Do you actual use terms like 'whitehat', 'blackhat', 'greyhat', etc.?
A hacker is a hacker no matter what the media wants to portray or use terms like 'cracker' to differentiate, yada, yada.
A person can be breaking the law and still be considered a 'whitehat' by some if it's a 'noble cause'.
You are just fucking ridiculous or a 'black hat' wannabe that thinks it's more important to maintain some image then it is to feed the basic needs of every hacker: curiosity.
Nobody is spoon feeding anyone here, just having a discussion of ideas (something all hackers enjoy), talking about projects, etc. etc. and if you don't feel the absolutely burning need to not only share ideas but explore new ideas then you don't need to be involved in this. Keep to your fantasies.
Why do you think Defcon, HOPE, B-sides, Chaos Communication Camp etc. are so important to hackers? BECAUSE WE LIKE THIS SORT OF THING.
Are talks at Defcon and HOPE also 'spoon feeding'? People writing articles for 2600 'spoon feeding'? Prisoners requesting white papers because they are bored as hell after being locked up for ridiculous 'hacking' crimes, should they be ignored as well?
You are a troll, poser, or someone learning about exploits and such so that you can live out some 'dark web' fantasy.
Take a screen shot of you owning a high-level CTF/Wargame/Vulnhub box and you can call the poster a 'skiddie' or say they are spoon-feeding people 'the art' (laaaaame LARP-esque way to term things by the way).
Otherwise it's literally the same as people saying their martial arts are 'to dangerous for the ring' and that's why they will never enter an MMA fight.
You sound like a literal cartoon or 90s hacker-movie cliche.