I HATE my mother. What the fuck?

Just need to get this off my chest. I really hate my mom guys. No, this isn't teenage angst pseudo-hate, I mean that the day she dies will be the best day of my entire life
She was abused mentally and physically as a child, her house burned down and so she hoards shit, her room is full to the top of thrift store garbage. She refuses to get help.
She is also an alcoholic. Very white trash, natty lite. Stuffs the cans under the couch when she's done with them. No shame, will crack open a beer in front of us even though it's clear to everyone she's alcoholic
Physically and emotionally abusive to all 3 of her kids as well as her husband. My dad can't do anything because we don't have a lot of money and if there's a divorce, we'd all be on the street because muh marriage laws. Also my dad is a spineless prick but that's another story. Every time I hear her car door slam, my heart starts racing.
I don't know, you guys, she's just never been loved her entire life, by anyone. She's admitted she's always been fucked up, and that she just hid it for long enough to get married. Knowing her has put my off marriage for the rest of my life.
She used to be young and pretty, now the cheap beer and fucking random white trash guys she met on the internet has taken its toll.
We have enough money for decent food, but all she buys is discount shit from the local supermarket (pastries with "sell by" dates set to tomorrow, half-rotten vegetables, etc.) She's broken my bedroom door down twice with a hammer and come after me. All sorts of other fucked up shit that she's done.
I just want to move out and never see her ever again.
Even more fucked up? Every time I see one of those "your mother will die in her sleep tonight" posts I really, really wish it comes true because the day that happens is the day I am finally free from the hell that she creates daily for me and the rest of my family.

Is it okay to hate her? I feel there is truly no hope, she has destroyed our entire family. What do?

Your mother sounds like a cheap whore. Does she piss in a glass then let you drink it?

just pray and things will get better

>What do?

ignore her and get the fuck out of there.

You need to bide your time, and get out. Don't look back and don't reestablish contact. Disappear, start a new life and be the best person you can be. Good luck user.

We have come to terms.

You gotta break that god complex you give to your parents. Carl Jung and Freud talk about it a lot. What your parents do or think about does not matter to you.

Not sure if serious, but she hasn't done that
I am praying to every god under the sun and even those not under the sun
Yes, hoping my crypto keeps doing well so I can move out. I'd rather live/sleep in car than live in a house where I have to hear her voice
Thanks so much user. This seems to be the best bet. Only problem is my dad and siblings, I don't want them to suffer under her any longer. I have crypto but fuck lambos, the first thing will be a new house for them both.

THIS IS NOT POLITICCSSS YOU FUKKKING ASFHHSJJ I HOPE YOU DIE

Hey little experiment. Do you care if your potential future wife is intelligent? On a scale of one to ten please rate how important it is to you. It will help me validate or invalidate a theory I have.

it's okay to hate her, user. do you have a plan to get out?

No point in hating her, just get away from her as soon as you can, and forget about her.

fuck your crypto currency fucking larper.

If you're over 18, move out
If you're not over 18, get off this site but do try and apply for emancipation

I thought it was for all things politically incorrect, like hating your mom, see the sticky:
>The variety of threads allowed here are very flexible and we believe in freedom of speech, but we expect a high level of discourse befitting of the board.
I don't think I'll ever get married. If I did it would only be in a country where I could divorce easily (meaning without western divorce laws).
As for her intelligence, well, it's definitely blue-pill of me but I just want a girl who takes care of me in the ways that you'd imagine a mother would, I would always do my best to be the man of the house like my dad isn't
Yes, I've already been called a larper but crypto is literally my only hope at the moment. I have no friends to call upon (due to her, surprise surprise) I have about $1400 worth and will hopefully renting an apartment, no matter the cost
I have nothing to larp about, people do actually have shitty parents like this, fuck off

Then just move out. Save some money without telling anyone and rent a flat in a distant neigbourhood as soon as you can stand independently. Cut any contact with your whore mom, and come back only to help your siblings get out too when there will be a chance.

Thanks, poland, this seems to be the general consensus at the moment. I'm doing my best to get as much money as possible to do this. My brother already joined the marines to get away from her, but I will try and help my sister if I can. My dad too, he doesn't deserve to be broken down more and more every fucking day by her, it's like he'll drop dead at any moment from stress-related heart failure or something

Interesting. Thanks user.

This (OP) I had very similar background
Last time I saw my mother was 20 years ago
she lives 2 miles from me and has never and
will never meet her granddaughter. It sucks and
it will be with you for life. Stay mentally strong

I think you could find that for very cheap anywhere. The expensive part is getting the prostitute to drink it.

>she lives 2 miles from me
>It sucks
Yeah, you could build your life up from having a fucked up mom who is not present in your life anymore, but having a fucked up mom who is still present in your life will fuck with your life.

Thanks for assuring me I'm not alone in this.
Also that's what I'm worried about, that I'll grow up to be fucked up like she is/was. I definitely don't want her in contact with anyone I want to have a good relationship with, because she always ruins shit. What's worse is I fear that some of her issues are genetic (she comes from a white trash, natty lite family, think trailer park Kentuckians) and because of this I am reluctant to even have kids. Funny how nature works huh?
I didn't know if posting here would help but it seems to be the first step. I will try to stay strong, thanks again.

Grow a pair and move out. Get a fucking job and pay rent for wherever you live. If you're in college, attend to that later in life. Work hard and you'll be on top of things, don't worry. You have to understand, that a lot of people have issues, and your mom is noticeably above average in this regard. But usually, the power to turn mental issues into someone else's problem stems from paying the bills (or paychecks), so you first have to find a job and build an adult life.

Probably not what you wanted to hear, but this road will lead you to happiness. Guaranteed.

Doing my best to do just that. I'm hoping 2018 will be the year my life does a 180.

Also, have you tried contacting the police? Home abuse is a serious offence. If it was here your mom could end up in rehabilitation centre, where she would get some help.

Also you wouldn't need to worry about mom's response, I think. In police, at least here, we have a prohibition of informing suspect who was the one to report him.