Second day of new lifestyle with methamphetamine (first dose, a few days ago, second dose, today 6:30am)

Second day of new lifestyle with methamphetamine (first dose, a few days ago, second dose, today 6:30am)

Work was good, gym was good, socialising was good, the world was bright.
I can see god and satan much more clearly in my thoughts now.

i've been abusing adderall for years now

like right now

>you'll soon find yourself tweeking and drinking alone at 7am continuously refreshing a Chinese imageboard that you've been going on for the past 10 years to numb the pain of being a complete and total failure.

>You will an hero soon.

Drugs are great at first, When you first start using, It's fucking epic, but the effects are going to turn sour soon OP, The drugs WILL turn on you

Came here to say basically the same thing. What a life what a world

Yes true. Thats what I've been doing without amphetamines though. This xanax is about to kickk in.... then another day tomorrow. Just starting with le coffee though, laying off my next dose till the weekend or more.

Have you not found yourself being more social, work focused and motivated on Adderral?

Reminds me of the old days when I was fairly intensively heavy into it.

What's your personal experiences with drugs turning sour sir?

Yup, thats for sure. Whats your experience with the changing elements of drugs in your life?

Always got mine from friends.

It used to always make me feel happy and energetic and optimistic/productive

Now it makes me feel completely awkward around people and I stay up for unhealthy amount of hours chainsmoking completely and utterly wasting my life browsing Chan sites. I've been here since I was 16. I'm 26 now.

You'd think I'd grow out of this place.

>I've become a complete slob failure and I still justify taking adderall because I always think it will give me intensive to do something to productive. I never do it.

Honestly wish I never started taking this bullshit. Fucks with me these days.,

Almost exactly what you wrote involving amphetamines and drinking. Not really sure how I got here, but it's happened. Don't really have much of a relationship with other drugs these days, possibly out of some way of convincing myself I'll keep what's going on now in control if nothing else is added. Used to be into testing RCs and stuff as a teen, but things are much different now.

Too true sir. I started on the chan a few years ago - can say the times in my life without the chan were better than ever.

Whats your lifestyle like anyways on a weekly basis - generally ?

Yeah true. How was the period before, during and after the amphets/drinking?

I used to be into magic mushrooms, LSD, DMT and smoking around 40 cannabis cones each day.

Went clean for a while - got lazy depressed etc.... now looking at this option.

Take addys about 3 times a month (high dosage)

First day I'm on it I literally feel like a Super Saiyan. Great mood, get lots of shit done, feel accomplished and optimistic.

Take it the next day (after getting a shitty nights sleep) I feel completely zombified.

I've got a bad habit of taking this shit.
Used to pop addys and play video games for hours. I'm getting a bit too old for that yet I'm still hooked on buying adderall.

>Tbh I'm just in a honestly shitty part of my life right now and adderall doesn't do anything but make me feel fucking weird.

>I'll still continue to buy it because since it makes me feel good but once I situate myself in a healthier and more productive lifestyle I'll take it when I'm confident in my current life and have a whole day to myself to fuck around.

>26 now, been buying it from my friends since I was 19. Still like the initial high it gives me but I need to discipline myself with it and only take it at relevant times as opposed to going on 3 day high-dose binges that probably fucks with my head.

Just wait for the downturn. It WILL come and you WILL hate yourself. Been there after being high for two years straight. Enjoy the ride.

Its funny today too. I work outdoors with a team of nine. I've clashed with this one guy since almost the beginning.

Have a reputation for being too dedicated to work, have a bit of fun and laugh and known for never getting angry or talking negatively about others.

> dickhead fools around not working, knows equipment off a shelf
> bumps into me as a "joke"
> throw him again a tree/sharp vines
> yell "if you come at me again, I will fuckin punch you in the face."
> whenever I say something at work people take me seriously
> he walked away
> whole team doesnt mind this guy getting outed
> but DAMN, he actually can get ANGRY?
> questioning myself: shit, these are the actions of a crackhead... and its only second day.
> very calm throughout rest of day, laughed and joked with team like normal

Yeah man, I feel for you. It would honestly make a lot more sense to take a low-medium dose to bump work along (only in morning) and get to sleep at night

I have always looked at drugs like: "I'll use this just to boost this...." rather than just liking the high itself.

Two years straight, holy fudge! Tell us some stories.... good and bad?

Can I ask how you kept yourself "normal" throughout this time?

At work I had to suppress urge to occasionally clench jaw hard and not run into work at 130% level.

Im interested to hear your whole POV

I realistically will still probably abuse it for another year or two. But I definitely have to get my fucking shit together first and foremost. It will make me feel A LOT better whenever I'm on it.

>Used to have the world by the balls. I'm an overweight balding college dropout who lives alone in a shitty apartment working at a shitty chinese restaurant who lost all old friends and lost a lot of confidence and self-esteem

>Girls used to drool over me

Christ I'm only 26.

Bro, right in the feels. How do we change from here though....? I figure as long as I work, gym, and volunteer at bushcare groups like I do, life should be fine.

