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>be me
>be 18 years old just graduated high school
>go to college out of state and make some great friends
>family issues back home, have to move back
>try college in home town, doesn't work out
>in and out of relationships that are always depressing to me
>skip ahead a couple of years
>be 20
>decide to enlist in military
>USMC
>get dropped at boot camp due to psychological issues
>can't even be a fucking marine
>come back home
>work boring job with awkward hours
>no time to be social, just sit at home and regret choices
>could've ignored family issues and stayed in college
>could've pushed through college in home town
>could've done better to hide issues at boot camp
>nothing ever goes right for me
>now be 21, at least I can drink myself out of pain
>don't know where to go from here

I know life is just really starting for me, or so everyone says, but I just can't see anything great happening to me anytime soon. I feel like once I turn 25, I'm basically stuck.

Any anons out there have any kind of advice on what I could do to make things better?

>inb4 robbery, rape, drugs or murder

I want to do something that will make me feel alive again, while at the same time being legal. I'm white, not a criminal. I'm just not sure what to really do at this point.

Sorry for wasting your time..

Smoke weed

I used to, but it made me feel really anxious and paranoid. Maybe I should start again anyways?

Yeah but never smoke alone. Do it with a group of people. Build bonds and friendly relationships. Its easy to make new friends while everyone is high because everyone has a positive attitude. Good friends = Good life.

OP, do you have any hobbies or passions?

I see, thanks user. That honestly is the best advice I've been given over the past few years.

I love music. Played piano since I was 4 and percussion/drum kit since I was 9. That's about it.

dont nigger. give more details
what do you mean college didnt work out?

Well, out of state had to move back for family issues.
Back at home, got too busy with the same family issues and work and didn't have time for class.

family issues still there? no way to get back with the college?

Are you usually lonely OP?

I can't full time, but maybe a could part time? Just a way to learn some shit and get out a little bit? They aren't here anymore, it's just all the other shit now..

Well...yeah user, all the time. I'm either at work or at home. That's it.

Maybe get a gig at a music store, join a band, give lessons.

I give lessons to my friends little brother, that's about it. Just a way to have a little bit extra cash since I'm only working one job.

Then there's your problem. Go out and surround yourself with positive people. Stop holding yourself back because of the fact that you had to leave college. I doubt you want to live the rest of your life thinking what it could've been.

part time would be great. and other shit? its a Sup Forums thread, tell us nigger

Getting discharged from boot camp makes you feel like the biggest piece of shit. Had a friend kill himself recently, that stuck pretty hard. I have to call another friend weekly to make sure he hasn't overdosed also...I lost my best friend at 15 to heart failure, and every time I lose another one, it hurts bad user..

It's just hard for me, I'm not comfortable around others at all. I know I need to try, but everytime I do, I just don't fit in anywhere.

I turn 35 in a month and I'm questioning my life in much the same way you are.
Currently I have zero social life.
Almost been a year since I've had sex.
Question what the fuck I've done with my life and how the hell I got here.

But, I can always do something new.
Change isn't always easy or cheap, but you can change everything about you if you want.
Jobs are relatively easy to come by if you're willing to work.
Cities can be changed

My point is if you're not happy with where you are or where you see yourself going just change.
It's not the easiest but it's better than being miserable forever.

I understand user..thanks for the advice.

first dont worry about the boot camp thing, people going through much smaller things cant do it. what happened to your friend? also other friend have a history with attempts?

Friend was actually a marine and killed himself after he was discharged for bullshit issues. Other friend has depressional issues and has had multiple attempts. I'm one of the only people he can ever talk to anymore.

Where do you work at? Do you not view your fellow employees as great friends? You say you go straight home after work, what can one possibly do with all that time to himself? Go out and try new things like go to the bar or hit the gym, surround yourself with people on the daily basis instead of slowly rot away at home.

I try not to let my personal and work shit mix. I work nights so I'm not really around anyone else (at a hotel) besides guests. I've been thinking about hitting up the gym like I used to, but would that really help? I feel like it'd be more fun if I found someone to go with me.

Yo user, I gotta say, thank you. I'm 21 like you, I'm a student right now - not a good one, but nothing that can't be fixed. Your story gave me a massive push, we don't have that much of our youth left, time is limited, so now I am going to make the best of it. Do the same user, fuck everything and everyone, set yourself a goal and go for it. Don't waste your time on the bottle (i'm a eurofag, been drinking for a few years now). Time for action.

It actually makes me feel good that I was able to help someone. Thank you user. I've gotten enough responses from others to have an idea of what I really need to do with myself from this point on. Live life user, and I'll do my best to as well.

you sounds like a good friend. anything else about your family trouble?

mom was in prison for a bit and it just caused some bullshit issues with everyone. I try to stay out of it as much as possible, but naturally it involves me when I don't want it to. Also my family is full of fundamental christians...and I'm the black sheep, makes family get togethers pretty awkward.

