Please help

Please help.
Please read.
This is a real cry for reassurance.

Im sinking into severe depression and i want to die. I am very suicidal.

I am only 18 but im not being immature im serious i know i have no future and i know that my life was fucked from the beginning. I have no dream jobs so theres nothing i can go persue i have minimal qualifications as im stupid and bone idle so i cant find a proper job. Im kinda ugly and shy so I've had no real relationship for years i only have a few friends and they're 10x better than me and already have amazing jobs and their lifes are set out for them. I also lost my girlfriend that i love more than ive loved anyone. My parents dont know how fucked my mind is so they still give me shit and it doesnt help. I cant go tell anyone how i feel because ill sound pathetic and dont wanna embarrass myself, i dont want people to see me as i am now. I have no skills. I have no ambitions and im a 100% waste of resources to everyone around me. I have a job but its only in a pub and im over worked and underpayed also i only work one day a week for £30 i asked for more days but they said they dont need me. I cant afford to do anything to socialise properly. I waste the money i do earn on unnecessary shit and waste it on alchohol. I try to talk to people so i stay slighly sane but people dont wanna talk to me. They do if i ask them but i know they don't wanna and dont really care.

Theres more but i cant think right now.

TL;DR: i NEED attention, Dont let me kill myself i have a 8 year old sister that loves me to death and i dont what her to grow up knowing her big brother killed himself. Help.

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do it fucking faggot

Pretty sure you can still do something in college, apply for a bursary, should help you find something to put your mind to

Thanks for the help. Im sure you've been in this situation too where you need help and noones there to give you it. Think about what you say to people. Its not funny. I understand this is Sup Forums but its the only place i thought to come for anonymous help. Im a human and im a really nice guy i just want support.

Don't you have any passion you can persue?

I have no passions no hobbies

Bro, i have the same age, same situation but, i wan't to be fuckin sure i am fucking, i am working hard to afford a weapon :,^)

I want to be sure i get fucking dead* sorry

Just laugh. Laugh at your misery and laugh at the indifference of this universe. Realize that there are no set rules. You can do anything you want. Everywhere. Laugh my friend. A thousand faces and shades of madness are smiling upon you.

No dude please dont hurt yourself. You have skills you know you do. You're more intelligent than i am you most likely have things to help you progress in life.

Damn im almost your age, i cant imagine getting sucked in an severe depression that young... keep it good man!

Apply for the military, it can really help some people get through difficult times.. I'm going there because I'm dumb as shit and I don't have anywhere else to go. You'll make friends there and might clear your head a bit. Good luck user
ps I'm 18, overweight and kind of ugly I guess.

But im too introverted and shy to do what i want

>Coming to Sup Forums for advice

You're a fucking retard and can't do anything right. When I was 18 I made 12000euro selling my bitcoins. Do you think people's lives get handed to them? No, people have to work for it or be smart. If you want to build a future, study harder you shithead. The time you spent whining on the internet could be spent going to businesses asking if they need someone.

You expect people to throw jobs at you?

Is this all samefagging or kind people on Sup Forums do exist ?

My mum wont let me go in the army and im too small and scrawny for the army i go to the gym but building muscle is taking too long. Ive been going for almost 2 years im doing everythinf right too

Find one, read some course catalogs. I had the same problem. I found one, but said oh I'd never be able to do that. I went for it anyway, 3 years later and I just got a promotion in that very career making ok money with offers coming in from other places

I dunno but im real. This is real

I call dibs on the shoes

mod pls

Jaryd is this you?

UK size 8 my friend

Well as I said I'm overweight but still going, because that's the one fucking thing I might have going for me in this life.

Dude go easy okay my mom committed suicide today i'm pretty pissed off at the minute you DO NOT want to fuck with me right now man i swear i'm so mad i could just burst out of your fucking screen and choke you right now i swear to god man just go to another board or something you want nothing to do with me right now

give me your shoes then make a webm of yourself jumping somehow otherwise get lost

What a coincidence

I only answered your question, my friend. Im REALLY sorry about your mother :(

Just from reading what you have written, and how it was written, I'd say you are far more intelligent than you give yourself credit for.

