Pol, I am getting colder and colder. Is that normal?

Almost 8 month ago my gf left me and with her I lost good part of my humanity.

>don't care about nothing but myself and my future
>disgusted by people, and not feeling for no one
>avoiding family and friends as much as possible. I prefered to stay alone for christmas.

>I don't feel sad or happy or anything. It would be ok , but I keep having nightmares,start to walk while I sleep
> last night I ''woke'' up and I started to try to read letters in the wall for hours...then I got my shit togheter and I went full awake

Am I becoming a man or just a madman?

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Depression or possibly schizophrenia.

Go for a walk

Sounds like a severe case of being a whiny bitch.

Take 5mg of man the fuck up every day for 2 months.

>>schizophrenia

This would suck. I don't want to become a ''schizo''.
in case is that shit reversable or my brain would be scared?

Same bro, the only thing to do is become successful so when the final happening happens, we will be cozy in our million dollar mansions.

whiny? Man, I don't talk to anyone I don't want to talk to anyone.
I have 2 contact on whatsapp a girl(that I used to have a crush for her but I no longer care), and my friend who i keep avoiding.

At a certain point I think is legit to wonder what the fuck is going on.

Madman

like it or not, you need to socialize. there's no reason to let a shitty girlfriend destabilize your other relationships.

I fucked up my GPA. I can still recover, but no ivy league for me or high ranks.

at least no without the contacts from my family

but i don't know if i want that life...i am considering to join the army in february.

Do you have friends user? It sounds like you just need to talk to somebody who will lend an ear to you. By friend I mean a real friend you can see face to face.
Also you need to take care of yourself and go outside and do things.
I find that starting my mornings out getting the routine things out of the way first (excercise, shower+hygiene, and breakfast) makes the rest of the day go smoother. After you take care of business find time to do things you enjoy.

Sounds like you're finally waking up to reality and seeing the truth that the world is trying to hide from you. Don't cower, embrace it.

the idea of fucking a great looking girl was the only thing that kept me from being antisocial.

I did that and now i don't care about shit.
It is not the girl per se. I am even happy she is no longer around.

The army is a pretty big decision. Make sure to think it through very carefully. If you do it right it can help your life/career immensely. However if you are not totally committed to it then you're gonna have a bad time.

Back in my day a man would just find another gash to own.

See this.
Socialization is a must for dealing with your issues. If you do not socialize nothing will change for you.

>104332606
even so who cares. I still want a decent life. money and people who feel for me. my friend keeps me around because i make him feel better with himself. He is a good guy, not the smartest, but i understand the dinmaic of my relationship with him and i don't really enjoy it.

I am so fucking bored that i barely eat,clean myself and sleep. I am avoiding everything.
I think i need a psychiatric, but i am afraid he may screw me for joining the army

Depression, potentially attachment trauma as well. Talk to a (((therapist))) if you haven't been feeling well in a long time, nothing to lose.

that's fine, you're learning not to be a "muh feels" pussy-whipped beta faggot, most women don't get too attached to their men, they're way ahead of you, you're simply growing up and becoming more independent

You're going insane. Luckily that shit can be reversed.

It would be even ok, but i need to be able to work and achieve my goals...right now i am not.

Congratulations, you have become somewhat like me.

Your solution is dolls. Lots of dolls.

>be me
> marriage fell apart 2 years ago, stopped wearing her wedding ring. Haven't had sex in 2 years, haven't slept in the same bed in a year
> barely talk, get I arguements about everything holiday related or about spending time together.
> ask her if she wants a divorce/ still loves me
> tells me she doesn't know, she's depressed.
> same answers for 2 years
> I don't wanna spend time with anyone just wanna stay off the grid.
> I want normal family things and she doesn't.
> won't move out until she ready
> fml

What do pol?

What did you expect OP? You're here forever.

Why did she leave you?

Onanism is a solution?
I don't think so man. sex sloves us down.

Wow you're a cuck. Get the fuck out you idiot and never get married again. Where do people this stupid come from? Honestly?

Shitty situation man.
I feel lucky because at least i don't have feelings for my ex.

How old were you when you married?
Do you have a job.

It's my house, not hers. I just think I love her to much and I keep lying to my self that things will get better. We have just changed. I want things she doesn't want. I need to man the fuck up but it easier said than done

>Italian
Just rub some fucking motor oil in your hair and go be a faggot somewhere else

also Merry Christmas

OP you're dead.
You choked on vomit whilst drinking your sorrows away. You are freezing cold and have little to no heartbeat.

You died.

Because i could not offer her a future. I don't have money or a job and a degree(yet).
She is a broken person as well and she needs someone that can guarantee her stability.

basically she left me because she is a woman. and i don t blame her.

