I get crippling existential dread in :
>Loading screens
>When walking/running in a game
>All menus
>Game over screens
>Character dialogue
At this point I can't play any games because of this. The last game I completed was Dark Souls because it was so fucking good even in load screens I was occupied by thinking about where to go next.
Anybody else can't game because of the dread/anxiety in the down times?
What kind of fucking sperg are you?
Something about having time to stop and reflect
Talk to your fucking doctor.
autism
Go see a doctor user, you probably have clinical depression. Your brain's chemistry is ojt of whack and you can get meds to fix it.
Maybe you should spend more time in a mental institution instead of playing games.
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You have mental issues
My blood pressure is a little low today, doctor. How should I fix this?
what a dweeb
get a grip, original poster, you're making me nuggies cold with all this existential dread
Well shit.
You must take your daily dose!
Thank you, doctor!
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OP just realized that his pathetic life is just a loading screen for the more interesting plants his corpse will fertilize.
Thanks doc
Got some medicine for you user.
Remember to take it daily.
>Start playing game I love
>Start thinking about what quest to complete next
>Start thinking about the rewards
>Start wondering if the rewards are worth it
>Will they make the game more fun or will the challenge be meaningful
>Wonder if I'm just wasting my time playing this game for an hour that I could've spent studying
>Turn it off and go study, work out, or continue practicing my art fundamentals
Every fucking time. Chasing nostalgia just isn't cutting it anymore because I start thinking too much. I don't understand how my roomates spend 10+ hours a fucking day all playing FFXIV.
You're basically fearing having nothing to do because that means your brain starts to work and you're thinking about dark things everytime that happens.
Yup, it's depression.
Just seek medical attention or do what most humans do, drink alcohol / smoke weed or do even harder drugs, but I wouldn't recommend.
italy posting
>Chasing nostalgia
>how my roomates spend 10+ hours a fucking day all playing FFXIV.
I don't see the link.
Playing an mmo isn't chasing nostalgia because there's always new content
You don't have to be an edgelord just because you're on Sup Forums, I'm so goddamn tired of newfags like you.
Chasing nostalgia as in enjoying the thrill of new games or old games that have a special place in my heart. The game itself is kind of boring, in my opinion. It's like a carnival simulator.
>drink alcohol / smoke weed or do even harder drugs
Tried these. I get pissed because it messes with my motor functions and I can't draw or study in the drugged state at all, but I get an overwhelming desire to do so. Can't even play video games when I'm high because my skills just go to shit. I wish I could sleep for days on end.
thanks doc
I used to get that when I'd watch a DVD late at night, watch through the credits and then see the FBI warning. Then I learned to just turn the fucking thing off before it got that far.
i feel the same way
>It's a DSfag has to praise its game for literally nothing episode
nice reddit spacing, reddit
are you me OP?
>can't play video games that don't hold my attention 100% of the time anymore
>will open games in back log for 10, maybe 15 minutes at a time before reaching a cutscene/loading screen and quitting
>found bethesda games fill the void for a while, constantly scheming fun ways around scenarios and roleplaying
>cut to a couple months later
>bethesda games don't work anymore and I'll just close and reopen Sup Forums out of habit a few times an hour while browsing youtube
get me out of here
I sort of feel guilty when I come across loading screens and see my reflection. I guess it's common and practically a meme on here at this point.
Do you guys actually believe that vidya is constructive and not just another form of masturbatory activity?
where do you see purple in that image
>I sort of feel guilty when I come across loading screens and see my reflection.
same
Mindlessly browse Sup Forums, or other boards on your phone, or twitter, even reddit, if you have one.
Getting real tired of the jaded, cynical attitude that a lot of people adopted this decade. Muh existential dread, muh life has no meaning, muh nothing is enjoyable anymore, bla bla bla. Oh and the constant shame people seem to have when they actually do enjoy something, they just HAVE to let you know that they're enjoying it ironically.
I can't wait for this shit fad to be over. It really didn't use to be like this. Snap out of it already, you snarky ass filthyfrank-watching shitbags.
ringraziare dottore
>crippling existential dread
Code for "I start thinking about all the shit I should be doing but am avoiding to do because I'm a lazy cunt". Get off your ass you fucking whino.
You're crazy.
But you should try listening to podcasts on your phone.
For a while there I did that 24/7, really drowns out the voices in your head.
