Just to brief you guys, i have advanced stage Esophageal Cancer (squamous cell carcinoma). The doctor gave me 3 weeks to 3 months to live, and i decided to come to Sup Forums for advice on what to do. I am overwhelmed with the amount of support from you guys, and as requested, i will be checking in every Tuesday and Friday with updates on the things ive done and how i'm doing. Feel free to ask any questions and give me ideas as to what to do before i die (all of my posts will be started with this so finding my updates will be easier)
Since my last update a lot of shit has happened. I went to the doctors on Wednesday, and it turns out the cancer is spreading to more places. I'm offically wheelchair bound and I've been having trouble remembering things. Luckily I had an alarm set so I could remember to post this, otherwise i woulda forgotten.
Ive decided to update you guys on what I've done on Tuesday (next update) because I want to talk about some other things.
I think I'm getting closer to the end of the road, and I want to know your guy's opinions on death and dying. I don't personally believe theres anything after it, but I've been having weird dreams about some sorta afterlife, probably because i keep stressing about it.
Someone asked me today if I'm ready to die for the first time and I froze up. It was weird because I always thought I was okay with it, but now I'm not so sure. I can't tell if I'm scared or nervous or what. I don't think it's fully set in that I am going to die soon. It's been about a month since my doctor gave me the amount of time I have left, so realistically I could probably drop dead any day now.
I think I'm more afraid of not existing than dying, if that makes sense.
I don't think there is an after life. We just turn to dirt. Your concious mind will basically turn off so no need to stress.
Nicholas Murphy
fuck off faggot
please kill yourself, be faster than mr cancer
Gavin Cook
Yeah thats what I was thinking. Its so hard to imagine though
Nah
Hunter Brown
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Luis Torres
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James Morales
Think about it this way.
If there is nothing and your consciousness just turns off, you won't be able to perceive this so worrying doesn't matter.
If there is life or anything after death it would be something we humans haven't even been able to quantify yet. Probably an experience way beyond our senses that we have here on earth, which is an experience that you could in no way prepare yourself for.
Kayden Brooks
i like you OP, you will under the morning sun, and i will remember you
Logan Richardson
Thank you user
I suppose that's a possibility. Kinda makes me a little more anxious, though
Isaac Hall
Well we don't really know what happens after death. There's a possibility that you'll go to an amazing paradise or you simply cease to be. If there is a hell you're probably not going to it unless you've done something particularly bad.
Look at like this. When you are about to die you are about to solve the greatest mystery mankind has ever faced. You will move on to a form of existence or lack there of that no living person ever has. Just make sure you have no regrets when the time comes.
Evan Bell
do lots of crazy things. lots of dangerous drugs. sex with disgusting women. have poop sex while and then do some heroin. drive somewhere very far just to see something new. know that people love you. take advantage of everyone you can because it wont matter soon.
Mason Clark
What a fucking waste, I read this entire post expecting something interesting.
What have you done? Nothing? How fucking lame.
I feel I will die young, possibly cancer, you will see my death on the fucking news you waste.
Owen Perry
> take advantage of everyone you can because it wont matter soon.
Don't do this OP. Is deceiving and abusing people for a week of pleasure worth being remembered as a scumbag?
Caleb Gray
I've been having thoughts about that myself quite alot recently. I don't have an illness or nothing but I'm acutely aware of the fact that this here and now some day will end. And that scares the living shit outta me. The thought of nothing is worse than anything I've ever come across.
I do not envy you OP, to be this close to death. But, I am only guessing, when it happens it wont be that bad. You will only drift off as if going to sleep and then never wake up again. Could be worse.
Did you at least do something cool your last month? Go skydiving? Fuck hookers and do blow? Fought a bear?
Jackson Howard
If you have read any of my other threads, you'd know I've done quite a bit
I'm only an 18 y/o virgin so theres quite a bit I cannot do. Thanks for the suggestion though.
