How're you holding up Sup Forums?

How're you holding up Sup Forums?

Other urls found in this thread:

youtube.com/watch?v=IpYa_HW_GxI
youtu.be/pb8BiQR9RTI
twitter.com/SFWRedditGifs

Very badly. I'm having a pretty bad panic attack just because I have to make a phone call to a potential employer. I dropped out of school since I got anxious and suicidal, and I'm looking for a job but I can't give any resumes or call people without getting heated and thinking illogically.

All I want to do is die since I have no purpose, but I'm listening to SAW II so it's not that bad I guess.

trust me on this one: it gets better

not very well
everyday is worse than the last
here's to hoping 2017 will be better...

I believe in you user, the call's gonna go fine

Not so great. I've managed to waste almost all of 2016, having accomplished nothing and still being a friendless NEET. Plus i'm spending Halloween alone.

Bad. Insomnia and anxiety hittin' hard, dropped school about a year ago, don't know what to do with my life.
To keep music related, I've been diggin' some Sun Ra lately.
youtube.com/watch?v=IpYa_HW_GxI

Stay strong, anons. It all goes well in the end

i'm ok

Well I'm still in college and still have my scholarships so it could be worse. Just gotta work on not hating myself and being less weird around everybody

I've been listening to Swans and Xiu Xiu for the majority of the weekend because Halloween and I'm edgy like that

Not good, The girl I have had feelings for about a couple years who I hang out with often got with her ex now I am nobody to her but a friend she sees every once in a while

Really bad.

Dropped out of school years ago and haven't done anything with my life, suffer from too my anxiety to get a job ,or to even try it and my depression has caused me to lose interest in most things. I can't even play games or watch movies anymore without forcing it. That dopamine release you get from just the joy of living and doing things isn't something I've experienced in years now, everything is grey.

For the past few months I've been feeling worse and worse about my situation, and the thought of taking action and doing something only serves as a reminder of how bad things have gotten so instead I retreat back into my safe space of doing nothing and feeling completely dead inside, wasting away years of my life.

I have no idea how I'm gonna turn this around, it's scary to think about. But the thought of not doing anything is becoming the scarier of the two, so I hope I find some inspiration to better myself through that fear.

it's ok, I have a job that pays pretty well (I do subtitling on tv for deaf people) and that leaves me with three days off a week, and music to listen to
could probably be better but I can't really complain I've been poorer and less happy in my life

This is a feel I know. You will eventually realise she's not as special as you thought and forget about her. It's for the best.

Thank god they don't sell guns here or I'd start a shotting.

>met her on tumblr
>i was 21 she was 19
>i was living in denmark at the time
>she's in germany
>talk more and more through tumblr messages
>move on to kik
>talk every single day, conversations getting deeper, staying up all night talking
>she's going through a rough depression
>her ex is being a rapist dickhead
>work her through that
>started talking beginning of 2014, ending of the year i moved to france
>all through the year she sent me little packages with chocolate and mix cds
>she became my best friend and i hers
>somewhere around november she tells me about a date she had with some random twat, and she went to her place but halfway through she changed her mind and stuff
>she told me she always had intimacy issues
>i felt insanely jealous but couldn't understand why
>beginning of 2015 she asks if we should meet, i was completely clueless as to why she'd want to meet
>we met up in march, in london, spent the most fucking amazing week ever
>she was the first girl i ever fingered, went down on, got a blowie from, etc
>she told me that was the first time she didn't go cold during or after
>long distance relationship
>by mid october the sexting dies down, but it's fine, i know she had issues with sexual stuff when i wasn't there
>works out until january this year
>have huge fight, don't talk for a week
>she tells me that she would be really happy if i visited her
>i do, in march, celebrate one year
>have a lovely last day together, waking up next to her, having some awesome sex, a king like breakfast, watched a movie, went into town, went to the zoo, took film photos of her, go home, take a bath together
>one week later, on the 1st of goddamn april, she tells me she wants out
>she basically becomes a lesbo tumbrlina leftie bitch

God damn it, I mean, she was such a lovely girl, perfect mix of shy and lewd, and she was such a sweet little soul, full of kindness and love and understanding, and she loved me and my shitty fucking jokes and my shit body and she was lovely and we made lovely plans but that's all fucking dust now.