Fuck off you're no help and its not funny

If you are looking for a sign to not do it, this is that sign

He's not the same poster, that question was mine.
But for some reason Sup Forums stopped placing "(You)" on replies, so I can't prove that.

Do volunteer work for charities. Find ones that go abroad. Get some perspective on your life by helping people worse off than you.

Your mom committed suicide because she had such an inbred loser son. If she loved you, she would have never done that

Come on man lets help one and other out here.

This.

OP visit this website, read the article on how to fight depression. This shit fucking works

revolutionarylifestyledesign (dot) com

Hey OP i suggest you do the basics. Go workout. Go study, find something you wanna do. Programming is my passion, maybe you could get into it. It's not hard to learn, java is pretty easy and sort of basic. And the idea that you can shape anything and create anything with just your fingers and a keyboard amazes me. Hang in there OP, I promise you. I'm only slightly young as well but although I have gone through depressing times, going through one right now you just have to hold on. Happiness is in you and is determined by yourself. Start with yourself OP. Go workout. Go jog. Read a novel, I suggest the Belgariad but any book that's a book and not digitalized would be better. Go learn to cook OP, even a normal egg with added spice etc is fun bec atleast you made it yourself. Happiness is in you OP. Don't rely on someone else or something for it :) Good luck OP! I'm glad I saw this after like 5 months of not checking Sup Forums

Please read this...
KILL YOURSELF!!!
:-)

How so?

I was very suicidal at 17 and 19. Being 17 and 19 just sucks, it does. All you need to know to get through this, and I would put my life on this being true: Those who have the capacity to be most sad, have the capacity to be most happy.

user, once you have control of your own life you will be happier than anybody, the same way right now you feel more sad than anyone. For the time being, go and talk to somebody, open up, have a human connection. It is the single most underrated phenomena on this Earth

Omg u stupid faggot shut up

I dont wanna. Its just gunna be the same old "find a hobby" or "go out and socialise" it doesnt fucking work

dont listen to this edgy faggot. stop trying to fit in with the cool kids on Sup Forums you fucking faggot, take your own advice

Nice shitbomb faggot.

Advices : Get out more. Try to communicate with people. All else fails you know what to do ...

Jump off. No balls you wont.

Jump...

Thank you so much! But im afraid i have no motivation to do anything you said :(

>I NEED attention
Fuck off faggot, that's all you whiny cock suckers that say 'I wanna kill myself' ever do it for. You want some respect? Just fucking do it instead of whining like a god damn child.

Seriously, either man the fuck up and realize shit's hard or just kill yourself you fucking coward. If you're unwilling or unable to find happiness in life then it's your own god damn fault. Happiness isn't something that just trots up to you and hands you a fucking present, you gotta work towards it and change your frame of mind so that you can see the happiness you already have.

So I'll say it again. Man the fuck up and get happy or just fucking kill yourself. Quit fishing for attention cause whoever the fuck 'didn't love you enough' and fix it or die.

OP come the fuck on. I read your post and I read the posts from people who are really trying to help. You're literally just saying no to every suggestion and don't even consider it, you're just whining about your bullshit life but are you actually trying to make anything better? You say you have no hobbies or passion well why don't you fucking try to find one then. "I've tried everything" go to a fucking professional psychiatrist or something and they'll know how you can occupy your time. And you saying you've been going to the gym for two years with no change and you're doing everything right but no change. Obviously you're not doing it right, or what, you go once every two weeks? And whats this your mom doesn't let you join the army? You're 18 you can decide for yourself don't blame your mom for having a shit life. I'm not trying to be rude here but it sounds like you're not even trying. And don't tell me it's because of depression, I've known many people with depression who have fought harder than your whiny ass. And if this is bait then well fucking fished

kill yourself faggot and make a livestream so we watch you fall from the roof

Lift some god damned weights!

If you have the strength of will to kill yourself then you have the strength of will to pick up a barbell until your brain goes ~pop~ from an aneurysm. You'll either die on the bench or you'll suddenly feel better. It's a win/win.

