Tfw nofap

>tfw nofap
>vidya only an 3 or 4 hours a week
>getting an education
>started lifting on a regular basis again a month ago
>have a few friends
>haven't had fast food in 6 months
>cooking my dinners more than ever
>taking a multivitamin
>getting more sunshine
>eating fruits and veggies
>brain still feels like mush
>still miserable
what gives, Sup Forums? you guys told me mental illness was a meme

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same lol

Protip: it helps to not shitpost online all day.

Yeah, mental illness isn't just a meme. You should call a mental health specialist.

You too.

>brain feels like mush

Compared to what? Like, what's your frame of reference?

but have you found a sense of purpose and responsibility?

Start doing what you want to do.. Should help.

fuck those guys, i've been in and out of mental health treatment for like 15 years, i've gotten convinced that either they were scamming me or i'm beyond helping
fuck

find friends, get of 4chin. If that won't help I don't know what will

I'm guessing compared to sitting inside playing vidya and fapping all day everyday

Stop coming here too.

my brain turned to mush like 3 years ago. i feel like i'm dreaming all the time and i'm getting dumber and slower
no, quite the opposite. i feel lost
what if i don't want to do anything? i was told if i fixed the things i talked about in the OP that i would start to want to do things but that didn't happen

Nah. Doctors are awful and shrinks are worse.

I'll figure it out eventually. Or I'll be dead. Either way, problem solved.

Oh fuck me, that's it isn't it? I was in your position before.

You cut out all of what you consider bad shit, yet you still fuck around online for several hours a day huh?

Sup Forums is the real problem

Couple things young buck:

First, good job on the self improvement. Keep that shit up.

Second, go to therapy, It seriously does help, especially if you are willing to work with them and do your part to improve.

Third, read some philosophy and some esotericism. No joke, pick up a few books on Hermeticism. It will change your life(s).

Finally, start meditating. Seriously, clearing your mind and becoming in tune with all once a day is necessary for a healthy mental and spiritual development.

You need to pray every day as well

Drink at least a gallon of milk a day.

>still fuck around online for several hours

this is bad shit you need to cut.

>still miserable

Having unresolved emotional issues isn't the same as mental illness.
Doing the things you're doing are great, but it doesn't resolve issues in the past which are holding you back

stop drinking alcohol

Know the feeling bro.. I don't want to do anything either, I never made this choice and if I did I simply want to watch the world turn, end or flourish.
Its the world that keeps telling you you should do something, anything, but at the same time tell you to do what you want to do.
If you don't want to do anything, don't do anything.

It is because you need Christ. Everything without God is pointless

he means brain fog and anhedonia, he's not sad cus of things that happened to him

it's because you dont have direction in life. same thing happened to me and now I feel more on point than I ever have. I have drive back because I've made and set goals for myself to renew my confidence and motivation.

>tfw fap a few times a week
>vidya only 3 or 4 hours a day
>i do 20 sit ups, push ups and crunches before and after sleep
>have fast food almost every day
>also have a few friends
>feel great

i have friends
i guess. what else is there to do if i'm not lifting or in class?
>therapy
no it doesn't help me. i was in therapy for 15 years.
>philosophy
i can't focus when i read. i get distracted and restless
>meditating
i spent 6 months with a team of buddhist therapists and tried to meditate but it didn't work, i had anxiety attacks and wanted to die
nothing bad ever happened to me though, i'm just unhappy

Stop drinking alcohol and caffeine/sugar for a month. See what that does for you.

Stop spending so much time online. Right. I know. Here we all are. But, really, balance it.

Socialize with your friend or friends. Make a habit of going out once a week or maybe twice a week if you have time. Lunch. Dinner. Whatever can work. Be sociable. Don't wall yourself off from people, OP.

All else fails, as another poster said, seek counseling. It can help. Really. Been through tough times myself and someone to talk things through professionally can help.

Also, try massage and/or acupuncture.

Finally, reach out to God. Pray. Seek him and he will honor that. Read your Bible.

>nothing bad ever happened to me
but has anything good happened to you user? It's not always what happened to you, sometimes it's what didn't happen to you.