Huh, that makes it seem pretty exciting. Maybe not the dying part, but the possibility of discovering something after
Yeah, I wasnt planning on it. Ive been doing my best to be a good person and help others so that I'm not remembered for being an asshole
(Nice trips) I think the most exciting thing i've done is smoke weed and get a pity blowjob. Hopefully i have enough time to do more (exciting) things
Bentley Barnes
Well OP, think of it this way: finally, you can experience non-experience. All of our lives are like a constant movie, a cinematic masterpiece that runs nonstop. But like any lengthy escapade, we grow tired and weary. I've been tired for the past 10 or so years to be honest, my wife's passing took away all my energy. Are you tired, OP? I'm sure you are. You seem pretty reserved in your post, as if you've come to terms with what shall come. It's normal to worry about death, about the movie stopping. But considering you've come to terms, surely that means to some extent you don't have the energy to fight. The task would be too daunting. Fighting cancer with a 3 week to 3 month window? No way! That's normal as well. Nobody can be expected to fight that. You've done everything correctly, Dominic. You lived your life, you got up, got dressed every day. You worked, you loved, you were loved, and you experienced. You've served your sentence here in this cess-pool. I'll pray to whatever it is that's beyond here that you have a kickass adventure to the other side.
God-speed, Sup Forumsro. We'll always love you
Justin Rodriguez
Well that wasn't my intention. Apologies friend.
I guess if I was in your shoes I would just try to leave the world a better place. Make sure I didn't have any regrets.
Robert Brown
That's not the point, the point is you haven't done shit, because other than posting pathetic bullshit, you're a nobody, this is real life. Anyone remember that dude that posted on Sup Forums? ? ? -Sup Forums? What and who the fuck cares...
Nobody cares
I don't, others pretend, just for selfish reasons. I'm not a selfish lying faggot
I don't fucking care, you're a loser
Bye
Eli Evans
(Nice dubs) Bruh. 18 years old. Bruh... Did you enjoy the blowie at least? Was she hot?
Ian Rogers
3edgy5me
Are you part of the interwebs cool club? Can I join and be as edgy as you?
Bet you wear a fedora.
Ryder Jenkins
What are the things that you felt the need to do after you found out u dont have long ?
Brody Ortiz
Those are the words of a bitter man who hates his life.
Do us a favor and the next time you're laying there and the thought crosses your mind, tie up the noose and end it. We don't need wastes like you in this world.
Matthew Rivera
That's a very good way of putting death. I think I've mostly come to terms with it. When I was first diagnosed, i was so scared and I just kept trying to find ways to save myself. But i think ive finally realized that fighting it makes it worse. It makes it more painful and scary. All i can do is just take it day by day now. Ive definitely grown tired, and I think I'm as ready as I'll ever be for whatever comes next.
Justin Williams
Sick burn
Please
Tell Me More Sick burn High five Where do you get your material? Sick Burn Totally inspirational
Lucas Jenkins
I just wish you good luck user. Seriously.
Luke Hill
Immediately switch to a whole foods, plant based diet. All organic. Purely plant based. Primarily composed of cold pressed juices.
It is the only way you can live. You won't regret it. Have your family help you prepare the juices and meals. If they're family, they will.
Godspeed, user
Luke Thomas
Yeah, it was pretty good. The girls was very cute
John Phillips
Contributed more than you
More honest
Not bitter
Only bitter faggots reply in anger
Sweet comeback bro Please Tell
Me More
Alexander Richardson
Wow Writing Like This Makes You Sound Like A Fucking Total Faggot
Carson Cooper
Hahahahahahahahahaha
Thank you faggot
Jason Bennett
I know this sounds lame, but I really wanted to get a job. Like a real job, not working some part time thing. And i wanted to just do normal adult things. I never really got to make that transition from childhood to adulthood
Daniel Bell
Haha
>wastes
We are all wastes
You think you're not?
Bentley Wilson
Lord Kek, please bless this faggot with our meme magic to ensure him of a long and fulfilling life
Eli Reyes
You can do the research yourself. Read the testimonials of terminal cancer patients with similar situations that had their cancer virtually disappear in a week. Find out for yourself and see if I am blowing smoke. It's in your hands.
Austin Wood
This is now a GET thread
Lincoln Morgan
Sucks to be you
Why should people care? Am I the only one realizing you're pathetic?
This is real life, good bye
Landon Turner
Thank you
I actually haven't been eating that often, but when I do it's usually fruits and bread. I'll try to do more organic plant stuff though, thanks for the suggestion
Adrian Butler
Hey man. Ignore the assholes. We're all energy. Unexplained stuff happens all the time.
When I was 5 or 6, I told my mom I saw a man waving across the street from our house. She didn't see anybody outside (we resided near like, nobody at that time). So, she asked me who I thought it was.
I told her it was a man named Hendrick.
