why can't i stop thinking about this faggot? im 38 and an oldfag. i was around when "an hero" first became a thing and i lived through that rash of myspace suicides (oldfags know what im talkin about.)
when i was an edgy kid i thought that shit was funny. when i first saw the shuaiby videos i didnt even really care. i was just like "oh, r9k? makes sense." but soon after, weird shit started happening to me.
i'll be randomly doing whatever and suddenly forget where i am like "how did i get here? what was i doing?" and earlier today i was at work just going about my day and suddenly started crying like a bitch and then my sides went into orbit and then crying again. had to hide so my coworkers wouldnt see.
is it possible to get PTSD from an internet video? can that happen? and why would it happen over this stupid durka from r9k who i dont even give a shit sbout?
im not soft. i can eat a hotpocket while watching mexi cartel chainsaw vids and bestgore shit like the dagestan massacre, etc. and not only that but ive actually seen people get shot irl and ive seen them die
so why is this one sticking with me so much? is it that playful, nonchalant wave at the camera? "peace out faggots. i'm OUT of this shitshow lol" is it the 56% of his face getting stuck to the ceiling? i dont get it. whats wrong with me? ive got this weird existential dread feel like nothing is ever gonna be normal again. does anybody know that feel?
inb4 Sup Forums isnt your blog inb4 tits or gtfo inb4 lmfao emo faggot inb4 soy etc etc etc
Probably because he was a channer, just like you, and that share sense of identity/belonging makes you judge it from a different light
Jaxon Smith
you wasted your life for what? A fucking commercial.
Luis Diaz
You are probably a social autist just like that guy and you feel close to his story.
kys and upload a video for us.
Lucas Cook
>share sense of identity/belonging but i unironically hate you all you fags. i only keep coming back cause im a socially retarded autist and im addicted
For me, the part that stayed with me was how he doubted a lot pulling the trigger, then just went with it because he had an audience. You bet your ass if he was alone he wouldn't have done it. I relate 2bh.
Joseph Lee
i deserve this. i know its a self indulgent emo blog shitpost fuck youre right! i didnt even hone in on that aspect
Kayden Flores
Very interesting comment also sorry about the uber numbers you just missed.
Christopher Rodriguez
It's only sad because he was a fellow weeb, but then you check his MAL and see his taste, then you start justifying his death.
Depression is real You have developed empathy you are human after all
John Lee
You want to fap to it, but you feel it’s inappropriate. Just do it. Do it for Sup Forums. You’ll feel better. This is why you can’t stop thinking about it.
Isaiah Jenkins
Sup Forums isnt your blog tits or gtfo lmfao emo faggot soy etc etc etc sage
You should kill yourself because you're a faggot, an hero is sleeping now.
Parker Hughes
goes around comes around
Angel Lewis
He's been in my mind too, I just wrote a poem for him. I watched you kill yourself. I didn't know you at all. You were live streaming in front of a blue tarp. You flourished your gun, and waved goodbye. All one can say is goodbye, I hope you find peace.
