Ive been having incredibly intense anxiety over death and my life coming to an eventual end what do i do Sup Forums

ive been having incredibly intense anxiety over death and my life coming to an eventual end what do i do Sup Forums

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Kill yourself

I'm at the opposite end, I'm pretty much done, but it just seems to drag on. I'm tired you know? I want to be done with it. My suggestion would be to change how you think about it. What are you scared about? the loss of consciousness? You lose that every time you go to sleep, hell there's no guarantee that you'll wake up but you do it anyway don't you?

Stop caring. Just enjoy each day at a time, knowing it could be your last.

FUCK beat me to it

There's bad news and worse news, OP.
The bad news is, you're a faggot.
The worse news is, you came to fucking Sup Forums in a moment of despair (unless trolling) which means you're far more fucked than you realize.

Simply not existing is the scariest part. Its funny you mention sleeping. It's been incredibly hard since this started last week to fall asleep properly. Every night it's the same thoughts going through my head.

I've been trying to distract myself during the day but right before I fall asleep I can't do anything but think about it

Same thing happened to me a few years ago. I think everyone goes through it at some point. It will pass. I've heard taking Tylenol helps for some reason. Feel better, OP.

Yeah, I understand that, it's hard thing to imagine, simply not being. Like, how do you even imagine that? it's a terrifying thought so I don't blame you, but there are three ways to deal with it. A, you can do the whole spiritual thing "maybe there's something at the end of it all?" or b. "I'll just deal with it." and finally c. "fuck it, I just have to survive long enough to become a robot."

I'm actually holding out for option c, we've come a long way in forty years, I think I can stick around for another forty.

I dont doubt most people think about their own mortality. The problem is I can't accept it all of a sudden for some reason.

Was raised devoutly Catholic but I'm holding onto the third option or something close to it.

stop smoking weed, causes anxiety in some.

meditate. read 'Power of Now'. realise your True Nature is Beyond Birth and Death. be grateful and welcome it and you will be welcomed by it.

What's really going to suck is when they have the option to download you into the internet, but it's actually just a copy of you and the real you is still going to die. Shit's funny

I started studying math and found comfort in transcendent numbers as a parable for immortality but I guess what really helped was that I found ambition to do something in life rather than sit around thinking about death
don't get me wrong I think it's really important to know that you will die one day
but if it's affecting your quality of life constantly
then stop doing it and come back to it when you have something else going for you

death created time to grow the things it would kill.

we all return to the earth someday, why stress over something you cant control?

haven't smoked weed in years

this chick I was seeing told me she's pregnant with my kid about a week ago that might also start to explain the change in quality of life

you have been blessed with awareness of mortality. As the ancients wrote in the Vedas or Upanishads or somewhere: "Of all the world's wonders, the most wonderful of all is that though they see others dying all around them, no one thinks they themselves will die."

Marcus Aurelius knew what was up. Follow his advice.

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fucking mc kill yourself

Actually op that quote from that dude helped me when I went through my existential crisis. It's pointless worrying about it because it's gonna happen as it has happened to everyone since forever. You'll snap out of it eventually. Let me guess, you're late teens early 20s?

don't worry m8 i'm sure they let you shitpost in hell

Eh. Its not worth your time. Fighting inevetability is a difficult struggle. But fruitless. Find a hobby or become a mortician.

you could always try for a hail marry
tell her you really love her and shit
and that you want to do things "right"
get married all that shit broads like to hear
basically butter her up for an abortion with a promise that you'll marry her and have kids later but doing so now would ruin you financially
we've all been young and self destructive but holy shit that's the one thing I always feared having a kid I mean

AHA why didnt you say so??? that is it right there. you are afraid your life is over. at any rate your old life is over. i had the same thing happen 20 years ago, my kid is just now graduating college haha, kind of a dufus but a good kid

>I dont doubt most people think about their own mortality
You'd be surprised. I've talked to a lot of people who have thought about it on a recurring basis. I think what you're going through is an existential crisis. A lot of people in their 20's seem to go through it at some point. Bottom line: you're not alone on this. If it starts effecting you in a major way (losing sleep, etc...) try talking to someone about it. I did and it helped (as well as taking medication for generalized anxiety...) It still does cross my mind, from time to time (while falling asleep to) but it doesn't last as long and it's not as intense.

just end it

nailed it.

thanks man I needed that

no she's keeping it im fucked

Band aid method checkem

well how are you fixed for damage control?
are you going to do the bare minimum and pay child support and move on with your life and make something of yourself? or raise a kid you don't even want with some broad who's holding your future hostage?

in fact entire religions are founded based on nothing but meditating on death and whether it is really real or not, i.e. cf zen 'The Great Matter'

someone once told me time is a flat circle.
everything we've done or will do, already happened. all you love, all you hate, all your memories and all your pain, it was all the same dream. a dream that you had inside a locked room. and like many dreams theres a monster at the end of it.

