ITT: feels

ITT: feels
>be me
>be in abandoned water park
>there is dirty water i all park
>i see a pool with blue, beautiful clean water
>there are old friends from high school
im 18 btw
>i see my ex girlfriend
>i enter the pool
>i kiss her
>i have fun
>i enjoy life
>wake up 3 a.m
>realize i have not spoken to another human being in almost three months
>cry

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Fuck it here's some life from the other side stories
>be me 11
>ADHD, Spergy, and ocd
>In and out of schools for getting in fights
>By 5th grade I had been in 12 schools
>Went to same school for 2 years
> Got placed in tard room after beating some kid up
>Always made fun of for my constant hand washing and lack of social skills
>This room was in the middle of the 8th grade hall
>Big, windowed and crowded with kids who were way more retarded than me.
>past the 8th grade hall was the 5th grade classrooms
>each day the "normies" would pass me and call me a tard, sped, or my own OCD fueled nickname soap
>after the bell rung the teachers would sit us down for mock therapy
>They took their problems out on us and then flat out called us hopeless
>if the kids were bad the teachers were way worse
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>the teacher would sit us down in a circle
>initially he started by saying how messed up his life was
>Then would encourage us to speak up, his main target was the spergy kid with anxiety.
>He would always go
>he always looked scared
>it was mostly about how his dad used to touch him
>most of it went way over everyone else's head
>I always got sad from what he said
>this bastard of a teacher would always comfort him
>later that day I'd be working on homework in the sped room
>and the teachers mind you the most trusted individual in a child's life
>Made fun of him, I'll never forget what he said to teachers aid "if he didn't like it he should have called the cops"
>But the man was to damn smart he hid his trails in the absurdity of what he said
>Some of the most despicable things that you'd expect from 11 year olds
>My parents wouldn't believe me they always said 'he's just trying to help'
>If I did anything myself, he'd alter my grades or get me detention.
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>This went on for some time
>After he went after Aaron
>Aaron was incredibly autistic, mentally retarded, and had some online tendencies.
>Aaron posted nudes on Facebook, under fake names each always had the last name "Kane"
>to this day I have no idea how he found his Facebook profile
>But Aaron was inside sped skills
>it was a class period where we went over the social studies classes we weren't allowed to go to
>we were learning about William Wallace
> the teacher turns to Aaron and says "do you think his birth name was William Kane"
>Aaron turned bright red and ran out of the classroom
>no one tried to stop him, or help him.
>the next day the entire hall is is closed off police are talking to Aaron

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“There is an old legend that king Midas for a long time hunted the wise Silenus, the companion of Dionysus, in the forests, without catching him. When Silenus finally fell into the king’s hands, the king asked what was the best thing for all for men; the very finest man could want. The daemon remained silent, motionless and inflexible, until, compelled by the king, he finally broke out into shrill laughter
and said these words, “Suffering creature, born for a day, child of accident and toil, why are you
forcing me to say what would give you the greatest pleasure not to hear? The very best thing for you is totally unreachable: it is not to have been born, not to exist, to be nothing. The second best thing for you, however, is this—to die soon.

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lol this story sucks faggot

Every night

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Yeah it may, but the fact is its one of the most emotional parts of my life. Anyway.
>I asked the teachers AIDS what was going on
>got some bullshit response about school safety
>Aaron cried in the rooms corner for most of the day
>all the while the teachers yelling about how he made a stupid decision
>they never once tried to understand why he did it, or help him stop. They just yelled at him.
>Aaron didn't come to school for 3 weeks, I had a bad feeling after 4 days, Aaron had overdosed on his moms painkillers.
>next day the teacher comes in and is bullshitting to every teacher and their sister about how sad he is.
>there was nothing I could do, no way to convince them.
>no way to expose what he had done, they blamed his mental illness in the end, but back in the classroom.
> he made jokes about his death another thing I'll never forget was him saying "when you misread viagra"

damn well now I feel bad for calling you a faggot. I hope things get better man. OD hit close to home. heroin addict here, lost a lot of friends that way

get out there and find people to talk to, user. you can do it. you don't have to be alone if you don't want to be.

Enjoy, everyone
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really man? thats sucks

dude i had a similar dream two days ago. I think i can remember most of it, if people want me to share

ya. tough being an addict. don't make bad choices kids lol lucky I don't have Hep C or anything. Also lucky I'm functional and don't look like shit. Most of my junkie friends are either homeless or their skin is all fucked up.

I'm sorry to hear that, I may not be the best story teller, but I hope you got the help you needed.