>i guess. what else is there to do if i'm not lifting or in class?
You have lifting down, as well as clean eating and getting some sun, that's great.

But I hate to tell you man, the longer you spend on here and absorbing memes and shit, your mind will turn to mush. Your concern is fair though, what else is there to do?

That would take more hobby development, really. Could be learning a new language, coding, whatever else. It's a fucking struggle, so I feel you in that regard.

i've only drank twice in the last 3 years
but i'm not happy when i'm not doing anything either, it sucks
i'm agnostic. besides, if i was going to worship something, it wouldn't be a jew
you're right, i have no direction. i keep adding "direction" ("i will go back and finish uni", "i will go to the gym 3 times a week") but it's all arbitrary so it doesn't do anything for me

Its not a meme but severeity and the need to medicate these conditions is highly overstated by docs and the rubes that think theyre god.

Id be curious how honest you are about your diet and lifting. Cut out all, ALL, artificials, most the time this is a huge factor in how you feel. Sodas and sugars that dont come from fruit are the most common culprits.

Drop vidya all together its a waste of time and no adult who does is a grownup.

If your diet is as you say give it another month, sometimes detoxing takes a while, if you still feel the same see a doc.

>i can't focus when i read. i get distracted and restless

You NEED to try user. You need to read to expand and develop your beliefs. One issue you have is a lack of purpose or direction right?

You need to develop that from studying our philosophical and esoteric traditions. Focus on developing your body, mind, and spirit, etc.

>i guess. what else is there to do if i'm not lifting or in class?
Dude. So much to do! Read, meditate, go for a walk, call a friend, go to lunch/dinner with a friend or group of friends, play a board game with friends (Settlers of Katan or Pandemic), go to a ball game, go to a concert (not rock but orchestra in your town), go to a lecture at your uni when they invite a well-known speaker in.

Well, first of all, mental illness isn't a meme, but it's manageable.

Second, it takes time to regulate your hormones. It's going to feel like shit because you are breaking addictions.

You think a heroin addict feels great a weak later? No, they still ache and suffer. But a month later, they start to feel the improvements. none of your addictions are that bad, but you're dropping a bunch at once, so it's going to take a while to get it fixed.

This also is huge. I had zero direction and zero ambition. Got into construction contracting, work is hard but i like knowing im working for me not a corp, also its a very competitive industry here, keeps me driven to succeed, sometimes all you need is a "fuck that guy and his im getting mine" kind of attitude to give you a boost.

it doesn't happen overnight. took me a long time to figure out what i want to do and a lot of stumbles on the way too. don't feel too bad about where you're at. i was emotionally blunted by anhedonia and im only now feeling twinges of emotion again. it's there you just need to add something to wake up for to your life, otherwise there's no point in complaining about how much you've stagnated and feel.

i either currently do or have tried all of the things you've listed, to no avail
depends what you mean by "anything good"
>hobby development
fuck, i keep trying but i get nowhere. i try to learn an instrument, but i don't really care about playing music. i'm trying to learn a new language, but it's hard to give a shit when most educated people speak english
i am being entirely honest with you. i lift 3 times a week, i don't drink soda, my diet usually consists of an egg sandwich or raisin bran for breakfast, a turkey sandwich for lunch, a cooked meal for dinner, and apples/carrots/hummus/etc as snacks.
>vidya
i dropped vidya for a month but i just spent that time on Sup Forums because i don't have anything to do when i'm not in class or lifting. i'll give it another month

to add on of course your brain will turn to mush if you're not actively using your noodle and sharpening it. once you're out of school it all falls on you to keep up with the world and to keep your mind as sharp as it was when you were younger. once you've gotten direction in your life you'll find more joy in life again and I highly suggest you start reading.

>fuck, i keep trying but i get nowhere.
Fuck getting anywhere, as long as you like it who cares? I understand the mentality of feeling like you're shit at something so it's pointless, but at the end of the day you're doing what you like.

>Don't wall yourself off from people
This is one of my big issues. I've kept people at arms length and guarded my emotions for so long I don't even know how I could function without my "barriers". All I want to do is build relationships with some of my acquaintances but I just can't bring myself to open up in an honest way.

