Be me, 10

>Be me, 10.
>Get violently raped by stranger.
>Never tell anyone out of shame and fear of ridicule.
Jump forward into future, now 20.
>Have 8/10 gf. She wants to get intimate.
>I'm sort of repelled by sex now though. She starts to worry, and get frustrated.
>For her sake and my own, I start to seek help.
>Get in contact with sexual assault victims centre.
>encourage me to join group session for abusers and potential abusers.
>"But I'm neither!"
>"We're sorry but that's the only councelling session we offer men."
>Look for help elsewhere.
>Ring a rape crisis centre hotline.
>councellor answers and introduces herself.
>Within seconds of me opening my mouth, she tells me all the lines are busy and they'll call me back.
>They never call me back.
>Look for help elsewhere...
>Find a therapist specialising in sexual assault trauma, offering free first time sessions.
>Meet her, we talk, I tell my story. How I feel.
>Her first questions "Do you feel at risk of comitting sexual assaults?"
>Tell her no, remind her that sex terrifies me.
>"Do you have violent fantasies, maybe your own sexual impulses scare you.
>Inquire if she asks these questions to female clients
>"No, women aren't at risk of becoming predators like men."
>I end our session early, never go back.
>Decide to just tell gf what's wrong, hoping she'll be supportive.
>She leaves me.

Welp, maybe I should just give up.

Dat rough m8
>dubs says keep on truckin

Supp (Maybe Fem)user, I just wanna let u know that its all ok, I've been assaulted and abused by what used to be my ''parents'' And decided to run away. ff maybe 14/5 years later i used to be afraid of sex too, Just turning 21 i never went outside except for my job, Had no conversation skills and if i ever got remotely intimate
>ff 10 years
>Be me, 30 and a kissless virgin.
>Know a solid 8/10, She helped me get over it.
>We hanged out and I told her she was attractive and she kissed me.
>I was so distracted but it felt good, and i think because of the femanon i still love to this day my fear of intimacy is over.

I have no clue if this rant or whatever the fuck this is helped you, But plz stay strong

... if she can't deal with your situation, better she's gone earlier than later. You may have dodged a bullet.

Find someone who wont leave you for being raped as a kid. You had no control over it.
Then you work it out with your new partner.

I'm so fucking sorry. That's absolutely horrible. Keep seeking help, find a good therapist.

Did you even read the post or did you just come here for some attention?

I posted a story earlier, I might know a good psychiatrist, He's a beginner. Also pretty Young, But he is the best. Talk to him over Skype salamander.mannn

Thanks, but i think im done talking to people who make me feel like a monster
I kinda feel like an idiot for telling her though. Next gf I won't disclose that info again.
Im male, but thanks for the rant anyways.

Honestly it's better that you told her and she left
If you got married to a woman that shallow, your life would have sucked
you are very lucky to be free of that bad apple.

Yup

do what you want, but you should tell your girlfriends
if they actually love and care about you they will help you through it
if not, they will just leave
it's like a lie detector

Oh thanks! I might give him a try.

Go ahead and just kill yourself now. Nobody's ever gonna love you anyway.

Don't watch "Ray Donovan" on Showtime

Dude this is too much to handle on your own. There are good people in this world to help you. don't give up on that.

so edgy m8 HAHAHA tramatic rapeLOL amirite? lol holocaust so funny 6million jews!!! blatant racism lmao niggers hehe. ur my kind of user! gr8 edgy b8 im ir8

Kek "lie detector"
You two are probably right though. It's just not easy.
Suppose i shouldn't be a little hurt bitch over every potential rejection.

OP, are you me?

It must have been a terrible experience but you can't change it now, you are aware that what this person did was wrong and you know you would never do something like that. Once you try having sex with someone you love for the right reasons and it's consensual you will probably really enjoy it.

You just need to perceive sex in a positive way instead of focusing on that one negative experience you had. It all comes down to how you choose to perceive it to.

kys you fucking rapist

I honestly cant tell if this is real or just a sarcastic troll, but advising a rape victim to attend sessions with rapists is batshit crazy. Just pretend to be a trans faggot or something so they treat you like a woman if that really is the only way to get help.I know male victims of abuse are marginalized as fuck, but there must be something out there for you.

Theres always at least 1 per thread.

Was he at least hung like a stud mule?

Goof idea, say rape made you trans, get counseling for eape, say they cured yout trans issue too, recieve massive gate from lgbt who claims there is no cure

Getting into detail how your violent rape went will help you deal with your problem at the source. You can tell us, you are anonymous.

>Tell us the story of how he raped you so I can fap to it.

Rape your girlfriend. It's what society wants you to do.

>Implying men can't get raped and are always the offender...
That´s kind of unfair for you user, help should exist for victims of rape, no matter what their sex is.

This.

fucking kek