Ptsd/anxiety therapist tells me I am addicted to women (actually fantasies I make up in my head about them) like people...

>ptsd/anxiety therapist tells me I am addicted to women (actually fantasies I make up in my head about them) like people are addicted to drugs

What are some good albums based around addiction?

no clue OP but I'll bump because what you said was interesting

I find it interesting as well. She says it comes from abandonment as a child, so I'll make fantasies in my head about women who I date making their love out to be something I can't live without, when in reality they're just shitty people. I know this, I recognize it very well, the fantasy just takes over and I don't want to do anything about it. Then they leave and I think the world is going to end and I have to do another program to help me come back to reality

NIN up to and including The Fragile

NIN first 7 albums were about addiction?

>NIN first 7 albums were about addiction?
>7
remixes don't count. his first 3 were.

well they weren't entirely about addiction. he used to just be a heroin junkie with a lot of anger issues but started mellowing out around The Fragile.

he's just one of those guys that can't write good music unless he's mad as fuck.

Oh okay, I see now. Sorry, I just googled the albums and 7 came up.

Listen to this album holy shit it's literally you

thanks user, I'll download it now.

Is this album about women? I don't like listening to music about women, being addicted to women is a really pussy thing to be addicted to. I want to hear albums about heroin addictions and meth addictions

this one is great, though the themes end in the last three tracks

Rivers is in the same predicament you are so you might find some catharsis from it.

Well thank you for the recommendation then!

Thanks user!

This is great guys, I'm driving 18 hours on friday and I'm really excited to listen to some new music.

Danny Brown - XXX

Elliott Smith's self-titled.
And all the rest, too.

huh

Elaborate more on this addiction to woman fantasies, I might have the same thing you have, OP.

I have this one already

I'll check it out

It's not like i'm addicted to fantasizing about women in a lewd way. I don't know everything about it but based off of what my therapist and I talk about, I'll be in a normal relationship and then fall in love, and then from that point on i'm entirely attached. I paint a picture of this woman being everything i've ever wanted no matter how shitty she treats me or no matter how much she doesn't put into the relationship. Then she leaves me, and I can't cope with it, it's overwhelming. She could have cheated on me or did something terrible to me, and then when she comes back to me I immediately believe "it's because she truly loves me and it was meant to be, she can change, I know she will" and then it's just a shitty relationship again and it all cycles again and again until I go get help because I can't let go.

I've never done anything stalkerish or crazy, however I do what other people with this deal do and try to get back at whoever this person is by going on really ridiculous sex binges like having sex with her mother/every single one of her friends to make her jealous

Also I am not always like this, I realize it's incredibly desperate and childish of me, however the lady calls them "withdrawals", just like a drug addict would have. I try to justify why I need this person and make up reasons why I need to see them/talk to them even though they're terrible for me.

You don't happen to be one of the posters that constantly makes threads about women musicians or women actors (on Sup Forums), would you?

Yeah Pinkerton is the album for you

No, i'm not obsessed with women. I'm not in love with every woman, i'm saying that the women that I have a close personal relationship, the women that i'm convinced I love, I can't let go of them. I have to get help. It doesn't affect anyone but me, i'm not some wild autist making carly rae jepsen shrines in my room

Hey. Look at Borderline Personality Disorder.
I have it, too.

I actually listened to it just now and it was very relateable

>tfw a woman will never be addicted to you

Just remember user:
The one who cares the least in a relationship holds all the power

Literally Daniel Johnston

i'll check it out thanks buddy. It was a huge relief to find out this is a real thing, it made me feel less crazy and these feelings more bareable.

It's terrible knowing a woman will never feel the way I feel about her, but this thing, whatever it is, kind of steers me in the right direction. I'll always be faithful, i'll always be there no matter what, i'll always put every ounce of me into a woman. I've had a good amount of women tell me that i'm an incredible person and they wish they could love the way that I do

>but i know that's not true

I Don't Like Shit, I Don't Go Outside by Earl Sweatshirt

terrible recc, desu

>tfw one is and she is making my life waking torment with her incessant nagging

be careful what you wish for faggot

I am fully aware, thanks

I'm the exact opposite. I'm a terrible partner and I'm not fit for a relationship in which I could feasibly reciprocate affection to someone I care about.

I can rationally determine that I want to be in love but I could never make it happen.
Any interest girls have had in me less than a short term infatuation ends up being quelled by my inherent stoicism and coldness.

I sincerely think I'm going to die alone.

I second the Elliott Smith rec in that case. Especially self-titled since every song is about dependency (and mostly heroin but not in a literal sense). Plus he's a fucking soul-wrenching musician.

You'd enjoy this, then.

If you were so stoic you wouldn't give a flip

sorry senpai, i won't speak again

I mean, to a certain extreme, sure.

The dynamic of an affectionate relationship is still completely alien to me. I don't understand what women want.

>(and mostly heroin but not in a literal sense).
What do you mean "not in a literal sense"?
He really was addicted to both heroin and crack, so I would say it was all pretty literal...

He didn't get hooked on heroin and crack until after Figure 8 tour which was five to six years later and also he said in interviews that everyone thought of it as the album where every song was about heroin but that he wasn't talking literally about drugs and alcohol on most of the songs and he was just using them as metaphors for different kinds of dependency (see: last two songs)

know ur elliott

Being an addict myself, I would almost guarantee that he was still using heavily at that time. And although they say he wasn't "hooked" at that time, addiction begins WAY before anyone ever really thinks. Granted, he would know his music better than anyone, and it makes sense that he was using them as his metaphors and whatnot, but I really do think he was still using at that time, and had to have known what was coming around the corner for him.

I know my Elliott, but I know addiction(s) and drugs FAR better.

I mean I'm not doubting that some of the songs are super literal like Single File and Coming Up Roses but I think it's a stretch to say that "it was all pretty literal". Some of them are pretty clear and some of them could go either way.

Thanks for the insight, though. Stay safe, dude.

Of course FABOTH is really his GOAT drug addiction album

Motley Crue-Girls, Girls, Girls
Mahmoud Awad- Girls, Girls, Girls