I think about killing myself everyday. I am tired of going in and out of rehab...

I think about killing myself everyday. I am tired of going in and out of rehab. I can't seem to get a hold of the thoughts of suicide. I Isolate a lot. I am not fat or whack or anything like that. I am very normal, but these feelings are reking me. I am at a point where I don't want to do it, but inside I tell myself too. I call the suicide hotline and most of the time I am such a mess they hangup on me. nothing is working. I feel like I even scare the people on those lines. it's like im infected with devils

Has anyone beat this? or is it hopeless? Please share stories...

Stopped reading at "I think about killing myself everyday"
Fucking do it and save us from your pathetic speeches.

Go to the psychiatrist. Take SSRIs. Become a normal person, work, earn money, waste it die

The suicide hotline is allowed to hang up on someone suicidal?

Are you infected with any STD's? If not then man the fuck up and pay taxes you fucking pussy

Wish I had so few responsibility I could go in and out of rehab... Some of us have to man up and get on with shit.

I work two jobs. I have responsibility a lot of them.

yes they do.. never call historically crying they will mistaken it as masturbating or something.

You some kind of an hero?

not exactly, as I posted I asked for stories of overcoming an issue.

Also I don't understand how depression means not having a job or paying taxes as others have posted.

Hey OP buy some niacin, work your way up from 300mg up to 5000mg a day over a month. You will feel like a million bucks ;>

I used to take that to pass drug tests. makes you all itchy and red, no thanks

" X" on top left corner. your move m8

let me tell u something. Feeling is a chemistry. Ur brain´s job is to mix the shit. Its not doing the best job. Dont let ur brain fuck u over and fight it with logic. If u feel like shit the only shit thing is that the chemistry is off but the reality hasnt changed. Its not the reality that is doing worse- ur position in life, its how u see it, and ur brain keeps chaning the glasses, Dont let this game overrun u, so u start thinking that it is the reality, this is the real world. No its not. Its all cool outside! Fight it with raw power - start doing activitis that dose u with "good feeling" - sports - its proven it raises dopamine. Just force urself to the gym and fight ur brain, use ur character, will and logic to make it stop deciding how u should feel!

Take matter to ur own hand, dont ride the wave, fight it.

Well the warm itchy feel will fade after using it 7-15 days. For me it took around 5 days but the real euphoria doesnt come before you are at 3-5000mg doses. Its pretty slick, flushes out the chemicals thats making you feel like a slug and terrorise your mind

You're not going to get the best answers here, OP. This is the internet, you have all the resources and info you can have to help you.

Go to your local hospital or psychiatric center. Get evaluated and schedule appointments.

thank you

I'd rather jump off the golden gate bridge

Go to the psychology and psiquiatric.. I did it and now I'm really happy whit my life. Of course I consume drugs ("legal drugs"), but in a few mounts I won't. Do it, it really works. (atte: an Argentinian person)

no X or 0
did they get bored halfway through?
maybe they fought over the middle square and left because they couldn't decide?

Psychiatry doesnt know shit about how to fix mental issues, because its an alteration caused by chemicals in the brain, only option that will last long therm is removing these toxic sustances. Hence the niacin protocol.

Kek

If you seriously want to suffer less, look into buddhism, the eightfold path, but especially meditation. Vipassana or mindfulness meditation.

im not fucking taking niacin, stop

I think not.

stop lying satan

I stopped at "whack".

>What a faggot.

A niacin regimen will boost your mental health.

To honest if nothing works and im serious, then take the easy way out and do it, the earth is getting overpopulated anyways... And tell the god that doesnt exist that i want a blowjob from him...

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okay I'm not the OP but am semi-interested because I've had mental health problems and researched everything and somehow never heard this one. elaborate?

Its me OP, now its DAMAGE CONTROL TIMMEEE, suicide is for pussies, checkmate motherfucker

You have to be a special kind of fucked up (hopeless) for suicide hotline to actually hang up on you.

Do it the right way.

You heard the OP, ths guy is trolling.... Intiate Abandonment programme

Annddd noww, this is a dead maymay thread yall

find out what's wrong with you. sounds like PTSD

mindfulness

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> heroin addict from 18-20
> sober for like half a year now
> stayed at rehab for 75 days by choice
> alot happier now
Find something you love doing and do it.

Im OP,this is not me, stop trying to fake my identity

Yayyyy, i killed another autistic thread once again, mannn, killing threads is ez

go to the tanning studio, lay down under solarium for maybe 2-3 hrs and yu look like this

DONT BUMP THIS THREAD, LET IT DIE

I had it for a few years, I did that and just got over it started spending more time with friends now it's nothing in my life

Why not do it? Who knows there might be the other side after all. Think about it as being the first astronaught but into the void. If there in anything further than space its death, be out astronaught of death, our deathtronaught. Maybe you'll find a way back to tell us what's on the other side.

All hail britain!