FORMER ATHIESTS - What made you believe in God?

Question for all former athiests on this board who now believe there is a God (not necessarily religious, just going from atheist to deist is enough): What was the one defining moment that made you realize/believe/etc that there was a higher power/God?

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I chose to believe in the Deer god Mia since Sunday but I didn't like the name so I'm an atheist again

Was not an atheist, but something that I can
advise to anyone is to actually read the bible.
It makes Hitler look like a faggot, while if
you actually reflect on what you're reading it's
always true.

I grew up.

Universe seems set up for life. Life giving suns with earth's orbiting, and if they're the right distance, life comes from the underwater vents. Life seems to be the purpose of the Big Bang.

bonus question, what made you elevate your belief from just God into also accepting Jesus as God?

I stopped relying on Talmudvision to think for me. As I grew older I naturally sought out information as to why my opinions were or were not valid. It took some time but many of my previously indoctrinated beliefs were knocked down and I began to see the world in a different and more rational view instead of an emotional one.

An almighty being makes since, especially when we are such insignificant specks of shit on the universal scale.

Atheists are arrogant here and now dwellers who have the audacity to claim they understand the universe in its entirety because MUH SCIENCE. They fail to recognize that science is ALWAYS revolutionizing and it is never stagnant.

Read Kierkegaard till you need a break then read Dostoevsky

Buddhism; cosmotheism, and William Luther Pierce.

>What was the one defining moment that made you realize/believe/etc that there was a higher power/God?

When Trump was elected

>What was the one defining moment that made you realize/believe/etc that there was a higher power/God?

I was reading the KJV1611 bible with the queston in my head whether God was real or not and eventually I came across stuff that I believed no man could ever write.

>bonus question, what made you elevate your belief from just God into also accepting Jesus as God?

Watching how evil hides from the name. It is such a powerful name you have to be objectively impressed. There must be a supernatural authority behind it.

I was raised as a sorta-kinda Catholic and went to Catholic elementary school for several years. Most of my social group was in Boy Scouts at the time - and they went to public schools, so my parents let me go to public school so I could be around my friends more. From there, I lived a very secular life, never went to mass, only ever set foot in a Church for funerals and weddings.

I've started working in nursing homes and hospitals as a therapist, and have had many of my patients have moving conversations about their religious lives, and had many of them pass away as well. I started to kinda grope around with the idea of faith and religions again, but had some silly 'block' in my head about Catholicism even though I had never had any kind of negative experience with the Church as a child or since.

I was poking around on youtube and came across this homily by Archbishop Fulton Sheen - youtube.com/watch?v=OiT9p7o0bxA

The rest is history. I have not quite worked up the nerve to go to Confession again, but I have been reading my Bible again and getting as deep into my Catholicism as possible in the situation I'm in right now.

Pleas share some kind of high-level overview of what you saw brother.

No one can truly understand the bible it was written by the Romans, only they knew the true meaning of its prophesies and teachings.
>The Romans hijacked/stole it from dissident (Rabbi) Jews who attempted to organize and resist the Roman occupation. Once the opposition was crushed the Romans decided to rewrite the Bible so they could rule the subjugates of their empire more easily.
>It was/is a mind control tool for the rulers/overlords. They never abide by those holy rules.

>Watching how evil hides from the name

The fuck, son? When have you ever seen evil hide from the name of Jesus?

LSD

I was tired of being hopelessly addicted to degenerated behavior and I needed a savior, so I called on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. It was a sudden change of heart in what I could accept (morally) myself doing.

Gradually as I grew toward God major changes happened in my spirit and I still struggle but now I have hope and somewhere to go with my struggles.

God bless. Hoped that helped. It helped me immensely.
He will answer who calls on His name.

Enjoy your cia faggot brain

>What was the one defining moment that made you realize/believe/etc that there was a higher power/God?

I completely understand the "block" you are talking about.

I lived a similar religious life to you (grew up Catholic, kinda strayed away, now trying to return) so it's odd to hear about this block. Slowly but surely I've been overcoming this block. I will watch your video and see if how it helps.

Has anyone else dealt with this "block"?

delving into occult readings the one common theme was a universal hatred for Christianity.

