Be encouraged as a child to be a good person above all else

>be encouraged as a child to be a good person above all else
>become a shy and sensitive bookworm
>raised by single mother who was beaten by alcoholic father
>develop caring attitude towards women
>most girls say I'm "nice", "too pure", a "good guy" etc
>isolated from aggressive plebs in shitty state school
>develop admiration for chivalry, tradition, ethics and romance
>become a hermit in university and focus on study and personal academic growth
>avoid clubs, bars etc because it's too overwhelming
>avoid facebook because I have nothing to announce, document, etc
>unemployed for months after graduating
>finally find a low-prestige entry-level office job
>living and working in a majority non-white, very expensive and crowded city
>see anti-white etc news pieces every day
>see behaviour of non-whites firsthand and become disgusted
>shift towards far-right, develop appreciation for conservatism and masculine ideals
>try for dozens of other jobs but only get one interview
>beautiful girl starts working for a company in the same building
>she smiles at me and we both stare at each others' eyes for several seconds
>feel every nerve ending coming alive and my heart racing
>she is like a candle lighted in the darkness
>discover she and all her co-workers are upper class
>she probably suspects I am too and smiles at me a bunch more times and is often nearby
>too timid and broken to say anything to her
>realize I have no connections, social skills, money, stability, career prospects etc to offer her or anyone else
>she loses interest and starts dating an upper class jew working in finance
>too demoralized to apply for any more jobs
>applied to return to university but withdrew it
>currently on the verge of resigning and living in a tent until I die or my savings run out

Is anyone else here close to dropping out of society? I would appreciate a sincere discussion about this issue.

Sorry for the blog post, I'm just curious to know if anyone relates my story?

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>raised by single mother
my best friend is a omega male too, also raised by a single mother and his sisters.
everything that is happening to you it's becouse your mom

I had a perfect upbringing but i dropped out of society because no matter how fucking hard i try the collages are always packed with 40 year old immigrants so you no chance.
Who wants to give a nobody with nothing his 1st chance at life and no matter how hard you try to prove your worth theres no one that gives a fuck.
>ive been in this cycle for years and one of these days im going to kill myself

dont trip homie u got this
do what you love
fuck the haters

nice blogpost faggot
y don't you post this on kikebook ?

I was also raised by a mom and sister. I agree they damaged me somewhat, or stunted my growth, however as an adult I refuse to allow their influence to dictate my life. Also my mother was relatively masculine.

How long have you been unemployed exactly? How old are you?

I relate but I don't think you should give up. Feelings over bitches can throw us out of whack but there's more hoes in the sea.

Dropping out of society? OP from your rant you were never a part of society to begin with

FUCK ITS ANOTHER IM A NICEGUY WHY WONT GALS SUCK MY COCK EPISODE

Im 22, i worked in a bodyshop since 16 for £20 a day because its all i could get.
Even lost that because someone came in and offered cheaper work.
Been about 2 years unemployed now.

Just man the fuck up

This may very well be true. However I do have a job at present, which is something.

I'm aware it may seem like that, but I'm just pointing out that a lack of masculine role model(s) in my life early on contributed to my delayed appreciation for gender dynamics. I'm not saying that being nice etc should be rewarded with offers to penetrate others.

Well good luck to you.

I feel you. You just need to realize that all your conditioning is bullshit and be the man you want to be. Took me a long time to realize it too, missed out on a lot because I wasn't taking initiative and trying to please others instead of thinking about my own well being.

Put yourself first and people will respect you more. You can't respect someone who doesn't respect themselves and men who are raised by single moms rarely have self respect because their mom's will raise them like girls.

It's never too late to fix yourself.

Join the military. It's a superior seperate society and an into into the beautiful world of government employment. Ignore anyone who disagrees and don't fucking join the Army or Marines.

So basically your disgust of society stems from a lack of pussy as is the case for most alt-right / neo-nazi / white nationalist ppl on this board.