>intense anxiety
there's a med for that OP

you're probably right. that fucking sucks.

Tried talking to family about it they just tell me to worry about other shit. They're not wrong, I should be. But there's something in the back of my head there

See how long you can go without eating. After a while your anxiety will disappear as you fixate on more pressing matters.

who told you that?
Satan?

karma is quite literally a bitch

You're going back to where you were in the billions of years before you were born.
If you aren't religious, then just think of it as an end to a consciousness that would be miserable to go on for an eternity.

There's no need to worry about the inevitable.
You'll be alright.

Yeah, I think you just kinda stop caring eventually. The trick to being happy (imo) is to make things. I make movies and code. If you stop caring, but don't progress in life or a passion, then you will be depressed. Oh, and build a relationship with someone good. That helps. We humans are meant to bond.

Stop shilling drugs, niqqa.

>The trick to being happy (imo) is to make things.
right on

a man named reggie ledoux, back in 95

my future is being held hostage, user. and her family is at the front with her on it.

that's some scary shit you just tried to explain to me man.

and that is?

there are anti-anxiety meds out there that would totally deal with this sense of dread

sorry you can't modern medical science

check old pictures
the eyes could be glowing

go rape a 12 year old or stop bitching

You can't control anyone or anything as well as you can control yourself and your path in life.
I don't believe in Karma
plenty of assholes have led beautiful lives
plenty of good people have had horrible lives
it's all arbitrary but if believing in some cosmic balance makes you feel better
well then I won't argue

haha. or get addicted to heroin, wonderfully gives meaning to life and makes everything but getting more heroin irrelevant and meaningless

I don't know
schedule a session with a psychiatrist

DO NOT SELF-MEDICATE

I figure I'll stop caring eventually. But it's just been getting worse since last week. I find myself getting up with something akin to a fight or flight response but there's nowhere to run and there's nothing to fight.

good advice user thank you

well no shit her family doesn't want to pay for her soon to be crumb cruncher they're gonna give you the stereotypical "step up and be a man!" bullshit
but honestly
fuck her family and this broad
let her know that if she has this kid you won't have any part in raising it other than paying your legally required child support
no babysitting
no diapers
no birthdays
nothing
let's see how strong and independent she feels when she lets that settle in
also
who says it's even your kid?

haha, control is an illusion, if believing you are in control makes you feel better, well then

its not scary.
This is what I'm talking about. This is what I mean when I'm talking about time and death and futility. There are broader ideas at work, mainly what is owed between us as a society for our mutual illusions. 14 straight hours of staring at DBs, these are the things you think of. You ever done that? Hmm? You look in their eyes, even in a picture. Doesn't matter if they're dead or alive. You can still read them, and you know what you see? They welcomed it, not at first, but right there in the last instant. It an unmistakable relief. See, because they were afraid and now they saw for the very first time how easy it was to just let go. And they saw in that last nanosecond, they saw what they were, that you, yourself, this whole big drama, it was never anything but a jerry-rig of presumption and dumb will. And you could just let go. Finally know that you didn't have to hold on so tight

My fear of death has to do with the fact that for 7 minutes your brain will stay alive in a dead body, do we think in this state because if so; that's hell.

or you're having anxiety attacks and you need to see a professional

read schopenhauer ya nig nog

>Tried talking to family about it...
Sorry...should've clarified: i meant talking to a professional. Sometimes family can be the worst people to talk to honestly (speaking from personal experience)

Try meditation, too. That also helped me.

you aren't a good reader are you?

actually what if those 7 minutes are experienced as an entire lifetime and we're already dead

I told her I'd be getting a paternity test done. Strongly sense it's mine though. Don't know if I'd be able to go through with abandoning my own blood if it's mine.