Live like a heaten long enough and see the degenracy. Realize not a one of them believes in god, niether did I. Was shown sign after sign after sign, was willfully ignorant of what had to be divine intervention. Consider myself logical and ration person, have intense feeling of love when hearing about Jesus even when I forsook my religion and could not remain willfully ignorant. In my opinion god saw my character and judged me, and attepmted time and time again to get me to accept him and wouldn't give up. I gave in, and accepted it for two reasons. Love in my heart and a logical conclusion that the degeneracy in society I directly a result of overt secularism. No one needs god to be moral and neither did I. I never behaved maliciously and I believed that was enough, however, my life was shit and lacked something.

No I haven't been to church, I don't think god wants us to do that, it only endorses secular manipulation of religion, god is in you and wants you to recognize it.

TL;DR
Lived like a heathen, inexplicable emotional drive to find religion despite fundamentally despising it for being illogical. Too much coincidence one day and bam, no more religious neglegence.

Same user, but the anti-Christian (Catholicism specifically) brainwashing is really pervasive and strong. I see it everywhere now. And it's sad to see how much the Church has fallen compared to how I remember it - my old Church that was attached to my school looks like a Protestant church now. That said I do think there is a robust movement calling for a return to the Truth and Tradition. That definitely helped me.

It belongs to the imperfection of everything human that man can only attain his desire by passing throught it opposite. - Kierkegaard

Some days I wake up and have no faith some days I wake up and find myself Christian. I was a non believer for years and just recently started going to church. (Life Church) Anyways I am married got a kid and like the values that people at church have. Better way to meet good people imo. Faith is a daily struggle for me but hell nobody is perfect.

I started reading C.S. Lewis and he made me a Christian.

two passages in particular changed me (Faith cometh by hearing and hearing by the word of God):

1.
Matthew 25:34-45 KJV
[34] Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world: [35] For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in: [36] Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me. [37] Then shall the righteous answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, and fed thee ? or thirsty, and gave thee drink? [38] When saw we thee a stranger, and took thee in? or naked, and clothed thee ? [39] Or when saw we thee sick, or in prison, and came unto thee? [40] And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me. [41] Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels: [42] For I was an hungred, and ye gave me no meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me no drink: [43] I was a stranger, and ye took me not in: naked, and ye clothed me not: sick, and in prison, and ye visited me not. [44] Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee? [45] Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.

Shows how humble God is, to humble himself to the level of creation despite being almighty

and cont.

Proverbs 21:3 (God promoting fighting instead of weakness)
To do justice and judgment is more acceptable to the LORD than sacrifice.

Proverbs 1:28 (God promoting consequences and damnation for degenerates).
Then shall they call upon me, but I will not answer; they shall seek me early, but they shall not find me:

1 Timothy 2:12 (God stating that women are to be controlled by man).
But I suffer not a woman to teach, nor to usurp authority over the man, but to be in silence.

Literally my entire life, I want to cry. It's beautiful. God bless you and hopefully this world ill one day rid itself of the mindset that adversity must be eliminated. Adversity and overcoming it has literally defined my best characteristics.

the earth is flat and god is time and space

Luke 7:36-50 KJV
[36] And one of the Pharisees desired him that he would eat with him. And he went into the Pharisee's house, and sat down to meat. [37] And, behold, a woman in the city, which was a sinner, when she knew that Jesus sat at meat in the Pharisee's house, brought an alabaster box of ointment, [38] And stood at his feet behind him weeping, and began to wash his feet with tears, and did wipe them with the hairs of her head, and kissed his feet, and anointed them with the ointment. [39] Now when the Pharisee which had bidden him saw it , he spake within himself, saying, This man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman this is that toucheth him: for she is a sinner. [40] And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on. [41] There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty. [42] And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most? [43] Simon answered and said, I suppose that he , to whom he forgave most. And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged. [44] And he turned to the woman, and said unto Simon, Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped them with the hairs of her head. [45] Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet. [46] My head with oil thou didst not anoint: but this woman hath anointed my feet with ointment. [47] Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little. [48] And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven. [49] And they that sat at meat with him began to say within themselves, Who is this that forgiveth sins also? [50] And he said to the woman, Thy faith hath saved thee; go in peace.
cont

>choosing to belief in religion again only to then pick the religion responsible for the degeneracy of modern society
Christcucks can't compete with pagan might.

