Ask a recovering pedophile anything

Ask a recovering pedophile anything.

What makes you recovering?

isn't it like a violation of your parole to come here?

does being in recovery mean you're over it or you still working on it

why did you decide to try and fix your issue

do you only jack off to little girls

do you find older women attractive

have you ever found yourself lusting after children irl

Started going to a therapist about my issues.
Still working on it.
I felt really disgusted in myself. I fapped mostly to boys and rarely to girls. I do find some older women attractive and I have never lusted over kids.

Is it even possible? They have been trying to recover gays too.

I'm not on parole.

I started getting over looking at cp.

so in your mind this is something that can be cured?
your attractions I mean?

Yeah because it happened all of a sudden pretty much.

Did you use to jack off to alot of loli stuff and then to kids?

>pedophile
>never lusted over kids
Wat?

I used to fap to shota (I find loli disgusting).

so you find little boys and grown women attractive

do you find men attractive

I meant in public.In public I'm completely normal and find children to be grubby. In private I become the disgusting pedo I am.

Favorite ages?

Yes.

6+

Look at cp, buthe have never lusted over kids? Is that supposed to be clown porn?

Oh I see
it's different for everyone I guess

What kind of therapy is it? Pedophilia's tough to deal with.

Will you share your dropbox?

Do you still own a white van

top fucking kek

Would you please fill my sons asshole?

It involves mostly talking about how to get over it and how to deal with it. My therapist is really kind and he is glad I'm getting help.
I never saved any and I wouldn't ever share it.
I've never owned a white van.

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What if you fail? Science is not exactly hopeful when it comes to changing people's sexuality.

did you make this same thread yesterday night?

I honestly don't know what I'll do if I fail.

so it's not aversion therapy or anything? that shit sucks. student of psychology here, by the way. not clinical, but i have a passing knowledge of these things.

I want to recover too, how can I? Please, help me.

That doesn't make much sense...
Either you find children sexually attractive or you don't
I'm proud to be the former

No.

i reported you just in case

well, there was another pedo who made a thread and was answering questions similarly. Maybe find him and help each other?

Why do you keep posting this every day?

I feel the same, and same urge when I'm jerking off.

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how old were u when u started liking boys?
Which is your proffesion?

When did you enter the Priesthood?

how many kids have you actually fucked?

Can't deny me being a fucking legend

Like 100 kids
im so proud to be that bad

Pics or it didnt happen

I was about 15 and I'm an animator.
None.

I am a closet pedo. Nobody needs to know. Because apparently im a fucking monster and deserves to die. Fuck it. Dont care who you are. You will judge and dispise me if i told you in person. Even when i havent done a damn thing wrong

Fucking quitter

What?

Not OP, but I feel ya.

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Listen now that you are recovering, you still need to drive slow through school Zones

That is the harsh reality we have to live with
But hey, at least I won't be spending bunch of money on kids in the future
Good luck brother

Have you been violated or molested for some adult while being a kid?

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Thank you.. Honestly. Stay alive and well. Even your closest friend will hate your guts and never understand you. Only knowing your a sick monster. ......fuck... Don't believe I'm really like that though...

I hate kids (13-17). When I'm in public I find them gross, stupid and terribly dull.
But when it comes to masturbation I crave for their bodies and fantasize a lot and I find myself wandering in my own fantasies. I try to hold my cum as long as possible and think about them craving for my cum on their slim bodies, a cutie with her tongue out's waiting for her hot liquid meal. That's how I feel.
I want to overcome my addiction, and I want to understand why when I'm out I don't think about them in the same way.
Even if sometimes I can caught myself admiring their velvety legs, their dreamy flat chest and their plum asses, their hair, and so on...

I'm not the OP but I'm and the answer is yes. My father made me have sex with my sister and lick her pussy in his office.

No I had a pretty decent childhood.

What were your fav sites

Would you take one if you could without anyone ever knowing back then/right now?

0/10 post man

No I've never desired to actually do anything to a child.

>recovering pedophile
>In private I become the disgusting pedo I am.
Meanwhile, FBI started monitoring TOR
does anyone else see the connection

That is slightly disturbing and at the same time very interesting. I've been under the impression for a long time that child molesters victims do not turn out to be pedophiles but simply adapts the kid-fucking part as more of a fetish as it to me it seems like you are more interested in fucking a kid than loving a kid and almost solely, I'd say, when you are turned on. For me on the other hand (I see myself as a fullfletched pedophile with no attraction to older women) I dream of real relationships with children. (Well, young girls.) Hanging out, long walks, crazy roadtrips, just lying in bed hugging, etc etc. I think that the difference between those are very important and that the type of pedophile I call myself is the real attraction to children, the real pedophilia and not just a kind of fetish.

