Obsessive compulsive self-atomization, anyone else?

I've got zero friends. But to a large extent it happened by choice. There were some people who wanted to talk to me. But I cut them all out of my life. I don't want to talk to anybody. Not even my parents and sister. I don't talk to them at all, even though my dad and sister tried to reach me. Totally blocked them out. It's as if I've gotten into some sort of obsessive compulsive burning of bridges or something. It seems like I WANT to atomize myself as much as possible. Anyone else has this conditions as well?

yes happens to me too, i think my frontal lobe is fucked of too much porn and masturbation

Sounds like schizoid personality disorder. Look it up.

>atomize

I haven't watched porn or masturbated in one year and three months.

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If you wanted it yourself, why do you want to call it a disease? You just accomplished your will. It's like you want to put your hand up and woah it does.

Calling this a disorder is stupid.

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You are literally atoms forced to stay together despite wanting to get away.

Youve succeeded

>If you wanted it yourself, why do you want to call it a disease? You just accomplished your will. It's like you want to put your hand up and woah it does.
Where did I call it a disease?

it started for me around the time i discovered the internet...never been the same since

I love to hang out with my family and I have a few close friends. We talk all the time on social media, but only meet rarely IRL. I just don't have the need for contact that other people seem to have. I also don't want a GF and I can't understand why anyone would. I spend all my free time with studying, drawing and shitposting. I'd trade that for absolutely nothing. Despite all of that, I think I'm confident that I'm at least reasonably mentally healthy. That's just how some people are, no need to feel bad about it.

>obsessive compulsive
Just sounds like that

why did you greentext the word atomize?

fuck of, special snowflake, this is Sup Forums, politics ot gtfo.
sage

how do you know whether your will is free or not?

This seems like a cry for help OP.

It feels good to socialize once in a while even though I like plenty of solitary time myself. You should appreciate your family, especially your parents while they around. Usually they are good people who tried hard for you and gave you everything, and are in your corner no matter what even if you don't have a very open relationship.

I decided long ago to abstain myself from any "friendships". I've never found anyone that I can relate to and I have serious trust issues. I also have cut any ties with my family as they are not worthy of the air that they breathe. Then again I'm also looking forward to an extinction level event for the human race.

happened to me too..
however it was mostly bc. i didn't know what to do with myself and a severe case of "Weltschmerz".

the worst part was that i started to like the feeling of tristess and lonelyness and i think sometimes i even enojoyed my own missery in weird way.

that beeing said.. for me it was just deciding that i don't like that kind of life anymore one day and luckily many of my old friends and most of my family didn't took my 4 year sperg out to serious.

Yes and there's meds for that. I have friends a job and keys to my own apartment now. I isolated myself for over 10 years thinking it was normal to not talk to people and hate them. It's not. Get some help I'm tormented over all the wasted time.

>Calling this a disorder is stupid.

Not really, since people who suffer from it do experience less success and happiness in life than others

I'm in the same boat OP, except in my case I have a serious problem trying to make friends. I get lonely....a lot. When I try to make friends usually something happens and I can't talk to them anymore and it's usually not my fault. Sometimes I feel like I'm cursed. Lately I declared I only want to think and work towards myself only and now I'm getting shit on by everyone's problems around me.

I'm 23 and in the same situation only I'm actually working on changing it. I first came in contact with Sup Forums ideas when I was about 17. I have gone through many insights and corrections. I have distanced myself from everyone, lost the ability to connect with anything in society and became miserable. But now that I am fully redpilled something in me is telling me I should work to improve my personal life and social behaviour now. I am completely autistic around people, have no sense of interpersonal reading and don't know what bullshit is trendy with young people but I will learn it if I have to.