Recently I've felt like every colour I see is really really really vibrant, and I can hear a lot more sound with a lot more surround kinda visualisation, sounds are clearer and I can hear a lot more instruments
I feel ever so slightly light headed no matter what I do, I feel slightly more calm
I suffer pretty bad depression, but today I could smile a little
What's happening to me Sup Forums
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Sounds more punchy in the bass and I feel enjoyment from the music whereas before I just played it for something to distract my subconscious mind.
Nothing has really happened to cause this
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Snowflake much?
It could be your senses being heightened from sensory deprivation, but I dunno, since I'm not in the medical field.
He's probably a got tumour in his brain or some shit. Go see a doctor you stupid fuck.
Sensory Depravation how so?
As in, not doing much? I was at work Friday and Sunday, customer service. That should have been plenty of stimulation. Sunday was only yesterday
I don't see how a tumour can make senses stronger, they would weaken them wouldn't they?
Tumours can do all kinds of shit ya bozo
Ah, okay. I assumed you were inside alot, and like, moping. I think that's one of the things that causes senses to be sharper.
If I'm not at work or school (uni) then yeah, I'm inside. As I said, usually I'm crippled by depression and all I want to do is kill myself violently and frequently envision it happening. I was denied medication even after explaining my very frequent and detailed suicidal thoughts
you might be recovering temperaly from the depressing i get thease stats of happnyess from time to time but the erst of the time i just wanna fuking kill myselfs
you might be going through a mild manic episode.. have you ever been through periods of elation, rash decisions, erratic behaviour, lower impulse-control etc before? preceded or followed by low mood / depression?
if so you may have bipolar, not depression.
I have yes
You know you could be right, my doctor did decide to diagnose depression and then deny a script for meds so at the moment I'm going to believe you more.
Should I just go to another doctor?
Its called mania. You most like have bi polar deppresion, not just depression.
You died and this is a world created by your dying brain in its last moments
did you tell your current doctor about those other symptoms?
idk man i might not be the best person to talk to cause i think head-meds are all shit and the world would be better off if we just gave people shrooms instead, but yeah talk to another doctor if you're not sure your current doctor is onto it.
You know, I'd really like that
This feels like such a peaceful, positive and happy way to go out.. So much better than what I would feel while at school or during the last hour at my shift.
Its gotten to the point of calling in sick because I feel that I'd randomly take the box cutter to my wrist on night fill.
You could be right
Shrooms, DMT or LSD or just any sort of Psychedelic would be a very good treatment, maybe even cure to quite a lot of metal issues. Really don't know why its not used, most of it is fairly safe and some are so hard to OD on you'd need to actively try to OD.
Thanks for the advice everyone.
i want to tell you about a dream i had. i'm copy-pasting it which it why it looks like i give a fuck about formatting.
I'm on the streets of a city. There is a full-fledged zombie apocalypse going on and the city is in lock-down. Quarantined. The affliction is caused by an illness, it's some kind of disease. There are a couple of different types of zombie. In the early stages of the disease victims are apathetic and lathargic. They don't really do much, they just wander around the streets or stay in their homes. In the later stages of disease people become agressive and hostile. They will attack for no reason, they are just wild. They are a blackish grey and they run on all fours. They are skeletal but they are fast, strong and lean. They don't really look human any more. There are security guards all around the city making sure healthy people don't congregate in groups, as groups of healthy people attract these more ruthless zombies.
However, healthy people are revolting against the quarantine as it is very obvious who is healthy and who is sick. Basically, healthy people can be identified because they are animated and actually care about getting out of the city. Infected people don't, because the disease makes them apathetic about the entire situation. And so healthy people are meeting to discuss how to get out of the city. These meetings attract the hostile zombies, and so they are disbanded by the guards as soon as they are found, or otherwise attacked by the zombies. This is all information I just instinctively know when the dream starts.
cont
The dream starts and I'm with a group of healthy people on the streets of this city, and we are discussing trying to find a way through the quarantine. All of a sudden we are attacked by a hostile zombie, and we scatter. I'm running throgh the streets, and up ahead I see a police officer. This is not one of the guards, and it strikes me as strange because I haven't seen any police around anywhere. The policeman is positively shining, radiating a bluey-silver aura which glows all around him. He tells me he can get me out of the city if I follow him. I trust him innately, so I follow. He leads me down an alleyway, and as we continue on it starts turning into a grassy path. At this point the officer says 'this is as far as I can go, keep following this path and it will take you out of the city'. I follow the grassy path and the city becomes less dense, until I finally come to a low stone wall with a park on the other side.
I climb over the wall, and up in a corner of the park I see some woodchip gardens. I go towards them. There are magic mushrooms growing all through the woodchip. At the sight of them I become incredibly excited, as I instinctively know that this is the cure for the disease that is plaguing the city. I know that the aggressive, ruthless zombies are too far gone, and you could never get them to take the medicine anyway, but this will cure people in the early stages of the disease.
I am picking mushrooms to take back to the city, when I hear a voice behind me say 'Hey, you can't be out here!'. I turn around and standing behind me is the ugliest looking nurse I have ever seen. Overweight, smelly, warts all over her face, and stuffed into an ill-fitting nurses outfit. In one hand she is holding a taser, and in the other there is a syringe full of a foul looking liquid, a mucky greenish orange colour. She has a man with her that looks somewhat like a bull-dog, and I can tell he is very stupid. He is literally like her guard dog. He will just follow her orders.
I say to her 'Don't worry, it's okay! I've found the cure! We can just take these back to the city and everything will be fine!'. At this point she lets out a low, slow laugh. Like she is laughing to herself at my hope, excitement and naievety. She tell me to drop them here and come with her, and I reiterate that this is the cure to the disease. She has to let me talk to someone. A scientist, a researcher, anyone that can verify what I'm saying. Again tells me to come with her right now, or she is going to inject me with the disease directly. I try to argue again, but now I am visibly terrified. I don't want to be like those zombies. I am still stammering away about how we need to take these mushrooms back to they city when she laughs again and zaps me with the taser.
I wake up.
the moral of the story is, those meds that the nurses and the doctors give you are the very disease they say they're trying to help you with. they fuck your head up more and make you dependent on them.
eat psychedelics instead.
It's a sign you need to kill yourself. Make the god's wish and do it!!!
I don't believe in any god
I'm curious, if I was to kill myself and stream it, would you feel bad knowing you were the last influence to my death?
ive had this happen to me before
i stopped smoking and drinking soda, and also altered my breathing pattern so that i only took slow, deep, full breaths. also i made sure to get to sleep at 8 pm
worst time of my life dont do this shit OP.
Dont do what?
The fuck? I haven't done anything.
I don't and have never smoked, ive always breathed slowly and I drink soda o
Tyler Durden is coming
What?
Tyler Dindu?