I've had enough feels to deal with user, does drinking help numb it?

I can't deel with these feels I have anymore

I'd love to say yes, but it really doesn't help with shit. Personally, I'm a depressed drunk..so it doesn't do shit to me.

>I feel like it'd be more fun if I found someone to go with me

Yes it is more fun. Seems like you already have someone in mind? If not go alone and do it regularly, eventually you'll find a workout partner. Keep in mind this is just to surround yourself with people you can possibly meet. There's more ways in doing this. However staying at home only shows that you are the only one holding yourself down from living the life you desire.

I understand user. I know someone that might go with me, at least once or twice, but even then, it'll get me in the habit again.

it would be a shit ton better to talk to you. im shit at spelling when i drink.

I'm surprisingly better at it than when I'm sober. I understand..I just don't know a good way to go about doing that.

Yeesh if you don't have friends then buy a pug

>be me
>be 18
>complete loser my entire life, all I did was play vidya.
>fast forward 1 yr later, decide I want to change.
>work my ass off, lose weight, etc, etc..
>even have a portfolio of stocks
>people come and go, no matter how hard I try to make a connection
>no friends whatsoever
>had a gf for about 2 weeks but that's it
>fucked up so many opportunities with gorgeous women
>be 3 yrs later
>be 22, still no friends
>dated a couple women here and there but absolutely no connection whatsoever
>be now
>hear random guy pull up from uber car and walks to my front door neighbor
>she's a cute 8/10, but married
>5 min later hear her moaning loud as fuck
>mfw she just cheated on her man and fucked some random guy on tinder
>mfw im sitting here in bed listening to it like some fucking beta

I live with my brother and he actually owns a pug...I have a rottweiler though. She's sweet, and she's honestly the reason I'm able to actually sleep at night without getting too caught up in all of my shit...

state? hoping close

MO

Not even numb the feelings temporarily?

Not at all. It may for you though. I'm not encouraging it at all, but it just doesn't do shit for me.

I just need something to numb the feels, and im getting pretty desperate.

Gym doesn't do shit anymore, sleeping more, lifting weights, and mma all lost its value as well.

I fucking hate this

you have a job?

Fuck your pugs, the Dachshunds reigns supreme

SD

Not terribly far, both shitty states though.

but we have corn, and people wave at each other when we drive 10/10 in my book

Yeah that isn't a bad feeling at all.

op still here?

not at all

>be me
>be 24
>divorcing from tumblrina obese feminist wife
>sticking my dick in 8.5/10 crazy chick
>we love each other but we can't do more than just fuck
>mfw i'm now unable to trust a woman again
>I still want to get serious with her but she's crazy and I'm sure she will end up betraying me

What has /pol9k/ done to me?

dont marry her just fuck right?
w/w

can't even be a couple. we are shit testing each other all day long, erryday.

Yeah, sorry. Had to take the dog out.

so youre just going to shit test all the time or?

No matter what I do, what I experience, I can't shake the deepest insecurity - that I'm a child, that I'm weak and immature and don't know anything. I'm 23. Ever since I was a kid I've been relatively quiet and full of questions... Now that I've gone to school, I have a social life, I'm finally learning to make the best I can out of my opportunities... I still always feel like I'm "left out", or behind, or something. I have so many big ideas, things to write, to read, to create, and I'm slowly making progress toward my dreams, but I never feel any better. When people I care about, people who are "supposed" (in my fucked-up mind) to be like me, to look up to me, even... when they tell me about some great experience they've had... especially related to "taboo" things like sex or drugs... but also with, you know, how happy they are, or a new relationship, or moving to a better place, I feel like I've been spat on. Like I'm just a child and they don't really look up to me and I've missed something important. Like those experiences should be mine. Hell, I just want to live every life. This frustration and narcissism follows me constantly, it's a perpetual undercurrent, no matter what I'm doing. I don't live in the moment - I'm thinking, is my life's story, my narrative, anything at all compared to all the possibilities? Sometimes talking to people I love, people who are living their lives to the fullest, makes me shake uncontrollably and I make excuses for it - all the nicotine, caffeine, etc.

is it bad to put my number on here?

Probably. How about steam?

No, sometimes we're tired and we just stop. We tell each other how much we're in love, we talk about all sorts of things...
We're passionate, but we don't understand each other.

surprise, it's all in your head. The image you send other people can and must be rigorously managed. Social life is a theater. You have to play a role.

If you feel tired pretending to be an alpha chad, you should try to make some dudebros, they won't judge you as they are pussies themselves.

I play alpha all the time, I can pick up really nice grills, but the fact is i'm a beta pussy faggot inside.

dont have one sorry. worry about your self more. youre good nigger. goodnight

Don't worry being a failure gets easier with every year. I am 25 now and the shit just brushes off. Give it time pal.