>he thinks it's just a mentality thing
Man I used to have friends unlike 90% of you autists but depression runs thick through my family and once I hit mid high school it hit me like a ton of bricks and has just been getting worse, don't have any desire to talk to anyone like I used to, don't feel hungry ever, months disappear before my eyes etc.
I know this is obvious b8 but seriously anons this shit ain't no joke, I wouldn't wish this on anyone
How old are you?
I hate my life and existence and all that but I would honestly not care as long as I had a consistent income without actually working. I've been NEET for like two years now and it's constantly like a Sunday evening, sure you're not working but the stress of some looming peril is constantly hanging over you. If I had actual money coming in I would be fine to be alone 100% of the time and waste my entire pointless existence on bad video games.
How the fuck do I get money without doing anything, other than the lottery?
just turned 20 recently
I honestly can't remember a single thing about being 18 or 19, depression really fucks with your memory because it dulls your emotions out, if that makes sense. So I can barely recall the past four years of my life because I have no emotional connection to any of my memories
Play a mobile game while you wait for the loads. Somthing that can be stopped at anytime like a turnbase. Put it down when other games loaded
>20
Yeah, you'll get over it. Trust me, speaking from experience. Do your chores.
It's hormones and mentality. I was like that while I was 16-20. I'm 25 now, and I laugh at how immature I was and how I used to interpret things. I'm still immature, but I look only positively at the past now and keep my sights on the future. You will get past it if you keep on trudging along and overcoming things that intimidate you head-on rather than beat around the bush and get "depressed" about them.
Just turned 25
It doesn't get any better
>can't remember what were supposed to be the best years of my life
>you'll get over it
Because they're not depressed nutcases, and they don't feel a consistent need to be productive.
When I have a test that I desperately need to learn for then I study hard and don't play games for a few months, but when I have time off I could easily play games for 8-10 hours a day, because it's what I find enjoyable.
Honestly if you don't enjoy video games I'd much prefer that you stopped coming here and went to r9k or Sup Forums to talk about your "feels" instead.
>20
You are like baby.
Protip, excercise, do all the shit you need to do, set a long term goals and eat well.
Are you NEET? If not, do you like your job?
get a grip you mentally ill fucker. no one is impressed by your shitty depression faggotry, this isn't facebook.
Of course it's not fucking productive, you moron. Nobody thinks it is. Is that some kind of revelation to you?
The secret is that not everything in life needs to be productive. If you have sufficient resources to support yourself then you can do whatever the fuck you want with your spare time. Most people opt to enjoy themselves. We only get a small period of time to be alive - why not have fun instead of moping around and worrying about being productive?
>playing the game, having fun
>loading screen
>"oh shit, i have no job, no perspectives, i'm a manchild who wastes his life"
I hate this senpai
neo Sup Forums
All if the years between 16 and 30 are good. Well, to be honest, all the years between 0 and 30 are good. I don't remember any period being better than any other. I guess if I had to choose a "best period" it would have been Uni because of the huge amount of free time.
T. 30 year old.
So just go get a fucking job? It's not that hard. God you people are pathetic.
you have to get a job
>get a job
>do the same thing everyday
>time only moves faster
>still have no friends
>still have no relationships
>still have no higher prospects
whats the fucking point
nothing changes when that happens
>>still have no friends
>>still have no relationships
>>still have no higher prospects
Those things come after the job you fucking idiot.
What's the point of sitting around playing video games? It's just to distract you so you can do nothing til you die.
There's none until you make one.
>no perspectives
I'm 30 on meds and in therapy for BPD and even at my worst I don't deal with shit like that. How do you even get through days when loading menus in a game sets you off? Have a funny video game image.
Fuck you. If you want friends go make them. If you want a job go get one. A second ago you were whining like a little bitch that you don't have a job and now you're whining even more that a job would be boring.
Guess what, pussy? Sometimes you have to do things that are boring. The vast majority of adults have jobs, and they don't have depression. Sitting around all day on your ass not interacting with anyone is what has turned you into such a sad sack of shit.
How about you get off your ass and go do something to make your life better instead of whinging on an anonymous message board? You know why you don't have any friends? Because you're a loser who complains about everything and spends every waking second pitying himself rather than striving for self improvement.
>Have a funny video game image.
This guy forgot his image so here's this.
>just b urself XD
gee thanks user I guess that clears that up
I'm drunk and forgot the image.
