Okay Sup Forums I've always been a lurker, laughing, crying and watching all of you shitpost, but tonight is my first post, and it's a tough one for me.
I'm lonely, Sup Forums. I have been for ten years. My family was abusive, they didn't want me, accept me, try to get to know me, or even bother with me. I was alone for the better part of my childhood, I'm 19 now. My mother, my father, they hate each other and they take their anger out on each other and me as well. I suffer with depression, constant plagues of suicide and five unsuccessful attempts, the earliest at the age of 9. I've been molested twice by the only man that was like a father to me, whom is now dead from lung cancer.
When I was 16 I met a girl, a beautiful girl that made the stars alight and the whispers of happiness grace my ears and possess my soul. We'll call her Lyssa. Lyssa was everything to me. She built me up, made me better, pulled me from the pit that I lived for my memorable life. Her family treated me with respect, they helped me get a job, find a college for me, explore my options for careers and even allowed me to stay with them for awhile. They bought me shoes, clothes, food, glasses, everything I needed but was never provided by those who didn't care.
Lyssa left me, shortly before we were set to leave for college and begin our new lives together. She said it felt like we were settling down, married without the ring, and she wasn't ready. At the time I hated her, and I fell back down into the pit with no crevices in which to crawl out of. However, I left my home, went to college and now here I am. Sophomore year and I'm lonely. No one looks at me, no one sees me, no one talks to me, no one asks about me. I think it's time to leave, maybe whatever next is better than this. There's no one for me, and I've accepted that.
You guys...
Just. You're the best Sup Forumsros, and I love each and every one of you, and I do hope that you all find happiness in this life.