9 years ago I figured out I was pedophile

9 years ago I figured out I was pedophile.
Now I'm here.
Still. Nothing has changed about who I'm attracted to. Nothing has changed about how safe I feel. My two closest friends are the only people who know.

I'm 22. Are there any older anons who are also pedophiles, who can talk about this? How old are you, has it changed your life in significant ways? Do you feel like you're at risk of offending? Or have you some magical process that keeps you grounded?

Personally, I'm fucking terrified of myself. There is a history of mental illness on both sides of my family, and I've constantly got this undercurrent of fear that something will happen to the way I think, something I won't notice, something that will take me over the offending edge.
I've waded in and out of suicidal thoughts for years.

I'm going to bump this thread maybe twice because fuck.

bumping for interest

bump

Actually you would have known you were a pedophile around 16 rather 13 - but that age you'd be noticing women over little girls, at 13 it's not really abnormal to look at little girls.

I dunno what I am personally, I'm attracted to lollies (real children don't interest me past a few aspects that I can find nice about them) but at the same time I'm also attracted to adult men, dominating women, etc so dunno if I really count

Boys or girls?

>telling me what I knew
I am also attracted to other things, but it always comes back. When I try to distance myself from Sup Forums, Mchan, eightchan (not anymore for those two) I find myself oogling things, and I can't live like that.

girls.

same here. always liked little girls. 25 now, havent done anything yet and not planing to.

not because of moral bs, but because the chances of very bad consequences are to high.

loli & cheese pizza usually are enough to calm the special urges.

anyway never tell anyone. never. do not get help. the people that 'want' to help you, are beeing paid to keep society safe from people like you. by any means necessary.

if youre only into the kids, i can see the dilemma.
I'm attracted to a wide spectum of people, from young to acceptable and normal ages. you just have to accept that certain things are off bounds. everyone is attracted to people they'll never have the opportunity to act on and still get on with their lives.
you can too.

27/m

I have thought about help. Buuuutttt the only way to express how I really feel would probably make me look a whole lot like someone endangering the welfare of all children in 1000ft, and thus liable to be imprisoned and marked for life.

so no, no help. It's not really out there anyway.

How. Do you find little girls attractive? Thwy have no tits no ass and are retarded.
Is it because theyre like innocent and dumb so u want to take advantage of them? Like not to be mean but real women are challenges perhaps and a weak little girl poses no risk... Kind of like going for the slow gazelle at the baxk of the pack....like a PREDATOR does? like seriously i have. 18 MONTH old daughter and i want to understand what makes u guys tick so i can identify you and appropriately feel emonionless or have pity as im ass fuxking pedos to death for oogling my baby girl.

What do you want out of life OP?

Here's the funny thing. This is a kink, right? This isn't something I picked, I wasn't diddled by an uncle or my parents. I wasn't exposed to it at a young age.

But fuck me for having the wrong fetish. It doesn't matter how accepting people become of others with non-normative attractions LGBTQWERTYUIOPs and whatnot/

Also if it makes you feel better-i think some teens are sexy as fuck but they. Are built like grown women.(see i just tried to level with ya.)

Pretty much

some guys like gmilfs, some guys like dick and some like little girls. its all fucked up, but thats nature for ya. and you cant tell them appart, because they know that their fetish is unaccented by society and blend into the normie crowd.

is she hot?

Don't worry if we meet someday I play with you some unteralterbach.
Because you are attracted to something that doesn't mean you must hurt peoples you love.
I was used by a paedophile not rape but he really knew how to make kid interested in having sex with him.
Later I was inserting stuff in my butt and fapped to CP before and after 18 few times. I stopped because I realize I'm not a paedophile but I have mental problem.
Years passed fighting with myself I no longer get boner to lolis and CP. Maybe sometimes but I think then we all do have a weirdest boner...