'make things' like babies haha

Nice trips. Though... that statement is a normie statement. To quote a great mind "FUCKING NORMAL FAGS! GET OFF MY FUCKING BOARD YOU FUCKING NORMAL FAGS!"
>youtube.com/watch?v=ZhKGtgcZghc

einstein died, john lennon was murdered, all your heroes have died. whats so bad about joining that club?

Let's not get retarded, once you hit clinical death that's when the fun starts.

this guy is a fuckwad scum piece of shit subhuman, dont listen to him, be a human being fer christ sake

This. And it's called benzoyl. Works wonders!

well that's what I'm sayin
the brain dies, has a clearance sale in 7 minutes

The way I see it I could never properly raise a kid without a foundation set for myself
I would just see this kid as a giant cock block and resent it's existence that's no way to raise a kid also girls I get involved with know my stance on this so it was only an issue once when I was about 17

I'm trying to be open to what you're saying and everyone else too but what the FUCK are you trying to say user

who

good point

>benzoyl
do I have to delete System32 along with it

Hitler lives on forever in our hearts and minds. That's a true hero.

you're just a fucking pussy
or a single mother
or raised by a single mother
which is redundant to the former I suppose

Or you scream and cry in your head for seven minute bargaining with God for life, then slowly feel your thoughts start to fade.

>Hister

fixed

and you get buried alive

was raised by a single mother probably makes sense to feel I can't abandon something that's mine like that then. oh well

there are no ends user.
just new beginnings.

try some acid to come to terms with the inevitable.

what if the acid just amplifies user's existing anxiety?

No a doctor puts you in fridge, then decapitates you for science

I feel anxious all the time because I am an autist and every time I interact with anyone I act cringy as fuck, so I've stopped talking to people altogether. I want to kill myself but I'm taking care of my grandmother in her elderly age and I don't want to leave the poor lonely woman alone with the thought of my taking my life, so I don't know what to do until she dies, she's 72 now and she doesn't smoke or drink alcohol or caffeine, she eats healthy and exercises daily, I don't know if I can take 30 more years of this.

no shit. think about what the kid would feel about you. damn. would you want your dad to do that to you?

have done acid once and never again. worst trip of my fucking life buddy ended up having a fucking psychosis and going to jail that night. would be a good greentext actually

but you get to guest star on Futurama

Yeah user that's pretty fucking rough. I don't particularly think about suicide. In fact its literally me wanting to cling to life forever.

well you're fucked then
you're a pussy
and your kid will be a pussy
what kind of life do you think you can provide for someone?
just picture what it must be like to have a loser dad with no education or career who's depressed and in a perpetual existential crisis?
that's what you're subjecting your progeny to
that's the choice your making
and somehow it's less cruel in your mind

would you fucking dial the ITG down from Maximum?

yeah man she will go for at least 20 more years if she is healthy at 72

It's like in this universe we process time linearly forward. But outside of our space time from what would be a fourth dimensional perspective time wouldn't exist. And from that vantage could we attain it? We see our space time would look flattened. Like a single sculpture of matter and super-position of every place it ever occupied. Our sentience is just cycling through our lives like carts on a track. See everything outside our dimension that's eternity. Eternity looking down on us. Now to us its a sphere but to them its a circle.

it most likely will
but it will ultimately be a good thing

why was it a bad trip for you?

would you want to be raised by a pussy?
honestly?
hell with statements like that you were probably raised by a single mother too

>it most likely will
>but it will ultimately be a good thing

no way dude
you don't guess as to whether it's a good idea to administer acid or not

I have a full ride to what's considered one of the top 10 schools in the US but aside from that you have a point even if it's a little skewed

einstein: "time and space are modes by which we think, they are not the conditions in which we live"

just because I'm not coddling this guy doesn't mean I'm a tough guy this isn't your university safe space pal

maybe what im trying to tell you is that, in the aspect of nature , we all end up in the same place.
it would be easier to let go.

yeah but you've got fucking TG issues
go punch a pillow faggot

so are you going to take the ride?

>you don't guess as to whether it's a good idea to administer acid or not
you are probably right.
for some people its too much to handle.
but there are other psychedelics out there that are much more mild that can have tremendous therapeutic benefits. i think op should really look into it. hes going through an existential crisis and its manifesting as anxiety. psyches are perfect for providing insight and figuring out just what exactly is at the core of the anxiety.

truth is a jagged line, but time is a flat circle

>this isn't your university safe space pal
riight because after being stupid and naive in college you grow up and vote for Trump

I see how you are