I've been posting in these threads for a week now, looking at this picture every 30 mins atleast

I've been posting in these threads for a week now, looking at this picture every 30 mins atleast.

I may say I want moar of her, and that i'm dreaming of seeing more of those hips.

Truth is, this is torturing me so much. The shape of the girl is exactly like my ex, we broke up without much fuss or resistance from any party.
But she was such a freak in bed, fucking her was fucking awesome and she was up for pretty much everything I was. I want to forget, move on, don't stress or regret but this makes me want her more than anything.

I'm chorincally depressed, always anxious, slightly autistic piece of shit that has no job because of mental shit no money to take her out anywhere or contribute to being an actual man she needs. That's why it's over and I won't ever have her back.

been up for 36 hours, drinking 10L of beer so far, havent eaten anything and rewatching The Office and the romance in it just kills me inside more and more with every episode.

WHAT DO?!?

I just wanned to say it to someone as I havent had a human contact whatsoever in 2 weeks now

we broke up like 2 months ago and it's been a torture

well, nevermind. i'll just fuck off.

hey nigger how about you read some books and get your shit together instead of this shit nigger?

How about you go work out nigger and make something out of life nigger?

Nigger have you ever thought maybe it would be a good idea nigger?

Dont you want them bitched nigger? You have to plan and strategize nigger be patient nigger. I hope you get it my nigger.

You can get a job nigger but there is things in your mind nigger. You have to think nigger, you have to work on your brain nigger. Because nigger everything will be fine nigger.

The question of "HOW IS ALL OF THIS SHIT IN LIFE EVEN POSSIBLE?" might stay my nigger but it can be dealt with when your mind is at a better state nigger. I hope you get it my nigger

Look up "giftedness", just to be sure.

They say women are more sensitive than guys but guys feel depressed longer than women after break ups. This is normal.
As for the other stuff, you KNOW about the problems. Most people are just fucked up and don't know why.
Take each of these things and concentrate on overcoming it. Make yourself go out in public somewhere where interaction isn't likely and push down the anxiety. When that starts working go to next step til you can fake it enough to fit in to society.
I fake it everyday. I've let myself go physically because I'm full of rage. If I was in shape I'd beat the shit out of people. So I put myself at a disadvantage so I can appear normal.

Post pics of her

Get busy with other shit.
Let time pass.
It gets better.
move on Bruv.

Op here. I Really do want to have a job, be able to feel any self worth and fill my life with positive shit so I can actually give positive shit to whoever will be there for me after this low point.

you actually made me feel bit better, but that might be the sleep deprivation or state of alcohol intoxication.

Ok 1 stop drinking
Then head over to job center they help retarded autists every day like you
Get money
Join a sports club, tennis soccer judo whatever. I recommend fighting/wrestling.
By this time you are probably forgotten about this dumb bitch and you can pick even better ones.
I know cause I was a neet beta from my 20-25 years. Now stop crying and fucking do it or be a faglord beta bitch

I'm 27 now and i've had much lower points in my life before, just feeling really down for past few months.

I've relapsed to drinking about a year ago after being sober for 11 months.
been an alcoholic since 16 and been addicted to synthetic weed 21-23 and that fucked me up on all levels imaginable.

I just want to be happy, not to disappoint my parents by being this miserable piece of shit I am now.

Every encouraging thing i've read ITT so far have made me feel a little bit more hopeful.

I know from therapy I did for a year every week that times must get better and probably will. and that's keeping me alive so far.
But sometimes i just think about all the shit that could make my existance more unbarable that I might have no control in.
Like what if my parents die? What if I get sick from all the years of trying to passively kill myself etc.

I'm not gona be pretending that I might an hero or that I want to an hero.
I don't even want to be happy.

I just want not to feel this bad.

Fake and gay.

WELL NIGGER YOU CAN ACTUALLY GET YOURSELF TOGETHER BUT THAT DEPENDS ON YOURSELF. ON NOBODY ELSE REALLY. NOBODY GIVES A FUCK JUST LIKE YOU DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT OTHERS IN THAT WAY. AND EVEN IF THEY DO GIVE A FUCK, THEY PROBABLY DONT EVEN KNOW IT.