You'll waste your life if you spend it trying to find every pedo. And you'll miss about half. I look pretty normal, and I've spent the last 9 years figuring out how to do that well. I don't know the answers to your questions. You're right though. I wish it was as simple as me just being a bitchass not able to interact with adult women. I appreciate someone not a Pedo being willing to talk to one. It sure seems to kill a conversation.

checked.
I want isolation. I want to be able to talk to myself and putt around the house all day in isolation. I don't want to see LG and I don't want access to LG. I also want beehives, a big greenhouse, and an 80s Audi 4000s

Everyone's different user, sad fact is every male is an issue, some females too but no doubt if your daughter is attacked then it's probably gonna be a man

Don't want a wife and kids? You can live in isolation and live a happy life if that's what you want

I'm well versed in my Unteralterbach. Pretty fun, but that sort of "lolis in real life" thing is a little scary to me. I don't want to normalize an actual behavior.

It's okay so long as you don't have Bad Pedophilia.

step 1. stop sex. all together.

sex is an instinct of the weak minded.
overcome sex and you can become an all powerful wizard. true story. use Sup Forums to help you. blast your self with porn and in doing so dont fap no matter what. do this on a daily basis and u will be desensitized. it will be like looking at animals. because thats what people are. feebile animals. monkeys. do not be a monkey. ur welcum.

also here is your first lesson. do not fap to this.

Granmas have tits men have sexually ready dicks.
Explain what makes kids attractive to you dude stop being a pussy and avoiding putting thought into the answer.
Im sure she will be when she gets older. But shotgun slings hot steel Buckshot also. Shes just a baby homie Thats. Gross.

foxi di

Step 2: Go to a daycare center.

Step 3: start sex, all together.

You are part of us.We all are pedos user.Why do you think we have loli threads?

op here.
isn't me.

Man, I don't want to sit here and describe this shit, BECAUSE you have a daughter. I've thought about it. Explain what makes titties attractive to you.

why do you think I made this post?
aside from toring it up (risky) there are basically no other places I can go to have this conversation.

>Explain what makes kids attractive to you
the lack of developed sexual characteristics

but why do you care at what age your daugter gonne be fucked ?

shes going to chocke on dicks by the age of 12 anyway and have many many dicks in her by 25. so whats the fuckin difference ?

this is another fucked up point. Kids are sexualised more today than basically EVER.

see if you stop sex u can train yourself to become desensitized. if you find yourself slipping a bit and gettting horny. blast your self with more porn. but dont fap. look at shit loads of porn but DO NOT FAP. RESIST. it works.
then over time u can become strong. even when ur strong u can slip. blast ur self again and dont fap. then u can get strong again. eventually u will win at life. GL

There is hope user,we used to be part of lgbt before they kicked us out for the public.But now beastiality is allowed,we still have hope.Soon,we will get accepted.Just wait.

21 and I'm also interrested in ages - till 25, got a 18 year old gf.
If I was healtier I would have probably fooled around more with girls 14 - 16, now I'm just playing it safe and I'm focussing on my carreer with the occasional flirt, nothing more.
Cheese pizza is enough to qench my thirst for anything below 14 yo.
The only thing I'm afraid of is when/if I get a daughter, I don't trust myself. would never hurt her tho, but yea, some people consider the things that I would do 'hurting'.

Until he eventually pops, his temptation isn't porn, it's little girls

So... you like little girls that are by man made law illegal and by the forced conditioning of "norms", you feel bad about it.

I don't see the problem here. You can like anyone you want. You can like anything you want. That doesn't mean that it's accepted or even tolerated, true, but in the end none of that matters. What matters are your actions and what society allows you to do.

For instance, you may feel like having sex with 10 year old girls or younger, but if you don't do it, it isn't illegal. Luckily, thought crime isn't a thing...yet. You could also have sex with a 10 year old if she let you, and as long as there isn't any proof around it shouldn't be a problem for you, unless you think that your conscience would make you kill yourself if you ever did such a thing, in which case simply don't act on it.

