Ok Sup Forums I don't have anything to do and it's been a burden quite a while so...

Ok Sup Forums I don't have anything to do and it's been a burden quite a while so.. here's my (maybe not that tragic) story

>had the greatest time in my elementary
>got to new school,was generally expecting everybody to like me
>kids are evil
>no friends
>got bullied
>start cutting
>develop a huge love for the legend of Zelda
>4th grade, 13 years old
>find out a kid in my neighborhood likes Zelda too
>he went to my elementary, our parents know each other
>fast forward, we became friends
>he's pretty popular with the kids around here
>everybody likes and accepts me
>be more confident in school
>I'm the youngest in my group of friends and they say they'll have a surprise for me on my birthday
>birthday is at the end of July
>it's April
>during this time, I fell in love with a bipolar girl, like every other boy who knows her
>let's call her V
>pretend to have depression to get closer to her
>remember we were 13, this is actually so fucked up
>It works, but just for friends
>one time, I managed being alone with her
>she tells me about her sex life
>you heard right Sup Forums, SEX LIFE
>be diamond hard
>she shows me her scars
>develop scar fetish and really, really fall in love with her
>things get better at school, but I didn't start cutting to convince her I'm mentally ill
>fast forward to my birthday

Vienna has an island with a park, so we went there
>they reveal the big surprise, it's beer and weed
>get high and drunk with fucking 14
>confess to V
>she say's she knew it since we first met, and I'm cute, but too young
>don't understand anything, still greatest night of my life at that point
>2 weeks later she's dead, suicide
>she had a note, but blood and vomit messed it up
>don't talk to anyone except my parents anymore
>find an app called "Funny Jokes" (pic related)
>start posting shit there and getting more followers
>cutting got less
>one day, I saw a "Mrs. Zelda" following me, I immediatly ask for her Kik
This is where it all began. Continue?

YES
YES
YES!! CONT!!! Cont at least for me, i'l listen!

>Let's call her Lucy
>for the next few days we text a lot, she lives 1 hour away from Vienna
>Without mentioning her, she helps me a lot forgetting V
>Well, I fall and love with her and I'm not sure if she would even meet me
>Too Beta-Fag to actually ask her if she want's to meet
>one day, she sends me a picture, an ad for a Retrovideogame-Market
>12.8.2011
>We try to meet at this huge Train Station and I don't know anything about it
>I don't find her, think it was all a joke
>suddenly a freaking cute voice screams "AAANNOOOOOON"
>I'm not sure if it's directed at me, but I slowly turn around and see a Lucy running towards me
>Stunned by how cute and beautiful she is in RL, she looked not nearly as good on any of her pictures
>she hugs me, and I immediately get a boner, loose my breath and forget how to thinks
>she say's she won't let go until I hug her too, so I hug her but I'm too stunned to let go
>her friend reached us and said we should go
>wanting to slap her, but let go and we drive to the market
>talk bullshit, but at least I talked
>while we went there, Lucy grabbed my hand
>couldn't believe it
>I bought an N64 which I really, really wanted
>she wants to visit my home
>we lay in bed
>I ask if she actually likes me
>She replies "user, I don't just like you I.."
>Before she finished her sentence I said, that this was the thing I wanted her to say and I kissed her
>We lay in bed four half an hour approximately, talking and kissing
>suddenly she grabs my penis, and say's she's happy I have a boner
>Can't say anything, just grab her ass in return
>she smiles and lays on top of me
>kisses me
>new best day
>we get pretty close, pretty fast
>she wants to have sex when she takes the pill
>no sex
>still awesome relationship
>3 months together and she confesses something

Should I continue? It's gonna be pretty dark

Yes! Continue! Please!

duh

Not sure if I'll like it if it's dark but there is only one truth and we must find it no matter what
~AR

Shes a man, isnt she?