IF YOU WANNA FEEL THAT FEEL OF PUTTING YOUR DICK IN A GIRL THEN YOU SHOULD WORK ON YOURSELF.

WOMEN DONT JUST LOVE RICH GUYS. WOMEN LOVE MEN WHO GOT THEIR SHIT TOGETHER.

AND YOU CAN GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER.

SO WILL THE REAL MISTER OP PLEASE STAND UP?

GOD DAMMIT NIGGER

AFTER LIFE YOU FUCKIN DIE NIGGER, MIGHT AS WELL LIVE A LIFE YOU LIKE NIGGER.

Still no video link ?!
Damn him and his lies

I might just do all those things when I get some good nights sleep, condition myself not to sleep for 12 hours a day during day time every day.

But I don't know how to just stop drinking again..
I drink EVERY day atleast 4L of beer a day.
just to sort of dumb down my anxiety and be able to just sit at the pc and watch tv shows all day every day

Sadly not fake. that's my life for very long time.
Been depressed this bad since I was 24 when my gf of 4 years slept with my best friend. Now I have no friends whatsoever and I don't trust anyone.

I know, i've known this. But the general feels just made it less clear over time.
Thank you for this. I will really try and get my shit together after today. I really feel like close to rock bottom and I have to just get out and man the fuck up or I will just die alone being a disappointment to myself.

Stop buying it, simple.
My friend was an alcoholic, probably much worse than you and on the verge of dying, he then did IBOGA, a hallucinogenic plant or cactus or whatever. Completely cured. I know it sounds hippie but i am not lying. Iboga, look it up.
So thats an option if its really bad.

>10L of beer

Enjoy the coma.

Maybe go out and talk to some people? Get some human contact... Sounds like it would do you good.

I've heard of it. I might try getting some. But I know if I just man the fuck up and find more hope than i've had lately I could pull it off.

But it's gonna be hard as fucking fuck.

i've been an alcoholic for 11 years, with 11 months sober 2 years back. Alcohol tolerance is high as fuck.. I don't even really get wasted from beer anymore.

I don't really trust strangers and really being an addict for so long I don't know how to actually find new people to socialise with.

that's not actually that much, said he's been up for 36 hours.
>he ded

NIGGER ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME?

YOU DONT NEED TOMORROW. YOU DONT NEED ALL THAT NIGGER. YOU DONT NEED THAT. YOU DONT NEED SHIT TO HOLD ON TO LIKE THAT.

YOU CAN START RIGHT NOW, EVEN IF IT IS JUST SOME LITTLE SHIT NIGGER.

YOU SHOULDNT BE ALL ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS NIGGER.

REAL LIFE EVENTS > REACTION IN MIND > FEELINGS.

THATS HOW FEELINGS ARE MADE NIGGER. NOW DONT TELL ME YOU CANT WIN THE BATTLE WITH THAT NIGGER. YOU KNOW THAT AINT TRUE NIGGER.

GENERAL FEELS? I THINK YOU SUFFER FROM EXCUSITAS RIGHT THERE NIGGER.

U WONT DIE BEING A DISAPPOINTMENT TO YOURSELF.

MAYBE ITS GOOD 4 U TO SEE SOMETHING DIFFERENT FOR FUCKING ONCE NIGGER.

CHALLENGE YOUR IDEAS OF LIFE NIGGER

U CAN START RIGHT NOW NIGGER.

U SOME YEARS ON THIS PLANET NOW NIGGA AND IT AINT TOO LATE TO LEARN NIGGA. YEAH THAT SHIT FUCKED UP IF YOUR WIFEY SLEEP WITH YOUR BEST FRIEND BUT WHO CARES? NOBODY AND YOU ALSO SHOULDNT.

HER CHEATING IS A SIGN THAT THE RELATION WAS FLAWED. BUT THAT RELATION IS DEAD MY NIGGER. BUT YOU AINT DEAD. YOU CAN LEARN NIGGER.