Or... find an excuse. Travel to Indonesia or something, where child prostitution is rampant. It's okay to do it because they've already done it before, they're getting paid, they have a different way of life, etc... or whatever other reason you can come up with to justify your actions so that you won't feel like killing yourself for indulging in sexual activity with a minor.

same thing. y can do this method with anything. shit u can even do it with hamburgers. buy hamburger. put hamburger in mouth. SPIT hamburger out. never eat hamburger. same shit. just figure out how to plug it in to my formula

%95 of people consider the things that WE would do 'hurting'
I've already ruled myself out for fatherhood. I am ABSOLUTELY not willing to destroy my life and the life of my kid.

He'd need to look at child porn in that case user, like I said it's little girls that's his problem, not consensual adult women.

Yeah i have a daughter but you are not near her and chances are you never will be. And if i dont catch you staring itll be fine.
Shit as an adult male i always think i creep other parents out when im alone and i smile at lil kids doing cute stuff or wave at them and say hi. I know its kinda weird in this society. Im not a pedo and i feel weird being nice to kids lol. I cant imagine how you feel.

Oh and titties. They. Are big jiggly and round i can suck em and milk em if she's. Preggers.


O god now that i think about it i think i know what u gonna say about whats attractive about little girls... Eeeeew!
Im assuming tight is one of them. You feel no guilt for the physical pain and damage that would cause? Anything besides physicality draw u towards them? This way i can train my daughter to not be like that and to kick guys like you in the balls haaaas

indonesia, thailand, etc have upgraded their shit.
the penelties are horrendous and the sluts know that and blackmail their customer.

better safe then sorry.

>Explain what makes kids attractive to you dude stop being a pussy and avoiding putting thought into the answer.

Their innocence. And taking away that innocence through my own gratification. That blank look of lack of understanding, and that sudden comprehension as inch after inch slides into their undeveloped fuckholes. That begging, pleading look as your cock rakes in and out of their tiny pussies, stretched to the max around your cock, the tears welling up in their eyes. The panic they feel and express as you reach climax, the furious pounding into those skinny hips, their bodies disappearing into the bed under your weight as you unleash and thick globs of semen across their cervix, protecting their bruised and battered womb.

And finally, the mix of blood and semen as you slowly pull out, your salty protien offering oozing out of their raw and sore cunts, the smell of fear and sex in the air.

It was possible to deal with my problem, determination was the point I don't want to hurt peoples and I'd rather look like a funny Pedobear than be a pedo myself...
I simply couldn't look into mirror if I was
I'm still looking at cute kids on the street but really doesn't care and don't think about having sex with them just can't look other way. Sometimes I feel nervous and my brain is screaming internally and say stupid shit like too old or cute af

>Once I get out of my home baked
>This cute 12-13yr old girl just came out my flathouse with friends
>Going the same direction
>Internally Screaming and thinking stupid shit
>Put my head down and go forward
>Seconds before the impact rise head up
>See butt
>Panic mode activated run to the other side of street avoiding that ass and car's on the street
>She fucking decided to tie up her shoes right before me and her but was at my boner lvl

The day I'm almost trip over some girl straight on the face with my crotch poking her butt...
I'm 21

Some guys like rape, others like the idea of a consensual girl

>can train my daughter to not be like that and to kick guys like you in the balls

Kek'd

This.Lgbt pride.Fuck all right wing republicans who want to keep social constructs

keeping your kids safe around some determined offenders is hard. Just be specific and clear about everything you teach her about mommy, daddy, sex, babby... so on. Correct terminology. Real world examples. Make sure she is empowered about what happens to her body, who touches it, who doesn't.

if you fap to special content you'll get relieve and wont react that hard to real life exposure.