Thanks man.
>itll get better is the best joke in the adult world

I would have taken a metal bat and smashed that bitches face

I grew up with my mother and father around. I was pushed to be into sports and be dominant and fight back. Now, I'm not submissive and will fight if I absolutely have to and can deal with social situations, but ultimately I'm a passive person that tends to check out of society except for when I have to interact. Completely socially retarded and also have high functioning autism. Sometimes how we are raised doesn't matter, it's just how our brains were wired.

im kind of the same way as you, and i have great social skills depending on the situation you're kind of a faggot your not supposed to give up the easily you keep trying. Also im poor as shit so be happy uncle sam gave you uni and you paid it somewhat for yourself im sitting in community college and my fasfa application got denied because i didnt write physically, even though they said i can email it. Thats besides the point keep trying and dont be a crybaby faggot shit can be worse and even you know it.

Do yourself and your nation a favor and when you decide to checkout take a few mudslimes or niggers with you.

Don't give up OP, just have a start, there's good for you somewhere.
Just don't give up, be a man.

Not consciously no, although as someone who desires a romantic relationship of course this compounds my misery. I just feel that I am too weak to "make it" in a modern world which seems to be making increased efforts not to find a place for me. I realize that possessing valuable skills or knowledge makes such "feelings" redundant in many cases, but still I feel that my society is heading in one direction (Progress) while I am very reluctant to buy into that ideology. And now my job is becoming intensely demanding etc yet I have no real "reason" to pile even more pressure on myself (e.g. to raise a family, improve a home, etc). I just work, pay rent, and rot in isolation among non-whites.

fuck off faggot im not gonna read that wall of text
also this isnt tumblr or anything sod off nigger

just become a gayporn actor. "i can't get a job" is just a lazy excuse. there are plenty of jobs for you, and now be a real man and suck these cocks for money. never forget to smile at the camera after you swallowed cum and say "Sup Forums send me here for being a faggot and i love it".

Maybe you're just mayonnaise patrol and should find a nice girl to settle down with.

Eh, I don't knwo that I'd recommend non-ground-pounder military to anybody you want to keep a hold of. Escaping one's bubble and meeting mroe kinds of people generally isn't conducive to the kind of right wing faggotry you guys partake in.

Not to mention getting to see just how ass-backwards conservative thought process is when applied to all aspects of life. My time in the military was one of the biggest contributors to me losing respect for the American right wing

>on the verge of resigning and living in a tent until I die or my savings run out

lmao, had a good kek out of your life op

please kill yourself

Stop being a pussy.Faggot.

Life is hard,its harder if you're stupid.

Which "bitch"? My mother is an overall good person. She came from extreme poverty and worked hard to provide me with everything my friend's had. I just learned too late the value of having an experienced man in your life to guide and instruct etc and who can discuss disagreements in a calm, rational way.

Do it faggot. Oh right, you won't because you enjoy your comfy life too much.

Are you on Tinder?

Now I know people on this board will immediately say Tinder is a meme etc. but it can be a good way to get in touch with women if you don't have a great social life otherwise. Also there is no harm done if you fuck it up on the first few tries.

Of course don't go swiping left on all women below 9/10.

she meant your oneitits, you retarded cuck

although all single mothers are whores by default too

might have anxierty disorders

go see a psychiatrist and you will probably get some ssri antidepressant like escitalopram and xanax to go with it

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My life isn't really very comfy. I live in a slum-tier apartment in the ghetto and don't work a job which involves transferable skills. I'm not "doing it" (i.e. killing myself in a tent) for the same reason hundreds of thousands of other disgruntled white males don't go live in the woods etc; because it goes against deep biological instincts.

I created an account a year ago as a trial but only had a few responses, and I didn't like the fact it was obvious the girls were speaking to other people at the same time. Just not my thing.

I am very averse to taking antidepressants. I don't even take headache tablets, or drink alcohol, smoke etc. I am hostile to that kind of thing.