He vehemently advised you not to be yourself, but someone better you fucking pathetic cunt,.
>A drunk guy giving advice on depression
Don't write that anywhere in the post, but the fact that you need to respond with some shitty meme strawman shows how pathetic you really are. You'd rather just filter out any criticism or advice and then just go back to putting yourself.
If there's 2 traits that are hated universally they're:
1. Self-pity
2. Tendancy to complain about things and then do nothing to fix them
He said literally the exact opposite of that you massive autismo cuck.
You sure are a dumb asshole and I have no idea why youre even in this thread still. Everyone knows how to make things better you stupid dipshit you didnt give any insight into anything so just fuck off, retard.
Have you considered being less of a little bitch?
I run two TVs side by side, one plays the game and the other porn. That way I can just watch the porn when I get annoyed by loading et. My girlfriend is still under the impression I use the other one to look at work related things online I need to monitor, it adds to the excitement.
Sounds like you're the dumb asshole if you know how to make things better and then don't do it.
Do you enjoy being a depressed failure? If the answer is no, then go deal with it, since you obviously know what you need to do to fix all your problems.
I'm not giving advice, I was just asking how he makes it through the day.
and you're right, alcoholism doesn't improve your mental health.
What's with all these betas who hide the fact they watch porn from their girl friends? Like 99% of men on earth with a stable internet connection watch it. Why not just be completely open about it? I mean you don't need to go as far as showing her your favorite anal fisting interacial hermaphrodite gang bang vid, but there's no real point lying about watching pornography.
his advice was literally
>get friends
>get job
with some insults needlessly thrown in to seem motivational in some way even he's throwing down the most basic non-specific tripe imaginable
>You know why you don't have any friends? Because you're a loser who complains about everything and spends every waking second pitying himself rather than striving for self improvement.
Or you know, that.
how do you know how I act around friends? I never complain about shit or talk about anything in regards to how I'm feeling and you know what? I'm still absolutely shit at making connections with people
your entire post was on the assumption I act the same on Sup Forums as I would in an irl situation and it didn't make a lot of sense
One of my exes went batshit fucking crazy because I had that gif of that scene chick geting her huge cans out.
It's just easier mate.
>all this pity party about load screens
>no mention of seeing your reflection in the TV when it's black
My greatest fear, desu.
Now I'm depressed that I know who you're talking about, thanks a lot user.
any other anons /boozingngaming/ here?
what are you drinking?
>pic related
lol who gives a fuck, god damn you thin skinned bitches are depressing just listening to.
>be extremely calm guy, rarely lose my shit over something or someone
>play a fighting game online like MvC or Street Fighter
>as soon as the fight starts my heart beats at full speed and every time I fuck up I sweat bullets
>when I lose I feel like a useless shit and get angry with myself
>repeat till I get tired of losing
I guess its anxiety. Its literally the only time I actually feel like I'm inferior to the other person.
Any other game I usually have a easy time.
It doesnt help that everytime I set myself to practice and get better I usually lose interest pretty fast.
I'm like this guy But when I have some beers, I lose all the anxiety and anger and just enjoy fightans. Then I have too much and lose my rankings. It's pretty fucking fun though
>he's still content with life
don't worry user, you'll grow up some day
Man sounds like white women are fucking nuts. I've only dated Asian chicks, and not a single one of my GFs ever gave a flying fuck that I looked at porn. Occasionally we looked at it together.
underrated
Sounds like you don't have many friends to me.
Probably because you're such a self pitying loser. Pro tip: even if you don't actively whine out loud, everyone can sense how much of a self hating failure you are. The only way to make other people like you is to start by liking yourself.
>tfw booze completely changes your perspective on life and your problems
>tfw you can only feel the motivation to make a change while wasted
Of all the posts to set you off, why mine?
>age is parallel to spiritual decline for everyone
Stop projecting, shitlord.
this one actually kind of helped user, thanks for responding even though I seem ungrateful, it feels nice knowing you're trying
4 am here. I should be sleeping. I had a job interview today where they grilled me for an hour straight. I think I did alright though so I deserve some mid-week drinking.
>But when I have some beers, I lose all the anxiety and anger and just enjoy fightans.
Same, but super sloppy. I can deal with it though, and yeah, it's more fun.
maybe lay off the games for a bit and sort yourself out
>everyone can sense how much of a self hating failure you are
man this shit has been ingrained in me from birth, I didn't realize what a burden I've become