Nearing midnight feels thread

Nearing midnight feels thread.

Tell me about your problem's Sup Forumsro's am here for you.

i just don't want to exist anymore...

should i drink bleach clorhide

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checkd trips. WHat's got you feeling low?

That's dumb, of course you'll gravitate towards something to drink

I am resitting some exams, before my final year at Uni (Integrated Masters in engineering, so will be going into my 4th year after these exams(UK))

I feel more and more inferior, every year that goes on. When my peers and I are presented with the same question, even if we have never seen it before, I will almost certainly be the last to reach an answer. I do try, but it feels like it is just slipping away and no matter what I do I cannot stop the decline.

I feel burnt out, I've started to hate my course and the very idea of Uni. I cannot quit now though as I only have 1 more year left. If I quit now these past 3 years will have been a waste and I could not deal with the stares of dissappointment and the feeling of total failure.

I really am trying.......I just don't know if I have it in me.

I just needed to get it off my chest.

Wish me luck b/ros.

feeling really shit right now m8s. gonna get something to eat ill be back in a lil bit
have some OC poetry for now

The tides define her nature
She is my passion
I am her pleasure
Push and pull

I am her rock
Stationed upon the shore
Her emotion washes over me
Push and pull

My foundation of sand
Swept away bit by bit
Yet I cling to my post
Push and pull

Drawn into the water
Forced upon the beach
I slowly erode
Push and pull

I am her rock
Why can’t she see me?
I sink into the sand
Push and pull

I become smooth
My shell is cold
A dull stone
Push and pull

Battered without regard
I crumble and fade
Becoming one with the beach
Like so many others

not if you sit still. The key is remembering you died. you gotta make it last. stuff like drinking bleach is too quick

thank you for expressing yourself!

good luck Sup Forumsro!

Good luck user

I'm homeless. I'm in a hotel and could be told to leave at any moment

my life. parents expect too much of me. i just don't feel good these last few months. especially these past few days.
if i try to ditch school for a day my mother is fucking angry towards me. always blaming me for shit. im in the last year of high school and don't feel like finishing it successfully.
if i fuck up i'm gonna off myself in another country....

I just took my 2 year old lab back home from the vet. $5000 later and he might have bone cancer or a really bad fungal infection (both are rare in his case). I cant sleep, I cant eat and I have been drinking. I love him as my son and I dont want him to die

Go to a shelter once you do get kicked out and try not to get stabbed

I did. They sent me here and said im not homeless as I have a roof over my head.

why are women such wretched creatures

why can I not stop feeling

I just want to be a drone slaving away at my job for the rest of my life

I wanna die old not giving a shit if my life mattered or if I were alone

because nobody is worth it

>tfw a girl tells you about something a bit fucked up and you think she thinks it's funny
>you play along acting like it's funny
>mfw she found it offensive and not funny at all

Just save yourself the trouble and kill your self now. Don't fool yourself. You know you'll never amount to anything anyway. Just stop trying.

It's a fucking dog you beta faggot. Jesus Christ just off this one and end the suffering and go get a new one you fuck.

If you're in a hotel you're not homeless for now dumbass I'm talking about when you eventually have to leave and have nowhere else to go. I take back the whole don't get stabbed thing, you're an idiot.

Never usually post about myself in these (normally reassuring other anons) but here goes:


>A few months ago broke up with my SO (well, got dumped)
>Felt really shitty at first
>Then felt amazing, best I'd been for years
>Met someone, nothing romantic
>Still speaking to new person, am aware that I really like them
>They are really chill, share my interests, and very beautiful
>Not sure whether to ask them for a date.
>Feel like they'd say no
Here's the kicker.txt
>If they did say yes I'd feel guilty about dragging them into thr bullshit I go through (am depressed/bipolarish)
>Furthermore the idea of physical intimacy beyond a kiss/hug terrifies me

Wat do?

i want to travel a last time before deciding to off myself. i just want to live again, even if it means to die after that. i want to be happy, but can't.

Too weird to live, too confused to die. Wish I could just let the police kill me.

Yeah well you're a pee pee head

You need to go to a shrink you fucking psycho. You're clearly a god damned basket case and attempting to drag anyone into the hell hole of your life should be a crime. Besides anyone worry their salt will realize you're an asshole pretty fast anyway and dump your ass.

Get help.

Ignore the other reply.


I'm sure your dog will be fine, user. If cancer diagnosis is rare then it's unlikely to happen, and fungal infections are treatable. Plus, dogs are fucking tough and will do all they can to stay with you; my dog recently got ran over really bad but she pulled through. In the mean time, love that pupper; it loves you back and even if he dies, nothing can change that.