I know I didn't act perfect, I had times when I was too jealous, and negative, and not as patient and understanding as I could, and for no reason, I know she never cheated on me. I'll probably never live something like that week in London. We stopped talking since July.

I really miss her. I miss my love, and my best friend.


I thought a lot about it but I went out and got a tattoo, of a soundwave of a voice message she sent me once, in the good days. Just a simple "good night *nickname*, I love you"

I miss my love and my best friend, mu.

The projection is really hard on this :\
Stay strong, user

go see a doctor, man. only way out is to be honest w yourself + open up

good luck man

shit

same as usual, i have like 4 """""""friends""""""" who i don't even like but my anxiety makes it incredibly hard to talk to new people, let alone befriend them. I don't talk to anyone outside of my classes at school, i never go out anywhere and the last time i really spoke to a girl was months ago. i feel so alone

This one got me man :( stay strong shit will get better user

I'm in a better mood than usual recently, finding it easier to be happy. I usually like to be alone, but it's on big social days like halloween that loneliness hits. I always have in the back of my mind that I'm currently unemployed (just graduated, struggling to find a job), friendless and unattractive. But for the most part I'm not particularly depressed or anxious as I have been in the past, in fact even slightly hopeful that things will get better. A weird feel.

Great. Tomorrow I'm meeting with a girl I met this summer through music. I thought I would never see her again.

Pretty good, I started 10th grade in a new country and I have been able to fit in really well and I've found a nice friend group. I enjoy it here way more than than the country I used to live in, school was a feeling of pain. However, now I'm happy to go to school and see people I actually like.

Recently I've been listening to Danny Brown's new album and Noname

Thank you, m8. But when does it ?

It's been a couple of months now, and my feelings about this have started having wider ranges. I'm either full of hate towards her, or full of regret and missing her and self-hate.

They say it does, but when ?
When I drive around town and everything around here reminds of her ? Even a stupid corner shop where we bought brownies and ate them when taking a break in a cemetery ?
When I run my finger over that stupid tattoo and I keep hearing her voice and it makes me dizzy ?
When I keep having dreams of the plans we never made ?

One of the things that made her fall for me, she told me after a while, was that I told her I liked shoegaze, that I speak french, and that one day I'll cook her the best pizza she ever had.

I didn't even get to make her a pizza.

Telefone gets better every listen for real, so good.

>already have social anxiety and depression, suicidal thoughts daily
>get a job
>it just gets worse
please kill me famalam

I'm starting to consider getting into wizardry
I'm a 18 'young lad' but shit boy
Almost everyone wherever I go is taken
I never formed myself socially enough to take someone out
And I always end up as the friendly guy
Do not forget the devoid personality
And hating basically the majority of my population
It's either wizardry or bullet

This touched me deeply, don't worry, it'll work out for you user

Not well. I am not going to live much longer and have not told a soul. Some people are gonna end up very disappointed soon.

I'm so sorry but I can't do anything.

Honestly you sound like you are in the peak of the post-relationship depression stage. I know it's rough now.

But the reason people say it gets better is because it does, even though you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel just yet. I personally think, having been there myself, that the brain can only take being torn about a relationship for so long before it just moves on.

Yow know the whole phases of grief thing, like denial > anger > bargaining > depression > acceptance? that is actually real as fuck and I have been through it a couple times. You sound like you are somewhere between anger and depression rn, but just trust me eventually you will reach acceptance and it just takes time.You will drive past the corner shop and remember those times, but it won't tear you up. You will say "that happened," and move on.

The only medicine is really time. Just listen to good music, relax, and wait

Okay I guess.

Still fighting back tears every time she walks by.
Still kicking myself for ever getting into self harm.
I have involuntary suicidal thoughts and my chest always hurts from anxiety.