I realize I have some deep trust and/or intimacy issues for some reason, and I'm almost at the point of seeing a counselor. I say almost because I'm still not sure when I would fit such a thing into my schedule with college and work, and I'm not quite at the point of overhauling my schedule yet.

You don't have a job you cuck.

Nigger, get a passion for something. A project with specific goals. Even if it's something dumb or gay. You need all that other shit you mentioned and also a few other things. But you would be an even bigger piece of shit without all that shit

>i dropped vidya for a month but i just spent that time on Sup Forums because i don't have anything to do

You gotta get a hobby brother. Doesnt matter what as long as you enjoy it or have an interest in it. I would suggest anything that takes daily practice to be good, a martial art, musical instrument, fucking hoola hoop doesnt matter, just something where you can see the progress youve made from where you started. Something where everytime you go to do it, the intention is to do it better than last time you did. This builds confidence and can give a sense of accomplishment or purpose.

Seek God m8. The absolute, the transcendent, the ultimate, whatever you want to call it.

It is only in light of God's presence that life is worth living.
> formerly suicidal user who is slowly coming down from the ledge
Choose life. Good luck.

Quitting drinking and the herbal jew today since my brain also feels like mush and I'm miserable. No direction in life is killing me and I have to do something soon or I feel like something terrible is going to happen. My nerves are shot.

>our philosophical and esoteric traditions
"our"? i'm a mongrel, i'm not a "we" with anyone, unfortunately.
none of those things are enjoyable though
but it's been months and i feel nothing

>i'm trying to learn a new language, but it's hard to give a shit when most educated people speak english


I'm telling you, you have the whole wrong mindset about this. You can't force yourself to learn a language just because or do a hobby just because.

It has to be something you actually want to do. Which again, comes from what is your underlying motivation?

Why are you alive everyday? What are you aiming towards? What do you want out of life? What do you believe? What are you willing to die for?

Sounds overdramatic, but once you can honestly answer these questions with conviction, you will find that motivation you need to fully change your life.

>depends what you mean by "anything good"
Honestly man I don't know. I'm just another broken user attempting to repeat some of what the other anons have mentioned in similar threads

Then you probably need actual psychiatric aid. Go see someone.

exactly this. once you can answer why you even bother to breathe instead of just necking yourself and figure out what you want to do you'll be able to aim yourself so much better.

>doing what you like
>passions
>hobby
the problem is not that i'm shit at it (which i am, but that's another point) the problem is that i don't like it. i don't like doing things. i can't find anything i like
good luck brother
i'm still in school, man. the only work i could do would be a part-time job as like a cashier and we all know that shit sucks
i can't just pick a religion if i don't believe in it. trust me, i've tried. i went to a christian middle school and have tried going to church, but i just don't believe it's real. maybe it's because i was raised by atheists

It seems that you have no dopamine in your brain. You should find natural ways to improve it

How often do you get laid though?

what if the only reason i don't kill myself is just that i'm scared to be dead? scared of an eternity of oblivion. that's it. just instinct. nothing else.
i've tried. been through the mental health ringer off and on since i was 6 years old. it doesn't work for everyone

how?
i haven't had sex in a year or so. i don't like people enough to form a relationship but having sex with strangers is awkward and disgusting

What do you live for?

Why is life worth living for you?

>tried to meditate but it didn't work, i had anxiety attacks and wanted to die

Lmao the hell is wrong with you?

>i'm still in school, man. the only work i could do would be a part-time job as like a cashier and we all know that shit sucks
Doesn't matter, that's your fucking problem. Men are not meant to not be employed. Having a gainful career is the only time I've been happy, I went through periods of not being employed and it makes you lose your mind.

why are you so scared to die? whats it matter how you feel about death when you wont even have a chance to worry about it once you've already kicked the bucket? the only thing to scare about death is the way in which you die. fuck dying a painful and slow merciless death.

i don't know. that's what i'm trying to figure out. it seems like i'm only living because i'm too much of a pussy to die
my brain's all fucked up

sleep hygiene nigga

Rising the inslune level is one of the most effectives ways i know. But this implies that you're gonna have to eat carbs and sugar...

