feels thread i guess...
>be me
>be senior next year
>be average intelligence
>all friends have good grades and are smart
>best friend, girlfriend, good friends and all that. are either doing running start or moving
>be me when I realized that Im going to be alone for my senior year.
feels bad man
feels real bad
Just came to the conclusion that the girl I've been pursuing for months is not interested in me. Thought I was being so alpha too. I'm 19 and virgin and have always avoided intimacy with people. I finally thought I could finally lose my virginity, guess not now.
If you've come to the conclusion just tell the girl that you want to fuck her. If you think she's not interes5ed then what do you have to lose?
So many mixed signals from her. Made a very negative tweet about me that pretty much made me come to realize this.
And I could do that but I'm just too much of a bitch
>Be me
>Senior in hs
>Sometime in early february this year
>Get to school, normal day
>Sitting in my homeroom class before first period
>Before the bell rings the teacher gets up to make an announcement
>"This weekend, Teyamo Martinez was found dead-blah blah"
>Heart drops
>Dont remember the rest. Second part of the sentence was a blurr
>Later we found out it was heart failure.
>He drank like 6 jumbo monsters for a gaming marathon.
>Fucking idiot.
>One of my friends sitting at the same table is crossing his heart, has the same look that I had
>Get through first period, though all I did was stare at the ground
>Horrible feeling in my chest
>Probably one of the worst feelings ive felt in my life
>skip to third period, where I was called down to the office
>They were calling down people who knew Tey
>We called him "Tey" because "Teyamo" meant I love you in spanish. Some jokes were had
>Can barely get myself to answer any questions, almost breaking down
>Eventually more of my friends are grouped in the same little office they got us to be alone in
>By this time several of my friends had already cried their eyes out. I still kept it in
>I hear about how he hadn't worked on a group project over the weekend, and he wouldn't respond to texts
>This sets me off for some reason. I start to cry softly
>Friends beside me give a hug to me, the big tough guy
>Some cry with me
>I begin to think about the guy.
>His fucking chubby cheeks.
>Good stuff
>I begin to weep harder than Ive ever cried before
>This goes on for a straight 20 minutes
>Skip to sometime later in the day.
>One of my friends started a gofundme to pay for his funeral and ceremonies
>1,000 dollars in the first day from everybody in the school.
>12,095 dollars by the end of the week.
>pic related
>Get home
>cry
>Go to a gathering they held for anybody that wanted to come a week or so later. No funeral yet though
>Cry more
>Feels bad
Sorry if Im not the best storyteller, Sup Forumsros.
Just had to get it out, I guess
any story is better than no story.
its good to get this stuff out.
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>be me
>month shy of 22
>haven't had a real job in three years
>dropped out of college twice
>been alone since childhood
>been depressed since childhood.
>finally realize how stupid my problems are, finally realize i just need to stop being a pussy and doing shit
>feel bad for not realizing this before
>spend all time thinking about how shitty i am for not having realized this before
>understand how to get out of the shit life i've built my self
>decent friends ready to support me
>feel bad for being so autistic
>can't get over guilt at having wasted my life until this point
>feel worse for continuing to waste time feeling bad
FUCK. I feel like I'm so close now, but I can't get over that shame and guilt at being who I am right now. I know its just a thought pattern, i know i just need to ignore it, but I can't. Ive never done it before and every day I waste makes it worse. I thought I was finally coming out of it, but its also worse then ever. Is the night darkest before dawn, or am I doomed to this until i an hero?
SOUNDS LIKE YOU NEED TO HIT THE GYM THEN YOU WORTHLESS FAGGOT, OR ELSE YOULL BE PUSHED AROUND AND IGNORED LIKE THE WHINY LITTLE FAGGOT THAT YOU ARE
fuck it, pack all your important shit up and go on a road trip.
I would, except I live in the middle of bumfuck nowere.
no gyms to get mad gainz at.
Bro you're still young, you're not alone. Some people feel like that until they're in their 40s. Instead of reflecting on the time you "wasted", think about how much time you've actually saved. You haven't wasted anything, because you're growing.
run and do as many pushups and situps as you can while you're there, then you can go to the gym already somewhat athletic when you go back to school.
Got blacked out drunk last night and vaguely remember giving a guy head... Haven't told my bf yet.