Fuck you I'm telling my mom

You're a stupid asshole that just likes masturbating egos. A dog is a dog. He can get a new one. The fact that he's a grown ass man crying over a dog speaks more to his mental illness than anything else. He really needs to reevaluate his entire life if he's fixating on a god damn dog so much. He called the dog his "son" did Christs sake. He needs to get a life and let go of this unhealthy shit.

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>Fuck you I'm telling my mom
Ure mum suck me

Only 6 people said happy birthday to me today but you know your boi is okay Sup Forums. Staying up late at night to say happy birthday to family and some friends. But you know dad comes home and what. Go move those supplies to so and so area no fuck a hug right haha. Fuck that shit. Stayed up pate at night to say happy birthday to 3 of you niggas and yall don't even bother when the day is about to end. You know that 20 dollar gift I bought when I really wanted to buy some Xbox live gold and you don't even say happy birthday no I'm good okay your boi happy Sup Forums. No no its fine right? Always tell you happy birthday didn't matter if I was at work or school fuck that. I'm good fam I'm good fam. But you know I always took the time out of my day to say it. Why don't you...
TO HELL WITH THEM

Take it easy, let that process go by itself. If someone can't accept your flaws they can fuck off. You are a nice person, user. You deserve the love of someone

Ah oh shit I didnt even realize there was a feels thread already, woops I made another. Ah it'll 404 anyway, well I drove away my last friend just a couple minutes ago.

I've already been on a course of CBT which helped. My negative moods have backed completely off of late, though this current one is work-related. I just worry that they'll get bad again and it's not fair to put someone through that, as I've been put through hell before by a depressed partner and it sucked.

I have been trying to improve myself of late; been exercising, socialising more consistently and reading more. I want to be in a good place so that I could be a good person to be with.

Make the conscious choice in my head that my relationship needs to end soon, I like women too much to be bound to one girl for the rest of my life

>she too wants to leave me
>so we break up after being separated for a month(vacation but we live together otherwise)
>I'm home for 10 minutes and we're over
>feel fantastic, best I have in a year
>she feels fantastic too, which at first is nice but then it starts getting me depressed
>I'm living alone in a new city while she's out having the time of her life with her friends and probably new flame but I dunno
>start feeling really depressed about how well she is, we still loved eachother like hell and I was supposedly someone shed had a crush on for half a decade
>yet she moves on so easily
>fight the urge to try to win her back because even if hugging her and snuggling binder the pillow and kissing my loneliness away, I know it wouldn't last because I want to meet different women and have different experiences
>make plans to move out of the country to be with relatives with a minimum of a few months but could become permanent
>basically just waiting for days to go by now until I can Go, one of my cousins has a personality similar to mine he's just a tad more nerdier than I and his also pretty (game nerdy btw) will probably try to fix me up with one or their friends, they did for his sister why not me. Can't wait for that, but until then I'm still laying her thinking about my ex

Fuck sake, and his wife is also nerdy*** just woke up

Just leave off, man. He loves hid dog, I love mine. That's normal. Animals are companions,and when they die it's fucking sad. They're not just some "thing" you get another of. Lumping on the mental illness label realky makes you feel better about your own lack of empathy doesn't it?

You already have your answer faggot. You know the right thing to do. Don't drag this seemingly good person into your mess of a life. Keep them at arms length and get your shit together you psycho. You can't possibly be good for anyone in your current condition and you know it.

Your writing is incomprehensible, work on it

Happy birthday

No, I'm just not a self righteous asshole that gets off on lying too people and masturbating egos to make myself feel important like you clearly are. The guy has an unhealthy obsession that he needs to let go of ASAP if he wants any semblance of balance in his life. Your feeding into his delusion helps nobody.

I have been for a while now, but it feels like the time to do something more... decisive? I'm just worried about my flaws causing them problems and hurting them. In short, I don't want to do what my ex did to me. You are a good person also, user. Thank you.

Life sucks and then it gets worse.

I keep waiting for the day that it gets easier but it always seems to get harder.

I'm going to keep trying until it does.

idk what to do m8s

in love with my sexy best friend
told her how i feel, makes her feel like shit & uncomfortable due to circumstances
we've had sex before, i know she is attracted to me
she broke up w/ emotionally abusive bf last week
stayed by her through a lot of painful shit
got tickets to a rave for her bday a few weeks ago
coming up next friday
tells me i should find some girl to hook up with when we get there
fucking cold sweat. have taken a female friend to a rave with the idea we might hook up before and watching her make out with other guys ruined the whole night for me, and i didn't like her NEARLY as much as i like this girl
i don't want to date her right now, she needs time to sort her shit out i get it
but i want her to see me as a man
she left about an hour ago
said she was "tired" but i know its cuz she thought i was hitting on her
idk what else to say, help me out guys

Good luck Sup Forumsro
You still have that spark of hope, don't let it die out ever. Please don't end up like me.

