I was molested as a kid and it fucked my entire life up

>I was molested as a kid and it fucked my entire life up

Does that sound like you?

How did it fuck your life up?
Why do you blame the molestation for every bad thing that ever happened to you?

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I never knew my father I was abuse by my druggie stepdad my my killed herself when I was 14 and I lost the rights to see my half sibling and I live in Australia

I feel sorry for you
but it's not the sexual abuse that caused all of that.
Or did it?

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where are all the victims at?

trauma often puts people in a very shitty head space that can be very hard to shake and tends to influence them in a lot of ways long after the trauma occurs. It's the psychological equivalent of breaking a knee and walking with a limp for the rest of your life.

It's maybe a stretch to say "it fucked up my whole life" in a direct sense, but it's probably safe to say it had a lot of influence on your overall psychological state.

no expert here, just my opinion.

I mostly get the trauma part.

What I don't understand are the people that say "I dropped out of college because I was molested as a kid" and shit like that.

It really does sound like they're just using their unfortunate past as an excuse for their own failure.

Yeah I know a girl who blames everything on her past

Even though she is a billionaire she claims to be the most unlucky person ever

Yes fucking seriously

I was, but it didn't really stick due to my ego defense of the time.

But I was raped as an adult, and it could have destroyed me. I ended up going to a game I'm good at, Age of Wushu, the next day as a way to feel powerful. I found a guild, and I was 100% honest with them about absolutely everything. I still am.

What fucked my life up was the combination of all of my friends stop hanging out with me and my girlfriend moving in another country a month after.

I wrote this shortly after it happened, pasted in entirety.

"Well fuck, got raped.

Was planning to sleep last night since I was going on 3 days awake. Daddy calls asking if I'm around to play - I'm a town over, so I decline. He calls back a bit later and says he can get me a ride. Cool, let's do it. He and a buddy I've had a threesome with before show up, we go to daddy's place to get spun, watch porn and swap oral till morning.

I can get my own ride home, but the buddy offers so I figure why not - He's a cute big guy anyway. Says he's gotta swing by his house for something, it's cool. I fall asleep for most of the drive. We're in his garage, asks if I wanna come in for awhile, well sure. Bedroom, he asks if I want to nap on his bed, then tells me to get comfortable and takes off his shirt, I follow suit. I tell I'm I'd love to mess around but my body is currently ruined, I really feel terrible - Throat is way sore from deep throating earlier, like it's really hard to swallow, also feel pretty sick. If anything, I just don't want to toss on him during oral. He says to get naked and take my nap, we snug up nude and it's real nice.

He fondles me pretty much constantly, which I'm fine till he really starts abusing my nipples and chewing my neck. I laugh and ask he be gentle, he says he doesn't do gentle and starts to make out damn roughly. He bites the hell out of my lips and tongue, there's actually a fair bit of blood - but whatever, that's how he likes to make out. He says he wants to fuck my mouth and make me his bitch, to which repeat about how sore my throat is and that I'd like to nap. He ignores it and mounts my face, I try to grip the base of his cock to at least make it reasonable, as the thing is like 8 inches, but nope he grabs my wrists and holds them up while trying to hilt that thing. I put up quite a bit of struggle because again I don't want to toss on him, that's when I realize that he's like twice as thick as me in all aspects of body and this could be a problem. My struggle seems to work as he pulls back and asks if I want some poppers, I say they'd probably just make me feel more sick and offer to simply suck his cock. He moves down to start rubbing his cock on my taint, which I don't really mind. Then moves the bottle of poppers to my nose and holds down one nostril to get me a good huff, then does the same for the other, then just keeps doing it for I don't know how many times.

