>be me >35yo average looking friendless semi virgin >fat bastard dad abused me as a kid emotionally, verbally, the usual stuff >only light in my life is Aikido classes >their motto is ‘true victory is victory over yourself’ >no contact with girls >cry wank myself to sleep to hentai every night to cure insomnia >one night decide to kill myself >go clubbing instead >should buy a drink to numb the horrible feels >the female bartender asks what will I have >dark hair, tats, and a smile like a dark angel >god those wonderbra tits >“mmm dunno a cosmopolitan” >laughinggirls.jpg >hide in the corner and sip my cocktail through a straw >music is shit >blunt instrument pounding my head repeatedly >my feet hurt >a guy approaches >oh great, another faggot hitting on me as usual >“hey man have you seen Molly” >he wants to sell me drugs >I’ve read about this on erowid >maybe I should go back home to my Tsumugi pillow >fuck it #yolo #swag >I buy a pill >bestdecisionofmylife.exe >the music sounds like a chorus of lolis >the normies suddenly look beautiful >they’re all just horny like me and it’s okay >I get it now >a single tear flows down my cheek >dance with three different progressively hotter girls >make out with the hottest on the couch >we move to the bathroom, she’s practically tearing off my belt >feels like an angel is sucking my dick >direct eye contact into her soul >my legs shake in ecstasy >“user you should hook me up with Molly too” >don’t stop now.. m’lady >I cum with the force of a million suns in her throat >“user I love you” >I become addicted
>I take on a second job flipping burgers >spend all my paycheck on drugs >can’t put a price on good pussy >I fuck the hottest bitches imaginable >just give them a pill and they’re yours >smugpepe.jpg >I try other stuff, coke and molly are the best >I hook up steady with a blonde Ukrainian model >body like a goddess, face like a goddess, innocent soul 10/10 >I take viagra and molly, fuck her all night >in every orifice >can’t cum but don’t care, this is like hours of orgasm >she’s high as fuck on molly too >I’m balls deep in her ass >roccosiffredi.webm >we become a couple >my gf >she’s really into anal sex >her asshole is not tight, I can easily get half my dick in there while she rubs her perfect pussy to orgasm >her emotions flow easily and freely >she’s the pure soul I always wanted to be >I’m in love
Jonathan Taylor
>we go clubbing every weekend >she loves to dance but I just want more drugs >intensity is never enough for me >one time when I’m high on molly I try to bring another girl in for a threesome >girl is brunette 7/10, I’m too high to notice >I kiss the girl on the lips >gf throws a screaming shit fit >“user this is fucking over!” >breaks down in tears of rage >I somehow calm her down, say I’m sorry it was the drugs wasn’t me etc >I almost lose her, this is my first warning >weeks pass, things relax >back to normal, getting bored again >I buy some LSD >dealer says whatever you do don’t look in the mirror >yeahright.png >I try some at home with gf >holymotherofgod.jif >I start taking LSD on every occasion >I want to be tripping every minute of my waking life >we take molly with LSD, a larger dose this time >she turns into Hindu goddess Shakti >she’s giving me the divine truth of existence in a single moment >can this get any better? >I buy a vial of LSD >I take 10 drops >go to friend’s house >friend turns into an ancient demon of war and rape >his muscles are covered with moving, alive tattoos of tortured souls of naked women >he’s staring at me, studying me, penetrating my being >this is bullshit, I go home >look in the mirror >no, user. you are the demons >panic.exe >I scream at gf to take me to hospital >gfpanics.exe >we get there >nursepanics.exe >they give me benzos >I pass out for two days >when I wake up the benzos’ after effect kicks in and I start yelling at my gf in rage >rage turns into tears as I tell her I’m sorry it was just the drugs it wasn’t me >gf had enough of my shit >she’s gone
>months go by >between panic attacks and psychiatric medication realization slowly creeps up on me >I had a Ukrainian model goddess gf who liked anal sex and she’s gone forever >panic attacks are now five a day >I break a monitor in an autistic fit of rage >family hospitalizes me in a peaceful drug recovery center near the ocean >all the guys there think they’re Jesus and constantly propose to the manic depressive girls >can’t think straight because of the anti psychotic meds >how did I get here? I had a gf, a future >I explain to the psychiatrist that consciousness is everything >he says but what about objects being consistent in time and space, isn’t that objective reality >go fuck yourself you smug peasant, I was given the divine truth from Shakti herself >more therapeutic group activities >plant some flowers >draw a picture of yourself >I draw Vishvarupa, the universal form of Hindu God Brahman >everybody rolls their eyes >the hottest girl there is checking me out >dark skin, long curly hair, face has beauty with a hint of evil, like a porn actress, fake boobs but still sexy, could easily pass for a stripper >turns out she actually was a stripper >her dad molested her as a kid >shouldbeeasy.mp3 >I slip her some benzos at night to get high and fuck >she has a clit hood piercing, cums every 10 seconds, squirts like crazy >this is boring, just another slut, I want my goddess gf back >I yell at everyone in group meetings >frustratedcryingwojak.png >eventually they kick me out of the rehab center >I’m diagnosed with PTSD >constant nightmares >have to take meds because of panic attacks >meds make me gain weight >I start to look like dad
Nicholas Miller
>be me 35
stop right there, why are you even on here at age 35, is your life that miserable?