>aquire depression at the age if 12
>become introverted through school
>center of popularity scale=no real friends
>always wanted a woman to love
>pray for her to come day after day
prom

Anyone interested?

I'm in high school and take some engineering classes. When it comes to secondary education (collage) i got no clue where to go. Even now i feel more and more inferior but I am passionate about what I do, keeping me going. Good luck man, and hey, at least you are coming up with an answer at all.

I'm not lying, or replying, for my fucking benefit. It's friendly reassurance for a guy who's going through a tough time. You're implying a lot of negative shit about this dude's life that you can't possibly know. You're assuming he has no balance in his life but how do you know? He just loves his dog and his dog makes him happy. That's all there is to it; no 'mental disorder' in there.

It is said that when your life drops to its lowest point, then there's no way to go but up. But I don't know where the lowest point is

continue pls

Happy birthday my brother. I don't have the slightest fucking clue what you're on about, but I wish you the best.

>just bought a $150 professional grade knife set
>got the package in the mail during the morning
>so fucking excited, kept all the wrapping on it to show to my boyfriend when he gets home
>kept it nice and clean all day long
>he comes home
>i get excited and show it to him
>he grabs the butcher knife, rips off the plastic sheath, and rips off 3 rivets from the carrying case
>tfw you only had one nice thing in this entire apartment that he hadn't fucked up yet
>he comes home and fucks it up in less than 5 minutes

His fucking brother ruined my pots too. Who the fuck tries to cut a piece of meat while ITS STILL ON THE STOVE, IN A TEFLON PAN!? The feels come in when I was constantly ignored by both of them the entire time he lived with us. His brother also killed my 4 year old plecostamus too, because he ignored me when I told him how to properly clean a fucking aquarium. It was a foot long freak of nature, the only thing I had to comfort me through my last horrific breakup that made me homeless.

Female romantic company isn't all there is to life. Plus, if you're 17 then life's just beginning for you. When you leave high-school all the "popularity" shit becomes meaningless and you'll find real friends. Finish school, go out, socialise, make friends, maybe even move to a new town. Live life.

>Based Radiohead

Everytime I want to catch a small bit of happiness, it runs away from me at full speed

same

Try watching Bojack horseman it's weird and takes a few episodes to get into but it's like a feels thread animated

Recently the girl I've liked for months became my girlfriend, I got nudes today, and we're planning on having sex soon. Feels good.

Why must people be dicks when they don't understand another's opinion or feelings?

Crude but effective

Are you in a relationship with this girl or what user?

>won $20K in disability backpay when I couldnt go back to work
>my boyfriend quits his job to be a writer
>i foot rent and all the bills for 9 months while he plays video games and refuses to write a goddamn thing
>im struggling to keep the last $2K afloat because I paid off that apartment, rented a car, paid for POD storage, and moved our entire household from Florida to Colorado with 0 financial help from him
>when we get here, he gets a job shoveling fertilizer out of desperation
>his brother asks him "so you're just shoveling shit all day long?"
>while his brother is fucking homeless living out of his car
>my boyfriend wakes up the next day and quits his job because of what that faggot said

I've got so many fucking stories, and I shitpost them here because I can't tell him any of this. He feels horrendous about all of it, but he let his entire family and friends walk all over me when I moved from TX to FL to be with him. No friends, no family, and when I get there he just sits back and lets everyone treat me like total shit for 3 years, without standing up for me the entire fucking time.

Nice man. Your situation feels remotely similar to one i had. Mine didn't go over as well though. Happy someone is doing well though.

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>at prom
>soc awk
>dont dance
>manage to tell crush she looks nice
>tells me the same
>talk
>goodtime
>sit alone during last song
>leave
>cry night away
>loser
>think of girl
>see girl at track
>girl and I flirt occasionally
>butterflies 24/7
>god has answered my prayer
>ask her out

thanks, i know my technique is kind of shit

i amits really complicated

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Sads. Hope it's better now.

why do you put up with it?

Ask her out
After your first date, if it goes well, tell her what you just told us that you're afraid your mental state might be an issue and that you want to take it slow
If she's as chill as you seem to believe she'll take it in board and give you get thoughts on it
If not you can both agree to go on as you had before, once date won't change anything, especially if you're already hanging out a bit

Disclaimer: I mean date as in something low key, a simple dinner together in a nice restaurant, nothing over the top or romanticised

Beat advice I can give you user, honesty us nearly always the best way about these things

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I also paid over $1200 getting our new apartment set up too. Paid at least $800 when we first got here, for AirBnBs. There is nothing worse than being broke all your life, then suddenly getting a windfall like that, having so many ideas of how to get a new car, go back to school, plan for your future and all of that...

just to watch it slowly drain away because he refuses to work anymore. I couldn't say anything because when I first moved out there he supported me while I waited to get approved. I didn't stand up for myself, and now all of that money is gone. I'll never see that much in my account ever again, and now I resent him for it. He completely shattered the image of who I thought he was, and now I feel like I'm taking care of a fucking toddler who doesn't even shower on a regular basis.