I should have just breathed through my mouth, but there were drugs at my nose and I didn't want to waste them. Now my legs are over his shoulders and he's prodding at my ass - I'd said earlier with Daddy multiple times that I didn't want to get fucked. I laugh and tell him to be careful there, that I'm not sure how clean I am and I just don't feel up to it. He says not to worry about it, spits on my ass and presses in. Hurts like hell, actual lube would be nice, I shove his chest to get him out. He holds up his cock and smacks my balls with it, saying "Look, it's clean." before getting my legs back on his shoulders. This time he grabs my wrists and pins my arms over my head before driving back in. Hurts, I repeatedly ask him to stop, he chews my neck most of the time he fucks me, at times switching to my armpits or nipples. Doesn't last long and he shoots in me raw, which I don't let happen often. Afterwords I can't help feeling a bit violated and annoyed, I just know that wasn't cool, but I laugh about how fucking much it hurts and play it off as wfine. He takes a shower before telling me to get dressed, I don't complain more about any of it so we're civil while he drops me off at home.

That was maybe 30 minutes ago. I know it's kind of stupid to write this up in detail, but I wanted to get it down somewhere while it's still fresh. I've got all kinds of cuts from bites, my neck looks like a collar of purple welts, and my ass really fucking hurts."

I was molested as a kid to the ghostbusters movie. I dont really have any problems with it. Hell I'm still more fond of the original ghost busters than this new garbage

greentext ur story fggit

Get a kid. And Fuck it. Then all feels normal again.
Or it did for me

I got molested by my grandfather when I was younger. And my grandfather wasn't a terrible man, either. He was a very good man. He was there for me in place of my own absent father and I trusted him. I stayed over at his farm every weekend and he did everything for me. That man would have died for me. But he also molested me.
He was a sick man. He went away to a psych ward afterwards because his pedophilia was something he was afraid of, something he hated. He wanted to learn how to control it. The only person who knew he went to the ward was my mother and one of my uncles, but nobody knows he molested me.
He's dead now. I miss him everyday. I sometimes feel guilty or angry that I miss him. But I can't help it. I can't hate him no matter how much I try.
I don't blame anything bad that happens in my life on what happened to me when I was eight. I've moved on. It still hurts me to an extent, but I don't blame myself for it anymore.

You liked it. Sick bastard

fucking tl:dr

Pls don't blame the molestation. Those poor injured moles have nowhere else to go. Look at their cute noses and plushy fur... they did nothing wrong.

No, not at all. It only happened a few times and he tried to make it come off as playful or comedic, when really I just felt odd and dirty afterwards.

.. not even green text, fucking faggots

But it touch me wrong Places

Are you male or female?

If female can you give us more details about the actual act?

My dad died when I was five, mom went full druggie after that. Ended up acquainting herself with less than reputable figures. Forced me into child modelling to help pay for her vices. It wasn't so bad at first, but a few years in I started having to do sexual shit with older men. This lasted until I was 13 and I ran away. Long story short, ended up getting adopted by a nice family. I greentexted this before, but it's like nine posts long so I'm not going to bother reposting.

I blame some issues on the abuse because I grew up in a bad environment during my developmental years, but I don't blame much on it. A lot of people blame the abuse as a whole on their current issues, rather than the effects of the abuse. The dropping out of college thing was probably because she was either mentally unfit regardless, or she had anxiety or anti-social issues that stemmed from her abuse. I remember not mentally being able to be around large groups of people after I was abused, but it eventually passed.

I was choked out and almost murderded when I was 10. I think its the loss of control and the blaming of yourself, like it was my fault, kind of a sense of guilt. And the fact that my parents treated it like a tv episode, ok, turn off the tv, its all over. They never discussed it with me or anything.

Yeah alot of you are like "get over it", but like PTSD which they never thought was real, unless you've experienced a traumatic event, you can't even relate.

I am female.
Like, do you mean what he did?