>gainful career
a gainful career isn't open to me unless i quit school, though. i can only have a shitty pointless job or drop out of school to make no money in a factory
i'm scared to die because i'm terrified of permanent decisions. once i'm dead, i'm dead. an eternity of oblivion. i'm miserable but i would like to be happy someday. i just can't figure out how to make that happen

i wear a CPAP but it doesn't do me any good
i eat carbs but i try and avoid sugar. sugar gives me acne and makes me flabbier than i already am

listen man. i dont have any big ambitions in life other than to live a financially stable and happy and peaceful life. that's what drives me to pursue my furthering my education to meet my financial goals for the future. im not asking you to become a superstar, but find something that drives you. it can be anything that makes you feel value in yourself. this is why people say pick a hobby because it's something you get deeply involved in and usually grows your character has you become better at it. you learn about life by playing the game, and that means having to get your hands dirty and trying out whatever you can until something works for you. to find yourself you have to be willing to make a few mistakes and laugh with it, using it as a way to better yourself so you don't make the same mistake twice. that's life, just one big giant tangled ball of lessons, to never fully be untangled before we inevitably die. the fun part is seeing how much you can untangle before you die, and that for me is also another driving force behind what i do. it gives me meaning to my life, and maybe you can learn from my example. good luck.

Then you have to find something worth living for. Your race, your people, your family, your faith, yourself, your home, your country, for science, for knowledge, find something.

You just got rid of your hedonism, but you didn't replace it with anything.

i guess i'll just keep trying. i don't know how long before i crash and burn again, but we'll see. thanks, good luck to you too

>a gainful career isn't open to me unless i quit school, though. i can only have a shitty pointless job or drop out of school to make no money in a factory
You could join the military or a trade. I was making 1500 a week in my trade in less than a year in a cheap city. I'd bet you just don't have a purpose and don't feel like you're accomplishing anything at school. Finish off your year and do something else for a bit and just see how you feel, your credits don't vanish.

>Nofap
Why do you fags actually do this? If you have an addiction to pornography, that's one thing, but you idiots realize your body will just ejaculate during the night to get rid of old sperm if you aren't masturbaiting, right?

i'm trying but i'm failing. for example:
>race
i'm a mongrel so i don't have a race
>faith
i don't know what to believe in
>family
i have no love for my sisters, i have no use for my parents, and i have no family of my own and don't plan on having one
>my country
half of my country dislikes people like me and the other half are retarded lefties
>science/knowledge
i'm borderline retarded.

it's hard to find something

one last note. we all have a breaking point and we all have different ways to bend just little instead of completely snapping in half. find what works for you and a way to come to terms with yourself, and i really mean that. be at peace with who you are and sticking to your guns. at the end of the day the only one who gives a single fuck about you is, ultimately, you. giving it a shot and failing is still better than being ridden with the shame of never even trying to rise beyond your past mistakes. even then, even if you do die you can rest knowing you at least didn't give in entirely and did try to at least become something that gave you the answer that everyone seeks, which is to life: our purpose. going to bed now but seriously good luck. i think you can do it.

just keep at it bro,

youll hit a turning point soon

>Finally, reach out to God. Pray. Seek him and he will honor that. Read your Bible.
You were good up until this point, then you went full ameretard

a trade is an option but the military definitely isn't (i don't want to die for israel). i'm terrible with my body though (asperger's) so i can't imagine i'd be good at the trades
idk man i'm desperate to find something that will help

maybe you're just a sociopath

maybe, but it's probably just apserger's. i got tested and they told me that i was "close to meeting the criteria for asperger's, but not enough to get a formal diagnosis"

*asperger's

ass burgers

Eat chocolate, it's an anti depressant but not too much obviously.

Get out in the countryside for long walks and if possible camping. That's the anti depressant with no side effects.

