I am truly fucked Sup Forums

I am truly fucked Sup Forums.

The day I've been dreading has arrived.

>be me
>diagnosed with Severe Social Anxiety Disorder (SAD) and Depression.
>dropped out of college last year b/c I couldn't fucking speak to anyone
>still living at home with mum
>"user, you have to start college this year or I'm kicking you out. I'm not going to let you waste your life"
>Ohfuckherewego.jpeg
>Enrol at a college near me
>anxious ever since, panic attacks daily, can't eat, sleep, constant thoughts racing, feeling sick ect
>have to start a college with hundreds of students that I don't know tomorrow

I really don't know what to do. I'm so tired of this anxiety that I'm actually considering ending it. This is not going to end well. I told my mother that I'm thinking of ending it and of course she cried but I CANNOT put up with this shit anymore. I was done months ago. Now I feel like I'm playing out the final days of my life. I do not know how I'm gonna get through the next few days.

If you have any advice to give me I would appreciate it. I'm so desperate to find a way to end this anxiety and I really can't find any way out but to end it.

>inb4 "other people have worse problems than you"
In all honesty I don't give a fuck about anyone else right now. I'm trying to focus on fucking not giving in to my own temptations.

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Self bump plz help :(

Guys your age used to invade countries, storm castles, rise empires. And you are too pussy to go to school, just kill yourself faggot.

Hold me in your arms and cry, user

>Implying you know my age.
I was kinda hoping for something to prevent me from doing that but thanks I guess

I'm in the same boat you're in mate except I got hospitalized and won't be kicked out of my home. Been a NEET for a year now
Look up the rate of suicide among war veterans ffs

You're building it up. Stop putting people on a pedestal. Chill your shit. You will fuck up, you will embarrass yourself. Life goes on.

pop some xanax faggot

Face your dread, admit you're evil, attack the normie enemies with smart tier burns.

>24
>Diagnosed SAD and Manic Depressive
>Still living at home with mum
>"user holy shit you're getting a degree in December"
>Plan to go full time to a university going for a chem degree
>Started lifting, feels alpha as fuck

OP make a change, you can feel good and not be a total botch (not that you are yet). this isn't about them, its about you and only you. Professors are smart and understand people have issues, just go to every class and talk to your damn teachers (through email if you need)

Yeah so what's your age?
Literally in ancient times men all ages participated in war, unless you are above 40.
In that case if you are living with your parents just kys
You guys are like the tumblr SJW being crybabies for fake disorders and society just enable your mediocrity.
Be a man, hate everyone, get fit, fuck bitches

it doesn't get better, OP. i've been this way for years and years. suffered through college, got married, got a brain tumor from stress, now disabled and still bad, but don't want to hurt my wife by killing myself. wish I would've an heroed back before I had to worry about someone else.

don't be me, OP, just kill self now instead of making it worse for yourself.

also, this is Sup Forums so i'd be remiss if i didn't ask you to stream it.

fucking retard, go to the doctor they will give you paroxetine or another SSRI. that will kill your anxiety you wont feel emotions, so you will overcome your anxiety and depression

Stop being a fucking pussy and talk to people, its pretty simple, get the fuck off this website for starters, go outside, get some hobbies ya cunt.

When you get to college, nobody's gonna try to kill you. Dude, you're afraid of people. That's it. Don't let your fear kill you off. Pop some bars. Tell your mom that you won't go without a large Xanax prescription. Worked for me. It cuts away all the anxiety and makes it tolerable.

Anxiety doesn't stop, you just learn to cope. Also meds help.
As for school, take online courses, less human contact, you spend a few hours out of the house a few times a week and pretend you've been going to classes

...

It dosen't work like that on the NHS. I have to go through a doctor which then goes through my psychiatrist which has to put it to the mental health doctor. I have an appointment about meds on the 16th.I don't think I can hold on that long. I've tried prozac before but it didn't do shit apart from make me aggressive and impulsive (lol just my luck right? I get given meds and they make me worse)

If it was as easy as talking to people I would have fucking done it by now. It's pretty hard when you try to speak to people but you're so fucking scared that your entire sentence comes out backwards and u end up looking fucking autistic.