>next was the down syndrome girl, Caroline
>Caroline was odd like most Down syndrome people, she always carried around a Dora stuffed animal.
>as such he would always make fun of her for it.
>whenever she was around he would try his best to fuck with her, hide her Dora toy when she wasn't looking
>or better yet hide the crayons she was obsessed
>every time she lost something she would cry
> so he would always go up to her with that same Snyder voice
> and say "what's the matter" we had all seen what he had done but we our grades would get hurt if we did anything
>each time she would look up and say whatever was missing
>each time he would laugh at her, and after breaking some pens or putting gum on her stuffed animal
>he would put it under her seat, and she would never know.

don't really want help lol even tho it kinda sucks I mean I'm happy most of the time which is more than a lot of people can say. thanks tho

Well, I'm done for tonight I might add onto what happened later

at least tell us this guy got his in the end.

I want to be, i hate all the bullshit of the people, but it just sometimes hurts thats all

The guy never got arrested, though he's banned from teaching for the rest of his life.
Life isn't fair is the takeaway

Dispense a little Wasteland Justice on his ass.

i came to Sup Forums today to laugh not to feel but damn

I've always known where he lived his home phone ETC but I never want to even go near him again, or even think about it, the thing is if I did something to a man this cunning, I would be jailed. There's no bonus to it for me or anyone.

Fuck that made me cry a little

That poor, poor man. I can't imagine the pain.

I made this a few days ago. It's from the deadpool movie and it hit me because I got dumped by the one person I've loved. I'm kinda dine now, on meds and trying to take every day as it comes

kinda fine*

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Hey guys... I'll tell my story I guess... I'm 18, I live in a suburb in Michigan, I'm going to an engineering school this fall. It's far away I won't be visiting home very often which is good and bad. I'll be away from my parents who are a very big source of stress in my life and I'll also be forced to become independent, kind of sink or swim. It'll be good for me. I'll also have to say goodbye to my girlfriend though who is the only person I have. I'm not good at making friends and I don't really have any right now. I don't wanna be alone... I've been in therapy and on meds for a while. I think I'm gonna kill myself before the end of summer. I'very been working on my will. Anyway sorry for rambling I'm bad about that.

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Don't speak without thinking, and do unto others as you would have done unto you.

Sorry Anons, its fake. Check the dates. But if even any of this is true, this woman is the most heartless person alive.

I like your OC, saved. What meds are you on and what for?

the scanlines hurt my eyes, maybe make them a bit more opaque?

The last line got me

nah man don't. Look, you're moving off to college, even if you don't know how to make friends now, you will find people at your college that truly want to be your friends, trust me. You're never gonna be alone either, this might sound like faggot shit, but we're here for you too. Until you make real irl friends at your college we're here to cheer you on and talk to you. Don't kill yourself over something you can change. If you want to not be alone, then YOU have to be the change. Learn how to make friends, ask for advice online if you can't find anyone to ask irl. Just don't kill yourself, I mean it.

I was almost happy bros. She was almost mine. But that psycho fuck had to take it all away.

Have you ever asked if he regretted it?

I've been on sleeping meds for over a year, started out with circadin but now I take straight melatonin. About two months ago I started taking fluoxetine and it kind of helps but I still have "episodes" ranging from one hour to a whole day where I just feel like shit and nothing really seems worth it. I also started drinking alcohol a small while ago and I feel happier when I'm drunk, I'm a nicer person too

Oh and the fluoxetine is an SSRI and it's to help me with my depression

story?

Thanks user. [spoiler]I cried a little bit [/spoiler] It's just not that easy to make friends, especially really good ones. I look at the kind of friendships some people have, really strong, happy relationships, where they can hang out all the time, tell each other anything. I want that so badly. I have a girlfriend and I have [spoiler]you guys I guess[/spoiler] but it doesn't fill that gap, nothing can. It's not really why I want to die anyway

That's pretty much me, but i have episodes way more often (maybe 4 a day) but I don't even take meds. Should I see someone?

Do you have any predisposition to alcoholism like a family history or an addictive personality?

Anybody here cut? Sometimes threads for that pop up but they just get bombarded with "kys emo faggots "

It's really worth it to see someone. Even just talking can help and if you really need it meds are good. Go see someone Sup Forumsro
My dad did a lot of drugs and partied a lot when I was younger but other than that no, I don't think so at least. As for the addictive personality nah, I just don't like being sober and alcohol is legal and easier to get than weed

Nah and I'll never do it, but I do scratch and bite my knuckles when I'm under a lot of stress or feeling really down so I can kind of relate

yes...

Long story short hot billionaire (Yes really) girl was in love with me and her psycho ex threatened me in various ways such as planting CP on my computer (Which he has done before to other people) if I got with her she ended up getting back with him and now I'm more bitter angry and miserable than ever before.

Don't give me any bullshit what is the least painful way to off myself I know there is no painless way but I can stand a little pain to make myself end.

I loved her and I saved her life. I just want one break I'm tired of being messed around.