But all things considered my life is okay. Thanks for asking

Not OP but this still helped, thanks user

I need to find a roommate early next year, and i know ZERO people in the city I live in. I have zero friends.

And I need to find a roommate who is quiet and respectful, like me. I don't know how to.

wow this is almost as good advice as "JUST BE URSELF"

no job, no hope, no friends, no money
I'm numbing myself with music, dumb LDR & porn. it could be better but I guess it could be worse

Alone on halloween and depressed. Probably going to drink infill I passout

What are you drinking, friend?

just left work after realizing how much of my life i've wasted. the only thing that comforts me is thinking about how i could kill myself.

so not great

I like that feels threads seem to be coming back on Sup Forums, it's about time.

Also, hold strong everyone, and if you have friends in your life, talk to them. Opening up can be hard, but they can help you best :)

my depression is getting a little worse, but weirdly im pretty confident in myself.
worried i might not be able to make it as a musician, but i have no other choice so yeah.
im also starting to realize that even with a gf things won't change
i still want a blonde qt3.14 though

I'm doing okay. My biggest problem right now is procrastination and wasting too much time in general, but I'm slowly getting better about it.

Pretty good. The harmonica I ordered just came today, so now I just need to put some practice in. I need to get my shit together though I pretty much just waste my time with this site, movies and games.

I woke up ate breakfast went back to sleep then ordered pizza

Damn that sounds like a cool job. I work like 5 hours a week and the pay is fantastic so I listen to music 24/7

I know I sound like a fucking pussy, cheers m8.

I mean, look, rationally I suppose I understand that I'll meet somebody else eventually, that might be a better match, because again, rationally, I am aware that if we kept going the way we were and her evolving the way she started being, she would've turned our kids into the queerest of sjws but still, it hurts so fucking much.

This might be hyperbole, but I feel like I lost a kid. Yes, rationally, logically etc.

But I'm not a rational man at the moment. All I keep thinking is the plans we had and how if she kept being her lovely 19 years old self, things would've been pretty good.


I suppose this fucked me up so much since as I said, this was the first time I ever felt anything like this.

And also, what really doesn't help is the fact that us breaking up coincided with me starting my current job, which leaves me very little time to actually live. So, it's not like I'm out meeting girls. I'm stuck and I've never been this lacking of hope and enthusiasm about what's ahead. I always had an idea of how things will work out. But not anymore. I've grown incredibly cynical.

I also thought that random sluts will fill a hole. While their holes were filled, with muh dick, mine wasn't. Fucked black girls, chubby girls, a middle aged asian prostitute, normies. On one hand it's fun, different titties and twats. At first. Then, it hit me how I was looking for my ex in all the random girls. It disgusted me how easy it is, even for a fat fuck to get random sex.

I met a 19 years old jap girl on tinder, we started talking about shoegaze and shit, she might be into me and it's the first girl I bothered saying more to than "ay bish wanna fugg". Sadly, I gotten to the point where I have to force myself not to be a dick to her, just because she's not my ex.

Sorry for all the rambling. It's a shitty situation.

As they say in Norwegian Wood "only assholes feel bad for themselves".

If that's the case, then call me Jamal, cause the sun don't shine here nomo.

Context pls

Any tips? My procrastination is at its worse now to the point of not even finishing assignments or studying.

Everyone thinks I'm a fucking joke for pursuing a career in music, how do you word "Making my own music" to sound like a career?

Sit down and do 60 seconds of work. Get a timer on your laptop or your phone. Just do 60 seconds. Then when that passes, set the timer to 2 minutes, then 3 minutes, etc. The trick is to work as hard as you possibly can for those few minutes. If, you find yourself losing focus after the timer gets too long, start back from 60 seconds.

If you take a short break, make sure you set a timer to make sure you don't lose track of time. Making a schedule for the day is a good way to do that/

It takes some motivation and discipline but you just have to take it one step at a time. Tell yourself that this is going to be the very hour break the habit/

i dont know what im doing with my life

>she basically becomes a lesbo tumbrlina leftie bitch
K E K
well done, user, you turned this qt into a monster: what have you done to her jeeeesus

Thanks for this user, I'll try your method right now. Godspeed

Goodluck. I'll try and practice what I preach as well.