First of all clean your bedroom and your fucking desk, second thing, do not give a single fuck about the other, you are here for your degree, if someone push your shit, hit him, if you can't, start lifting, if have to take meds, then do it
Remember
YOU ARE HERE FOR A FUCKING DEGREE
Does the degree care if you have PTSD ? No
Does your mom care for her son ? Fucking yes, don't disappoint her user, she's trying all of her to make you walk on the right path, will you fuck that up again ?
I hope not.
Can't get out of 4chin ?
Browse different board, not this hellhole
I hope you read that to end
TL;DR: DO NOT CARE ABOUT THE OTHER, YOU ARE HERE FOR YOUR DEGREE

I wish I could take online courses. But I don't think there is any for the qualifications I want and if there is its gonna cost thousands of £s (which I don't have).

This pretty much, just start being an alpha, dont give a fuck about others, start exercising etc

>It dosen't work like that on the NHS
I understand that you are american and dont have free healthcare system like civilizated countries.

In my country I went to the specialized doctor and told me the same diagnosis as yours. he gave me xanax and paroxetine. xanax do the trick in short term. paroxetine does something in your brain that you wont have anxiety again, and you will feeel less depressed because you wont feel emotions

then work out your social habilities, give speeches, etc.

we are all gonna make it bro

Well whats the worst thing that can happen? A couple of people will think youre a wierdo, big fucking deal, just tell them to fuck off and go on with whatever youre doing

Do some crazy shit:
>Experience what it's like to be at the top of the food chain by butchering a stray doggo or a cat.
>Go to a club and pretend to be a completely different person (different name, interests, clothes), get mildly drunk and approach people.
>Set a forest on fire because fuck it!
>Throw a glass jar of piss at a pack of niggers.

NHS = National Health Service

It is one of the worlds oldest and most notorious universal healthcare systems. Please educate yourself before posting.

You dont even have problems you fucktard
ITT conditions that do NOT fucking exist.

literally this, 0,25 an hour before school and trust me, you'll be golden.

if it's really bad, start with 0.5.

I like where this is going

wow, you have discovered that the world doesnt speak english. We dont have to know the meaning of every initial. You are not the center of the world,faggot. please educate yourself before posting.

This has surprisingly made me feel a bit better. Thank you user

Online college?

It's a middle ground between your mom wanting to go to college, and you not wanting to go out.

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Well, firstly you were a retard to assume the guy you were responding to was American.

Secondly, if you really wanted to know what the NHS was, all's you had to do was google the three letters "NHS".

Here, I did it for you:

lmgtfy.com/?q=NHS

Your life sound so similar to mine that it's scary. I know the pain you must be feeling.
By now I'm on the 3rd year of college, and as far as my experience go, the sad truth is anxiety never goes away.
The first semester was hell for me, I used to go to my campus ready for classes, see all the people there, turn around and go home.
I considered ending it too, turned to drugs, took medication. And in one point touched rock bottom, started hating every aspect of life. That's when I gave up on any hope of getting better, I stopped trying to be like everyone else. After that school didn't bothered me, I kept completely to myself, the world was still there but I ignored all of it.
Pretty soon realized that I could interact with people, I didn't gave a fuck anymore. With the pass of time I made friends, soon I had girls trying to spend time with me.
By now, I guess I'm happy. I'm like everyone. Sometimes I still start shaking when walking into a party, but it goes away as soon as I remember I gave up on trying so hard to not be like this.

I honestly agree. But if we do not have his problems maybe we can't understand.

discord invite: 44nHH
unpopular opinion: you pussies wont join and spam this and if you dont your mother dies in her sleep tonight..

You welcome now go hug your mom and tell her you love her very much, I believe she went through a lot of shit and she need that.
Also find a hobby, myself I paint miniatures(Warhammer 40k) and it help me venting off the stress.

kek

OP here.
I commend you for having the courage to carry on and I'm glad you're somewhat happy now. I know deep down that this isn't going to go away any time soon. I can relate to you so much. I used to walk out of lessons all the time. I guess it was some type of flight response. I haven't done anything with my life for the past 9 months since I left. The amount of times I have left the house in that time can be counted on two hands.

These 9 months have to have been my rock bottom. I want to make this work more than anything. For my mums sake and for mine too. The social anxiety is the only thing between me and my qualifications and I can't fucking get over it. I will try hard. I will give it a full semester. Hopefully I end up like you. If not then expect a live stream here I guess.

Goodjob for fighting with it.

Have you tried MMJ?