The idea of the fractal universe and the way of zen by allan watts. For some reason I managed to attain like 1/4 of buddahood even before this book, now at "satari" or whatever. If that even means anything lol. Some of the lore of Buddhism coincides with that of other religions. So I guess, since last week I am not an atheist anymore...yet I still am. But then I am not, but am.

this shows how God has mercy on the sorrowful and weak and is no respector of persons. Both these passages made me a believer

*teleports behind you*

Entheogens. It's hard to have experiences and still be a materialist or atheist

>Jews admitted in their filthy Talmud that Jesus had miracle powers.
>Jews praised a satanist filthy faggot in the year of 1666, but they killed our lord. They still hate Christ, and they still kill kids for sacrifices.
>The world is into some satanic cultural stuff. Jesus praised against it all 2000 years ago.

Jesus is real, God is real, Jews know it and they actively try do destroy Christians everywhere they go.

It is the truth. Embrace the ultimate redpill.

GOD EXISTS. JESUS WAS A LIVING IMAGE OF GOD. JESUS HAD DIVINE POWERS.

I was possessed by a demon.

Storytime?

I too would be interested in this story.

It's larping faggot who used dragon dildos in his ass, and though that his cumming by prostate massage was a manifestation of Satan in his body.

I saw how the world was turning to shit, Christian/traditional values were be attacked and I looked into Christianity.

I always assumed Jesus lived but that was about it. After actually reading the new testament, watching videos, seeing how his disciples died, etc. It just clicked and felt right. The fact that all his disciples claimed to see Jesus resurrected from the grave and died brutal deaths preaching what they believed in, it made it that much more sincere.

Small things like the shroud of turin proving jesus died exactly how they wrote he died and other small things helped my belief.

The JQ

>larping
>dues vult flag
really makez u thinksz...

I realized that the probability of being born & existing as a human is like 1/100000000000. I don't think we exist by mere chance.

Atheism was a phase I was in. I was angsty and needed an outlet, so I jumped on the atheism bandwagon. 20 years later though with a lot more life under my belt, I learned how to think for myself and I had some experiences that changed me.

>Christianism is responsible for gramscian jew plot to destroy the West
>Fedora fags believe in this
>Bible openly ask of you to depart from: alcohol, drugs, fags, corporal degenerate pleasures, divorce, women to obey their husbands, kids to obey their parents, women to keep their virginity until marriage, etc
>Leftists asks you to let your kid play with Drag Queens, experiment a dick in your ass, to curse Christ, that virginity is disgusting, tinder is and casual sex are okay, drug yourself until you can't remember what you are anymore, do porn and jack off 10x a day, never marry, kids are bad and that God is dead.

For anyone interested - here's an interesting documentary on the Shroud.

youtube.com/watch?v=E_fSgPQYxkk

Jesus miracles being written down in the Talmud, even so that the pharisees hated him so much, they didn't lie about it.

Not larping as a Christian. I am Christian.

Does this imply the possibility of reverse time travel?

meditation, contemplation. became less interested in the semantic arguments that atheists only offer, as the ineffability of things became more obvious and unavoidable.

there was no defining moment, basically it was a gradual realization that everyday life is divine revelation.

Sup Forums

You speak of traditional fundamentalist Christianity.
Modern Christianity supports and enables such marxism to manifest in society.

>Romans 3:22-25
23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;

24 Being justified freely by his grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus:

25 Whom God hath set forth to be a propitiation through faith in his blood, to declare his righteousness for the remission of sins that are past, through the forbearance of God;

No it does not.
It's jews corrupting the religion.
The word will not change because there are hippie californian gay priests, dike nuns or any modern faggotry.
The word of God is eternal. Go read, and you will understand.

Just logic for me. It seems there must be something that is ontologically "fundamental." And that ontologically fundamental must necessarily be "greater" than the superstructure that rests on it, so it must include all ideas for existence, all conceptions, as well as all possibilities that are "real" but beyond human conceptual ability (for example, irrational numbers). So it must be "intelligent," and more so than human intelligence, and not just in an additive way, such as better or faster problem solving, but also transcending all the possibilities of this type of "intelligence," whether human or machine or what have you. This came also with the understanding that the set of ideas is larger than the set of "real things," which convinced me of idealism (or maybe not so strongly, just not-materialism)

So, I guess something like the ontological argument.

Can you even be this autistic?

heidegger

Getting saved and switching ti KJV

Also, remember:

IT WILL ONLY GET WORSE FROM NOW ON.
NOW IS THE PRIME TIME TO CONVERT TO CHRIST. SOCIETY IS TO BECOME AN ABSOLUTE MORAL ABYSS.