Haha faggot
find out who you blew and sue him for rape charges
I know. Im so close now and im just so frustrated that I cant get over that final hurdle of actually doing stuff and not being ashamed of my own opinions. I know its madness and I can ignore it if i really focus, but I just cant keep it up long enough to get anywhere.
do you have anything holding you to were you are right now? like any obligations?
family and a year left on the lease for a house with some college friends.
You guys have some pathetic ass problems. Grow the fuck up and stop crying over stupid shit.
I can't stop flirting with everyone
Even my best friend
Eventually everyone is going to feel awkward and not talk to me lmao
thats what im trying to learn how to do fgt
ill take some of your flirts off your hands, god knows i need them.
Here it goes I guess
>be me 20 years old
>Had rough childhood
>probably weak sauce compared to others among you
>Basically have a bisexual mother who gave up on men after father
> woman she got with was massive drug/alcohol addict
>really nice to me at first was like 4
>too young to notice she had obvious problems
>Few months later started attacking my mother and older brother
>maybe three years later after her getting kicked out and coming back all the time
>starts attacking me eventually
>really nice when not mad
>live in uk so used to take me to watch football all the time
>Attacking me with pool queues and throwing chairs at me quite violent shit
>completely normal kid before this maybe shy
>only person who even gave a shit about this was older brother
>8 years on me solid so When he left at 15 me be 7
>starts basically only doing it with me
>Goes on until I'm 12
>eventually cheats on my mother for like the 15th time
> mother leaves her for like 4 months
>Quite a small lil kid
>comes back after her hiatus
>starts happening all over again
>At this point I'm the exact same lil cunt
> my brother got bullied at school
>be a little cunt but vow never to let that happen to me
>get suspended from school all the time for violence mostly
>completely normal otherwise
>maybe abit of a bully to other kids that are tiny and weak
>by I'm like 14 she is permamently gone
>still the only person who cared was my brother
>everyone else just shrugs it off as we were completely fine
>Be me 14 can't look a woman in the eye over this shit
>had growth spurt when 15 from 5 8 to about
6 3
>now I'm 20 years old lost virginity when I was 17
> absolutely useless with women entirely
>basically can only be useful when I'm extremely drunk
>only pull when we are both mutually drunk
>
Just start being busy and stop comparing yourself to other people. There are no winners in life, just take your time and don't hurt anyone
>complaining about only being able to get laid when drunk
the rest of that is fucked up, but bitch please.
>20 now Grown to about 6 6 solid
>keep in good shape and shit
>just still useless with women
>chick I like same age solid 8/10 to me
>First time I met her Completely through her off
>Grabbing me all completely all over me
>couldn't even look her in the eye
>got back I'm drunk but not stupid drunk or anything ridiculous
>she's so drunk she falls asleep on a couch as we are preparing a joint
>wont talk to me anymore for rest of night we are all going back out
>completely just walks off and I didnt notice
>someone else walks her home and comes back (doesnt fuck her)
>Barely even talks to me anymore invites me out but hardly ever talks flirts with other people
>never gets with any of them she asked me to walk her home one night
>got into fight in a club
>got so mad had to leave
>hates me even more now
I've had sex when not drunk before but I'm basically just useless with woman
if you're getting laid at all, you aren't useless. trust me on that one.
>24yo kissless virgin here
my only advice for you is to find people to go out with and if you can buy drugs buy them cocaine made me amazing last tuesday
Take this year to better yourself...find a job/career path and make money and lap your friends.
pussy isn't a big fucking deal, you will eventually get laid and you will think to yourself "gee, this is it?" and you'll realize you got all butthurt about it for no reason.
sorry your friend died
college isn't for you. get a blue-collar job and develop your character. You'll feel better about yourself in the process of doing so.
being busy with what though? theres so little in my life that I don't know where to start. there's nothing to grab onto.
>crying about pussy.
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>be me
>28
>moved out of state 4 years ago with my now ex-gf
>don't know anybody else other than co-workers
>move out of apartment with the ex, forced to live in an expensive place cause don't have a car and needed something close to work
>dad has Alzheimers
>mom recently hospitalized for kidney failure
>dad goes missing same day mom gets hospitalized cause he got scared and wanted to find her at the hospital
>i'm stuck at work doing a 14 hour shift and i can't do anything about
>i work 60-70 hours a week just trying to save up for a house so i can support my parents
>no time for having/making friends and everyone at my work thinks i'm a loser workaholic with nothing better to do
your dad runs off and your mom is dying and they don't let you take the day off? wtf man.
did you find him again?
