I need to contribute to society. You just blamed someone lol
Xavier Jones
I'm going to give the OP benefit of the doubt from his keyboard clumsiness and hope he's drunk, as his posts are embarrassing for those who actually suffer bipolar.
Ian Nguyen
Conservatives aren't chemists btw
Leo Morgan
this is actually another point that pisses me off
A bunch of worhtless niggers who wouldnt contribute anything to society get welfare while I can barely get my medicine
I don't want "free" shit just becaues.
I've had a fulltime job, Ive done things to help others.
My pointis that policies in this country will always restrict my life.
Henry Reed
seroquel makes my hands feel like jelly so its hard to type.
Henry Jenkins
how often do you fap?
Elijah Hall
>I blame idiots for making nearly impossible for me to get the help I need to contribute to society That's like blaming people for not being able to cure productive people's cancer
Ian Russell
You have the power given to you by God to command your destiny. Tell your depression to fuck off. You have great potential for good and happiness. I believe in you. No bullshit.
Kevin Gomez
I'm hyper sexual because same reason so I constantly want to have sex, unless I fap i constantly think about fucking things.
It's fukcing awful. Horny 90% of the time, fapping only relieves me for like 30 mins.
Ayden Nelson
Are you on lithium? You should have figured out by now not to trust your inner monologue, you are sick and your brain is lying to you. Also, I hope you have your meds figured out. Each time you go manic, you burn a little part of your brain up.
Austin Ramirez
You think I don't tell myself already?
I understand that the way I feel isn't "real" that I shouldn't just want to die.
Things can be better and I am grateful for being an American, as I am far more lucky than so many.
I understand that my feelings are irrational, but it doesn't matter.
Nothing I tell myself or do changes how i feel.
nothing.
This is my point, even if is "suck it up", something always happen.
ALWAYS.
I have tried being a fucking "normal" person.
Austin Smith
Lol he has no self awareness whatsoever!
Reading that was like walking around in a dark room, fucking idiot.
Matthew Sanders
Ok if I could have just that without the other problems I would love it
Just as a question not an insult just because you mentioned this do you find yourself to be 100% straight?
Tyler Gomez
You are literally taking a drug that does nothing but inhibit neuronal connections. It's the medical equivalent of a sledgehammer or a semi-reversible lobotomy, no wonder. I would sooner end my life than accept taking it, it just retards the brain.
Asher Anderson
I'm assuming you also have a case of narcissism ?
James Sullivan
Cool story, bro.
Samuel Campbell
>A bunch of worhtless niggers who wouldnt contribute anything to society get welfare while I can barely get my medicine
Can you get welfare?
Nathan Peterson
Best treated with 300mg of Potassium Cyanide, once.
Eli Myers
>Tell your depression to fuck off.
If only I could be as ignorant as you.
Aaron Foster
>just call him a narcicist!
Andrew Phillips
> 33 act > 98 asvab honestly not very impressive
Jeremiah Parker
lol im 100% straight though, just thinking about kissing a man disgusts me. Not a homophobe but as mentally ill person it is obvious sexual identity issues are rooted in mental illness.
liver couldn't handle lithium , Im on sam-e as well as seroquel.
no, just because I have the potential I do, I do not feel I'm better than anyone. If anything I hate myself more for being a huge waste and burden because fo what I have.
nope.
my point is that I can be a very high functioning person to contribute to society yet I have something that I can't control that ruins everything.
Grayson Mitchell
But he is lol. He's basically complaining that society doesn't abide to him. You don't see paraplegics getting mad at conservatives for not being able to walk.
Joseph Ward
Whatever you do DONT vote in this November's election.
Dont make life worse for other people OP.
Jayden Anderson
Really easy fix Step one.Go to your local pharmacy and purchase some sleeping aids Step two. Take some days off work to prepare for this cleanse preferably one whole week Step three. Only drink liquids for 6 days and take the sleeping aids to assure good sleep Step four. On the final day fucking kill your self you retarded faggot remove your self from the gene pool.
Grayson Wright
The point of your post was very likely to engage in the delusion that you matter. To try and resolve the dissonance caused by your feelings of grandiosity with your realization that you are just a hairless great ape.
Asher Adams
You just sound like a waste of potential to be honest. If you want sympathy try /r9k/ you autist.
David Brooks
This is why Im a National socialist not a conservative
We don't advocate giving handouts to anyone from anywhere who will just be lazy
However "the most precious possession you have is your own people" and I think when a productive member of the people undergoes hardship they should be helped. And when they become productive again they are technically repaying the help as well
Bentley Nguyen
Why can't you get welfare?
Landon James
> I can be a very high functioning person to contribute to society So what have you contributed? >yet I have something that I can't control that ruins everything. So you are useless then.
Levi Murphy
>Believing op.
Adrian Long
Interdasting post.
I'm also a high-competency fag. I have also struggled with output, satisfaction, and negative mental obstacles. I was once one of the youngest college grads in the U.S.