Later user

dont listen to this guy try to get better dont just give up

> be me
> never had a gf
> spend 3 consecutive days with a girl
> best 3 days ever, we do all the things together
> she makes big girl eyes at me
> thismustbewhathavinggffeelslike.jpeg2000
> decide to let her know how i feel
> "sorry user I'm not looking for anyone right now"

later

That's not so much what it is, though. I don't play alpha male, or beta male. I'm all over the place. I wear my problems and thoughts on my sleeve, without coming across as fragile and pitiful. I'm confident and comfortable with how I present myself, and I'm hyper-aware of my image. Edgy, but interesting. Mysterious. But not without real human flaws.
I guess I just feel like behind all that, which is a wall I even put up for myself... behind all that I'm nothing at all, I'm a little blip on somebody's radar, I pass through lives and disappear. It's not that I want stable relationships, traditional shit. I don't. I just reach for meaningful connections, but hide myself at the same time because I get so detached so easily when I feel uncertain about anything.
Maybe I do need to take on more roles. It can be hard sometimes to remember that pretty much everybody but actual retards is insecure and uncertain, when they're all so good about pretending they're fine.

why the fuck am i still here?

>I get so detached so easily when I feel uncertain about anything.
people feel your defense mechanisms you know

Beats me...I made this thread, got some good quality advice, and am about to drop for some sleep.

People feel them? How?

They simply can. They just play roles too. Sometimes they don't even know they are doing it.

Very true.
I often wonder if all communication is manipulation

>26 y'o
>in love with a friend since 5 years ago, but he doesn't love me back
>I moved to a city next to mine a year and a half to avoid being with family
>didn't make any new friends, just working and being in my apartment all day
>missing him a lot everyday and thinking if he thinks of me sometimes although i don't think he does
>I don't like my job, and i rather be dead.

What keeps you from finding another job? Another field?

Its hard to get a new job atm, a lot of people in my country are loosing their jobs, and we're in crisis right now, afraid to loose mine too, and I don't want to live with my family again

Is leaving an option? Nations rise and fall. Not that any place is the end-all, be-all land of opportunity, but that every place offers something different, a different culture, different history. Different lens, different identity. Maybe you most need to experience something new.

There's a limit to the comforts that family and friends can provide, obviously. At the end of the day, it's all on you. You're alone with yourself, whether you're happily married, or a complete hermit. You've got to establish a sense of being for yourself, one that is authentic and keeps you moving for the sake of living... hard to explain. It always involves risk. But radical changes bring radical possibilities

I know what you mean, maybe I'm just affraid of making a new step in my life because of all the mistakes I always make.

I always fear of making the same mistakes over and over, I'm too lazy to rise up and do something for my life, like nothing is worth it

I know that feeling like nothing is worth it all too well. Struggle with it every day. But it is worth it, just because it's really all there is. Seizing opportunities, moving forward, finding new experiences... learning things. Learning things is what keeps me going.

...

>be me
>25
>got fiancee
>love fiancee
>met that girl 3 days ago
>already kissed, hugged, some sexy time, a little
>my fiancee doesnt know
>new girl knows I love my fiancee but I am attracted to her
>she says she won;t destroy my relationship but she will wait for me if something goes wrong
>going to live with my fiancee in 2 weeks
>real test for relationship, never been livinh with someone for real
>I am afraid it won't go well
>new girl awaits
>she says she fell in love with me
>she is 25 and I am her first
>kek
>feeling guilty
>I am the man that parents warned me about

help

To keep learning is the best option there is, true. For now I try to save as much money as I can so I can see what to do with it later, if going anywhere else or something.

brb, have to do some check on the doctor, will keep if the tread is still on

Just keep in mind all the different places you could go, things you could get involved in... keep searching

you sound like me Sup Forumsro, needing companionship to be motivated. If you want to inspire change, it needs to come from within. External factors won't change anything about you, only you can do that. Start going out by yourself and doing things you enjoy, you'll find people along the way who share your passions

help pls

this thread makes me feel warm

You are the user from 3 days ago. We told you not to do it stupid faggot, this is why why we recomend mixing chlorine and bleach, Sup Forumsgives you a serious advice and you go and fuck the life everyone here wished.grats faggot, you fucked yourself and everyfucking one here.

Visit /fit and stop being a faggot

>be me
>24 year old male
>fucking 5'4"
>average size penis
>hairline is slowly receding

my only saving grace is that i have a good-looking face (or so i'm told. I get this a lot). it really sucks knowing i'll be this short for the rest of my life and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it. it affects my self-esteem and my everyday life in a lot of big ways. the worst part is, it isn't even something i can really talk to anyone about. most people can't relate to it at all or just don't give a fuck.

Back, I'm interested in new places, but not in new people, I'm a bit asocial person, but the few friends I have i appreciate them.