How you holding up, Sup Forums?

How you holding up, Sup Forums?

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It's coming along I guess how about you

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EP release date:
1 January 2017

Everyday I browse this fucking place instead of making music because I have no drive and am a useless lazy primadonna bitch

college. i feel like I'm wasting my time and that I can get a job, no matter how shitty and be fine.

Then get one and get the fuck out so you don't get swallowed whole by debt.

I decided to drop out this semester. I was majoring in computer science, I'm just going to get a random job while continuing to teach myself programming probably.

i'm riding on scholarships at the moment and I have a part time.

In two days I'm starting the hardest semester of school so far in my life. I'm an engineering student and I am working my ass off because I hear all the stories on Sup Forums of people who dropped out and are living in squalor, but I am also depressed because I know I am just working towards starting a family and leading a regular boring ass life. But I'm determined to get my degree regardless.

holy fucking hugbox

just lonely as fuck. i literally dont care about anything right now other than finding a girlfriend who actually likes me
fsdjjfoajo

>people can't talk in a nice and civilized manner

>>>reddit

>trying to cut porn out of my life because of serious addiction
>figure it'll be hard but worth it
>try to masturbate without porn
>what used to take about ten minutes has already taken twenty and not even close to finishing
>near constant pumping and finish after forty minutes
>orgasm is like lightning and actually takes my breath away
>extremely tired after
Still feel really good about not turning to porn just to hurry things up.
>implying /r9k/ is nice
>implying /soc/ is civil

You're probably just new here and think that to fit in you have to repost memes in every post and insult others.

>hurr Sup Forums should always be a place of controversy, judgement and nastiness you're going against the narrative wahhhhhhh

I'm just saying if you people focused a little more on your aoty lists then you wouldnt give a fuck about any of this

see

Music consumption doesn't magically make the feels go away, I've tried. My life has actually gotten noticeably better after I stopped mindlessly consuming to try to get through as many releases as I could and started just trying to get to know what I like better.

I really want to quit my shitty job and start working at a local coffee place close to it. I applied yesterday and haven't gotten a response yet. I want to leave so bad.

Ay I'm trying to quit too. It hasn't been too difficult, except that I can only get off by thinking about my ex

I'm almost 20 and still jobless, just kill me senpai

Dunno about programming, but i did that and without going through the hoops and getting the diploma and stuff, youre gonna fuck yourself over man, just a heads up. Employers are interested in people who go through hoops / shit jobs actually are shit.

I'd rather listen to a great song 100 times than to 100 songs once.

>Employers are interested in people who go through hoops
Yeah, this. Programming is definitely something you can self-learn but employers don't really care about how much you know, they care about how much shit you can take. That's what a degree is really about, letting people know that you can endure four years of shit and come out on top.

>I
found your problem

Yes but you're what happens when you focus too hard on it, you're acting like it's a flaw that I have a sense of humanity.

Wow, what great insight you have there

buddhist pls go

Don't hate the player cause you hate yourself

Truth

I'm 24 and I've only ever actually loved one girl. she was my best friend for years and she dumped me without any kind of explanation. just stopped responding to my calls and messages one day. I haven't seen or spoken to her in over a year. I'm absolutely terrified that I'll never find anything to match that relationship again. the fear lingers in the back on my mind 24/7. can't seem to shake it. I think I may need to see a psych because it's completely debilitating from forming any kind of new relationships.

I'm 27 and jobless. I went through a big week or so of depression and I've decided to stop caring. I have a mental disorder and I get SSI. If someone is willing to hire me that's cool, if not I'll just continue pursuing my hobbies.

I feel guilty towards my family.

I don't know how to interact with them beyond the most cursory conversation. I've spent the last year or so trying to withdraw and detach from others and I don't know how to undo all that when I'm suddenly obligated to.

I feel they are entitled to more than this but I don't know what to give or how to give it.

Beyond that, I'm better than I was a year ago. I don't mind being alone anymore. I imagine the alternative to be just as tiresome, if not more.

I'm just trying to see my plans for the future to fruition.

Dw I do

Here comes trouble.

