Feels thread 2.0?

Feels thread 2.0?

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I always hated having birthdays my mom tries to throw one for me every year but i cant i just cant deal with it. it happened to me when i was a kid exactly like this pic. Then i tried again in highschool and some girls i was friends with didnt like eachother so they convinced their friends not to go if the other did so i missed out. Ive gone out, ive piggy backed parties, my buddies try to make it a good time for me as much as they can but for the past 8 years i've either actually gone to work on my birthday to avoid seeing anyone or pretended to go to work so my mom doesnt feel bad or obligated to make a big deal out of it, she works hard enough last thing she needs to worry about is making my grown ass feel better. I just wish i trusted enough people to come for a party, she honestly gets so excited to celebrate i dont even want it for me i just want her to be happy and know i appreciate it but i have to sulk and say i dont want it and fight every god damn year because i dont want to put her through it for no reason.

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>be me
>about 15, addicted to runescape
>all my friends in school play it too
>it's late 2010 when i started playing
>a year later, still addicted as fuck
>poor irl so free to play life
>fast forward to mid year 2011 or something
>have several in game wives
>don't care much, discovers cybersex
>everyday, different girls
>legit girls, had them on facebook/skype/MSN
>one day i met one, she's unforgettable
>hang out with her a lot, have lots of fun
>she has a bf but we hang out a lot anyways
>one day she breaks up with him
>i confess to her, she feels a little better
>don't care, had cybersex for a few hours
>it felt great
>added her on facebook, she's a 5/10, 6/10 on a good day
>butterface, chubby, nice tits though
>she's 2 years younger than me
>don't care, get married in game after a couple weeks
>write her poetry for our 1 month, 6 months, 1 year and 1 year 6 months anniversary
>she cried tears of joy
>no one has ever been that nice to her
>tell her i love her everyday
>skype almost everyday too
>we plan to meet when she's 18, i'd be 20 (i'm 20 now)
>i'd pay for tickets, etc
>i wanted to keep her around forever
>get married irl, have kids
>we had so much fun together talking and playing runescape together
>we did that for 1 year 7 months straight

shit man i really feel bad for you, i'd like to go to your birthday party :)

>she starts hanging out with her irl friends a lot more
>they introduce her to some guy, let's call him base
>he's just a friend, she said
>we start talking less
>she keeps going out with her friends, this is a year later or so
>i told her stop, make some more time for our relationship
>tell her to lessen down or i'm done
>we ended it
>i had hopes that we were just taking a break from each other and would eventually get back together
>she posts a pic on facebook of her and base kissing
>i break down, i felt like ripping my heart out of my chest
>cried, cried so hard that i couldn't even make a sound
>it hurt so much, the most pain i've ever felt before
>i deleted and blocked her from facebook
>got into eroge back then, played katawa shoujo and enjoyed it a lot
>addicted to eroge, still going to school but then pain is there
>get over her after about a 8 months, she comes back to me
>still had a little bit of feelings for her but i still told her no and forget about me
>i still cried after
>finally got over her last year

Post good shit, niggers, I need to cry.

I appreciate that and your double doubles. But i doubt i'll ever have one. It gives me anxiety now every time my birthday comes around i hate the thought of it even being my birthday. Everyone says oh you just dont like getting older, no aging is fine its how blatantly xlear it is that no one really cares that scares me, not just about but about anyone.

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Friend got a GF and I'm still here, cucked.

don't worry m8 we familia, stay strong user, nobody likes me either yet i wake up with a smile everyday knowing that people that hates me get even angrier when they see me happy

You're a good kid.

Well I had to look on b for a feels thread after my only friend fucking left me

Probably going to off myself lmao.

3 years ago I met a girl who I thought was the girl of my dreams, we had all the same interests, then one day she tells me she got raped, by an ex. After a few days she tells me it wasn't just once and it wasn't just him, she says she's been raped by her uncle and almost all her ex's. After digging I find out these ex's don't exist and she was just lying, but she was cheating on me instead. We broke up last February the day of our 2 years anniversary. Just last month she contacted me again, and after spending all thy time getting out there and getting over here, I'm getting feelings again and I'm lost for what to do. She was my world but she crushed me when I found out the truth.