What language, OP? Tell me moar of your story.
Gavin Reyes
OP might want to also look towards paying up for autism treatment as well.
Dominic Richardson
kys miserable prick
Charles Collins
>This time on tl;dr This gay bullshit from a depressed cuck
Noah Bell
>sam-e your physician is recommending you take a meme drug? maybe you need to find someone else, desu. If you are still having cycles, your disease in not under control. It will eventually kill you if you do what you are doing now. You are going to find a way to harness that energy for good. Look up Terry Davis.
Leo Moore
Actually if we stopped giving free handouts and spending so much time helping subhuman races we would probably have developed a cure for cancer
Juan Garcia
i don't "qualify"
If i wasn't mentally Ill I would help so many people.
This is my point.
That would make sense, however I realize I am a hairless ape. I'm only a hyper intelligent animal, and through delusions and brainwashing people think that we are more than that.
I helped a lot of people when I had a full time job, around 1300 people to be exact.
I could also create music that other people enjoy, I also have the ability to think and learn far more than most people so I could help a lot.
italian, what else you want to know?
yeah i know right
When i read as was like wtf... a "supplement". That's what she recommended though.
Benjamin Turner
Well m8 i don't think Sup Forums is going to help.
Caleb Robinson
Portuguese recommending welfare. Why am I not surprised
Christian Carter
Why don't you qualify? Household income?
Nicholas Russell
This is what I want. I just want to be able to be better and function 100% all the time as I could help so many peolpe.
I don't want money, but I can do things that can generate shittons of money.
Which I would use to stabilize mine and my families then help others.
David Harris
just making a point.
Nathan Hughes
Do shrooms or acid. Learn to see things with inherent value and without self-perception until you can do it by choice. Become ego-less. End your emotional cycle. Create your own emotional cycle. Create yourself and your ego. Use yourself. ??????? Magic.
Eli Russell
yeah I was working a job making $16 dollars an hour.
Living on savings now, since I had to quit because my doctors mandated that I can't work anymore.
WIll probably end up homeless if I don't get better.
Landon Jackson
Ok I was just wondering because I have noticed somewhat of a pattern seeing Increases of other mental problems combined with gender ID problems or faggotry. Glad to hear you aren't it would be shit having two problems
Jaxson Taylor
The vast majority of posts on this board is complaints about political correctness.
Kill yourself, what ever you think you can contribute to society probably isn't that much. Tell me what you think you can contribute
Parker Rogers
You have realized you are an ape, but not accepted it. Realization requires intellect, acceptance requires humility.
Thousands of philosophy undergrads claim every year they are wise because they know they are not wise. But what they know in the abstract, they have not accepted.
When you accept you are a great ape, with humility, the pain goes away. And life becomes something to enjoy while you're here, rather than to "win".
Go teach english in a foreign country for a few years. You can basically pick any country you like and go teach english there. Acceptance will come.
Owen Taylor
How are illnesses and disabilities politically incorrect lol.
Grayson Fisher
You probably over think too much
Accept that it's your own fault and find ways too calm your mind like meditation and just doing more things you enjoy
Ayden Butler
>Then have a crash and become depressed cocaine
Jayden Long
are YOU a racist yet?
Connor Martinez
Do you consider yourself a narcissist? Why yes / why no?
Adam Miller
Not what I said
Ayden Price
Well m8, best regards
Isaac Lewis
What did you say then?
William Parker
I can make music that would make a lot of people repeatedly happy.
I can learn things far quicker than most so I could honestly do anything academically. Anything really.
I honestly could do anything except maybe be an athlete.
No I have realized this, I am an ape.
There is no meaning in human life, it is only what we want it to be. I understand human life doesn't have to be anything, as I am just animal existing. I understand that institutions have brain washed society into thinking certain things about life. However what I hate myself for is having abilities that others wish they did and wasting them because I always feel like shit If I'm not manic.
Nah thinking is what actually saves me.
I am able to understand and be aware of my behavior and feelings so I don't do anything stupid to hurt myself of others but it doesn't change the way I feel.
No, because I mainly hate myself for being a waste and a burden to society.
I was once a narcissist when I was younger because of my abilities but no longer feel that way after becoming far more self aware.
thanks
Juan Morris
>WIll probably end up homeless if I don't get better.
Don't get better. Get welfare.
Why should you care for a system that doesn't give a fuck about you? Being a productive member of society is overrated. Being recognized as an individual is mental masturbation. There is no meaning in life, you're not a character in the grand narrative of things. You're nothing and your actions mean nothing. If you're not willing to stand up for something, at least try standing up for yourself.
I don't get welfare because I don't need. But I wouldn't give a fuck living at the expense of other people. Then I'd have something in common with the really rich.
Elijah Ross
I have reached a point close to this mentality. It is actually dumbfounding that out of nowherre some random person on the internet says this, when I have been thinking it.
LOL
Literally every point you've made I've been thinking about. The only difference is that I want to do things for society because idk, i just do.