#pride, no #prudes

Because as her father and protector i must cock block everyone until she gets old enough to yell out that she wishes she was never born and storm off too her room(then its time to let her have a boyfriend to be a little bitch towards)(this also means she is probably a teenager and i will gradually come to accept that shes fucking).
I think that. That is every fathers job

Hella proud fam

Meant for

I just like the young ass and pussy, also the innocence. you're retarded if you don't understand that, do you want a fat half man 50 year old woman, or a cute nice looking 18 yo.
well that is how we see the difference between young and old, only the ages differ.

and fuck you for thinking we're all rapist, I for one don't like to cause physical pain you asshole.

that just doesn't sound realistic.

Blocked for hate speech.
#LGBTPPRIDE

this is unrealistic. The chance for this happened 30-40 years ago. Now it's abuse. No matter what.

I kiss my baby girl and hug her and love her more than i love my wife. When you have one you will never do anything to hurt her. Well then again im just speaking for myself and im not a pedo. Good luck

Oh great being a paedophile gave me aspergers I'm a walking funny fetish man I often use a fetishes I love in a conversation as a joke if that's the point

thats the best way for her to develop daddy issues.

>anyone down for "am i screwed? pedo discussion?"
why yes
yes i am

So what you're saying is that you have absolutely no self control? You're saying that if in a situation where you could get away with it, if aroused enough, you'd act on your impulses, even if it meant rape? Well, okay then... I seem to have misunderstood this whole condition.

What about older women aged 17+? Do you find them arousing at all? If not, what do you feel when you see a subjectively hot girl?

good pedo: a man and a girl. Daddies and daughters, neighbors, pastor and congregations kids.

Bad Pedo: Fag pedo. where a degenerate fag like Dennis Hastert forces their disgusting lifestyle on some poor future straight boy, and then they have to deal with years of horror until they themselves become mentally ill faggots.

thx I will try to play it safe and don't get kids, but yea I prob can't really force my gf/future wife, to not get kids.
Or I hope I just won't be attracted.

I'm going to your house tonight and I'll fuck your daughter and then you. in the arse, both of you.

Can you stop with the hate speech Im getting triggered

hot is still hot.
cute is better

Your microaggressions and microinvalidations decelebrates both my inner and outer bodyshapes.

What the fuck.
Guess i shouldnt have asked.
You dont feel bad?

also keep that shit secret. dont fucking tell anyone. GL op. addiction is an addiction no matter what it is. i kno people that had hear disease and still ate at fast food. they knowingly kill them selves eating fast food because they couldnt stop. so op. take my advice i gave u. GL keep that shit secret. and u will be good. control is everything.

I'm sure I'd love my daughter. I'm also sure I'd fuck that up.

Not but for me, it's not that I think I could rape someone, it's that I find myself looking.
I also experience HELLA intrusive thoughts. All the time. Like, holding a knife hearing myself think "just fucking end it"
Like I said earlier, I'm not UNattracted to other women. I do have incredibly high standards for 17-20yo, like virtually invisible labia majora, small chest, thin, fairly unblemished, short. So basically, children.

Thanks for standing up.As an atheist male feminist,I hate when delusional republicans try to bully lgbtp pride.I will always stand up for ladies,I hope you will continue up the good work my good fellow

is definitely not a pedo. Pedos love children.

writing this shit out wont help

and also dont get fucking caught. keep ur shit encrypt with password etc..

Im cursed with pedophilia as well and was so confused in the past on what to do and how to act on it. In my confusion I've managed to make some actual contacts with underaged girls on skype or whatsapp, ranging between the ages of 10 and 17. I almost met a couple of sisters to fuck, but everytime when I try to talk to underaged girls I feel like they're secretly the FBI trying to lure me out or something, maybe its the weed im smoking idk.

Anyway, I found a good way to cope with it all, firstly I fap about 6 times a day, everytime one of these girls talk to me I instantly fap to get it out of my system. I rarely watch porn, I actually found out that Literotica has quite a few good pedo stories, so I dont need to download or watch illegal shit. Secondly, whenever im in bed, I vividly fantasize about some pedo situation that I know will never ever happen in my life, it really works as well.