Likewise this gives me hope that im doing something right.
And thanks man...i never feel like it. Lol

Yeah. I know that feel.

So I'm that weird introverted kid in highschool. I was a little socially awkward in elementry and jr. High, but I kinda retreat into my shell in Highschool.

In an attempt to make friends I form a cult. A cow cult.

Yeah, no joke. I was that guy who asked everyone in school if they wanted to join a cult. It's a way to break the ice at least. But I write down everyone who says yes. For a while, it's my thing.

I organize a cookout. Steaks, bratwurst, hamburgers. I invite everyone "in the cult". There's probably ~30 people in school who I talked into joining my cult. It's at a local park, Saturday at noon.

I hand out invites. I had a bullshit little propaganda satirical speech planned out.


I sat on that bench with a cooler of food and drink from 11am to 3pm and not a single damn person showed.

And you know what?

>It didn't hurt.

I kept on waiting for it all to come crashing down and to really fucking regret it or something, but I never did. I called it, packed up, went home, told Mum it was a no-show and she was really sad, but I never really felt a thing.

The next week, I got a few appologies and shit, but that was fine.

I planned another and got RSVPs and we had nice cookout some time latter.

I'd like to tell you what the secret was, or how I did it, or what to do when life takes a giant shit on your parade. But I don't know. Sometimes you just have to not give a shit.

Yeah I think it's time to go

>'m getting feelings again and I'm lost for what to do
DO NOT STICK YOUR DICK IN CRAZY.

DO NOT.

Are you crazy and lie out your ass about stupid-shit? Is that the interests you two share? Oh, well then by all means, go for it. I'm sure you two are a great match.

Not worth it friend what youre feeling is lonelyness and a hole and shes looking like a way to fill it in. Your brain wants to feel hugs and kisses and hear the nice things but they arent true not from someone like that. Trustme i wont go i to detail but TRUST me

this one really hit me user...

THIS

ALL IVE DONE IS STICK MY DICK IN CRAZY FOR MY LAST 3 GF's

DONT DO IT THEY WILL NEVER BE HAPPY YOU CANNOT MAKE THEM HAPPY THEY ARE THE WAY THEY ARE BECAUSE THEY LIKE IT AND ONLY WANT DRAMA AND PAIN IN THEIR LIVES EVEN IF IT MEANS CAUSING IT TO YOU

>don't stick your dick in crazy
Thats the most sensibe advice I've gotten on the matter...

EXACTLY like me bro.

There is some excellent wisdom in this post. The time you spent feeling bad about something could have been spent trying again with a different approach and succeeding. I think that's what it means to be a strong confident person.

I think that a lot of important life lessons are not being passed on anymore because this shouldn't be coming from the gutter of the internet.

I also just remembered how she expects to not work a day in her life while also not being a housewife, she basically wants my money to just sit on her computer all day while I support me and her... after typing that out I realize I need to stay the fuck away from this girl
>doesn't help she's 27 and only lives with her mom cause free money

Yeah thats me with the parties like i said i dont care anymore, but mom, mom wants to see me party with friends mom wants to see me happy at my birthday, i want mom to be happy i honestly just want it for her, she loves to entertain and throw parties but theres never a damn ocassion because she always works but she never wants a party for herself she only wants them for me and my sister...my sister humours her and lets her throw her little parties for her birthday shes 30 lol but my sister was always cool always had tons of friends is super popular career oriented lives on her own, my ass is still in uni trying to move out

>playing runescape in 2010

Whatever you get, you should've seen it coming, I'm not reading it.

Guys OP here, gonna get some rest and reflect on some of the lessons ive learned.

Gonna get my mop chopped off tomorrow and look presentable, theres a new girl at work and i want to make a good second impression, first one was so good she offered to hug me and i was the one going in for the awkward hug...my life is changing lol.


Guys...i know this is a cesspool of human filth a lot of times and notoriously racist and mean spirited. And we'll get shit for our little pitty parties, but you know what sometimes you need this decompression. Thank you everyone who posted and listened and commented and gave outstabding advice without realizing. Carry on

Good night, lads.

I had an ex exactly like your ex.

