I know some of you guys are okay, a lot of you are edgy faggots now but I'm sure there are some of you that are okay.
I want to kill myself.
I feel like a complete waste of space and I honestly don't think I can pull myself out of this rut. I've been trapped in it for years.
I have no actual friends or social skills.
I feel underappreciated in everything I do.
I'm overweight, not particularly attractive.
Overall I'm a piece of shit.
I sit and think a lot about how I could do it, I've been looking towards bleeding out or hanging myself. Oddly enough when I think about slitting my throat, I can feel a lump in my throat and it feels slightly irritated.
My problem with killing myself however lies with one thing; my family. As underappreciated as they make me feel, I couldn't do something like that to my mom. I really don't think that a parent should outlive their children, so I can't do it.
I don't know anymore Sup Forums. I guess I only really came here to vent because I haven't really got anyone I can tell this to. I don't expect sympathy and I don't expect advice.