I live out of state and there wouldn't be anything I could do anyway...plus I needed the money
yeah, luckily
thats good, my grandmother died when i was really young so i don't remember, but she had alzheimers and ran off in the winter and froze to death. Kinda sucks.
that's a bummer...
when I found out he was missing and I had no way to help I just went back to work trying to take my mind off it...I was out there driving heavy ass machinery crying my ass off...got made fun of cause they thought i was crying about the forced mandatory overtime we got that night.
fuck that sucks, shitty situation dude. Hearing shit like that should make me feel better about my own problems, but i just feel worse for not being able to cope better.
that's the only reason i shared my story, I just wanted you guys to realize how minor your problems really are...not shitting on you or anything but toughen up a little
life sucks but you gotta keep on grinding
start grinding*
i always assumed life would come naturally at some point like the one or two things that i actually do well. it never will, you have to work to gain and maintain skill at most things. i understand that now, i feel so stupid for not getting it before. but thats all it is, stupidity. i can get over it. i just need to apply myself. but having never applied myself i don't know how. and so i think my self in circles until another day is wasted.
>Brother was a drug addict as a kid, severely schizophrenic
>Got raped when I was 5 by a neighbor on a weekly basis for a few months
>Always tried to take care of my brother
>Ended up resenting him for fucking up my family and never getting sober
>Parent spend all the money they saved for me and my sister to go to college on his rehab
>Just want my sister to be happy so I join the military so my parents can send her to school
>Tell girlfriend when I was 16 about shit that happened to me as a kid
>She quotes the guy who raped me during sex
>Wouldn't get off of me, said she would tell the cops I raped her if I made her stop
>Terrified of relationships with girls after that
>Spent all of highschool and middleschool with no friends
>Too tired, kids made fun of me for shivering during the summer from stress
>Still tried to take care of my brother while he lived with us
>Never feel like I did a good enough job
>Regret hating him for the last year or so he lived with us
>He's homeless now, and we have no way to contact him
>It's my fault
>I can't help anyone
>I can't maintain a relationship
>Last girl I had a thing with did some shit that reminded me of my ex right before we had sex
>Had a panic attack and completely shut down
>Forever alone, hate the military, hate my life, hate myself
anyway here is me with Dr. Rockso
you sound like a thoroughly decent guy in a shit situation. sorry Sup Forumsro.
youtube.com
I know a lot of you guys will probably think this shit is lame but I have to listen to videos like this on a regular basis just to keep going
wow, you share something with someone and they use it against you and forces you to have sex with her....there's a special place in hell just waiting for that cunt
She was a hardcore SJW, didn't think men could be victims of sexual assault and that women couldn't be perpetrators
well i'm sorry all that shit happened to you dude
>be me
>be 18
>be yesterday morning
>sitting in hospital room alone with my mother who is dying from cancer
>The cancer spread faster than anyone could have anticipated
>we found out in April
>she's sleeping making this terrible gurgling noise
>she looks terrible
>this woman selflessly loved and took care of me no matter what
>I know I meant the world to her
>now there's nothing I can do
>Imwatchingmymomdie.jpeg
>Do my best to hold back tears
>do my best to keep some hope
>after hours by her side I decide to go to the hospital cafeteria for a snack
>while in the cafeteria I get a phone call from my uncle
>"get to the room now"
>ran back as fast as I could
>she was dead before I got there
>mfw I couldn't tell my mom I love her one last time
>mfw I wish I could have been a better son
>mfw I'll never see my mom again
I don't know what I'm going to do now. I have no idea where I'm going to live.
where are you from and how old are you?
this, sue him for rape even if u didn't suck his dick. men are THE worse
that sucks dude, but hey, you're tall, i bet u have game too. you are a decent guy whos been through a lot. i mean, damn dude i wish i had some advice for you.
kill your neighbour
help your brother
kill your ex
help your sister
help yourself.
This is my favourite.
That's one of the videos I listen to as well
I understand you, user. The same hapened to me with my grand ma a few years ago. I'm with you.