Or she's the girl that kileld herself V

If she's related to V or is V this is a really crappy pasta user

Thank you so much! I'll stop asking :)

I stopped cutting since I met her btw

>her mother is an abusive bitch, blaming Lucy for her life problems, and also an alcoholic
>she still loves her and wants to be loved
>Now the evenings where she just didn't reply made sense
>I try to help her with all I could
>So many nights crying, staring at my cellphone and writing that she's wonderful and her mother is wrong
>Lack of sleep got me little fucked up, but I loved her so much and visited her at every opportunity
>Our relationship was 50% perverted, 50%holding her in my arms while she was crying
>well maybe like 5% playing video games together
>one day, we walked to her house from the station and I noticed she was a bit happier
>I asked if something happened
>she grinned and said I will see soon enough
>I was so happy, I wondered what it was
>She wanted to take a walk in the park before, so we did
>Was so happy to actually do something with her
>After a while we sat down and she confessed another thing
>she said, she has somewhat of a split personality
>Herself and her "protector", Lucy
>She had red hair, Lucy had blue hair
She really loves to draw, her wall is full of her pictures
>I realized I saw this motive, very often in her drawings
>Ask if this is the thing that made her happy
>"No, just her suggestion"
>Don't question it and move on, we go to her house
>I undress her and it shattered me a bit
>Her belly was full of scars

Type faster op

u sure no how to pick the messes u idiot

....

Why is this not pretyped you nigger?

>I stopped and got flashbacks of V
>I saw her, drunk on the island
>Begin to shed tears, but I can hold them back
>I just ask "why"
>Well you said helped you
>I wanted to strangle me for this statement, but the scars just made me horny
>The idea that my second love and first girlfriend was suicidal entered my mind
>I swore I'll do everything to protect her
In the next few months we did lots of crap together, like blowjobs in Clotheshops and so on
>I did all I could to make her happy
>Bought so much crap for her birthday and we sat on this Island together, staring at the lights of a bridge
>I loved this moment
>Suddenly she begins to mumble
I remember the exact words until now, but they were German I'll try to translate them as good as possible
>"Hey user..please don't rely on me. I know you're a bit broken, and you never really told me why. But please keep in mind, that I'm unpredictable.
>I didn't say anything; I was frozen
>After about 10 minutes I said I love you
>no reply
>Nearly crushing her hand
>she say's she has to go home now, and we both go to the station
>Before she enters the train she smiles and says she loves me too
>I was happy, but I had the feeling that she wasn't really smiling
Never mentioned that ever again and she never behaved like this in our relationship again
>Fast forward to summer
>She was in Greece with her best friends
>Basically no messages, even though she swore to say good night every day
>sometimes she told me about her cool, new male friends
>I got really scared but I was happy that she hadn't to indulge her mother's abuse
>I looked so forward seeing her
>My mom told me that we're going to Croatia one day before her return
>we could skype though
>She asked which drawing she should continue
>I said the one where she drew herself and things she liked
>having a good time with good old videochat
>suddenly her mom screams that Lucy is a piece of shit

I think op might be a faggot

nvm

Type slower you glorious faggot

>she broke down and cried
>I tried everything to cheer her up but this shit of her mom even hurt me
>she started painting herself in blood and then ripping the paper apart
>Never was so scared in my life, I just sat there and tried to hold back my tears
>she said "bye" and closed skype
>didn't reply
>she looked so messed up
>I spammed her with messages
>next day she acted like nothing didn't happen
>then she told me she finally can take the pill
>as we met, we fucked at the moment we entered my room
>we fucked like 20 times this weekend, I even was allowed to sleep at her house
>It was so wonderful, we watched Totoro and just had a great time
>next day, we bought cereals and Nachos and chilled out, her parents had work
>I forgot the Nacho Cheese cover in the kitchen
>her mom returned, she screamed and the whole house shook
>Lucy is worthless and can't do anything without a kick in her stupid ass
>I and a friend who came over srsly escaped through her window
>she didn't reply, and this seriously messed me up a bit
>new year, she entered a new school
>she was scared she gets no friends
>we met after school, she had a friend
>Eva
>we ate and talked about Anime
>The two of us got to my house and fucked
>she got a lot of friends, including a fucboi named Max
>Lucy and I just met once per week now, she became a stoner
>I wrote her best friend that I'm really anxious about her replacing me with Max
>Next day Lucy wrote me: "Why are you writing something like that?"
>I got out of the classroom and texted her
>she just didn't reply
>suddenly, 20 pm
>come to my school tomorrow at 3 pm