I did it not even 2.5 years ago. Wish I had done it sooner. My life is 10x better. Got a girl who wants all the same shit as me and knows her place.

it'll be hard but move out

26 when I got married. Yes I have a job, make about 43k a year. Not a lot but I will get by just fine if I cut back on some stuff.

Slap her and tell her, "Blow me or get out"

what? fuck your gf man, just pick yourself up and go out and socialize on some level. doesn't matter what, go sit alone at a bar if that's the best you can do. Yeah, break ups after long-term relationships suck, and it can take a long time to get back on track. But laying down and hiding is the worst way to deal with it. Good luck you fucking faggot

Not if 45% of your time is spent with your cuddler.
Sex is only occasional, but your self control is the only limit.
Every doll man cherishes his cuddler above all others - for good reason. It's a deeper bond.

fucking idiot, you know too that you gotta get out of that dead marriage.

Yea I just need some peace and clarity back in my life. I'm going to make it happen after Christmas.

I want to sell my house and buy a house boat and live on the lake. It will be cheaper than owning my home

we are all men scorned because we are out of time. it's only natural for us to hate the world and scorn it or rather look at it with infinite lamentation. that's what I've done I guess, left it up to fate. it'll all work out eventually I suppose. until then I fill myself with things to do and I rely on the old world and those who wrote the great works in it to reconnect me to my humanity. someday we'll be whole again but until then well.
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In this scenario pol would be an interesting limbo.

is that an insult? it is cute.

Go to the gym and get strong.

man love is a desease of the mind. once you are out of her life for some months you will stop feeling for her.
we are programmed like tht.

Kill yourself cuck. One less beta fag in this world

The key to being a man,IMO is finding a pretty bitch who will feed you,fuck you,and leave you the fuck alone.

That's what's worked for me since 1992.

Put on a fucking sweater mate it's not that difficult to figure out.

In all seriousness though i went through the same issue, although for me it was about 5 years, as other anons have said you just need to start socializing again, and stop worrying so much about what your women say about you, half the planet is women, you can always find another.

I don't expect you to just snap out of it obviously, take your time to get over it, but don't sit on your ass and wallow about it in self pity.

Even if it's just going out for an hour to walk to the store, or go get some food somewhere, it's a start to getting back to where you need to be.

i am 25.
You are doing well exept that you love the wrong person
i believe that this woman is preventing you from achieving morre in terms of money and success(and thus happiness.)

Worry not. She was shagging Chad months before she broke up with you. That's how modern sluts are.

Go join the local cartel. I'm sure you'd do well there

I kicked my old bitch out after she got fat, moved south and now I fuck around all day on the beach getting blowies. Make moves. Acta non verba faggot.

Oh dude. Sounds like you just need a glass of water.

>You aren't home for Christmas
Well...the first thing to do would be not willfully being miserable.
Go get a plate tomorrow and thank your mother.

>Am I becoming a man or just a madman?
Depression

Eat two balanced meals a day
Walk 4 miles a day
Sleep 8 hours in 24
Stop reading happening shit
Have one conversation (trivial) with someone locally a day (weather etc)

Do it.

When you are sane and responsible enough get a dog.

Read two chapters from a decent book (no conspiracy shit) a day

Get a hobby.

Stop doing drugs.

Say a prayer before you sleep.

On your A day you'll do 3x5 Lowbar squats, 3x5 Bench Press, and end it with 1x5 Deadlifts. On your B day you'll do 2x5 Lowbar squats again (don't be a pussy), 2x5 Oversed Press, and 3x5 Power cleans. Your lif ting schedule looks as such: AxBxAxx, BxAxBxx. x = rest day.
Makeep sure to eat hearty and get 8 hours of sleep

Don't call your mom a "bitch", cunt.

You can be cold and outcome independent and still play the game of life. You're self-sabotaging yourself. To not care can have benefits, just accept your dark side and exploit it to your advantage.

Uhh user, his flag is Italy. You mean Italian Mafia.

I know it's looks similar to Mexico, but it's missing that gay ass symbol in the middle

Madman. Don't forsake your family over some bitch that broke up with you. They are the only grounding force in your life

>On your A day you'll do 3x5 Lowbar squats, 3x5 Bench Press, and end it with 1x5 Deadlifts. On your B day you'll do 2x5 Lowbar squats again (don't be a pussy), 2x5 Oversed Press, and 3x5 Power cleans. Your lif ting schedule looks as such: AxBxAxx, BxAxBxx. x = rest day.

All fine but walking 4 miles a day will get him out of the house

>>Go get a plate tomorrow and thank your mother.


As bad as it sound my parents are nothing but a source of income to me.
Shit has happened in my life and as result i don't feel nothing for them.
Even if i am aware that i am a liability for them.
It is 6 months i don't speak with them.