I had never known or been told about my great grandpa (who had passed). That was his name. I described to her perfectly what he looked like as a young man.
All I'm trying to say is that we don't know what happens after this existence, but I think your journey isn't over yet.
Samuel Morris
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Christian Phillips
Drink Monster Or anything with Riboflavin
Levi Nelson
There he goes with the edgyness again... Internet warrior.
Henry Lewis
Witnessed
Adam Long
Woah, that's pretty cool. Itd be tight af if i came back as a ghost kek
Elijah Richardson
Hey dominic if you come back as a ghost can you partner with me to solve crimes or something.
Ghost crime stoppers™
Or at the very least help me convince people I have psychic powers so I can start a cult or something. I'll give you a cut of the cult profits.
Dominic Butler
Whys that?
Hudson Diaz
you were right, Mr. Bateman
Juan Lewis
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
How about the China study? Debunked
How about you smile in the mirror?
See those teeth?
Not just for plants
Sickly fucking faggots claiming they know anything about nutrition by reading web articles
It's been proven multiple times
Eat meat=longer life Plants only=sure, healthy life, much shorter
Read more
Jesus please take the wheel
Might as well fucking give up you faggot, Google doesn't make you an expert
Yeah, like all those kids around the world that mysteriously have memories from places they've never been to and people they've never met. Often from hundreds of years ago or even a couple of months.
Change your donor status to yes, buy health insurance give it your peeps, and make a wish to fuck any pornstar you wish. Go to your local ghetto and buy all the drugs (recommend acid) and just fuck shit up on your way out.
Jaxon Perez
National Geographic had a pretty interesting article about people who have "come back from the dead" and what they saw, heard, felt etc. I thought it was a pretty good read.
he's right theres a book called how not to die. read it faggots.
Gavin Mitchell
Dominic you have a rare opportunity. You are getting to face your death with dignity and have time to organize your affairs. You can say goodbye to your friends and family and make peace with your enemies. That is not an uncommon thing. Savor this man, make it count.
Dylan Bailey
I think ive seen that, it's pretty interesting
Thomas Anderson
Only fucking beta here is you. And you know it.
Nolan Thomas
Did you meet one?
Fucking internet experts
Yeah, the world is magic
Thomas Collins
Aww poor baby, sick burn bruh
High five
Nicholas Powell
Ive definitely been doing that. I spend pretty much every day with my friends and family, and ive started writing letters for them to read when i pass. I think it's fair to say that I'm pretty lucky in that aspect
Jose Scott
So we should care and fucking give you attention?
Good god what a loser
Daniel Reyes
>we are all wastes This is precisely the difference between us and you, and why you are a waste.
>you think you're not? That's correct.
Cynicism does not bear fruits of success. It doesn't buy you brownie points with anyone. Cynicism is why you hate your life, why you don't have friends, and why you're spending your Friday night on Sup Forums.
The world is what you make of it. I love my life and I see value in mine, and in everyone else's. But not yours, because you don't even see the value in your own.
How can anyone else see value in you if you don't see it in yourself? I wasn't trying to be a dick to you at all; I'm 100% serious in that if you are so cynical that you can tell a dying man he is pathetic for posting here, you have lost all humanity (which mind you is what makes this life worth living, that we can experience humanity) should end your own life. There's just no point in wasting away in anger and misery.
Juan Williams
Prevents/heals esophagus cancer
Ryder Sanchez
>writing letters to read when I pass
Is this lifetime?
How fucking lame
Andrew Carter
Huh, i'll have to look into it
Grayson Cox
Lol am posting from future Is June 7
Lincoln Adams
You seriously thought I would read this?
I actually did not, you know why? Anything you say in defense to anything I've said is wrong.
William Wood
Am i dead by then kek
Andrew Taylor
Dubs confirm time traveler
Juan Bailey
Alternative medicine like marijuana's cbd healing qualities. Worth checking out.
Ian Fisher
Yeah ive been told, havent had a chance to look into it
Chase Rodriguez
Hey, fuck you. Dominic's my Sup Forumsro
Owen Collins
i've seen this copy pasta like ten times.
Alexander Thomas
If you could give one word of advice, what would it be?
Dominic Young
>worth checking out
Dude is already checking out
Too late
Ding dong, death is here
Kevin Carter
Combine weed and energy drinks >life get >Sup Forums needs this
Jack Garcia
What a cunt. Hes sharing details with us about his last days. Its interesting and I hope he does some badass shit before he goes. You're so bitter.