You don't have to be motivated OP :) for the working out just do it in a split second. Just go now. do a push up and continue. Don't let yourself talk yourself out of it. I'm sorry for your loss with your mother OP :) I don't know what to say. But it'll be okay alright. Sometimes OP all I do i just sit down and think. Being outside helps. Think about God and stuff and everything else. I'm a little melancholy and sad that I don't know you in real life OP. I would've been happy to help you if I could. Hang in there friend :) don't listen to these people that tell you to jump

I don't think you would be able to succesfully kill yourself from that height. You will injure yourself pretty badly that's for sure.
Unless you want to bleed out on that street, find a higher place to jump off.
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But don't.

Im sorry i just really cant go out and do shit. Its hard to explain

OP, do you have any health issues?

Record video of you jumping for sister and say it's her fault.
Yeah

You're not gonna die from that pussy ass height, faggot. Find a taller building and do a flip.

Do a back flip! Give the people who don't care about you a show as they all watch your body splat on the concrete. You can have a giggle on the way down knowing some poor son of a bitch is going to have to clean up failure off the sidewalk. That alone will probably make him feel better about himself, because at least he isn't you.

Its alot higher than it looks my friend. It would 90% kill you

Dubs everywhere!

OP, if you value yourself above your sister, and you are seemingly willing to kill yourself, what's stopping you from going and killing her? Or the rest of you family and people who care about you?

If it's so hard to do anything because you lack motivation, then tell someone in real life. Instead you come to Sup Forums for help and won't do anything we tell you anyway. Just tell someone you're already pathetic as it is, letting someone know you need help will just make you less patchetic, cause at least you're man enough to try and change it then.

This thread is so fucking gay. I have severe depression too but I'm not being a faggot about it holy fuck. But what else to expect from OP?

Well then that's your answer.
Don't do it unless you are 100% sure.

You, I like.

Kys then and keep your cock sucking mouth shut

Stop being a pussy. This is the most important part. If you have a brain, try studying science. If you don't - try army or get some simple job like selling shit at KFC and wait, because it may turn out you do have a brain. You can also go to community college or what is it called in the US, and study something that you like the most. Whining in the shithole of the Internet is not the best option.

>don't fuck with me
>i'll burst out of your screen and choke you

do a flip fagget

You get nothing helping others, other than wasting your time

Did I trigger you?

You are 18 but your mum wont let you go to the military? The fuck are you? A manchild?
Also how the fuck can you claim to have been going to the gym for 2 tears and "doing everything right" but still be scrawny?
Obviously you arent doing everything right you fuckin retard.
Stop being a whiny fuckin bitch.
Life isnt fair and noby gives a fuck about your problems.
You are a man now, fucking act like one.
Life is going grind you to the floor and then kick you when your down.
Dont fucking let it, make it your bitch, take everything it throws at you on the chin.
Stop being a selfish whinging prick for once in your miserable life.
You have a family, and a younger sister than need you.
It isnt all about you, you fucking cunt.
There are people in the world who are being murdered, tortured, seeing their lobed ones die, dying of painful and horrible diseases, dying of starvation and hunger, people who are being raped and abused day in, day out, people dealing with severe PTSD.
Your problems are miniscule.
Sorry to break it to you faggit but most people dont have a passion or any skill that they can make a career out of.
Stop being a cunt, go and get a real job. Make some real money. Make some friends. Get a house and a family.
Get the fuck on with your life like everybody else in the world you loser.
Im fucking sick of teens thinking their life is the worst.
Get the fuck over it.
You arent a fucking kid anymore and nobody is going to baby you through life anymore.
From when you were born up until now you have floated through life on easy mode.
Now that yourr a man you have been thrown in the deep end on hard mode, with only 1 life.
Bake yourself to brick, or crumble into dust.
Your choice.

youtube.com/watch?v=AE8mmV8eg3Y

Do it for her?
I mean put your life in order don't kill yourself

How are you overworked if you only work 1 day per week?

kys

At least shoot up a high school or something you bitch rather than just jumping

Do it faggot but please livestream

You dont understand

I hope you kill yourself dick sucking bitch

goo.
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Hence why I asked the question

This guy. If you're 18 and zero days, you can walk right on up to a recruiter, and as long as you ain't gonna die in the next three years found by MEPS, they will have *SOMETHING* for you. I might not be ranger, SF, or airborne infantry, but the pogue jobs have good stuff too! Non-combat arms training has extreme ability to teach on-site, and will help you get a good sense of the vocation you'll be doing. Oh, you want to be a cryptologic linguist? Oh, and you want to go to college when you're out? You'll have about 35 credit hours.
Oh, you wanted to be a helicopter mechanic? Yeah, those are fucking LUDICROUS jobs.
Oh, and if you're a scrawny little bitch but otherwise have no health problems? Yeah, quit fucking worrying and join the damn infantry. It'll give you motivation and excitement, and as long as you don't fucking go all Private Pyle in BCT, you'll be fine.