You should have a normal job while working on your music on the side.

Same. I took a year off because I couldn't decide what I wanted to be and now I realize that there's no fucking way I'm gonna get into the education I want with my grades. I'm fucked.

it's nice but it can be pretty stressfull, we get the image 6 seconds before the average joe and have to subtitle it before he gets it so if there's lots of shit going on or a technical difficulty you have to act fast
also some of the stuff I subtitle is really boring/bad)

>live alone, parents abroad
>will have two big exams by April and June
>no motivation to study, but the pressure is strong
>haven't left the house for anything except school
>nobody to talk to except internet strangers

it feels as though there's no enjoyment in living lately

I got you senpai

youtu.be/pb8BiQR9RTI

I mean, look at this shit.
Why should I bother?

what course did you want to do? do you think the degree is necessary? so you havent started uni yet or you took a break in the middle of it?

im in an awkward situation, 2 years into uni although it feels like the first year cos i got a transfer from another uni, hard to adapt, not knowing anyone and the work style is different, ontop of that i need to know what im doing in my dissertation for next year as my research essays for now have to link to it, i dont have a fucking clue what im going to do for my diss cos ive been spending so much time trying to adapt to the new environment and so i cant progress with my current essays. doesnt help they throw ridiculous amounts of work at you, more so than most degrees and they have had complaints.

idk but for me uni shouldnt be about constantly trying to keep your head above water, thats what its like. it also doesnt help that my degree wont necessarily help my chances of getting a job in this specific field and im not the essay type of person.

my work has completed froze, feels like ive just accepted my fate and spiralled down. also pressure of not letting the senpai down, and most importantly, myself. its fucking group work as well at the moment and i dont know anyone.

sheesh sorry i unloaded this on you, it just kept going and going

>what course did you want to do?
Not really course but program, not sure how similar uni's are whereber you are and here in Sweden. I want to go to a 5 year program to get a degree in psychology and those programs are really hard to get into. I just finished "high school" (I guess?) this summer and instead of going to uni immediately I decided to take the year off to work and stuff. The degree is definitely necessary for doing what I want to do in life which is be a psychologist.

Don't really have any advice to you but I hope it works out in your favor senpai.

all these posts about broken relationships and doing bad in school... i'm nothing. i've never been interesting enough for a relationship, and i don't care about where my life goes anymore. i have no personality. i am nothing. people ask me "what do you do in your free time" and i can't answer. i do nothing but waste time online. not in some way i can spin around into being profitable, i just consume. then they inevitably ask "well what do you like to do?" and i can't answer that either. the closest thing that brings me peace is thinking about how i could end it.

there's no point in self improvement. i tried to dig myself out of this but i only fell back down. i was able to lie to myself and think that i could improve for years, and it got me nowhere. i am a broken foundation of a man, even if i did manage to build something it would inevitably fall because it relies on me.

atleast in sweden you dont have high tuition fees do you?
5 years, thats pretty tough-going

Nah but you still need to take loans in the tens of thousands of dollars for the cost of living so you're still pretty much in debt for a large part of your life

Me too. I know it's the music board but mu feels like it's missing a piece without it.

a girl was really fucking into me, loads, i liked her and i didnt tell her

its been 2 years, i think about her every day. we dont speak

Words cant express emotions I feel right now, Im sick of everything, tired, thinking about the future makes me want to cry and my biggest hope is that someday I will die and nobody would notice it

my dad made me eat my vegetables

I broke up with.my first true girlfriend/real love three months ago. Despite that we decided to stay friends, so I was still seeing her on a weekly base. Unfortunately this subconsciously kept the flame in me alive that we would come back together again, even though she dated someone else as well in those three months. Yesterday we had dinner and I once again talked about my feelings for her, and while she truly likes me as a friend she doesn't feel anything more than that for me right now. I am finally accepting the fact that we broke.up but it hurts Sup Forums, it hurts as a motherfucker because I have never felt such pure emotions for another person. I truly love(d) here

