Rushed to the hospital because I nearly drank myself to death again

>rushed to the hospital because I nearly drank myself to death again
>tfw starting to sober up again

Be strong man, take it a day at a time. Try to learn from mistakes and not dwell on them or repeat them.

My only mistake was not drinking enough

What's so wrong?

Just keep at it, it's not like optimism is actually doing anything for you

Everything is shit and it's all about to get worse

take a bottle of vodka on very cold night(-10 celcius at least, preferably -20) and go to forest, drink it all and go to sleep
you will be gone in no time
this is my plan when im brave enough

Fiks degselv

take care of yourself bro, but at a certain point they'll have to dialyze you to remove the alcohol from your system, to try and save you?

Talk to a shrink and consider some nice antidepressants, also the best advice is to not take life too seriously. Not as in career, I am talking about not experiencing panic attacks because of minute variations in your daily schedule or commute

attaboy

Sounds like a comfy way to go desu

Assuming they can look past the skin colour, are the nazis going to kill someone for autism or mental illness? I thought we were invalids or degenerate

How is everything shit? You're probably under 30, live in a first world country with high safety nets, no matter how shit your life is you can turn it around.

Why would they care about you? Just stay in Sudan and we're good.

I am anticipating a land grab and return of the Afrikakorps, they're not going to have a thousand year Reich without resources

Society is slowly going to hell in most areas, education, health, salaries, etc.
And my personal life is a mess due to me probably being sick in the head.

>live in a first world country with high safety nets, no matter how shit your life is you can turn it around
I genuinely thank you for reminding me, mate. My finances are about to hit gutter levels of shit but now I remember it's only temporary.

You might not be aware but Sweden as a rapidly growing national socialist movement, I didn't mean anything pro-g*rman by the picture. I was telling OP to grow the fuck up and become a man (of action), as opposed to drinking and bitching on Sup Forums

You're not responsible for all of society, especially in this vulnerable state.

Carrying the problems of the world on your shoulders will just give you ulcers and never-ending depression, work within the system for yourself first before you can help

I once drank one liter of whiskey, slept 14 hours, and when I woke up, I shat black diarrea for days and my liver hurt for a week. Good times

You can't just tell someone to willfully stave off depression, its very difficult.

Psychiatrists are so desperate they shock people's heads to try to reset it like a computer (electroconvulsive therapy), I am beginning to think once the foundation is laid within puberty and twenties it becomes ridiculously difficult to fight

That our the guys speculating that it has a powerful genetic basis are right and people like OP were fucked from the get go

*Hug you* it's ok user, France is here

I don't exactly consider myself responsible for all of society but I'm sure you can relate to the fact that I don't want my children to have it worse than I did growing up.

Ideology pulled me out of the gutter, I'm sure it could work for OP as well. Self-radicalization is best radicalization.

Then you have 2 choices, A - fuck the idea of having children (mine so far), B - work towards entrepreneurship, immigrate and carve out a super-nice living to insulate yourself from the problems

Ideology gives your life purpose and meaning, but that doesn't mean it can't be terribly flawed, whatever it may be

You're still a bit young (presumably), reading about radicalization's direct effects changes thoughts a bit, whether its left or right

God, it's horribly depressing that you consider that to be a normal outlook on life.

I have no choice, personal fulfillment has to take a backseat to financial survival for now, and autists tend to avoid having children

Your country needs you and running away is not a option

Hi

Don't do it again, you're destroying yourself.

>just six hours ago I get taste of blood in my mouth
>get that sinking feeling like something is really, really fucking wrong
>expect a tooth to shatter or something
>nothing happens
I really should go visit a dentist. but truthfully I'm just going to keep drinking and probably jump off a bridge at some point
>black diarrea
the black crap in hangover shit is dried blood. your intestines were bleeding internally