Then fucking enlighten us jackass. Even if you work 14 hour shifts one day a week that's not overworked.

When did Sup Forums turned into a pussy. This could be an epic thread but now it's just a fucking bunch of fagots sucking eachothers

Okay, you're being way too envious first of all, there's no such thing as an 18 year old with an amazing job and his life already set out for him. Anything could happen and derail whatever you think your friends have going for them, and if you think they're 'better' than you, you're lying to yourself. Better at what? Interacting with other humans? Better looking? Dude, who gives a shit. They all have fucked up secrets that they don't want anyone to know and I'd be willing to bet half of them feel the same way you do in this moment.

18 is a fucked up time in anyone's life, you're expected to move out and get your life on track with no experience in basically anything, you're expected to live on a hope and a prayer and no one gives a shit because we've all been there. I struggled hard at 18, trust me dude it gets better. I'm 23 now and I'm glad I hung on because situations improve trmendously. No one can be unlucky all the time, you will catch your break and be able to see the light at the end of your dark tunnel eventually. Chin up, kid.

Then make it epic

You live in the best part of the world. You litterally have thousands of chances. You just have to take them.

Question: what did you actually do to improve your situation except being a little bitch on the internet?

Hey OP, look at this guy

Thank you very very much :)

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Jesus fuck this is some pussy ass shit. TL;DR - Suicide is dumb. Unfuck yourself before it's too late, and do it before life rips off your skull and shits down your neck.

Quit your whining. Join the fucking military. You will get motivated or die trying in there.

Literally best peice of advice here, this nigha is doing your dads job. Listen to him

tell your parents that you're having mental troubles. if you have a drug addiction, or just a really expensive weed habit like I did come clean about that too. You have to at least tell your family that when they give you shit it's destructive and that you feel it makes it harder foryou to perform. Just ask them to be constructive. If they really are insensitive stress to them how serious you are trying to be while staying calm, and ask for their help. At that point, do what they say, even if you have anxiety over failing to do it. The worst time you fail, is always the worst. Take it from a loser like me, who waited years to address the depression.

May you find reality. Also, start doing Baba Ramdev's Pranayam Yoga [english] on youtube. you'll feel great, shit better, and people around you will be more supportive because they will see that you are trying to lay the foundation for a better you. it will also give you the tools you need to calm down when you feel the tide of anxiety crashing over you.

Install Gentoo

medfag here. you'll be fine. do not get spooked. despair is a sin. Stick it out and just be patient to see through a difficult time without being too tough on yourself. Better to do your best and act strong not give up. The gf is replaceable even if it doesn't seem so now. jobs come and go and do not define you at your age.

At least you have nice flyknits

I was once completely distraught and nothing was working. I came on Sup Forums and people gave me advice. I won't take it from people I know. But I will take the good advice from user. I ignored this post but came back because I remembered that night. in situations like this, you can't tell if it's a troll or if it really might be some young user that can benefit from a few kind words or an older perspective. Better safe than sorry

Shut the fuck up you whiny bitch.
Why would you come here for advice about not killing yourself?
My advice is kill yourself.
Livestream it so I can get a couple fucking laughs in, you waste of space.

Become a dog of the state, they will take care of most everything for you until you figure out what you want to do, then they will help you with that. Problem solved.

As for your relationship problems, so fucking what? Most people are stuck thinking their dick/pussy is the most important thing on earth and if you aren't having sex _insert-insult_ when in reality, it doesn't fucking matter. You have the rest of your live, granrted you don't off yiurself, so just wait or if just really really want sex pay some whore.

People's relationships always makes me chuckle. IMO, get stable first then worry about finding someone to spend time with, else you are just dragging someone down with you.