Adam Clark
I mean, I've posted about this here a few times
Ian Thompson
I don't think anyone is ready to die, OP. It's one of those things that people can't really come to terms with, yet inevitably happens. I think that eventually we'll all be where you are now, struggling to cope with our existential fates. You're a brave guy, OP, I don't think I'd be as calm as you; but maybe that's just because I personally believe that you cease to exist after death. Not a dreamless sleep, I don't even picture a void. Like, how a computer is after it breaks. It isn't just turned off, it will never work again and all of its data and past uses are gone. It's just broken.
Anyway, OP, I personally would struggle to not dwell on it myself, but now during your final time alive would be the chance to do the things you've always wanted to, given your current state and capabilities. I'd eat a fuck-ton of snack cakes without guilt of being unhealthy. Stay brave, mate, my thoughts are with you.
Thomas Robinson
Check every weird lump or rash, even if you think its nothing
Or more seriously
Dont take any shitty things people say to heart. In the end, we're all going to the same place, so just live life happy
Christian Watson
I'm not a beta fucking pussy, bitter doesn't sum it up properly. This word is used by people who are so deeply ignorant they may be damn near retarded.
Lucas Nguyen
easy solution
just turn buddhist
James Ramirez
I don't fucking know I don't stalk you Probably not Also now DJL has been made
Jack Bailey
you got fucking ROASTED, dumbfuck.
Matthew Gomez
>live life happy
Aww yeah we got one of those guys over here. Peace and love bro.
Fucking sad dude, now you're wheelchair bound? You've given up before you were forced to
Thomas Bell
Thanks, user. I've definitely been eating a lot of junk food. Its weird to think that some day everyone I know and love will be dying too. It's kind of surreal, almost. To know that every person youve ever met will all die and go to nothing
Colton Sanchez
OP, I screened your first and second threads but I feel like I missed one. I'm the user who swore I'd find you. I was checking news sites and stuff and couldn't find you so I'm glad it's because you're still around. It seems like it'd be harder for you to get psychedelics, but if it at all becomes possible, please do so.
Anyway, don't listen to these fucking edge lords. I'm glad you're doing stuff to enjoy your last days and all. And don't worry about an afterlife. There isn't one.
Find comfort in the fact that the only way you live on is through the people who remember you after you've died. Make the most of that. Show your love to those you cherish. That's it.
Angel Jackson
Pretty hard to get roasted by a beta faggot, literally impossible to prove a point to anyone who doesn't read a response. See? Your response was short and to the point. It was perfect, a true response worth reading...
Sick burn bruh
You must be a winner
Aiden Jackson
Do you know how wrong you are? Literally no human is worth a fuck other than in their own pathetic mind
Adrian Rogers
Who the fuck are you? Also, why aren't you dead yet? Go get a gun, put it against your head, and squeeze the trigger. Fucking faggot.
Logan Smith
ha ur gon die bich faget not even stronk
Asher Cook
Is there anyone in this thread not fucking disgustingly pathetic? I think I see one maybe who gets it. Fuck off and die OP
Attention whore
Josiah Collins
What the hell are you talking about?
Austin Cox
Id like to see this thread up one more time when you do pass so we can all pay out respects to you. Your doing a brave thing man. And death is something that no one knows anything about. Every time I think about it just make me feel cold inside. It's a scary though.
Easton Green
Don't you want to end your life yourself? I don't know how painful and agonizing it will be for you, but fuck, I wouldn't want to miserably wait for my certain death.
Dominic Phillips
Your pathetic post about "edgelords"
What and ignorant fucking loser
Ryder White
I, along with others, asked him to keep us updated. Fuck off. Leave the thread instead of being a bastard to this kid.
Nolan Butler
Oh, i remember you! Yeah, luckily i'm still kickin B) My friend is actually trying to get me ecstasy. He told me that i should take one when i feel myself giving out or something, but i'm pretty sure I'll be out.
Thats actually one of the few reasons i'm afraid of dying. I just dont want people to forget me, because I dont think youre truly dead until memories of you are gone.
I'm glad that you have been able to keep tabs on me, makes me feel good
Jose Adams
Hey Dom, new to your posts and i sincerely wish for you last days to be fruitful.
I tend to view death as a reward. Sure i prefer to live but the constant struggle to survive seems like there should be something waiting for you at the end. Idk