Me when I thought I had life by the balls:
> full time outdoors hardLandscaping job
> very fit and fun
> full time substance dealer between work finishing and mightnight
> cash, girls, felt like I was standing up to government
> fun times galore
> ate healthy as fuck,
> meditated twice a day

Now: Work, Eat Lots of Junk Food, Volunteer at Bushcare groups. :(

Im only 22 atm.
Beginnging to get overweight, can pull of healthy staunch look in my work uniform by sucing in my gut. Makes me feel better about myself.

Anyone in this thread had much experience with psychedelics? Shrooms, LSD and cannabis is all I really do and business is booming. Also I'd like to try DMT.

Yes OP here
I used to move large quantities of LSD, shrooms, cannabis, DMT and RC's, Lots of personal experience, was immersed in the culture. (eventally got detained by police)

Tell us about your situation.

me ages 18-24

>funny. unique. quintessential Sup Forumstard who wasn't bad looking
>very popular. knew literally 100+ people (turns out, few real friends actually) used to party all the time
>always in decent shape, hated normies before it was cool and always had a palatable uniqueness to myself. i stood out in a good way. Girls constantly trying to talk to me. People would always say I looked like kurt cobain
>Didn't finish college, future seemed so far away
>meet a girl off Sup Forums around 2010, coolest and hottest girl i have ever talked to. (literally) internet friends for 3 years before we became an irl couple.
>had a decent job, worked at a chinese restaurant for extra dough. swimming in cash. banging 10/10 completely awesome girl, living on my own
>we break up. fucker i never got along with moves into where i was staying at
>nothing is going right
>move back in with parents
>hate life
>move in with an insufferable cunt. quit my main job
>days of parties and adventures are over
>give up on college. get into a shitty routine of getting my balls stomped by gooks for shit pay _everyday_ and coming home to an empty apartment (kicked faglord roommate out months ago)
>Developed a big baldspot on the back of my head. Confidence shattered. Been a reclusive hermit for the past year


It sucks man. Every day I tell myself I'm going to start getting in shape and pursuit better job prospects, but I get very discouraged about myself and worry too much about my future.
The fact that literally everything fucking sucks these days doesn't help at all.

Even getting into a healthy lifestyle routine would help me out gigantically, and would probably restore a lot of my lost self confidence and mirth I used to have even just a couple years ago.

>I'm still not an ugly guy. I'm just completely out of shape/flabby and balding.
>Holy FUCK that is a hard thing to overcome when you never imagined it happening.

I hope you better yourself man, I hope to God I will one day.

Started smoking weed when I was 15 tried LSD and shrooms within a couple of weeks of each other when I was 17 and it was amazing. Would buy in bulk and sell enough to break even then take the rest. 19 now and just started at uni, don't deal anymore as I moved from my home town and don't have a supplier but still smoke pretty frequently and do whatever else I can get my hands on.

This is one on the first times I have ever felt on the internet that someones shares my lifestyle.

Even that not ugly bit - I'm just out of shape. And so much potential too.

I feel like these next few wees withj occasional meth use will either make or break me. ::S

Maybe the trick is to just turn out laptops off now, get a good sleep and start afresh tomorrow.

Thats a good lifestyle to be in. I loved it so much just because of the amount of total trippers I was surrounded with. Every day I met people with the most insane stories from what product I tried and calls from people on trips.

Cash, fun. But then the amount of pyschs I took changed everything. My life has been a constant "Acting sober" ever since that period. Anuyways, I need to sleep! Work come at me tomorrow

RIP anons, be safe

Interesting fact: I once meditatted twice a day for six months completely sober while dealing. Meditation put me under some strange subtle influce.

PEACE OUT AND BE SAFE HOMIES

>And so much potential too.

Not to toot my own horn, but fucking SAME. There was always something about me. It's too abstract to put into words.

My brother is borderline genius and became a scientist. I know intellect runs in my veins.

I was always so aware of everything. I always thought I was heading in the right direction, while others dwelled in squander. I'm not stupid and I am a capable person, although admittingly 10 straight years of Sup Forums defiantly changed me.

There is still pieces of my old self inside of me. I can feel it.
I have never pushed for anything in my entire life. _Everything_ came so easy to me, friends, girls, opportunities, luck (Came from a quintessential middle-middle class family)

As of right now (For the past year, year and a half actually) I have realized that I'm in a personal crisis. I don't want to be bitter and depressed and alone living in a shitty apartment with two cats working at a Chinese restaurant for the rest of my life. I fucking hate it.

I know I'm capable of more. And for the first time in my life, I'll actually have to work for the life I want.

Overcoming destructive vices, self-image issues, and severe doubt and worry is a fucking bitch to accomplish, personally.

>good luck fam

how many mg of adderall do you take? it doesn't seem to do anything for me that i notice but i'm taking a small amount i think?

Careful op. I know 4 people that have lost their minds from meth. Not pretty either. 2 of them havent quite come back. 1 of them is completely insane. I know maybe 7 others that use besides that and they are going no where. Socially unacceptable in society. Broke. Hurting their loved ones. Different people entirely.