Cooper Walker
You wrote all that shit? God damn you suck so much. Who that fuck would actuality read that
Kevin Bailey
>live by myself, only relief in my life is porn >the hardcore bdsm shit >fuck it, I’m popping two mollies for old times’ sake >I’m searching ‘anal gang rape’ on pornhub >my glazed eyes stare past the monitor into the abyss of oblivion >can’t get it up on molly anymore, better finger my ass >found vid of a young blonde tied to some machines and getting fucked by some dudes in the ass >I imagine she’s my Ukrainian gf’s and her angelic face is being forced into a tub of acid >my ass hurts but I don’t care, I shove another finger in there with more rage >for the memory of my lovely angel who liked to get it in the ass too >my ass is literally tearing up >what’s going on there >oh shit >notlikethis.gif >I’M TURNING INSIDE OUT >this is how my family will find me >the ultimate humiliation >the highest pleasure >the goddamn gangrape vid >one last thought goes through my mind >Mark 4:22: “Everything hidden will be revealed” >as I cum harder than I ever came in my life >while my intestines explode out my body >with the ultimate release >and joy of death
Joseph Price
We can't all be 12, user.
Austin Long
well?
Julian Anderson
I need your constructive criticism, Sup Forums
Isaiah Cruz
...
Zachary King
What the fuck did I just read.
Landon Martin
...
Nathaniel Sanders
liked it?
Asher Gutierrez
I was kinda hoping for a happy ending
Wyatt Baker
is there more?
Oliver Jackson
also, the aikido classes never really got tied into anything else in the story
Cooper Watson
yeah he goes on to be reincarnated as the devil and eventually becomes lord shiva
but I haven't written that part yet
David Nguyen
yeah it's not complete yet
Jace Williams
R.I.P
Wyatt Hernandez
do have a site you post?
Elijah Cox
You could have warned my sides
Sebastian Smith
I thought this was true until the end :') fucking gold
John Moore
I don't know any writing sites, I'd love to post somewhere and get feedback
Henry Ward
tl;dr
Alexander Smith
10/10 best thing I read in months here. Op be proud
Gabriel Turner
quality read
Nathaniel Stewart
Nice story
Matthew Parker
I'm 30 I'll still be here at 35. My life's awesome but I don't get to see many 20 year old asses elsewhere.
Christian Carter
>semi virgin care to explain?
Jaxon Thompson
i second this
Alexander Davis
I cri evrytiem :'(
Alexander Powell
The story was nice to read mate, hope your life is going good atm
Aiden Flores
Who are you rly OP? The story is great, but I suppose its fiction... Enjoyed it to the fullest tho
Liam Ramirez
Nice story bro. Makes a good change from all the faggoty cancer lately.
Benjamin Jenkins
That was.... something
Daniel Roberts
OP here, thanks everyone
the story is 99% true except I didn't explode and die
actually found another girl and am happily married
will continue the story later with some fantasy elements
Anthony Davis
No fucking fantasy elements, we want the truth
Asher Gomez
>35 >"semi virgin"
Nigga whut?
Lincoln Bell
i'll post the fictional version later, I'm curious about feedback
Joshua Myers
Did fantasizing about Indian gods ever make you want to shit in the street?
I feel like my life is over. I feel like I've missed the golden years. I have no idea what a 32 year old is supposed to do. I'm very far behind in my development. I feel too old now, some of the things I've listed below you do when you are 14 - 26. Another problem I have is that I feel too young and on top of that, that I have no business being anywhere. To me, my peers feel like 35-38, yet I myslef feel like 16-17.
> Dutch > 32 > Lived abroad most of my Life, in an islamic country > Never had sex > Never drank alchohol, never tried > Never smoked, never tried > Never used drugs, never tried > Never interacted with girls > Never talked to a girl > Never touched a girl > Never kissed a girl > Never had friends > Never hung out around town > Never hung out with peers > Never been to a house party > Never been to a club > Never been to a bar > Never been to university / college partying > Never been to an event (concert, football match, comedy show, etc) > Never been on holiday > Never been to summer camp > Never been to a party island like Ibiza > Never had a stereo in my room > Never had a tv in my room > Never had a console in my room > Was not allowed to bring people over > Was not allowed to go to other people's homes > My parents were very strict and would use guilt tricks to keep me indoors > My parents also used the same excuse over and over again, which was "You are too young for that, you are not ripe enough". > Another excuse was "Because you lack expierence you are not allowed to participate, only when you have enough expierence are you allowed to participate".
David Hughes
get a job get out of parents' house meet ppl at job go drinking
Hunter Thompson
> get a job I have an IT job
>get out of parents' house live on my own, small apartment
> meet ppl at job I work from home
> go drinking I find the smell of alochol disgusting, too scared to try a taste
Jayden Carter
you poor thing
Isaiah Thompson
so branch out?
It's not like everything is lost, right. You're just older, now.
Probably best to start at a community college or something and work your way from there.
Jonathan Davis
alcohol's not really all it's cracked up to be imo. But this is coming from something of a career stoner so take that how you will I guess.
But whiskey is delightful; I have it every now and again.
Jacob Taylor
OP, the story was really good and enjoyable. The last part was shit tho. Like, how the fuck can you kill yorself inserting fingers into anus? So if you want advice from some anonymous guy from the internet, too socially/generally incompetent to hung out with any people right now, here it is: stick to realism. write nothing 'bout becoming a god. Well, unless in a psychedelic vision that is. Becoming a god is good for teenage poetry, you have actual talent. Hope I'll stumble upon the next part. cheers
Kevin Miller
thanks for the feedback, I appreciate it
Levi Long
I'm 26 and I feel I'm getting too old to be here.
Connor Wilson
Is this a story you're writing?
Sebastian Bell
Wanks itself to sleep! Better than counting sheep you fag