ONLY GODS LIGHT CAN PROTECT YOU FROM WHATS COMING!

So you don't deny it's been corrupted, and that it's corrupted form has become mainstream?
And piss off with your 'read the Bible and you will understand' hogwash. Didn't work before, won't work this time.

Not that guy, but look at how anyone that hears His name instantly gets angry. They want it hidden from them.

You can't corrupt the word, you can corrupt the people.
There are faggot ministers, dyke nuns and faggot catholic priests.
How does that diminishes the glory of God, the passion of Christ and the purity of the word? In no way. Reject the freaks, embrace the blinding light.

When I realized that a colossal Faggot like OP couldn't occur naturally

People will do as people do. Mankind establishing bad political systems has no influence on metaphysical reality.

He was a Christian? Tell me more.

I don't believe in a physical man in the sky that watches over me. I'm still confused about my relationship to Christianity, I just know for a fact religion is better for society than faggy fedora atheism that leads to societal and cultural nihilism. If anything, there's some good bible verses with good meaning that can help you live a decent life

What was corrupted before will become corrupted again, Jews have used and will continue to use Christianity to implement and justify their will.
No amount of 'glory of God' or 'embrace the light' will stop this.

Many scrolls were eliminated,banned and destroyed during the council of Nicaea. Christianity was most likely the creation of the Flavian dynasty of ancient Rome.
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/First_Council_of_Nicaea
youtu.be/5-jDH3Sn9Pw

God is not a physical man on the sky.
God is an all powerful entity who floats above, inside and everywhere our reality.
Dive in it, bro, it's the best way to live.

The human modern spirit hungers for metaphysical meaning. Give it a try. Let God enter in your heart and life, you will be amazed and in pure awe, and you will never look back.

Meanwhile no corruption of man will cause God to have not existed. So you're arguing a moot point.

Went to Catholic school my whole life, had Catholic friends but secular (ish) home life. Struggled a long time but in the last year really decided to make an effort to return to God. I also felt the block. It still pokes its head in. Prayer is what is helping me the most. I found a lot of my block came from strong disagreement with the current church/Vatican 2 stuff, which I didn't realize before. Currently learning about the real Catholic faith. I found a website, traditio.com, which I find an incredible resource.

I agree with the other reply to you, especially as a woman: brainwashing is rampant (feminism, political correctness, diversity, etc), and I would argue even exists in the current church. Keep your eyes open.

Why is there no option for a Christian flag but there's one for Muslim?

I agree. God, Christ and the word is INCORRUPTIBLE.

The word is above politics, your relationship with God don't depend on what the jews do, it depends on your individual effort to eat the word of God daily, to pray to him daily and to surround you with a christian culture.

Really? I hated horror movies but my wife loves them. Eventually I discovered the ones about demons and hell I enjoyed, like Constantine and As Above, So Below. Let to a fascination with Occult stuff, read into it a bit since I've kind of always felt that demons and God exist. The more I learned that some of the major demons were also all over the Old Testament, I decided to read the KJV audio books on YouTube. Wow.

I'm about finished with Old Testament now and ive touched on the new some, but I am a true believer now. Once I can further fully allow Jesus into my heart as God as well I am set. Currently wrestling with the fact that it feels like idolatry to me.

Maybe God doesn't exist and your trying to justify worshiping some Jewish messiah?

coincidentally.. mushrooms..
had visions. saw the light. was the light.
got to meet to the boss.
boss told me the story of my life.
it was perfect. that's how i know it was God.
got to experience my personal heaven.
got to experience my personal hell.

but now i'm here again.
i'm not aloud to live in higher realms of divinity, all the time.
only sometimes i'm aloud to remember.
that goes for all of you too.

maybe God is only attainable while living and breathing..
i do not know if a human being has the capacity to transcend to the energy field upon death.

while alive is another story...It is possible to obtain visionary experiences and even "God" or "God like" phenomena..
enlightenment, awakening, godhead, the light, perfection, oneness etc

and i think that is what alot of spirituality and rleigions are trying to hint at or talk about, because it is the most perfect and beautiful experience a person can have while alive.
it's genuinely life-changing phenomena..
flips your whole worldview inside-out.

was an atheist..
at mushrooms.
not an atheist.
was like my 30th time tripping too.

Daily reminder that religion is still just philosophy for the weak-minded.