>I feel guilty towards my family.
>I feel they are entitled to more than this but I don't know what to give or how to give it.

are you me

Kek it's been a long time since untys shown up around here. You should try to be more grateful to your senpai though especially if they feed you,mice you money and a place to sleep, etc. Some of us don't have that shit anymore. Not even baiting. Good to see youre getting better though.

sloughing off alky horse shit

was a dumb cunt and opted out on two studio sessions for some kind of demo reel

new start, gonna shave my balls tomorrow morning and venture out into the new world and make something of myself, one day at a time

Explain.

I am very grateful towards them, otherwise I wouldn't humor them to the extent I already do.

That's what it's all about isn't it
Humoring people, saving face, reassurance. This is why everyone is scared of their own feelings.

>gonna shave my balls tomorrow morning and venture out into the new world
I think outside time is really underrated. I didn't get outside today and I feel like that's the reason I wasn't as productive as I could have been and felt kinda shitty. Fresh air is nice. Thanks for reminding me to shave my balls btw.

Not well! I'm extremely lonely, in debt and have student loans coming in that I can't pay for.

I'm so alone and broken and fucked up at the moment and so depressed that I feel like I deserve to be alone because I have nothing to offer anyone else anyway.

Tapering off my klonopin prescription because I lost my insurance and have no more refills and am doing so like 4 times faster than I should be which is excruciating.

Fantasizing about dying a lot.

Yeah. Feels pretty bad man.

Present an alternative for consideration.

damn that really sucks. you might wanna look into etiz if it gets too much. stay safe my dude

It isn't overrated. When you get outside and smell that air - it doesn't matter if you live next to a dairy farm - you'll feel better.

It's raining here, and even if it isn't tomorrow, that metallic smell in the air will still be there, and it wakes me right the fuck up. Go for it, I am, so you can.

Shave those balls, faggot.

vacations are about to end, my boyfriend is about to leave for like a year due to job shit and ive been told my druggie mother has started stealing pills.

If you wanna kill yourself you should try and ruin people's day. Like grab an axe and murder the priest of a church then shoot your brains out and leave a suicide note saying god made you do it.

/thread

I am the one who steals pills.

Confront her to her face. Tell her how it makes you feel.

It'll help with getting her back on track.

haha, not at all. not holding up at all.

Thanks, appreciate it man.

I think I'm just gonna try to brave it, I've had to kick a lot drug habits in my day and tapering off of something I haven't been abusing ever is pretty easy compared to some of the other shit I've been through. It's just that life is getting pretty stressful.

Also solidly in my mid 20's now (26) and I'm having a weird quarter life crisis and I feel like I'm making myself feel like I'm much older than I am and putting all this pressure on myself to do certain shit. Idk.

I really don't want to be alone either, but I just don't think there's anyone out there that could be accepting of who I am as a person, and I'm not really in a position at the moment where there's much I can really change about my life drastically.

gonna move a thousand miles across the country soon
have to leave behind my bad bitch, best friend
there's not enough lofi esoteric wintery black metal to download and then never listen to in the world for this feel

Not him, but 25 and facing the same shit.

Hang in there. That's all you can do. You quite honestly have nowhere to go but forward.

Ignore the pressure, drive yourself, take the former into account to learn, never to regret.

You won't be alone.

thanks man. Good luck to you yourself as well.

Yesterday I blacked out from rum and sleeping pills and put a plastic tray frozen dinner in the oven (I have a perfectly good microwave) and then went to sleep. I woke up after what was likely a couple of hours of the smoke alarm going off only six feet from my head.

itt: attention whores

I'm in that sort of transient/ethereal state where there's nothing particularly bad or good in my life, but I'm suspended in a constant state of restlessness, vague anxiety, and self-conscious depression, nicely dusted with a sense of directionless futility. I suppose that sums up the state of the majority of those living under the influence of the Western world, but its been particularly strong all month.

More interestingly I've had very brief episodes of what I assume are some kind of hormonal glitch in my brain, where for moments of 30 seconds to 10 minutes at its longest, I have the strongest urge to kill myself. I have no reason for it, and no feelings of despair, but its like this impersonal primal drive for self-destruction take over every last neuron and fill my thoughts with calmly planning the most prompt and painless way to kill myself. So far I've always been lost in planning long enough to not take action, but maybe one of these days I'll do it, despite having no regular desire for it. I'd like to see them try to piece together the crime scene, a man calmly poisoning himself in the middle of making food or slitting his wrists with Sup Forums and some pretentious album still playing, no suicide note or signs of struggle. I'm sure I'd find it amusing at the time.

(you)

you are a potty head