College "wasn't her thing." Her thing was more getting high and being broke. Loved hanging out with me, I thought. A good friend told me some things I needed to hear, even though I didn't want to see her for what she was. Stopped paying for everything, and she disappeared. I'd be shocked if she's neither living at home off of mommy and daddy's money, or married to some sucker.

Thank god I'm not said sucker. Thank god for honest friends.

the only person I've ever loved is disgusted by me, he wants me to be not depressed. I can't I try so hard. I want to make him happy, I'd do anything for him. But I can't stop this and I hate myself so much. I cant live like this much more. I just don't know how to change this feeling. I want to be happy for my own gain as well but each day feels like a waste. The only thing keeping me alive is that I don't want to hurt my family and I fear that will keep me alive until I drink myself to death or die in an inconspicuous manner.

>I think that's what it means to be a strong confident person.

HA! Well I sure as fuck wasn't.

>There is some excellent wisdom in this post.

No dude, there really isn't. I didn't hurt, but I've no idea why.

Now I'm older and been through a lot shitter things in life, and let me tell you; some shit HURTS. And I don't think there's any really great way around it. "Time better spend". Pft, yeah, it'd be great if everyone could just skip past all the shitty feelings and insecurities and dread, but that shit ain't gonna happen.

Just give it time. Shit'll get better.

Fuck me, if I wanted to give some fucking wisdom about that whole ordeal, I'd whip out something sage like "failure loves solitude", or "expect the worst, hope for the best", or some other lame shit. But this isn't a fucking courage wolf thread.

No way man. Your mind wants to fill it's emotional needs desperately, but it isn't thinking rationally. Stay. Away. From. Her.

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Let me sing you the song of my people:

youtube.com/watch?v=Rc9GGXKxIds

Tell me it's okay Sup Forums. I don't wanna explain my first world problems but just tell me it's okay.

my birthday party is really soon, i'm terrified its gonna be like pic related

Idk if anyone remembers me from a thread last night, but If you do, I'm the 19 yo guy whose friends are all over 21. well, tonight, once again the entire cast of the show I'm in (plus some friends from the audience of tongiht's show) decided to go out. It's friday night and i was excited to not go home alone again, but instead go out and have a good time, at least for a few hours. They went to a bar. again. not one person tried to suggest anything different of course, they never do. not one of the 20+ people gave a shit. three of them actually in unison said "sorry, user". too bad that's what they always say. so im here at home again. drinking my parents apple whiskey because it looked good (its shit dont get it). heres a song ive been listening to repeatedly tonight if you care and like watsky. youtu.be/fsW1z9QThsA

I can't believe it. When no one else would love him, I stayed. Although he mentally fucked me over with worry, I stayed. It was the worst part of last teenage year, I stayed. And like always, he disappeared, but this time was not like the others. Who gives you a romantic night, then avoids you fot two weeks? Aaron Johnson. When the first thing I saw from him was a notification about how he got into a relationship. I blocked him without a word. I didn't do it out of jealous. I did it out of justice. Who does that? Disappears and without at least warning you gets a girlfriend. It was my turn to disappear, thats where I stayed. I loved you, and I was wrong to ever do so.
Fuck you Aaron. I hope you die. I'd say the next time I want to see your face is on an obituary, but the way I want you to die won't require one. They don't do obituaries for suicides.

Anyone got a screencap of that story about the user who was a beta in middle school, got beat up, but some girl took him home after getting beat up and they fell in love? I couldn't read the whole story but I know she had some other abusive chad boyfriend who he eventually beat the shit out of. I also know they went on a family road trip together to the grand canyon and admitted their love for each other there. I really wanna read that story

My dog is gonna die soon...

I don't have a screencap but I might have saved the story as a word doc. lemme check.

Anon34

That story was probably the best greentext I've ever read. Somebody better post a screencap

Anon34 again

Anon34........

Didn't cry but an excellent read.