I was never a victim of anything close to sexual harassment during my childhood. (No bullying, etc, at all for that matter.)
^me, not op

pedos helping pedos to not be pedos, lol
>nah nah, we really shouldn't man
>yeah, you're right, we shouldn't
sideways glance..
>just one?
>yeah one couldn't hurt..

motherducker

What made you decide to open up about it to your therapist? Weren't you worried about getting turned in?

I wanted to get help because I knew I was fucked up in the head for doing what I was doing. I was really afraid of him wanting to call the police but I just told myself "even if he does is it really that bad if I wanted to get help for my issues?"

oh hey, I saw a mental health professional today and told them about my teenage years fapping to CP and the ways it's fucked me up as an adult. I haven't seen that stuff in a while. Good luck kicking it buddy.

I just fantasize about possessing their bodies, in many of my dreams the girls are slaves, maids or similars. But I also like girls out of the range of 13-17, and I've a girlfriend which is 25 and knows nothing about this situation. I'm not an Humbert Humbert, but I would really like to have a huge Harem of girls of any age.
I don't know why I feel the urge to dream this things, in the last three years I had numerous relationship during my main one, at the same time. I feel a worm. I feel bad about it, but it seems I can do nothing about it, that's why I'm looking for a solution to my problem.
My mind is out of control. Right in this moment I'm thinking about a 13 years old young japanese school girl whose massaging my cock with her soft feet.

quads?

you know your experience isn't necessarily the only one, right?

maybe it's the taboo more than the fact they're kids.

So what did they tell you? Sterilization?

my friend was ok with hearing I grew up watching cp. I have good friends though.

Yes, yes, you're right.
I'm just stuck in the mindset of differentiating those who are seriously attracted to children and those who wants to exploit children for pleasure. (No matter if it's just a thought or if it's practiced.) And the taboo should fall into yet another category of rape rather than pedophilia.
But who cares, my beliefs are unimportant.
They should add tripcodes on Sup Forums too, on the topic of taboo

Just therapy. I've never been attracted to kids in person, I just get off on watching stuff I shouldn't. Even if I was a paedo, I don't think they'd have broken out the pitchforks or anything.

why did you fall to the "bad pedo" meme?

>grew up watching cp
So you grew up watching porn of people your own age? Not sure why someone would have a problem with that.

does loli/shota do anything for you?

Do you think it could provide a tenable long-term outlet for your urges?

Why do you think that a lot of paedophiles don't get help and why is it an arousal by small boys not girls?

I was still watching 13 year olds at 17 to be fair.

Some of those kids were basically getting raped (the first stuff I saw was much tamer, I just gradually found harder stuff and the transition made it less shocking), then found myself getting off to rape images and girls in distress. So I still have a problem with non-paedo rape stuff, and when you're watching actual abuse, that's essentially participating.

well I now watch mostly rape porn of adults, or (on a good day) just regular consensual amateur. Some of the rape is real though, and I have a moral problem with that, mega orgasms be damned.

I'm happy for you having a girldfriend. It means you are definately not stuck with the exclusive attraction to children as so many others which I envy you for. Honestly (though I'm not anyone to tell you anything, you're your own person) your thoughts are what exactly what they are -yours- and it doesn't matter to anyone. Nothing says your life would be different nor better without those thoughts and so who the hell cares, really. I understand that it makes you feel unconfortable but it doesn't hurt anyone. Even thinking about cumming on a little sex slave when you have sex with your girlfriend doesn't hurt anyone. I'm getting tired, sorry if I sound confusing

>why is it an arousal by small boys not girls?
I always wanted to know this.

As for the other thing, I think it's fairly obvious - there's a huge societal stigma against them, so many are too embarrassed to even seek help. The same thing holds true for many other types of illnesses around the world which are in some form or another taboo.

maddafucker

>Why do you think that a lot of paedophiles don't get help
1) pedophilia is too taboo for people to dare discuss
2) pedophiles choose not to "seek help" because of no.1
(not op)

why do you think that does it for you more than shota/loli? you don't like animated stuff?

If it gives you consolation I wouldn't judge or despise you for that. Human sexuality is fucking weird. I couldn't even imagine how much it must suck to not be able to act out my sexuality, and props to you for having that self control. I know this isn't much, but just know that there are some of us that don't view you as a monster. You're a person.

Most of us don't get help because many people will be disgusted and will report us. I prefer boys because I'm more queer than straight.

pedo and proud
you can shove your blue pill up your ass

There's nothing wrong with jerking off to kids, OP.

As long as you don't let them escape the basement.

Not the same guy but thanks for saying that. I've talked to a couple of people online that have said the same thing as you and it's as comforting everytime. Yet, the vast majority is still frightening enough to drive a lot of pedophiles to suicide. You're awesome bro.

I won't shove a pill up my ass and there's nothing you can do to force me to
>faggot

No problem. We all struggle in life and it's pointless to be hate someone for things they can't control.

i'll arrange you a date with a loli

Thank you senpai

what flavor of tic tacs you like the most?