IF YOU DONT WANNA REPEAT THE SAME IN A RELATION AND MAYBE GET SOME PEACE OF MIND ON YOUR LAST EXPERIENCE IN A RELATION.... I SUGGEST U READ "the 5 love languages" IT EXPLAINS A LOT ON THE SHIT OF A RELATIONSHIP. MAYBE U WERENT TRULY HAPPY IN THAT RELATIONSHIP EITHER NIGGER. MAYBE RIGHT NOW U HOLDIN ON TO IT BECAUSE YOU HAVE A TOO POSITIVE IMAGE OF THAT OR YOUR BRAIN ASSOCIATES IT WITH SOME SORT OF TEMPORARY SHORT-LIVING HAPPINESS BACK THEN.

YOU DONT NEED THAT.

Stop drinking first of all. This is not a party, its heartbreak and alcohol wont solve shit. Then take a step back and assess the situation. Every person ive read about on Sup Forums can't get a job because of "mental shit". Like having social anxiety or some other excuse. My advice would be to leave your comfort zone and go get a job or something along those lines. Show her you can function like a person and if you want her back, give it a try. Best of luck user.

So your ex was a fatty?

>2 weeks

You're a casual.

I've not had human contact for 2 and a half years.

I'm gona save this and read it every day. Really comprehensive.

>This is not a party, it's heartbreak
well said.

Yes she was, but sex and my perception of her body was just awesome

I literally havent used my voice to speak to anyone and yeah, could be quite casual in comparison with maybe what some other poor bastard is going through

Its ibogain user. Thats the refined version that it put into gelcaps. Do not taje ibogain alone, do not take it for fun. This will be a serious experience that is/will supposed to be life-changing. Think of it as that. Find an expert if some sort. There is a man from NY that was on the show "drugs Inc." he would go and treat people like heroin addicts with ibogain. Almost everyone finds it effective. Also, ayahuasca is another route but you'd have to travel quite a while to get it. But really, in the right environment almost any psychedelic will make you feel clarity and realize that you dont need alcohol. Find mushrooms/acid(if its real acid) if you must. Im a big believer in these chemical's potential for rehabilitation and understanding.

Take it from me. Changing your sleeping pattern requires you to set an immovable appointment every morning to get up. Whether that's a dead-end job or whatever, you need forceful motivation to get up.

Especially if you have enough money to buy alcohol. That makes it all the harder.

I believe something like that could help

but i'm afraid as fuck of what shit it could bring up from my subconcious.
I've tried Salviax50 extract. those were most hellish 10 minutes of my life. but that was years back and i've been afraid of psychadelics since then

I guess the fact i've been running away from any kind of responsibility does not help at all.
I will try thinking of something to make my immovable appointment every morning. Thanks for the tip.

Man up pussy. Get off your fucking ass and do some shit.

I dont blame you for being afraid. Salvia seems to always take you to hell rather than heaven. Ibogain might not be much better. I wont lie, you might face alot of demons. But those demons are holding you back bro. This alcohol, its holding you back from being a great person. Learn moderation, if anything. If you decide to take the psychedelic route, i bid you good luck. Mushrooms/acid are easier to find but please dont take acid off the streets. 9/10 times itll be an Nbome and being dead is worse than being in your current situation

I'll think about it deffinitely.
I've also been on paxil for 2 years but I quit it when met latest ex because didn't want the sex drive low.

Also been on Seroxat 200mg at most during these 2 years.
am on about 75mg atm
Helps me to pass out when i'm willing. but when i'm this depressed I just power through the initial 3-4 hours and just stop being sleepy.

Sup Forums you've actually helped and given me motivation. I just hope this will persist when I wake up sober some time tomorrow night.

Sorry Seroquel(quetiapine) not seroxat..
English not my first language and meds are called differently.

Well, thanks to everyone who answered, encouraged, and gave advice.
You guys really came through for me.

Anyone else ever done Seroquel(quetiapine) on regular basis?

Booty call, bro. Ask her if she's down for some late night hang out. If you left things amiably, she'll probably be dtf.

I wish, But we havent spoken a word in 2 months. Isn't it like, too late?
Actually 1 or 2 more nights with her might help me get all of my frustrations out and maybe zero out on flaws so I could get over this exact ex...
Or get too much into it, and realise I want to fuck her for the rest of my life.
Kind of a double edged sword

I've never in my life done just a booty call.
How does one even proceed to suggest one?
What to write?