We all know that you liked it. You are sick dude

It's blind, what did you expect?

depresion mostly is a strange thing and doesnt make sense, you feel like every decision that you made is wrong and expect the worst outcome of everything
You dont even need to have been molested some people are just more likely to go into that state if they had low self esteem through their childhood
its worst if you been through something horrible like that of course because you go back to that moment every time something bothers you and it makes it worse.

the only solution is having a ton of support and somebody that listens to you everytime you feel bad alot of people dont have that and cant never recover everytime they fell down

thats why lonley people have it worse
there is no cure or solution because is not a dicease is just people not having a way to liberate their problems through something like sports, or music because they never try that because they think they are gonna fail like in everything else they can only talk

Dun be edgy

I'm a girl

Is it bad that I liked it? Or this normal?

Yes.

hahah

you weren't molested, you're just some faggot who likes to get used.

>Does that sound like you
No, but I did some molesting as a teenager, after my dad died, and I know I fucked up a couple people. Not an easy thing to live with, and it is quite literally living with: one of the sisters I molested moved in with me after our mom died, as I was really her last living immediate family member who could support her.

Shut up fag. We all know that there is no girls on the internet. Read the rules.

But what did you like about it? Was he saying sweet things to you while it happen?

He put his hand down my underwear and felt around the outside of my vagina a couple times, and then held a vibrating back massager to it for a short period of time. A few other occasions he pushed up my shirt and licked and sucked on my nipples, and when we swam together in his pool out back he grabbed my hips once or twice and thrust against my ass with a hard on. That's about the extent of it.

When I was a 15-year old guy I was raped by a 20-something guy I had a crush on. I've told the story on Sup Forums before. After that I had relationships with women but seemed numb.

One girl was blowing me and stuck a finger in my ass and I started to rage. Slapped her a few times and was yelling "do you think I'm a faggot?" She got dressed and left and I never saw her again.

years later when the Jerry Sandusky thing broke and I got a bunch of flashbacks I got a knife and went to where the guy lived to stab him but he had moved years before.

Consider myself bi but never bottom.

Could be a sign for being a little kinky but I've seen worse. Well, mostly here on /b, but that's just what I expected

Yes, give us every last detail.

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If you can't get over something that happened to you when you were a kid, you should just kill yourself. Not being an over sensitive bitch and move on.

This is quite interesting

...And what was so bad about that exactly?

Fucked my whole life up
>made me confused sexually, still am. But my parents did a great job of fucking me up by: do as i say not as i do, being racist and treating me like i was adult instead of a child but treating me like child when i was in my teens.

>i live in Australia
cry me a fucking river

i can feel so much virginity coming from this posts

Did you end with any fetishes as an adult, and if so, what are they?

Haha well if you like getting your naked eight year old pussy rubbed by your 65 year old grandpa, then nothing.

I don't know if this is related, I don't want to "blame" the fetish on the molestation, but I'm into bestiality. Just watching videos online, not doing it myself. I dunno. Wish I was just okay with normal sex.

Tell that to my kids and my wife. But not that I touch my daughter every night, she won't like that

oh my god he touched your pussy, the horror.
get real princess.

>No, but I did some molesting

>Child molester detected
Stop looking for justifications and kill yourself already.

lol wut

>This is quite interesting
Why?

Well said.

Not a victimfag, but I've been diagnosed with severe clinical depression for a while now. I used to pay it no heed and thought depression was just an excuse people used, but the fact is that my brain chemistry is seriously fucked up. When I'm off my meds, I get extremely suicidal for no reason (like even if my life is seemingly great) and even when I'm on my 6 different meds, life only seems tolerable most of the time.

>Inb4 suck it up faggot

I'm sure you would be ok letting your grandad finger your asshole

Actually maybe you would

Death and rape. We all like that

Sounds like a short story I'd like to write I guess.

how does it feel being a 16 year old fat faggot holding his dick while reading post of molested childs while trying to impress some other user writing edgy things like this hmm?

I was fondled by an older cousin when I was 8, shit happens. Didn't turn me into a whiny little faggot.

Did the vibrator feel good?

then you'll like this:

literotica.com/s/alexs-humiliations

All of you just need to get the fuck over it. "Whaaaaa, I was touched."