Fuck you. You are human scum. Go off yourself you degenerate.

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I can't get boners from porn anymore...

Guilt. When I first moved out there, I couldn't work and I had no income to help out. He had a job, but it wasn't enough to support the both of us since the cost of living in FL is fucking ridiculous. I just figured this was paying him back for everything he had to sacrifice to make sure I got down there. He maxed his credit cards out, but we never had the money to pay them back so technically I ruined what little credit score he had. My family keeps telling me the two scenarios are incomparable, but I have no way of knowing for sure.

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what have you been watching?

>not doing something because you're scared

Enjoy your life, faggot

Thank you, user. I just might have to do this; disclaimer is noted, I'm not one for OTT dates, I much prefer nice places for conversations.

incest, bdsm... the usual :/

I was in a very similar situation at the start of last year user, I'm sorry mate but it didn't end up with us in eachothers arms...

The best advice I can give you given the information you've given me is to do what you've both said, give her time and try find a hot girl at this rave, she'll grow out of getting into relationships with shitty guys in a few years or so, in the meantime you should try find someone that makes you relatively happy, it'll help get your mind off her and you never know, your girl might get jealous

My ex girl and I broke up a few days ago. We've been together for over a year and it was the longest relationship I've ever had. I'm moving away to go to uni, and she's staying in our hometown, trying to figure things out and save some money and whatnot. It was a mutual break up but it's still difficult as hell. Should I have pushed her to try the long distance? Did I make the rights decision? Everyone I know told me that I did and that long distance is hell but I miss her so fucking much

Leave him as fast as you can. Aside from whether you owe him or not, you're not helping him by taking care of him. Quite the opposite, as long as you'll two be together nothing will change. You'll be miserable, he'll be miserable. Stories like these always only end happily if the person taking care mans up and leaves.

Don't think of it as 'having' to do it, think of it as 'getting' to do it user, a little mental attitude swap like that can go a long way, believe me

Good luck either way man, I wish there was a way I could find out how it goes for you in the end

and even that's not working anymore?

I honestly don't know. I suppose there have to be people who are so justified to actually get anything done. Most people meet who are 'strong' in their opinions are often really pragmatic whereas more 'flexible' people tend to be dreamers/air-heads like myself. Balance, I guess.

Anyone in the Twin Cities, MN area that has a place I could crash at for a couple nights?

nah, fml, the shit gets boring after a while...

I can't. He's the love of my life and I'm fucking retarded I guess. Its too long a story and you don't care but he already has changed a lot since we started dating. I guess I just miss the person I thought he was, and ultimately I guess that's my mistake. He is who he is, not who I thought or wanted him to be.

what kind of music do you like?

Don't listen to this guy just video tape it

Try your hardest not to wank for a week, don't look at porn etc.
When you can't stand it anymore just watch vanilla porn, I promise you you'll pop in seconds
Keep trying to nofap, beat personal records and see how long you can go without a wank, your Johnson will thank you for it

People really underestimate the damage porn can do to your sexual health

Take it from me, long distance is very hard and in my case it didn't work. As it was mutual, this is a perfectly reasonable reaction. Go to Uni, have fun, get educated and come back in a few years' time. If you're both single, give it a go; if you meet someone at Uni then so be it. Just sit on things a while, and have fun at fresher's.

i know that's what i should do, its just hard
i guess i'm just gonna do a fucking shitload of drugs before i go and whatever happens happens

Heavy metal, rock, traditional stuff... why?

You'd be missing her more if it was long distance user, trust me, that shit is the fucking worst

You did the right thing.

right now, you need to listen to something to soothe your soul, maybe even feel alive. take yourself to a different place. it'll help you focus on this problem.

hmmm that does sound plausible... i might even get that extra 20mins of sleep i love every night tbh

I'll take that on board haha.


That's the beautiful tragedy of anonymous imageboards, user. We can't know what will happen after a thread, but we can know we've done something to at least try and help. Honestly, thank you user and godspeed.

>been very close to suicide at least 10 times in last 3 years

>two failed attempts

> 6 times bottled it

> 2 times only thoughts

mfw glad didn't go through with it. No matter how bad you feel for those moments weather fleeting or for a year. It doesn't last. Don't act on the impulse lads.

while wanking? Or just daily/casually