Im 26

I like rape and consensual... Even when its consensual i act and fuck like a rapist haaa. With.adult.women.though.

op here, isn't me. I'm not that eloquent this late. And I try to keep myself away from that kind of glorifying.

On the contrary, it feels goooood.

Then you go and buy them a toy and they're back to playing like nothing ever happened.

Unless you pick up a strangers kid. But like Louis CK pointed out, if people didn't have such a hangup about people fucking kids, they'd come home alive a lot more.

It could just be a call to the parents "hey, I just fucked your kid. Where should I drop them off?" vs. their ranting/raving/demanding charges be filed.

So instead of a sniffling kid who's had the sexual equivalent of a scraped knee, you get a kid in a shallow grave thats been dug up and eaten by possums and coyotes.

Man pls stop that hurts all I said was that I dealt with my problem but I have difficulties in my life I'd rather live with them than do something bad to someone are you literally fucking retarded
That's all just me now I suffer catatonia and aspergers I'm Greg I have a problem
Must kill all RAP musicians and ShitChanners

Ever thought of getting a girlfriend, who's into RP? That could help your case without offending anyone. Also, I don't believe you aren't attracted to anything else but children, a person usually has multiple things that turn him on.

Guys don't shoot him, I was like 16 when I discover that I was pedo. Its very disturbing when u realize that you are the bad wolf of the stories. I have self control, I still like teenager and also mature woman but its very hard to live when you think that everybody hates you. I wasn't/ haven't abused.

Yeahhhh..... Im not sure how im gonna teach her where people arent supposed to touch. I think im going to leave that to mom... But mom is a woman and i know she wont spend enough time teaching her whats right and wrong. Uuuugh.

I too have found solace in literotica. Pedo-literotica is such a nice grey area. There are some nice archives of similarly themed newgroups around.
Personal favorite is asstr org
Also has stories for almost any other taboo kink.

Dont worry lad.Wanna meet up?I can be indentified by my signature fedora and my wifeu body pillow

Dunno if you're the same guy, but if you find older women sexually attractive as well, then you're probably normal.

Honestly, a lot of pedophilia stems from a lack of interaction with women of your age, in general. And a lack of sexual experience & female partners.

Loner types are especially prone to fall into this category because after they're out of school they tend to shun away from society and embrace various solitary hobbies, such as anime & video games, in which the sexualization of children is rampant. These activities condition a shift in sexual attraction in these people. Of course this doesn't apply to everyone. Just some cases.

But from what I understand, if would be pedophiles had girlfriends, they would think much less about having sex with children.

Correct me if I'm wrong.

yeah, depending the outcome of your therapy it is not allowed for you to live near a kindergarten, elementary / middle school and certain playgrounds... plus you must explain this to your next landlord.... good luck becoming a bum after therapy

mostly on point.
but i have a gf.
still only go as far as loli though

Ok stop discriminating thats insanely rude you need to stop being ableist check your privilege holy shit

But... Ugh nevermind. I cant understand the reasoning. Yeah i guess you are prettt fucked in the head. I mean i understand 14 or 16... But like babies and lil girls thats weird dude.
Also if u fuck a little girl its going to cause her pain dude.

Kek

Can you stop already?

Well, I suppose it could be worse.

It's best to just keep it to yourself and be sure to not leave any DNA evidence.

In the end, they turn out OK.

Just don't rape anyone. Statutory rape included. Contrary to popular belief it's not that hard. Everyone will be put into situations at some point in their life where they're attracted to someone but it would be inappropriate to sex them.

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And I can't even empathize out loud with other people who experienced the same thing by having their kink/orientation demonized.

that wasn't me. If you can sauce me on that info, that'd be great. Had a gf for 3 years. Plenty of sex. Nothing changed throughout. Doesn't know, never will.

no way Sup Forumsro...

And the best way to keep fat hairy old man dicks away from her

well, love hurts.

>im ass fucking pedos

so you are into pedos that is an interesting fetish

is this ass breathing at me?