Is this completely crazy/stupid? Is there anybody out there that desires to hear this stuff?
Let me explain:
When I was 8 years old, I got a Casio keyboard for Christmas. Though it had light-up keys to teach you songs, I had no desire to do that. I wanted to create my own music.
I didn't know anything about music at the time - nothing about theory - anything. I didn't play a lot of video games or watch tv, and so my time was divided between reading and playing my Casio.
I would sit at the keyboard and improvise for hours - playing what I thought sounded right and just letting my fingers do their thing. I always tried to express my innermost feelings in my playing, even though I'm not quite sure where I got that idea from.
I would record cassette tapes of my playing - and they're laying around somewhere. I haven't listened to them since.
By 7th grade, I started teaching myself piano and by 9th grade I got in my high school's award winning jazz band.
I have since become something of a session musician - I play on other people's stuff and play in other people's bands in addition to my own projects. I collect vintage keyboard instruments and teach lessons and substitute for the accompanist at my old high school.
Anyway, I sat down a second ago and played a little - in an attempt to get some conflicting thoughts about relationships, cognitive dissonance, and frustration out of me.
This is what came out.
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To be honest - it's pretty shitty, especially toward the end. I stopped concentrating, and I lost control of my hands. The creepy jazz chords at the beginning, though - that all accurately communicates my feelings.
So, does anyone else do this sort of thing? Does anybody on this board use avant-garde piano improvisation as a catharsis? I'd love to hear recordings of stuff like this.
I'd also like to encourage everybody to try this, because it might ease your mind (it certainly eases mine).
