>Be me, 22yo college student, musician, for this threads sake, call me Tomoki .
>Be avid crossdresser, formally trap.
>Struggle with self control, potent libido, powerful emotions, acceptance from others/connecting with others.
>Has had numerous relationships, mostly with women.
>Had always struggled with relationships, most only lasted 4-5 months at best.
>Started doing lewd stuff with my male best friend about 2.5 years ago.
>Would have get-togethers with other friends, overnight LAN parties, watching animu, shitty movies.
>Was during a point in my life where I was experimenting with my sexuality.
>Would go to parties crossdressing, nothing overly sexual or lewd, nothing crazy, just typical kneehighs, skirts, fun accessories like cat ears, etc.
>Sometimes my best friend (Let's call him Matt) would jokingly pick me up and attempt to show my pantsu (usually boyshorts) to other friends to embarrass or harass me.
>Overtime my outfits and bodily figure got more and more feminine due to my desire to be more like a trap, my parents where super religious, so whenever I went out with friends, I'd go in disguise until I was in their car where I'd change.
>With each passing overnight get together, I got physically
and emotionally closer to Matt, until one night, I snapped.
>There wasn't much to dislike, he was funny, always knew what to say, accepting, innocent, and as I would find out, loving.
>During one overnighter at a friends two story apt. Matt seemed to be more forthcoming with his usual playful bullying.
>Whenever Matt lay his hands underneath my thighs when he'd pick me up, my body turned electric, something clicked in my brain, and I would get extremely aroused.
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