Anon34 again......

user 34, this one made me cry

I'll share

>Be me
>Bus driver in college town
>Drive same shitty route every Tuesday Thursday, fucking hate that shit
>There's one regular who gets on with his daughter every day I work though
>Foreign, I think from Greece or something but really nice
>Every time he boards he says "GEWD MORNING" in a broken accident, his daughter is always cute and tells me good morning too
>He is very active with his daughter, always reading to her and teaching her things
>Start looking forward to Tuesday Thursday just to see these two for 10 minutes, makes my whole fucking morning
>Learn his name, I'll call him Gamesh for privacy
>Gamesh starts talking to me sometimes in the morning
>Super cool dude, learned he got ft job and has just enough time to drop daughter off at school
>Same shit goes by
>Love seeing Gamesh
>Makes my whole fucking day
>Goes on for 6 months or so
>One day Gamesh doesn't ride
>Wheres Gamesh
>second day no gamesh
>third day no gamesh
>3rd week daughter gets on with mom
>Ask where Gamesh is
>Gamesh got hit by a fucking drunk driver 2 weeks ago, died
>Started crying right there
>Had to call in sick

I want to beat the fuck out of anyone who brags about drunk driving now

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Posted this in last thread, but this is the perfect song for these threads.

user 34............................................

Sleep well, op.

anon34, last one

You are a good person, user.

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Fuck..

Aw, shit dude. How old?

it's ok user. it's all gonna be ok

12. I knew this would happen you know but nothing can prepare you.

Ya dude I know the feeling. I hope your dog has a peaceful parting, and you are able to spend your last moments together happily. Best of wishes user.

I teared up

Thanks bud I'll really try to keep it together

this is a cat

Oh user, hug it hard! I had a dog, got it when I was 3 yo after crying for hours and hours. She was a real nice dog but I got cable tv and soon became an obese kid, too fat to actually go out. I would complain about having to clean the backyard for her, or going late at night just to check if she had enough water.
Then violence broke down in my country, it all went to shit, we had to leave, I left her there all by herself, she was very old (14yo) but she would still chase you if you called her name while running. Nothing can erase that awful feeling of leaving something who loved you all by itself. I was a shit owner and I left her for good. I try to act extra nice to dogs, even rescued one that got injured but these are all small bandages for a wound that doesn't stop bleeding.

Please hug it for me, I didn't get the chance to

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I don't get to feely over humans any more. Too antisocial with the only times I've tried to get out there ending in missery. I'm pretty alone ...but no matter what I've got my dogs. Einstein and Sophie. Damn good dogs. Lovable and eager to just be with you. No strings attached. But everything dies. It's been so fucking hard watching them age. I watched them grow up from puppies to ten and eleven year old dogs. They can't get up the stairs to sleep in my bed anymore. Einstein has grown a tumor but I can't afford to remove it. I've been told he can't feel it. He's so happy. Even now that his hips are going bad. He still nuzzles me and barks when I come home. Sophie still has a few years but she is getting shaky on her back legs. Those dogs are my life and I see them now and now that I won't have them for much longer. Every day is a reminder...I share some of my food with them just about every meal i eat involves them laying next to me. I can't fucking lose them but I know I will. I feel like I'm watching my best friend die. I'm so lonely. They are the last pets I'm getting.

anyoine aorund

nope

I did this 5 straight years, when I was younger. Now that i think about it, I didn't really have a reason for those thoughts. If younger me would know that he wished before knowing reality. Still wish for it every birthday, sometimes I even forget why I'm wishing it, then remember who I am.

Yes. I'm always around for the feels threads

I'm just super lonely anons. It's partly depression and partly cuz me and my gf of three years broke up. No friends cuz I'm pretty quiet.

It's okay

My girlfriend of two years died last Monday. She apparently died in her sleep, it constantly hurts and everything reminds me of her. I miss her so goddamn much

Man that sucks. I am so sorry

Im sure he loved you and had an awesome life :)

sorry to hear you two, hope you're both doing okay

Don't, these are just dark times user. happy times be coming soon. I just know it.

love ya OP

In a while, it won't mean so much to you. Maybe you'll see another cute girl and maybe you'll start talking to her some more. Maybe you'll find some hobby you enjoy, or go on a vacation somewhere nice. The specifics aren't the important part.
The important part is the fact that, in a while, it won't hurt anymore. It'll be a memory, and sure, it may not be a good one. But you'll learn from it. Someday you'll laugh at it, tell your friends about it and make jokes. On the drive home, you'll laugh at it again, laugh at yourself for being so bothered.
All you have to do is a wait a while.