Make your mom proud of you user

Drink vodka if you cant find benzos. Thats the only way i leave the house

man, this way or another you can make it your time. Not everybody goes to college a normie or a chad. While normies constitute like +/-80% of the student body, chads are relatively rare and there's gonna be a lot of messed up people like you on their quest for self discovery.
Don't shut in, you've gonna make a fool for yourself, but who cares?
You'd regret things you didn't do more than the most stupid shit you did... well, maybe apart from shooting smack. Don't shoot smack.

the key to fighting anxiety is to give 0 fucks.......Put on yo earphones and listen to some music.....you dont have to make friends, you dont have to please anyone........be yourself, and even if you dont know who "you" are, fuck it....youll find out soon enough!

Xanax....boom ur welcome

op similar situation.

i got diagnosed with the same thing yet i have a mild asbergers and was bullied by professors because of it.

got kicked out of school because i fucked against the prof who was tryin to hardcore fuck me over by trying to disprove PEMDAS

she was saying it can be EPMDAS and i flipped my shit because it's straight insanity

whatever you end up doing, understand that professors are pure evil, and think they are a god.

just watch out man, be very careful

smoke some herb and do yoga, you'll be alright

Fuck Op's mom, Op just live your life, get trough college, make some friends, not many just a few good ones you can spend time with during breaks and whatnot or maybe going somewhere after classes. with a college degree just find a job move the fuck out of your mother's house and all will be better.

What is PEMDAS and EPMDAS ,user?

At least your mum still loves and cares enough about you to push you in the right direction. Shouldn't have told her that you're suicidal though, I've made that mistake with my mother and I doubt she'll ever stop worrying. Anxiety is just something you have to face, it's nasty but it'll get worse faster and faster if you don't at least try.

Underage bait?

I feel so bad for telling her but she needed to know how bad it is. I don't think anyone in my family grasps how severe my SAD is.

Listen to music.

Nah just yuropoor

Do you feel the same way around animals? It might sound weird but try going to a zoo sometime.

It's the order of solving a math problem.

>Parenthesis

>Exponents

>Multiplication and Division

>Addition and Subtraction

You're weak. Don't reproduce.

Oh okay
Also checked

Stupid argument. OP needs to man up, but he's no different than many men

No. I love animals and want to become a vet which is why i need college so bad.

fucking perfect post

>not just dropping out
Admit it OP it is the only viable solution for you. Fuck your mum. She will deal with it.

>A pack of niggers

I'm surprised the creator of that pic was able to spell correctly given how fucking retarded that argument is.

Just get an accounting degree, or an associates for hvac or electrician. There are guaranteed jobs for people that have those designations. They aren't too demanding if you just do shit in school. Also when you have a more specialized major, there aren't that many people in your classes. Sure the 100 level classes will have a few hundred students, but once you get into the program, it's all in one building and there are only like 50 kids in a class. Hang in there buddy.

>th-th-thats dumb!
Prove it wrong then.

I'm still living with my parents at 22, its pretty good life imo.

>got a part time job
>pay escort every week for sex
>can buy anything I want without having to worry about bills
>play games rest of my days

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Remember that whatever emotion you ever feel, it always blows over eventually. I recommend you just try to think about things, and do things that make you calm, or alteast something akin to it. Just focus on yourself and your wellbeing, and try to seek and get any help you can. Life's a bitch, but death it has it's benefits, unlike death. You can do it OP, I believe in you, you magnificent faggot.

do 4 grams of shrooms

SAD stands for seasonal affective disorder, faggot

Sup Forums's over

Your mum is a fucking bitch OP.

You try to explain her why what are your problem and she doesn't give a shit about it.

Try to leave your house & get a job asap

Fuck you eurocuck, the nhs isnt an american institution.
Its in the UK.
God damn you are stupid.

Went full retard on that one sentence, but my point still stands.

try to fade out the people in your mind. there's no obligation to interarct with anyone but the teacher.

Unrelated, do you have more of that webm

i would say kys but your mother seems like a good person and you would just hurt her so don't

If you're not a dumb cunt, you could try writing novels / short stories. You don't have to talk to anyone, it's productive and if your shit is good you can even get it published and earn some money.

Feel you Sup Forumsro, i am pretty much in the same case, but i got a night job and live on my own, first solve the problem of panic attacks, if you get rid of dem it's a bit easier to manage