ay ops dead or a faggot

el bumpo

bumperoni

>yes op is a faggot
sorry I'm dumb

>she didn't say anything until we were in the train to her hometown
>she said, if I think that I could trust her for once
>realized I never trusted her about suicide or other boys
>"I'm pathetic"
>Yes you are but you helped me
>But it's over
>I cried in the train and just stayed there for two hours until I was at the final stop somewhere in fucking Hungary
>I drove back and hated myself
>We still were friends
>We had a Whatsapp Group with her best friends
>we met
I'll make it short
>she said she's smoking now
>I called her a whore
>we kissed
>I grabbed her ass
>she gave me a blowjob in the fields with her friends watching
>Ultimately confused
>My parents drove Lucy to her hometown
>her friend texted me I should stop meeting her
>she was so damn right
>one time I got back from school
>guys standing there
>"So you're calling other people's girlfiends whores?"
>well they beat me up

Now It's 4 years later and I have a gf since 3 years and I'm still stalking her facebook
Sorry Sup Forums, I'm pathetic

ouch
i still stalk my crush's facebook and ask.fm and tumblr and instagram from time to time.
I'm pathethic with you aswell.

I'd be lying if I said I actually actively use those... or if I said I knew how you feel. The farthest my relationships got is essentially me being rejected

I feel relieved now

Thats not pathetic. Its normal. I bet she still thinks about you too. Fuck her though, you're better off without her. Some girls are too crazy to be worth the trouble.

I am best friend with my only crush in the whole fucking town, can't love anyone but here, asked here out but she wanted to be best friend, I'm not mad about it but it fucking hurts that i have to see her all the time and act as her "friend". don't worry, every one on Sup Forums is pathetic user

Here's OP
That's also sad, but dunno, I'd prefer it over somewhat PTSD .-.
However, I don't know how you feel too

You don't need her. Don't be exactly what she wants you to be. You're only pathetic so long as you don't act for yourself.

What's also amazing is when you meet a girl during class and get a crush on her, so you tell one of your trusted classmates/friends and they immediately walk over and tell her directly so she gives you a dumb stare while you burn up from shame

Do you really love her? Have you thought about how it is to be in a relationship with her?
Don't let her abuse you

Something similar happened to me.
>mentally fucked up gf
>help her get her life back on track
>after 4 years relationship shows me how grateful she is by fucking another dude

Never ever date fucked in the head girls, user.

I'm literally the only person in the whole school that feels like this about her, she is kinda bipolar but I freaking love her, i don't know, love turns the smartest men into idiots

Jesus OP, If you're not fucking around I kinda feel sorry for you.

Oh, and now I'm fucked in the head because of all the shit I've gone through with her.

OP
Yeah, fuck crazy bitches, I've learned my lesson
But still, like one of those Anons said, you just can't resist wanting to help when you love them but I don't think they can feel real love actually

I know I'm not the worst case, but I've kept everything as real as my memory let me
Well I could say this if I made it up too, but thanks :)

Love does blind they say...
I know *that* feeling at least (the guy who got his rumor spread during class speaking, maybe I should add a little sig to my posts).
You love em, they cry, and instantly you wanna fix everything just to see them smile.
> except in my case it was me that they wanted to "fix" aka to disappear
~AR

Exactly man, but those smiles never last long and it just fucks you up

I'd say that you should just lose all hope and stuff but to be perfectly honest you deserve better than to end up like me, fellow.
~AR

I've got a wonderful girlfriend, but I'm scared that this ghost of Lucy will destroy it someday, I'm often triggered by her name or a thought and spend the rest of the evening cryíng
Also, I'm still scared she might commit suicide and I hate it to be concerned about her

I'm wishing you good luck!
~OP

It's not like I can do much. Consider this, I lack a car, a source of income, and I have like 1 friend who's about as emotionally adept as an oyster.
I think I'm starting to turn insane.

Fuck life sometimes, but you managed to make someone you don't know smile
Have a good day (I'm in Japan right now, it's evening)

Btw, here's a thing I made at her birthday
I'll post it here and finally delete it now

You're a fellow German, I see?
- And, well, I didn't really make her smile. As I said the moment she found out I liked her she stared at me like I ate her children, grandmother and her 3 pet cats + horse.

Sieht eher nach Ösi aus.

Oh my
Yeah, I'm from Austria, Vienna