Just know that you meant the world to your dogs. And you gave them the love and happiness other people or animals wish they had.

I have clinically diagnosed borderline personality disorder. It is for the best if I isolate myself, never make friends, never have a meaningful relationship, never have kids, never contribute. I want all those things so much, but I cannot have them. I do not deserve them. I want so much, so very much, to have someone, anyone, hold me in their arms and tell me that I'm not broken, that they love me, that I'm doing such a great job with staying in therapy and taking my medications and acting like a functioning person. But I can't ever have that, I can't ever chase it. No one wants to be around a mentally ill person, let alone date one. It doesn't matter how much progress I make- it will never be enough. I can only dream that whatever comes after this life will be better.

Sorry if I'm not making sense

God I wish I knew why this shit won't just go away. Is it because I won't let it? Am I addicted to feeling this way or something? Maybe it's all I know to let it come back. That old familiar feeling creeping back.That feeling that of worthlessness, hopelessness and exhaustion. My life isn't so shit as it once was but I still think about life without me sometimes. It still crosses my mind to just check out, but I just keep it together as best I can and talk it out little by little. I don't think it'll ever go away. I don't want to sound like I think I'm a special snowflake but I don't think happiness works the same for me. I don't think I'll get the same version that's available to everyone else. Can anyone relate to this at all?

Fuck her, you really want someone like that in your life? Bullet fucking dodged m8.

You guys make me wanna stream some feels documentaries.

I need help. But im too scared to ask anyone irl. Im so weak and helpless...its pathetic really, but what do I do.

>out one day with friend
>see qt3.14 working at pizza place
>give her digits
>later she texts me
>we talk two days or so
>like a lot of the same shit
>ask her what sites she browses
>openly tell her I browse the chans
>flood gate opens now
>she browses Sup Forums
>we click even more now
>schedule a date
>fast forward next day
>we go to hers and talk dome then make out some
>she says she really digs me
>tells me she'd like us to be official already
>I know it's a red flag but I feel I've known her forever
>tell her we should go on a few more dates first
>she happily agrees
>we fall asleep together in her bed for a while
>we grab something to eat a ways out
>not even my decision, only mentioned liking the place abd she was enthusiastic about going
>"I know it's a long distance, but you're worth it" - her
> we grab lunch then head our seperate ways
>I'm falling for her. She says she's falling for me
>Text her a little after
>Replies stop
>Come dinnertime I text her again to say I got a job. She congratulates me
>stop talking to her because I don't want to seem desperate.

That's the last I heard from her. I tried telling her goodmorning today but she never replied. She was so perfect. What did I do wrong? Did I not pick up on something?

You're just a faggot.
GET OVER IT ALREADY.


(I know. Did you try to see a doctor? Take AD?)

You were dealt a shitty hand, brother but if it's any consolation I think it's awesome that you're doing what you can to keep it in check. To strive for "normal". It's all you can do and it's better than the alternative of denial or outrage. You've got to have some purpose. Something you can find to be strong for. If you have that small bit of hope for tomorrow I think that means more than you realize. You call call me overly optimistic but I just know that sometimes we are capable of overcoming overwhelming burden to carve out meaning. Some of us.

Also we had something scheduled for today and she just never showed up or contacted me

Almost died cause of a drunk driver. Thought I had all the fuel I needed to hate them. Oh how wrong I was.

Damn.
I texted her yesterday...

>pic not related

>Tinder date
>qt3.14 blonde
>want to suck her hard little nips
>just talk like a sad faggot about faggotry
>goodnight user!
>go home alone
>won't contact her because I can't take the rejection

true dat.

thank you

Gonna greentext my day because I feel like shit.
>have serious issues with abandonment/self-hate/lack of self worth
>make a new friend
>all she wants to do is get high
>try it, can't handle being stoned 24/7
>have a particularly shitty day
>she tries to use me being upset to get high
>tell her she can either hang out with me or take the rest of the pot and go get high herself
>she takes the pot, texts me later saying "you're my best friend, please dont think I'm using you"
>literally the only thing I can think of
I can't tell if she's a real manipulative cunt or just dumb and selfish and doesn't know how bad she hurt me.