>fucked GPA


Same, 3.5 is not that bad, right?

Brainwave frequency is altering. You were so inwardly focused that your brainwaves turned from "normal" beta to alpha. From your description you seem to have entered delta, which most people have when about to fall asleep, perhaps even theta. And youre awake.

Youre not crazy btw.

>Shit has happened in my life and as result i don't feel nothing for them.

This is a symptom of depression.

Have a look at my earlier posts

Sup Forums will do that to you

You have a depression. Go see a doctor about it.

>>Sleep 8 hours in 24
i would love that
>>Eat two balanced meals a day
ok
>>Stop reading happening shit

this, i believe that this is becoming a drug.
>>Read two chapters from a decent book (no conspiracy shit) a day

i will try

>Stop doing drugs.

My uncle died of aids the very same day i was born. useless to say i never did drugs.

Feel what is described in OP every day as a normal state. People start calling you a sociopath because you just don't give a damn about anything. This label is used as some type of negative deterrent, but it just makes me laugh to hear it thrown around.

What's your uncle have to do with you?

I am signed into a gym, but beside running for 30 min i don t know how to do shit.

I used to be skinny as fuck, now i am 74kg for 176cm

Get out, my man. Sell the house, fuck it. You don't want to live there anyway. I take it marriage counselling did not work for you two?

THIS

THIS EXACTLY WHAT I WANT TO DO , TELL ME HOW.

Friend, nothing is more bitter than the realisation that you knew something that you needed to do years ago but didn't because tru wub and you didn't want to give up, only to have to do it all anyway years down the track in a much worse situation personally. If she isn't trying to salvage the relationship, get out.

He had this brilliant idea of dying that specific day
My birthday were quite shitty as you can imagine.
having such a disgrace in the family prevented me to be attracted to drugs.

More advice pls.

Schizophrenia isn't reversible afaik, but there are many things other than schizophrenia that cause symptoms of psychosis. You mentioned it occurred near sleep, which is relatively common and seems to mostly just imply a sleep disturbance or disorder, possibly due to depression. Also, for the record, a major relationship ending is supposed to be a little traumatic and depressing. But I'm not a doctor so that's all bullshit and you should see a real psychiatrist.

Okay Hans. Not everyone is a sociopath tho. Telling people to go dark triad doesn't work unless you actually have that within you in the first place. If you're not equipped for it you'll just end up feeling even more depressed, shitty and disgusted with yourself.

Yeah, that happens when you get dumped. Go fuck a hooker and move on. Don't ever let some bitch do that to your life.

A house boat is a much worse investment than a house is. only do this if you have cash to burn, if it's house boat or bust i recommend something else.

Well done cunt. Absolutely crystallized.

No man i am cool. I don t want a woman around bothering me. I want money a good job and results.

Simple, pretend to care but in reality never let yourself. Stay detached

Ok guys. thank you for the support and the invites to kill myself.

I wish you guys were my brother or my father.

I will try to get my shit togheter. somehow.

it almost dawn here i will go for a walk with the 10 euro i have in my pocket.

i feel the same OP

you start thinking about her less kind of. dunno lol. it definitely ruined the trust i had in others. its her fault. its my fault for letting her though.

Strong. Then kill.

Alcohol.
You're asking for depression advice on an anonymous image board dedicated to sophism and picking people apart with cynical glee.
The sad reality is that I don't think anyone else has a good answer for you. I could tell you to do stuff, but you already know that you're supposed to be doing stuff. You know that you're supposed to go to work, make small talk, take any slight with a shrug and a laugh, and throw the first punch whenever it's inevitable. You know that the more you interact with a specific person, the more you learn about them and how similar their struggles and anxieties are to yours.

What will convince you to do it? I don't know. I can't make myself do it. My older brother couldn't do it without a fix, and not only did it earn him some of the most horrendous and disgusting people I've ever met as "friends"(I had to resist the urge to tell his girlfriend, "by the power of greyskull, get the fuck out of my house."), it killed him.

OP, I'm in the exact same boat as you.
Don't go to the military. I tried and it only wasted my time. It's basically a fucking circus that's getting more and more irrelevant everyday.
My next risk is to go into construction. Try learning a trade.

Seeing immediate results of your own work should bring you constant pride and joy on a daily basis.

Not a problem. Read the /fit/ sticky and lurk. 2 years after getting into fit I'm swole, confident, happier, tfw yes gf, and finally want to plan for my future

>mfw all this holiday stuff about being together is reminding me about my gf that I left 3 months ago
>still think about her and how I could of done better to fix my decision to leave her
>now all alone

this is the first time something got me sad like this. Im stubborn and I just want to fix everything I did or go back in time.