they were really nasty vegetables as well

>Get too close to one of my best friend's girls.
>Sleep with her more than once.
>Feel no guilt. Just worried about the implications it could have within my friend group. How they would all see me differently.
>Shocked by my almost-sociopathic lack of empathy and guilt. I thought I was a nice person.
>Decide best thing to do is distance myself.
>Girl gets mad that I stopped talking to her.
>Tells friend some not very nice things I said about him in confidence to her.
>Life-long ruined.

It was ruined when we had sex. I'm not trying to shift the blame or anything petty like that.

Mostly it really scared me how easily I could do something that hurt one of my closest friends and not feel bad about it. I look at my dad and how he has 0 affection for my mother and I think I'm almost doomed to go down the same path. We're so similar. It's like I'm not capable of making resolute emotional bonds with other people. The only thing that keeps me on track is some moral compass or standard that I want to hold myself to. For me.

Their relationship is ok though so I think I did the right thing by removing myself from their lives. The other option was to tell the truth and that could do more harm than good and would definitely fuck me over so I'm not willing to do it.

life-long friendship* ruined

Dont have sex with female friends my man, it always end up in some catastrophic turn of events and hurts everyone in the process. There are plenty of nice girls around who aren't part of your inner circle

Doing alright. Trying to get with this girl that probably just considers me a friend but hey, why not try.

Listening to some Bauhaus atm.

Pretty good about to finish uni soon and confident in my future. I was like many of you with depression and anxiety but I met this girl that I fell in love with and showed me a lot of things about myself that I hadn't realized and acid lol. Unfortunately it didn't work out so now I'm looking for another lover but she at least showed me that I don't want to die alone something I didn't feel before where everything was bleak. Plus after getting a good job where's the fun in getting paid well if you don't have anyone to share it with am I right?

You're so right.

I was at a low point for me where I hadn't had sex in almost two years and didn't have much socializing at school etc etc. The usual story. It made me feel better about myself. So much better. But you're still right.

Me too! Though it's pretty much just Bela Lugosi's Dead on repeat.

Holy shit I thought my life was meh because I'm too much of a bitch to ask out that girl I like, but after reading this thread I realize that many of you have it much harder. Turns out I'm not only shy but also a whiny faggot. Stay strong y'all.

I am, and while I completely agree that having a relationship with someone is like society's prozac, it only makes me sad that mine is over. Lots of lonely people on Sup Forums in general would probably be way less lonely if they would get that feeling from someone else as well, I think it would do really wonders to the majority of this site here. So I only hope all you guys who are down right now will feel that once, I truly do. I have had enough enjoyable moments on this site to wish the people here all the best. I just hope I will feel the same thing once again as well

Not great. Zero friends anymore. "Recovering" drug addict but I'm still smoking weed, for some reason I'm able to keep it under control and not go back to harder stuff, while keeping up responsibilities as best I can, which is going well (thus far). Getting school sorted out, starting driving school too. Just trying to keep my head above water and figure out who the fuck I am more or less. Trying to fix my relationship with my father too. Would be nice to have some friends.

cheap vodka and cranberry juice user

Try to keep the pressure on it, judged by your description I know you can do so, so just keep going on. I have learnt that in other to be attractive to others, both in a sexual sense and in a social sense, it is important to firstly be at ease and comfortable with yourself. If you feel ready for it then try to do some activity like joining a hobby club, or a sports team or just anything that is into your interest. If you do that and keep an happy attitude towards both yourself and others, those friends will come naturally, I can 100% ensure you that

