Okay, Sup Forums
You want some feels? I'll give you some feels.
>be me, 3
>dad a fucking asshole who shoves lotion down my pregnant mom's throat
>yells constantly
>I don't understand, I'm a little kid scared of her daddy
>sister's born
>mom leaves dad when I'm 4
>have restraining order for 6 mos
>mom is our protector, our only hope at living an abuse free life
>dad tries to get full custody with his psycho fiancée who drugged my sister and me when I was 6 and she was 2
>loses thank the Lord
Fast forward two years
>mom diagnosed with a disease and had to get colon removed bc of cancer
>why is mommy in the hospital?
>stay with grandma two weeks while she's sick
>dad tries to basically kidnap us from grandma
four years after that (I'm 12)
>mom back in hospital, she's septic, organs failing
>I wake up in the middle of the night to find my grandpa on the couch because my mom had already left and didn't want to wake us and scare us
>almost died, but she survived
Fast forward three years, I'm 15
>mom's diagnosed with breast cancer
>my world comes crashing down, oh God what if I have to live with my dad (still psycho, had partial custody. Every other weekend)
>it spread to one lymph node. Caught it early
>still had chemo, double mastectomy, etc
My mom is now starting to get different, used to tell me she loved me every day and hug me all the time. But now she's always angry with me. Nothing I do is ever good enough.
Two years after that, I'm 17
>mom has another cancer scare
>have to remove her butthole
>now she has a bag she shits in (kinda lol when I found that out)
Two years later...
This mom that's here now relies on me so much that now I'm the parent. And she doesn't love me like she used to. This mom resents me for stealing her youth. This mom doesn't protect me from anything and blames me for her problems.
I'm mourning the mother I had as a child when she's here in the flesh and blood. But she's just not who she used to be.
My hope is fading fast.