Help me guys
>Failed because of reasons outside of my control
>Docs have a hard time finding out what's wrong with me, most likely neurological
>My family loves me but I hate myself and my crumbling body, I have no energy to do anything
>Even if tomorrow I had no family, no house, anything, I would most likely eat leaves or something
>0 motivation to do anything
>Hate myself and hate seeing that this is what my life has come to
Help bros. what to do
Respawn and hope you roll a better character
>I failed
>What do
At what , when, where , why, who,
Fuckoff troll
at life
because i have no mental and physical energy to accomplish anything
you have an exceptionally rare condition called "depression". I don't blame you if you've never heard of it, it's exceptionally rare. well, believe it or not, it's curable! just go to a doctor and say "I have this really rare condition called 'depression' and need help". they'll help you
>depression
>doctor
Sorry I don't go to "doctors" to diagnose me based on subjective criteria. Can they measure depression? Are there tests for it? They only rely on my subjective view of things, this ain't medicine, this is a chemical patch for your brain. Also, I tried some shit before, made me feel worse and I won't get on them ever again.
My root cause is physical, real doctors (endocrinologists) give the possiblity that it's physical a thought but so far im stuck.
>>Docs have a hard time finding out what's wrong with me, most likely neurological
So what medications have you tried so far? In the US, over the course of a year (assuming nothing works) you would have been given:
>Wellbutrin
>Zoloft
>Concerta
>adderall
>vyvanse
>modafinil
>dude weed lmao, depending on which state you live in
In addition a good psychiatrist would have also recommended you to a CBT therapist and recommended an exercise regimen.
Did your third world doctors do anything other than an MRI and go "we dunno lol bye"
>chemical lobotomy
>meme therapies
My "third world country" actually houses some of the best endocrinologists in the world which you'd wish you have over there. For your information, I have tried the chemical jew, almost died because of that shit and will never touch it again. refer to my above post and then fuck off.
No wonder america is so fucked when half of you are on that shit. good luck with that
If it's so great, why are you whining on here?
>bragging about muh endocronologists
>they can't do shit
>resort to whining on Sup Forums
Also CBT isn't meme therapy, but you wouldn't know that since your country is decades behind ours in the field of psychology
because i need solutions which meme chemicals are not able to give me
psychology? HOW IS THIS MEDICINE? It literally only studied the effects of the environment on humans and the mental manifestations this takes, they don't study the actual brain or try to find root causes that make a brain behave like that. there are no objective tests to measure SHIT in psychology. so please tell me, how is psychology anything more that quackery?
>I don't want to be given drugs
>I want to be given drugs
Damn nigger you really are nuts
go to the fucking gym, manlet
Go on an inward journey to get to know your depression and its root cause(s). Then ttransform it. Yes, this will take years.
tried it, doesn't fix anything. i feel worse.
>all drugs are the same
damn nigger you really are retarded
Also, if they find out they are correct about my case I'll probably need surgery. still better than drugs that made my life 10x worse than it is for no reason.
I don't have more years to spend, I'm 21. I don' t have any friends anymore and I'm afraid I'll lose my family any day now. im simply fucked
You're not as old as you think and you've got nothing to lose.
This and going to the gym are the only non-meme, non chemical ways to heal yourself. This is coming from someone who got over crippling anxiety, which is depression's opposite twin.
>the field of psychology
>jewish meme medicine
Americans are actually this retarded
Calm down, guy. I'm almost 40 and have been like you since I was 12. It never gets better. You will never have normal relationships or experience life's milestones as most people do, but so what? The point of being alive is surviving. That's literally it. So do that and stop being a bitch
the point of being alive to me is happiness
fuck surviving at 40 without anything to give me happiness, i'll off myself before it ever gets to that and I won't stop trying to fix whatever is bugging me now
can you share info about this inward journey? i have done as much introspection as it takes, nothing helps
Hate to break it to you, but "happiness" is an illusion. You need to deal with your expectations, and learn how to become content. If you want to kill yourself just do it, before you waste anymore time.
I really can't since there really isn't a right or wrong way to do it. Several cultures have also come up with their own methods and versions as well, like meditation and Ho'ponno ponno. It's all about being aware of your emotions and learning how to take care of it.
Op your ego seems quite inflated and I believe that the answer you're looking for you is inside you. You'd do well to study mindfulness and start meditating, this shits science
Are you super skinny?
who cares how you describe it? if i can feel it that's all that matters. you can argue that our reality is an illusion too.
got any starting points?
>not a doctor
>not a psychologist
>"Hey guys, lemme tell you how the qualified doctors and psychologists are wrong once I'm finished lying here staring at the ceiling for thirty minutes doing nothing."
You're depressed, you fucking greaseball. It's a common condition; you're not special.
So either A: go to a mental health specialist recommended by your doctor and get it treated or B: shut the fuck up. No one is interested in or believes your quack theories about what's wrong, mainly because they're unqualified judgments and because the person making those judgments is FUCKING MENTALLY ILL.
kill yourself inbred subhuman. a brit got no right calling anyone else "mentally ill"
also your coutnry is the most kiked of all, so no surprise you believe in the mental health bullshit
>tfw a mentally ill person doesn't know they're mentally ill
how do you feel about eric kempson
>tfw a mentally ill person thinks others are mentally ill
Possibly chronic fatigue syndrome and not depression
If it is though you're fucked so it'll quickly become depression
In all seriousness see a chiro or osteopath, quit all additives and sweeteners, sort your sleep pattern out with drugs if need be, take but d. Not sure what else you can do. Just rest and pace your life. Find an easy office job
Start meditating and watch some videos so you can get some understanding of mindfulness. I'd also steer clear of obvious sources of negativity in you everyday life, including this site
Heres a pro tip: Stop being a teenage faggot
isn't CFS a newly recognized disorder? do they know its root cause?