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Check this whole doc out..but for the part that relates to depression, start it from the 15 minute mark.

okay, i will watch

nvm it's blocked in america. so much for "land of the free"

>blocked in Freedomland due to (((copyright)))
Thanks for trying

>a trade is an option but the military definitely isn't (i don't want to die for israel). i'm terrible with my body though (asperger's) so i can't imagine i'd be good at the trades
You just have to be tough, not strong. Plumbing, HVAC, and Electrical are all more about being smart and dealing with tough situations rather than being strong (HVAC installers require strength though). I used to be an IT guy and now I do every facet of HVAC. Also the military is full of POG jobs which have 0% chance of getting you killed, 03's and 11x's make up the minority.

unfortunately, i was referring more to lacking that toughness and physical intelligence rather than strength. strength can be improved pretty consistently (and i'm trying to do that with lifting) but some people just really struggle with being in good control of their bodies and understanding what to do in physical situations. regardless, i've still been considering it because school sucks ass

It's probably less of mental illness and more spiritual illness. No I'm not saying you have to be religious but you have to find your purpose of living first. After that if you are still "miserable" then maybe it's where you live or who you are associating yourself with.

Something happened earlier on you're trying to run from?

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Try that link instead..might work

If not it's called:
Placebo cracking to code

It's probably available elsewhere on line. Well worth a watch.

Fag

not that i know of
yeah, that seems reasonable. i've been looking for my purpose for years though, with no luck
also fucking (((blocked))). i've written down the title though, i will look into it, thanks

I'm an alcoholic who shakes so bad during the day that I and the companies I work for just tell customers I have severe Parkinson's yet I still can work. You don't need a lot of "physical intelligence" just toughness.

>no fap

stop being a memefaggot and rub one out
the issue with jerking off is when people become obsessed with it and looking at porn and feel the need to do it all the time

Was there drug usage?

Yeah, you just need a purpose / goal. I got fired from my job three months ago, and about that time some faggot hit my car parked on the street. I dropped it off to get it fixed, and they said it was totaled and gave me a check for $6,700.

I do a lot less than you, but my purpose and goal is to join the French Foreign Legion. Lots of good reasons, not going in to it here.

The thing is, my life totally sucks, and I should feel miserable, but I feel fantastic. Every day brings me closer to my goal. I feel great! If they don't take me, I'll probably be a suicidal wreck, but for now, I feel great.

Grow some fucking balls you faggot. Gawd I am sick of these fucking threads.. Just end your life already if you want to. No one cares. If you can't live with yourself then don't.

There is no secret to life. There is no code. It's very fucking simple, you get up and you do. You learn to love yourself, live by yourself, and do by yourself. You learn to love the adventure of inventing, of learning, or doing. Figure out some things you want to see in this world and go out and build them. Did you know that we don't even sleep correctly? We should be awake nonstop for 6 days, then sleep 24 hours on Sunday. You can take naps when you get tired throughout the week, thats it. I learnt this when googling sleeping methods and putting everything together. I am also creating and developing shit. I am staying busy. I lost most of my friends, and I feel much happier than before. I got out of a 9 year relationship, and despite getting sad some days I still go. When I get too sad I just sleep and get over it. Now I am fucking feeling great. I feel like I can't break. So fuck you, you fucking little faggots. Stop crying your hearts out and go do something with your fucking lives.

What's the link between trying to stop beeing such a loser and stop fapping? Are you retarded? You think that successful perople dont fap? AHHAHHHA

Good for you user

i'm just trying it since i have nothing to lose. sometimes it's kinda fun to do a month or two reset.
nope
well i hope i find a purpose soon. it's good to hear that you found yours. you remind me of a guy i knew in the mental hospital: his only goal in life was to join the army because he hated muslims more than anything in the world, but they turned him down when they found out he's mildly schizophrenic so he tried to kill himself

Placebo cracking the code

Made a typo before..

Anyhow I have had pretty bad depression Once in life. .for a few months ..I had your so called existential crisis and couldn't reconcile living a pointless life when life is futile...when everything I tried turned to crap.

I ended up reconciling this way of thinking by acknowledging the fact that I am here now and there is no point dwelling on the meaning or lack of meaning to life.

All there ever is, it this moment. The past is a useless ghost and there is no future. It is always just now. Thinking about anything other than this moment is counter productive to you being in the moment.

I dunno if any of that makes sense but it's how I sorted my head out and it's basically zen.


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