I know you're probably kidding, but yeah I listen to that too.
im only partially joking. its funny because its dumb but if you're in the right place it hits home.
fucking selfish piece of shit. go get a snack while your fukin mother is dying and then she dies fucking rekt mate fuck you
>Drop out of highschool
>Get a GED
>????
>Profit
way to put salt in the wound
shouldn't be posting on Sup Forums if he isn't looking for trolls. if he's not a newfag he'll user's humour.
get off Sup Forums and go do something with your life and make your mom proud
I'm rooting for you
>senior next year
This place really is the underage board.
yeah... fuckin ban me, i need a break from Sup Forums anyway.
A month ago i met a HS batchmate. She's a real qt and apparently she knows me. We talked and exchanged numbers before taking off. We texted each other from day to night nonstop. Even at work im on my phone texting her. I asked her out to watch a movie, she agreed. We had so much fun together. I drove her home and kissed her on her forehead. The next day i texted her "have you already ate lunch bcoz there's this restaurant that i really like. Im sure you'll like too :)". She said "thanks!" I replied "So what time should i pick you up?" I waited for hours just for a reply, but to no avail. I went to her house to check what's wrong but she's not home. Even her furnitures are gone. I tried calling her multiple times, but no answer. I still try contacting her till this day.
This empty feeling inside me, slowly killing me. This lack of closure, lack of knowledge is driving me insane. Where did you go? What happened? Why?
(Fuck greentext im on my phone)
>made some spaghetti
>dropped it when my mom scared me
It's over. I lost the love of my life, she doesn't want me back, or anything to do with me. It's killing me...
I'm going to move forward and on with life. Leaving a major piece of me behind...I'm joining the military in 2 months. And hopefully getting out of here and starting over. I don't know what else I could do.
>has gf
And you have the audacity to start a feels thread
...
>literally got raped by a girl
Honestly fuck that shit
Mgtow all the way
everything is pretty alright and it makes me terrified of when its all going to end.
I dont want it to end
Shit dude I feel you, all these pussies on this thread when youve gone through some real ass shit
Military is a social mess
maybe we will never see zefrank ever again
Well just dont fuck it up, for most of us 'it' hasnt even started
"True factz about the barnn owl"
>here are true facts about the aeowll
if he would come back he could even collaborate with vsauce/veritasium or other major ideea-people
I need to start a new chapter, keep myself busy, and move forward. At this point, the benefits outweigh the risks and I lost the only thing keeping me back. I've made up my mind, just not the branch yet.
Fucking SJW
well you did waste your time before, but thats not necessarily a bad thing bro. you need to understand that MEN get better, more confident and more attractive as they get older, while women go backwards.
It's good that you start taking action. good luck bro.
REEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Fucking bait
do people do this in real life?
i know some people are actually basement dwellers, but do they screech?
lonely
start cutting yourself
he just said 18 you fucking retard
ok
it's ok, cutting will make it all better user
>be me
>now
>I`m happy
sorry guys ....
I used to have depression until I found my passion ... fucking different pussy. Not great looking, overweight, but decent with words (not English), really positive attitude and confidence I got from banging many chicks
thank you user
Might as well go next...
>be me 14
> always shitty to my mom so she makes me stay with my dad for the summer
>love the shit out of my father and never disrespected him
>coming close to the end of July he starts having breathing issues
>chest hurts and can barely walk.
for a guy who was skinny this was worry some.
>he took off of work for a whole week because of the issues and by Friday he seemed fine
>Sunday rolls around and it's the night of a payperview event for WWE
>we watch it and when it's over he gets up to take a leak
>comes back out and collapses on the floor
>call 9/11 and the usual shit. they come by and help him
>paramedic blocks the entrance into his apartment so we don't watch
>he moved out of the way for a second and I saw the heart monitor flatlining
>they take him to the hospital and pronounce him dead after 30 minutes of helping him
>I was in shock for the whole week.
>the service starts and Wake Me up When September ends comes on and I start crying like crazy
>blame myself for his death for a while
>autopsy comes back. he dies of cardiac arrest from a blood clot in his right leg he didn't know about.
that was the day I lost my friend and father. still miss him to this day.
how did you bang many chicks before you had positive attitude and confidence?
you still have time before wizard status-don't be worried about it just try to find another girl you get along with and let shit happen