Can we get a feels thread going. Feeling super emo/depressed/suicidey tonight

Can we get a feels thread going. Feeling super emo/depressed/suicidey tonight.

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it's okay user, we all get like this every once in a while.

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tldr

if 333333 op kys

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Thanks. It doesn't help much but it's nice to know you're there.

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If you feel "emo" it's about time to fucking kill yourself

I don't have a cute feels-y meme for my feels right now, I would provide one otherwise.

>both parents died within 3 months
>dad died on my birthday, intentionally I think
>high-school dropout supporting little bro now
I am the likely inheritor of a few things:
>piles of literal garbage (no trash service)
>debts I can't settle without surprise money
>a house that costs $2400/month to keep
>immense guilt about being unable to save them

I can't will myself to do anything but drink beer and smoke hash until lawyers sort this mess out.

Does anyone have some really heavy, fucked up feels for me?

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The disillusionment of teenagers. From the perspective of age it's hardly a hurdle at all, but when you're in the middle of it, it seems unsurmountable. The only cure is to socialise, not here, not in text at the mercy of anti social sadists but out in the real world.
Do something physical, help someone with carrying stuff, talk about the weather.
Discover that everybody carries sorrows and deals with them by growing stronger (or in some cases, break down).

In order to make a breakthrough however, a breakdown is always necessary. Best of luck OP.

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You can't inherit debt

Actually 22, and yeah I force myself to talk to people everyday and when I'm busy my mind is distracted from the hopelessness of it all but I can't help but feel terrible when I have a moment to myself. And I have broke down many times. Just not sure what to do anymore.

you certainly can

Talk to a professional, they tend to ask the right questions.
Also look at your environment, if there's something that aggrevates your frustrations or stress you. Then avoid these factors.

You will get through this, I trust that you will.
Good luck out there user.

You can't inherit personal debt, but it can carry on to your estate

Has anyone ever properly rebuilt their lives after a suicide attempt?

I tried to go out 3 years ago one night after shit just piled up in that perfect kind of way that there seemed no way out. Since then I kicked my addiction, moved to a new state, tried to make a new start in a new area with a new direction, but ultimately things still felt hollow.

Almost everything I was doing felt like I was doing it just to show others I was fine. I haven't been able to take pride in good work I've done, and doing things that would thrill most people still left me with an empty feeling. It was fun, but not satisfying.

I've taken to getting in shape, and that helps a little, but it felt kind of futile after a bit because there's no real end game to improving ones self. You can be the best person you're capable of being, but to what end?

Lately the only thing that keeps me going in my efforts is this insane idea of vigilantism. Obviously not to the autistic level of becoming Baman, but something at least more grounded in reality. The concept of being killed by some fuck with a gun doesn't seem as bad to me if I've worked to protect someone. My death would have more meaning than my life in that way.

I hate that I think this way because every instinct tells me it's absolutely retarded and probably more indicative of serious mental illness than the suicidal ideation of the past decade, but there's something just so compelling about it that it keeps me hanging on for a bit longer. And I don't know if I should continue to embrace it or to work to abandon it.

Maybe you should become a cop?

google 'probate'
father with limited liquid assets + large debts = potential seizure of family home, at least in good ol' Murika

Anyone else made weird experiences with ecstasy?
I started thinking about my life when high and now I keep finding more and more support for the way I behave today in my childhood experiences.
Also, I might be gay and all my misery stems from that, but I'm not quite sure about that.

kill yourself fucking emo

I couldn't pass the physical exam. I have a chronic illness that fucks up my lungs, and will likely require me to get a double lung transplant within a decade's time if I make it that long. I mean my prognosis is good, there's people with what I have that are in a lot worse shape than I am, but I'm aware of the shortened mortality

Its my birthday Sup Forumsros, im sitting in a dimly lit room with a box of donuts i got for myself in celebration. Not even my parents called.

if it makes you feel any better, I'm
and nobody got me any presents, either.
Hell, I couldn't even go get donuts.
I was cordoned off in my own backyard for 4 hours while police ran through and investigated.

If you lived close Sup Forumsro I would come and celebrate with you...

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