Haha yeah my knuckles are real fucked up

Helium, CPAP tubing, and a mask. Maybe 80 bucks including tax and shipping on amazon. Almost completely painless as your body doesn't know the difference between helium and oxygen. I'm here if you want to talk though. Suicide is always the very, VERY last resort

I just want to let it out that tonight is my highschool's prom, and I feel like the only person at my school who didn't go. All my friends went, and when I talked to them I was all "oh yea, you'll have so much fun", but I actually was really sad on the inside. Maybe I should have gone, but I didn't have a gf to go with and I've had enough experiences in life and read stories on here about being that one loser who everyone laughs at that I just said fuckit.

Please, tell me I'm normal

Why do you do it? I'm at the point where I sometimes regret it and see how stupid it is but I'm still liable to relapse. I have visible scars and I hate it

I can relate to you, too. Girl fell in love with me. My first and last love. We were perfect together. She played me though. Like a puppet. I still miss her. It's just easier to love someone who hurts you and hope they mean well than to accept that you'll be alone forever, that any love someone said they had for you was feigned.

One site among people who would have gone only to be laughed at and later regret it, no you're not normal

On a*

Well shit

see

I just thought I was finally getting my break I'm so tired of people fucking me over and pushing me away I didn't know how much I cared about her til that fuck ruined it. Funny thing is I don't even give a fuck about her money which sounds like bullshit but she's just really nice and funny and that's what matters to me.

Thanks for listening and posting a way out

I hate it. I try to hide it. I can't find any release. It's all I have. Im lucky I'm too naive and hopeful to actually kill myself.

You were smart though

If you're willing to go so far as to actually kill yourself, buy a gun and kill him first. If you're going to leave the world, leave a scar on it, too....

This dude is dating Paris hilton

UK fag here no guns

Oh. A knife maybe?
You get the idea

How old are you

Well if you're actually going to do it then at least make it your finale contribution to the world and live stream it.

Guess. Why, is my complete lack of fucks to give and remaining booze some kind of 12 year old red flag

Fuck you

i'm a sociopath.
>almost all of my friends have genuine problems with depression.
>i'm just in the background after everyone starts calling me an asshole for not really caring.
>they leave me, and never talk to me again
>one day later
"What in the actual fuck just happened."

OMG FUCK YOU. Seriously fuck you. I didn't need to see that.

It wasn't meant to be rude man, if you are going to an hero then let us watch. Give something back while ending your pain by giving some of us a smile.

I'm just asking

we all are here to feel user, tell us your story

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tbh, I do it so I can feel something again, I've been lost in sorrow since the two best things in my live had to leave, I know happiness doesn't last forever and things fall through but it still hurts so much, so I use cutting myself as a form of release, releasing all the pint up sadness, angry, fear, depression, and I get a little joy getting that out, I know it's stupid, I know I'm a loser but it helps get me through the day, I can't express my emotions anymore, I really feel dead on the inside, so alcohol, sad songs and cutting are my out from reality, even if it's only for a brief moment, alcohol and music allow me to relive those happy memories when they were here and cutting lets me release all the pint up pain of losing them, without it I'm just numb to life. I still wish I could tell them how much I love them, no matter where live takes them.

20. Not gone off to college yet. Probably wont.

Goddamn bro, I couldn't afford to go to prom cause I was poor and had no friends.

>few weeks prior to prom
>everyone riled up for prom night
>making plans to rent limo and show up in groups as couples
>keep overhearing convos of people about having after parties and how crazy shit was gonna be
>no one ever talked to me or invited me, shit how could they? They didn't even know me
>even if they did, no money for such things
>no friends since all of them dropped out by the beginning of senior year
>parents going through hardship to put food on table, can't be selfish about this but the knew that prom night was coming
>history teacher who took a liking to me since I was the only one who gave a fuck about history and constantly wrecked the curve for the whole class
>"user, are you going to prom"
>shake my head no
>"why?"
>explain
>"oh, I see"
>she offers to rent me a tux, tear up and thank her but tell her I have no money for shoes and other expenses
>tell her I have no friends left over anyways, completly alone on my last year of HS
>no gf also, wasn't going to go to a party to stand in a room full of people enjoying each others company and me being miserable in a corner

Sometimes life is not fair, sure made me though end the fuck up. Now I'm financially stable with a good job and good pay. Can't helps to think what prom was like, I wish I could go back and give that kid a good prom night, even if he was going to just stand In a corner for the whole event.

Damn

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yuppers, not an emo faggot though.
clinical bipolar motherfucking depression. tried to kill myself twice when i was 15,, i could tell the story

> be me
> be 23
> living at parents house again because I was kicked out of my place, lost my job, and my fiance left me all at the same time
> want to get out and talk to girls and find someone new
> has no money and is painfully awkward
> just sleeps most of my day since I feel like I have no hope of getting better

Fuck man I'm sorry user. I guess I'm not counting my blessings enough. Hope you have a good one

I didn't get to go to any prom. I switched schools during the last year and I missed out. I'll never slowly dance with someone while feeling like that moment is going to last forever, I'll never find pure love. But that's okay, I got a few friends and you guys

How to get some rage out.