Ok guys, so here is my story. I had strong feelings for a pretty little blonde girl for quite some time. We were friends for a few months and I eventually started liking her, I really wanted to date her, mainly cuz she made me happy and I felt like I could be myself around her, which doesn’t happen with a lot of females. I ended up asking her out a few times and she rejected me, but we continued to be friends and we never talked about it again. So after about 6 months of this she recently decides to start officially dating this 250 pound mulatto (half black) fucker. They had been fucking for a while and it took them that long to make it official. She posted something on her finsta last night where she said “I’m all yours” and tagged him. That shit felt like a dagger in my fucking soul, just that one statement made me want to cry, just reading that one sentence fucking broke me. I was obsessed with that girl. I would get depressed almost every night for the past four months knowing that I might never get the chance to be with her. I would cry like 4 times a week. The girl has been constantly on my mind for months. Now I’m at a complete loss, and my depression has reached its peak. And some backstory, I’ve been Alt-Right for about a year now, I even run Alt-Right Instagram page that has close to 1.5k followers. But recently, I kinda feel like I’ve been using my political views to vent my frustrations. I have become increasingly anti-Semitic and racist. I spend almost 2 hours every night on smoloko.com I feel being red pilled is only making my depression a lot worse. I’ve tried praying and reading the Bible but it hasn’t really helped. I can’t really find anything that helps me cope. I find it extremely difficult to enjoy my life. I am completely fucking broken. What did I do wrong? Are these normal feelings? What should I do? I know that was a lot, but if anyone has any advice I would really appreciate it, I really need some help.
Please help me
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tl;dr
Who gets depressed over a coal burner. Kys
Oh god yes keep going... How do you feel? Pathetic? Worthless? Like a fucking worm crying into the dust?
Utterly defeated and hollow?
Getting these reactions from betas is honestly better than fucking the girls that make them feel this way
I would rather fuck a 5/10 with a bf and get her to cheat than fuck a single 9/10
Holy God the rush is so good, it's like fucking two people at once, you are fucking ones body and the others soul
get out
Bump, I need to know how you feel
I need to know what you are like on the inside
I’m actually seriously fucked up mentally. I have an infacuation with this girl.
Stay strong, my brother. You are not the only one who feels like this. I also vent my frustrations into my politics. Then you get more redpilled, and the redpilling leads to more loneliness and depression, and that to more frustration and venting.
Try to find someone or someplace where you can expose your power level without consequence instead of hiding it in real life. You need to have personal friends whom you can be redpilled with, suffer through the red pilling alone, or back out.
Some rednecks don't mind a high power level, and a redpilled redneck introduced me to Sup Forums. That's where I'd recommend you start, but they aren't always excepting of outsiders, and might not let you in, especially to the redpilled part of their lives.
You could try red pilling people instead of finding them, but I've never tried this. I think there are already a few threads on this.
Good luck.
get over it. you never even had a relationship with her. it's all in your stupid head.
I’m actually really fucked up mentally at the moment. This girl fucking ruined me.