Oh no, someone touched part of your body? Move on with your life.

i forgot to mention that also you are right there is a ted talk from this guy youtube.com/watch?v=-eBUcBfkVCo
is really amazing take a look at it if you can

>molested by two men from age 5-15
>started prosituting myself for drugs
>Quit drugs

>still prosituting myself

Im making mad money, going to find a sugardaddy aswell. Fuck what other people tell you.
Especially when you live on a trailerpark.

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now

friend of mine(guy) was coerced into having sex with an older man for a very long time. it messed him up emotionally and and he still struggles with this a lot. especially since he's a guy, i think he is really insecure about his sexuality.

Who's being a whiny faggot lol
Dont think shes complaining about it. I think that's the point of the thread, to not complain and blame your shitty life on it

Thats the way they used to treat PTSD, man up, shut up, etc... Until the person killed themselves.
My dad was a war veteran, and would watch tv, but it was like he wasn't there, I used to stand between him and the tv and it was like he wasn't even there. He self medicated himself with liquor, went to work everyday, He was of the generation that you didn't talk about your "feelings".

I often wonder what he might have become if he had proper therapy.

Well fuck that shut me up.

At the same time I wouldn't say she was whining my dude

I guess physically. lol

Don't really see how I'm whining. Just sharing my story. And if you can get your dick sucked by your big brother and forget about it the next day, sounds like you're the one with the issues

>prostitution
i never got this
doesnt the sex get bland? or disgusting?
doesnt your body get tired?

Did you orgasm?

Nope

You don't blame yourself any more, really? That's faggot talk. He touched me once and never again because I brought a knife the next time. Just because you're weak doesn't mean everyone is.

Did you grow a penis afterwards?

youtube.com/watch?v=b9JDPm_QHk4

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I was an eight year old girl and I was confused. He was like my father. I didn't understand the gravity of the situation at the time.
Obviously now being a mature adult I'd cut off the wiener

You should have used the knife on yourself.

Was drugged and raped 2 years ago (when 16). Don't blame anything lmao

Unfortunately no but in all honesty I wanted to

>projecting this hard

This.

I worked at a place where one worker would get all worked up if there was a molestation report on tv or newspaper. He would rant and rave and carry on. He hung himself at his apartment one night.

I often wonder if he had been abused when he was a kid. There are usually some clues after the fact. Thats why all of you saying, just move on with your life, don't have a clue, because you've never faced a traumatic event to your person. Broken people work in different ways. Some I believe try to behave normally and carry on, til many years later when another event brings it all back again, because it was never treated.

I think thats why they have grief counseling nowdays at tramatic events even to first responders.

Yeah it does, never found sex interesting, i mean you kind of shut off the whole thinking/feeling part when youre just trying to get paid.
Will quit when i find a fulltime job, its only one guy i fuck for money now, gave up on all the others. Desperate times when you cant find a job. Not going homeless again.

How old was she when you 'lested her? What exactly did you do?

I wish I was abused

All I can blame my lack of sexual enjoyment on is muh circumcision

Do you need a safe space? A cuddle pillow to calm you down in this time of emotional need?
Maybe confused granddaughter over there can sing you a lullaby...

Nice try new fag

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damn that sucks if true
always hated the thought of "kind of having to have sex"

You were violated and had no control of what this perpertrator did to your body. Thats why you armed yourself, "that's not going to happen again"

Wow watch that edge kid

tldr version

>attractive cousin of best friend
>develop crush on him
>he invites me for pizza
>gets me a little drunk on wine (never drank before)
>makes out with me
>blows me
>ends up tying me to his bed
>rapes me overnight
>actually stay his "bf" for a couple of years
>start dating girls
>one fingers me
>I go rage mode
>no more dating girls
>consider myself bi but more sex with guys
>never bottom
>don't thing of that guy until Sandusky thing happens
>flashback and rage
>knife, no one to thrust it in