>Stop thinking of god as a he or generally anthropomorphising it.
>Forget the false concepts of god held by the mainstream (which are also some of they key straw men atheists use to debunk religion).
>it's not about whether 'he' cares, or whether 'he' is good or bad.
Yes it fucking is what the fuck are you talking about? of course it fucking matters.
>Those concepts are irrelevant and greatly limited in scope when considering the bigger picture.
I don't give a shit about the bigger picture. Where do i go from here , uh i'm fucking shit and my life is fucking shit. I can make it better sure , but only up to a point , because i'm genetically restricted.
Not only that , even if i struggle and do all of this shit , why for? when i die prolly nothing happens anyways. Call me selfish but i want more than i can have.
Nah , fuck this whole thing. Just another one of God's mistakes. Sorry , this situation , this body , this family , this country , this whole setup wasn't good enough for me. So , grab the popcorn gawwwwwd.
"i'm just a child of 4 everyday i grow some more"
>As for the helpful links:
>EFT for painful memories (you will lessen the emotional intensity of the memory and ultimately almost forget it, which in turn will cure the emotional issues reated)
>Cognitive behavioural therapy is good as an adjunct to that dealing with specific thoughts.
I was a soldier in previous lifetimes if you believe in that shit. I get flashbacks sometimes. Bronze Age , France Middle Ages , WW2. Maybe Nam.
Or maybe i'm just fucking imagining things.
I also think i have this fucking putrid "demon" thing that's been fucking with my mind for a while now , a black rotten creature. I see it in my darkest moods when i'm alone. I can feel it.
I can't goodthink him/her/it away. I can barely goodthink at all , actually.
Any specific thoughts on how i can unfuck myself? if that's even possible.