Why should I keep the faith?
After 13 years of prayer for simple things, none are answered or fulfilled.
While I was a child and adolescent I prayed for God to keep me and my family safe, happy, healthy, alive and together, and to bless me and my love ones.
Yet the bullying went on until graduation, even on graduation day.
I was a good kid, got good grades, never drank, never smoked, went to college, and believed the "they'll be working for you someday" meme.
And now black children are bullying my 3 year-old nephew so bad at his daycare, he was punched in the mouth and got a bloody lip.
Where was God?
When I finally read the whole Bible, I got Baptized 2 weeks later. I felt nothing.
A year later I was fired from the best job I ever had for complaining my supervisor about the bathroom conditions, to the point I finally said I'd contact OSHA. It was a state job. They put me on their do not rehire list, and quite possibly got me blacklisted from all state jobs.
My parents didn't pay for my college, so I worked full-time. It took me 5 years to get an associates degree because of that. A degree in entrepreneurship, something no one will hire for, nor do I want to do.
Now only retail and shit work will hire me. I gained 50lbs and can't stand being on my feet all day. When I came home my feet were too sore to exercise.
After 2 years of praying for a better job, nothing. I'm not praying to win the lottery, I've prayed for a a simple 8-5 office job.
I finally quit my job after 2 years, and have been unemployed for 3 months. I have no health insurance because I'm 26. I'm 26 and still living with my parents.
I pray and feel nothing. I don't see miracles, I don't see signs, angels, or visions. I go to church and feel nothing. I've never heard God, Jesus, angels or any voices.
I'm giving God 10 days to turn it all around or I'm abandoning the faith until I see or hear miracles, angels, Jesus, or God himself.
Blind faith is not enough now.
Tell me why I shouldn't.