alright, thnks for asking

Not good. I'm failing most of my classes. I feel so overwhelmed but at the same time I can't concentrate or put the time in. I just want to sleep, I just want to feel nothing. I feel like crying because of the silliest reasons, and sometimes for no reason at all. I don't have any friends. I have a huge crush on a girl who thinks I'm a creep, and I feel like throwing up every time I see her. I have bad social anxiety and can't even call people on the phone. I spoke to my college advisor today after pacing around the building for 20 minutes to work up the courage, and he flat up told me I won't make it in this world If I'm shy. He's right, and I know it, but what can I do? I hate myself. I have taken up cutting, but nothing major. Just little cuts on my thighs and upper forearm. I'm too much of a pussy to break the skin, but the pretty burn feels nice. My heart is sinking out of my chest and I can't hold it in anymore. I just want someone to help me or love me or anything. I don't like being alone. Music is pretty much the only interest I can maintain, although just barely. Most of it sounds like nothing.

Here is the album I'm listening to right now. It's too cheery and it's making me sick. But I like it, I don't know. Sorry for the faggy blog post Sup Forums, but I hope you're my friends.

Why are we all such failures? Why is this the collective fate of music fans?

Thank you user, I appreciate that. Really.

>failures
>90% of posts are about "girl likes me and im too shy to say anything"
i came to this thread to feel with others and now i only feel worse

you need a semester off
then take acid and search for yourself

i know it's cliche but hang in there- it will get better. i know how overwhelming the feeling of anxiety can be. shit's no joke. i really hope things turn around for you soon user.

I wish i had someone that liked me, or moreover, someone that *I* like to begin with.

I spend most of my time wondering if I'll ever love someone, because any relationship I've attempted has ended with my easily waning interest in the person and I have no crushes at all.

Come on my man. Dont cut yourself, I would be really sad if you do that. All lives matter, yours is just as important as the life of any other individual. It seems that you have some serious psychological issues though, because cutting yourself is a signal that it isn't going well with you. Please contact a therapist as soon as possible, such a person will help you with regaining your confidence and feeling more secure and less shy. Please do so, I don't want you to mutilate yourself, even though I am nusy a random stranger on the internet. And if I already feel like this, imagine how your beloved ones like your parents will feel. Please take care of yourself

No problem
You don't seem to have problems with getting attention from girls in the first place then. If that's the case I can only say that you have to keep going on. Don't jump into every girl that comes close to you, allow yourself to be critical. But sooner or later that special girl will come user, it is just a matter of time. The fact that you actually wish you can love a person to me means that you are capable of doing so, it is just a matter of finding the right person. And yeah that takes time unfortunately, but she will be there user, she will be

Man.. i'm just tired. All the time. First semester of sophomore year of college and I've just felt so burnt out from school. There's a crazy ex back home who won't stop bugging me. I've also been stoned pretty much nonstop since January, probably not the best response to any of that. I was pretty rock bottom around mid-August till fairly recently. There were days I wouldn't get out of bed at all.

Lately things have been better tho.. I saw a really amazing concert a few weeks ago. Met a cutie in one of my and we've been hanging out a bit. I feel really lucky to have such amazing friends here at school and I feel like sometimes I take them for granted. I also declared a major today after being undeclared my whole college career, and I'm taking an extended break from smoking pot/drinking etc.

everythings still far from perfect, but I've felt better these last two weeks than I have in a long time

oh yeah I forgot to mention im a guy & gay

and im way too shy to talk to any guys (but i have no problem carrying convo thats started WITH me)

my stuff in the past was with girls but i came to terms with sexuality and i dont like girls (might explain the disinterest)

I'm just a mess. and i wish i had a boyfriend too

DUDE
PSYCHEDLICS CURE EVERYTHING
LMAO
JUST OPEN YOUR MIND

That sounds great user. It is not an easy process to improve your life and it often takes way more time than we initially think or hope, but it seems that you have made the first steps. Please don't fall back.in your old behavior. And about that ex, I don't know how crazy crazy is in this case, but if you can block/ignore her enough she will give up after time before cause she is just not able to keep on going like this. And if she is truly crazy you can always go.to the police. Do t try to look too much to the past user, try to set some relatively achievable goals for your near future and try to focus on reaching those, it will do you better than just looking to the past

I know you can create a nice life for yourself. Just keep trying

>Sun Ra
right on