Hey user. My views as an ex-atheist, from a secular perspective, are summarized in the following posts -

archive.4plebs.org/pol/thread/120132023/#120132023
archive.4plebs.org/pol/thread/119277518/#119286689

Templar. I'm a fail.

I know this might sound retarded, but the spark that lit my spiritual flame started when Trump won.

See, I was as normie as normie does. Proud feminist, white knight, "I'm so different from other guys," type of fucking cuck. I was a worthless as shit stoner in college that was dated a chinese bitch long distance for years. I was patheticly depressed and hating my life, only caring about the next time I got to slam that tight puss.

My life was one tragedy after the next. Severe concussion from drugs, check. Massive panic attacks from concussion, check. Barely get through college, check. Basement dwelling incel, check. Get a job but can't leave because parents can't support themselves, check. Chinese bitch red pills me about women, thank fucking check.

Being stuck at home I was forced to watch Fox News with my baby boomer parents. Ah, Fox, what a laughing stock of idiocy! Jon Stewart told me every night while I was hugging my shit water bong, eyes as red as the devil's dick.

The woman red pill, combined with actually watching Fox News without a take-me-seriously-but-I'm-a-clown-so-don't-criticize-me Jon Stewart cultural marxist, bleeding heart Jew filter, I became conservative. Conservatism is just right. Not warm and fuzzy, but actually correct.

I found r/the_donald, I found this fucked up place
I can't seem to leave. The information changed me. I couldn't unsee the truth. I read Scott Adam's God's Debris, I found Jordan Peterson's Biblical Lecture series, I started questioning what I really know about reality.

I found out about how totally fucked and evil the world really is.
The old eating the young.
The cultural marxist subversion.
The demoralization of my generation.
Hillary Clinton's unpunished crimes.
The systematic lying to my generation, and my father's generation.

My belief in good and evil was solidified.

Trump good. Hillary is the end of USA.

Trump wins. An actual miracle.

>What was the one defining moment that made you realize
When I saw crazy ass feminists deplatform Richard Dawkins from the Atheist movement.
When I saw those same crazy Atheist cultists defend a hysteric cunt who accused a man for rape, just because he asked her out for coffee in an elevator.

I realised Atheists are cancerous communists. And their culture can only make our world worse.
Their dogmatic beliefs are akin to religious brainwash. And it's even worse because these cunts are now political activists.

Go all the way, and dwell in the word of God.
If you want more about politics, learn German and go read the pre nazi conservative revolutionaries.
Go full force. Find meaning in life, and do what you got to do.

The issue that made me switch from atheism to generic theism was the issue of free will. Determinism is an unavoidable conclusion of an atheistic, materialist perspective, and yet it completely self-imploding metaphysical belief system as the act of arguing for determinism (whether with yourself or others) is entirely predicated on the assumption that people have free will, otherwise it's mental illness-tier to try and argue with a deterministic human every bit as much as it would be to scream at a cloud for raining "untruthfully" or a rock falling down a hill "wrong". Error as a concept only exists insofar as there is both an objective metric to compare things to AND the genuine capacity and potentiality to actually affect change (i.e. you need free will), and so any argument for determinism (which invalidates the above) can never be anything other than self-contradictory.

From there I explored whehter God was just some generic Deist-type power that didn't do anything, or if he was a personal God that had (possibly) entered into his own creation in some identifiable capacity. I do not have some iron-clad defense as proof of this (nor can you), but I am convinced that we have had God walk among us in the form of Jesus of Nazareth.

1 Corinthians 2:5
>That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.

I was converted by a conversation with my father-in-law. As an atheist, I asked him all my questions I had about religions and faiths, he answered all that he could. In the end, I was sincerely convinced that I should give it a try. My gf at the time was also talking about Christ to me. And I gave it a try, by watching christian movies, reading some Sup Forums threads, and doing a little bit of this and that...

I am so happy that my life came cross into them, so I could savage this treasure into my life. Recently I found a catholic priest who is on youtube, and has like 600 videos about Christ and the faith. I usually wonder about them, and spend long nights watching it. I pray every night, I think about God and Jesus every second. I never felt so happy in my life.

Put in automatic translation. This priest is fucking based. He is friend with the most hardcore and influential right-wing philosopher alive in Brazil, Olavo de Carvalho.

