I can't enjoy games anymore because of my debilitating trratment resistant depression...

I can't enjoy games anymore because of my debilitating trratment resistant depression. The 30 anti depressants and mood stabilizers didn't anything neither did DBT, CBT or 12 courses of ECT which fucked up my memory.

What do I do Sup Forums?

Find help in another board.

Take relief that this nightmare has to end one day.

May our sleeps be eternal and may we never have to relive this hellish existence again.

Just kill yourself :^)

Tried like three times famalam. Last time I tried to hang myself and all that happened was me passing out for two minutes, convulsing and waking up feeling panicky as shit.

Meme method unless it's drop hanging from 8 ft minimum

Get your shit together man.
Do something creative and drop all your meds.

I miss my mom vee

vidya just doesn't outweigh the shittiness of life. the brief fleeting moments of happiness are not worth the 98% time life is shit


just wanna join my mom tb h

>something creative

Like what? Don't spout off some dumb useless platitude shit. The hotlines already do enough of that.

You act like I haven't tried to better my life when I did and kept failing.

>sought treatment for a decade

Didn't work

>get a job

Same shit. Except now im even more depressed that im wageslaving this job I fucking hate because it's the only one I could get

>you will live to 95 shitting and pissing yourself in a nursing home while your physical and mental faculties decline to the point where you can't even play vidya anymore all while suffering from parkinsons, alzheimers or some other dementia disorder

JUST

It'll get better, user. Live the life she'd want you to have. Do it for her even if you can't do it yourself.

>it'll get better brah xD

love this meme

it hasn't for 30 years and she died when I was 9

>CBT

she would be pissed to see you crying about her for 30 years
if my kids did that id beat them shitless from the grave

>39
>On Sup Forums

Yeah there's no hope

>failing suicide that many times
Have you tried helium yet?

stop fapping so much.

NOT

YOUR

BLOG

maybe you're experiencing quantum immortality and that you can never die?

Q: Do you spend more than 30 minutes a day on Sup Forums or any other social media?
A: Yes.

That's your problem.

Play TERA with me and we'll be friends

>12 courses of ECT
What the fuck nigger get a better shrink

Fent is the utimate method

>painless
>feel euphoric as shit before you die
>small quantities are highly lethal

Well. Seeking advice from Sup Forums kiddies won't bring you anything.
I mean, I can't even understand you, how can I advice you something.
I, too, suffered some minor depression and undergone treatment, but I have never ever thought of deliberately ending my life.

>but I have never ever thought of deliberately ending my life.
There's tons of times I've thought I should kill myself and about the different ways I could do it.
Am I just really fucked up?

>but I have never ever thought of deliberately ending my life.

Something is genuinely wrong with you. Suicide contemplation is perfectly normal, the abnormal thing is thinking you should.

Nah. Maybe you just lack some psychological restrains.
Well, I'm just 22 y/o now, maybe I'll end up in your shoes someday. Hope not.

That's what I meant. I'm just bad with english.

stop being sad lol

Same boat, but I'm slow and DBT has done some good in another cycle. CBT just makes me angry, like it's a cheap trick or something. Meds are a no-go.

As for games I find picking one and sticking with it if it interests me is better than skipping around. I have adult ADHD so focus can be tricky, but in some cases it has helped. I only switch between a few games I rotate at a time, and I abandon trophies or achievements to take the pressure off (because grindy achievements are boring and make me feel like a slave more than a player).

So find a game that interests you, don't bother committing to anything you don't like, and consider judging for yourself rather than allowing others to influence what your tastes are.

Example:
I enjoy Plague Inc on mobile because it is a good pick up and pout down game, Ridiculous fishing as well.

I pick one RPG because I like them action or adventure can also work, Yakuza 3, Dark Souls, or Kingdom of Amalur for example. I pop in when the mood takes and go.

When I'm not on my phone or at a console I will often squeeze in a quick game of Huniepop because it is a good match 3 with a little strategy involved.

If you're feeling pressure or are forcing yourself to play you are doing int wrong.