He talks about everything (but in a catholic perspective): angels, lucifer, Jesus, Gods nature, marriage, relationship, how to pray, etc

Give it a try. It's 10/10 (if you don't hate catholics)

youtube.com/watch?v=n9pkQ5NgalY
(Just put language translation, it's very close (1:1) to what he is saying.

There's no such thing as God you fucking idiots.

Why do the dipshit Sup Forums mods allow topics like this? How is this topic related to politics or current events?

A couple times I've had such bullshit bans for posting "off topic" topics, yet people come on here and make dumb shit fuckin' topics like this.

Is this politics or fucking a place for Christian pastors to preach?

It's self evident. How else would we be saved if not God's own son?

>IM PICKLE RICKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK, THERE IS NO GOD MORTY *BLUARGGG*, IT'S ALL MEANINGLESS, IT JUST GO ALL BLACK, GET THAT MC DONALDS SAUCE MORTY!!!!

After my son was born I called out for forgiveness, that my death would one day break his heart, which weighed heavy on me for a while after he was born; my grandpa had died a few years before that, I was in a dark place even until that moment, and him being born lead to a change in everything. It is undoubtedly the most important string of events that has occurred in my life

youtube.com/watch?v=H2jcfqQQx_8
>Como provar que Jesus é Deus?
>How to prove that Jesus is God?

Watch this catholic priest talking, put the translation on, and enjoy!

>traditio.com

Thank you for sharing the link. Also checked.

I prayed to Jesus to heal me in a car crash that should have taken my life, in which I sustained many critical injuries, most of which should have been permanent.

But God healed my body in Jesus' name, and now I am His man.

Jesus was a cuck who got nailed by a large Roman soldier

Great find. Bishop Fulton Sheen has amazing words
Priests human just like us. Capable of evil as we've seen but that doesn't diminish the core beliefs of our faith. Go back and research preVatican 2.
The rosary is not about mindlessly repeating a prayer over and over again. Its a means to help meditate on Jesus's life. The saints are like your family and friends here with you, they can pray for you if you ask.
I hope you find your way back to the Church. Look past the anti-Catholicism and see what a wonderful faith we have.
Ditto what he said

Pic related.

Another big issue for me was realizing how most atheists are retarded and/or massive liars when it comes to the Biblical account given in both the Old and New Testament.

The general idea goes that a bunch of illiterate desert tribesman who were of incredible stupidity and gullibility wound up getting duped by a guy pulling cheap thumb-pulling tricks or otherwise falling for rumors of his magic Jebus-powers. However actually reading the Bible makes it clear that this is not the case, and you have people like Paul who I would guess had an IQ around 140 to 150 making it very, VERY clear that he "got" the atheist arguments and criticisms but that he was persuaded that the truth of God and of his Son Jesus were truthful, literal accountings and that we will stand before God when we died. The reason atheists have to lie is because you take a tremendous amount of air out of their balloon when you demonstrate that the people arguing for the deity and truth of God and Christ were not a bunch of cult-member, illiterate retards, but often razor sharp, introspective men who concluded that it was true despite knowing of all of the reasons not to.

Wherefore I put thee in remembrance that thou stir up the gift of God, which is in thee by the putting on of my hands. 7For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

My ex destroyed my life and took my kids. I was going to jump off a bridge. I told myself if there is a guardian angel, then I want to meet mine. I went to an empty city park at night and sat down on a bench and no one came. So I went that week walking around people asking them in my head if they could read my mind, and none could. Then I started to feel better and I was walking along a lock in my city and started thinking randomly about the movie ELI, and if it was really a book in the bible. Then a few seconds after that a guy on the sidewalk next to mine started mumbling that he was sensitive and could hear things. And I said "wtf" in my head and he said "I heard that!!" and I thought I fucked up and he was going to kick my ass. Then I kept walking, and he followed for a bit and then said "Three words! E... L... .I..." and I stopped dead in my tracks, and turned around and said "How did you do that?" and he said "Doesn't matter!" and picked up his backpack and started walking away. Then I said "What's your time?" and he said "doesnt matter!" and I said "Please, I just want to talk with you" and he said "Doesn't matter! You're talking to the choir!!" and then he said it again, and just walked off. I followed him for a bit on my sidewalk, and called my friend who told me to leave the guy. It was surreal. And I was in shock. He gave me the message that I wanted, and that was it. So, I picked myself up and am trying to finish what I started.

I'm so happy to see so many Christians on Sup Forums
We should consider making an virtual church.